Enchanted Mind of the Blackbird
Chapter Fifteen:
My Reasoning
The sky was gray, it was cloudy, there was a layer of mist forming, and all in all it was dismal. It seemed as the mood in Titans Tower was affecting the weather in the city they were supposed to protect. Word had gotten around in the criminal world that the Titans were down by one and they were using it to their full advantage. To the Titans it felt like the amount of work had double over night; more and more criminals were getting away, there were more breakouts... Clearly the Titans were losing their grip. And things weren't so hot behind the doors of the tower either. Robin and Raven would argue then disappear; it seemed like the longer they fought the longer they were gone. Cyborg had distanced himself, usually hanging around in the workshop/garage or in his room. And Beast Boy? He was usually in his room, somewhere with Cyborg, in the workout room, outside on the training field or up on the roof like now. Pretty much anywhere the other two Titans weren't. He wasn't mad, well okay he was pissed at the whole situation, but he was more disgusted than anything. Neither he nor Cyborg could figure out why Rae and Rob kept doing what they were doing and not feel guilty enough to stop. They had no doubt it was some lust thing, but it came out of nowhere.
He took a drag on his cigarette and then looked down at it, blowing the smoke out at the same time, as if he were trying to figure out exactly how the cancer stick had found its way between his fingers. It really was no mystery; he'd taken up the habit to keep himself calm when things got to be too much inside the Towers walls.
Now came the next question: why was he so mad with Robin and Raven? Well, one: he liked Raven, a lot, and it wasn't his idea of fun to come back into the real world to find the two making out. Then there was the whole thing with Starfire. Robin didn't seem to care enough that the alien princess had departed from the group. Pretty much he was just mad at them both because he liked Raven and he didn't even get a chance to do anything about it. And they were messing up the peaceful order that had worked so well since the group had first started. And it was supposed to be Robin and Starfire, not Robin and Raven. He knew they liked each other from the start.
Raven sighed and stared out the window at the setting sun that was just barely visible behind the dark clouds. She had messed this up. It was never supposed to go down like this. Right now she was supposed to be in the living room with her friends- all five of them- and eating pizza and throwing annoyed glances at the green changeling. She wasn't supposed to be locking herself up in her room just to keep her hands off the boy wonder, who in turn was doing the same.
Their attachment itself was a mystery. She had gone through it several times in her head trying to figure out how it had gotten so bad. It started out with her not having complete control over her emotions due to an uninvited visit by the animal boy. It wasn't his fault either. While she didn't have complete control on the inside, she most certainly could control her actions. She had chosen to kiss Robin that first time. Of course she was psychic, but she couldn't tell the future. How was she supposed to know that little action would mess things up that badly? It was only meant to be a one-time thing. But maybe the problem was herself, but it was the boy wonder's.
After all, she kept pushing him away after that, but he just kept coming. Even after they got caught he still came after her. And they had been arguing too.
She turned to Robin just after Starfire and Beast Boy left the tower and gave him a glare. He looked guilty, angry, and upset. She couldn't tell who those emotions were directed at, well she knew he felt guilty and was probably upset, but the anger... she didn't know.
"See what you've done?" She said venomously, struggling to keep her voice even. She did not want that to have happened. Robin turned his head towards her slowly and although she was unnerved by the look on his face she didn't budge from where she stood.
"So you're blaming this on me?" He spat, clearly angry by what just happened. She still didn't know what the subject of his anger was, but found she didn't care. She would not be blamed for this little mishap. Though it was anything but little.
"No, but you didn't exactly make it any better. You men all the same, you never take no for an answer. What I did was stupid, but what you did was even stupider. I mean were you even thinking about Starfire's feeling when you kept coming after me?" She touched a nerve and she knew it. Robin's scowl deepened and he opened and closed him mouth several times, clearly at lose for what to say. It was silent, just the two of them trying to stare the other down, then Robin broke the silence and what he said completely caught her off guard.
"And were you thinking about Beast Boy?" He asked, a small victory smile was fighting to form on his lips. She said her mantra in her head and threw him out of her room, slamming the door closed behind him.
So why were they making out again shortly after?
She left her room to apologize, Robin had done the sameBut the words never came out, instead they were making out again. The whole thing had Raven confused. She felt nothing for him. Her frustration was so bad that she lost control and a nearby statue broke.
This was stupid. It was stupid to begin with, but everything that had happened afterwards was just making things even stupider.
Raven blinked and her eyes fell on the window, the sun had set and the trouble would begin. Some crime would be committed, the Titans would go out, battle the offender, lose return to the tower, argue, and then go do their own thing. It was like they had a schedule. And as if on cue, the towers alarms had gone off.
The Titans had done just that. They went out, battled, lost, came back, argued, and Raven was in her room again. She saw Beast Boy make his was up on the roof again, lighting up a fresh cigarette- she honestly didn't know why he'd suddenly picked up the unhealthy habit- Robin went off to his room and Cyborg stayed in the living room. Things were really falling apart without Starfire. The team just wasn't cooperating as well as they once had been. Robin's order meant nothing to Beast Boy, Raven disagreed with everything he said and all in all he just wasn't making the right choices. He was getting sloppy, almost careless; she was beginning to think Robin was losing the will to lead them. It was sad really when she thought about it.
Although, the others, herself included, weren't doing that great either. They were fighting half heartedly, not even close to what he could do. They were making bad plans of actions, doing the wrong moves at the wrong times... it was no wonder why they kept losing every other battle. In fact, they were doing so poorly it was amazing that they weren't dead yet.
Beast Boy sat on the edge of the roof, quietly smoking his cigarette, musing about the battle they had just lost. Maybe the future Starfire had seen would really come to pass. Their teamwork was becoming almost non-existent. If they didn't fix that one of them could end up dead. Okay... maybe that was a little extreme, but maybe it wasn't. Things had to change... and fast. Their lives and future depended on it. As cliché as that sounded it was true.
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