SM: This is the third part of the "You don't deserve him!" series.

Name: Trust!

Couple: Manta x Ren x Horo

At Yoh's

Horo sat still in his room. From anyone that looked into his room they would question if he was breathing. His fist was still clutching the engagement ring tightly. In some way he thought that it was all he had left of his koi, even though he gave it to him. He had sat in the hall crying for an hour before Yoh found him and helped him to his room. Horo had ran out of tears, he wanted Ren to come in and tell him that it doesn't matter, that he was just upset and he will still marry him. He wanted to be held by Ren. He just wanted Ren to be with him. Horo was still unsure as to where they stood with each other. His hand was covered in dried blood and whenever he tried to move his hand it cracked and sent waves of pain flooding throughout his hand and arm.

He didn't know what to do. He had arguments with Ren; he had fought with him and had done countless stupid things that got Ren mad at him. Yet none of them had been as damaging as a few words from Manta and an awkward scene. What could he do to make Ren trust him again? What could he do to make Ren happy? He didn't even care that he was completely miserable, sure he wanted to get Ren back but that wasn't what was making him the most depressed. He saw the hurt look in Ren's eyes when he thought he couldn't trust Horo anymore. He had never wanted to cause Ren pain. He just wanted Ren to be happy. Was leaving Ren alone going to make him happy? Had he proposed too soon? If Manta had never said the lie to Ren and they had gone through with the wedding would Ren have been happy with him?

Horo looked over at a picture on his bedside table. It was of him and Ren; they where in a park, Horo was leaning against a tree with Ren sat in front of him, his arms were snaked around Ren's waist and pulling them together. They were both smiling happily, even Ren which in itself was a miracle. Horo smiled as he looked at the picture of Ren before he felt a stinging sensation in his eyes. Usually looking at a picture of Ren made him happy however at that moment he couldn't stop thinking of the pain he was causing him.

Maybe it would be better if I wasn't alive? Horo thought sadly. That way I wouldn't cause Ren any pain by having to look at me. He looked at the wall averting his eyes from the picture.

A timid knock came from the door. Horo barely heard it; he was immersed in his own depressing thoughts. The knock came again then was followed by a voice. "Horokeu?" Horo looked away from the wall and grimaced at Ren's voice. "Horokeu are you busy? We need to talk."

"It's open." Horo replied unwillingly, even if he told Ren not to come in he would anyway.

The door opened and Ren walked in and closed the door after him. "We need to talk." He repeated. "I know I was hard on you earlier and I've been thinking about it."

Horo looked down at his hand, Ren followed his gaze and gasped at the sight of Horo's blood coated hand. He ran up to him and examined his hand. He ran back to the door and exited. A minute later he returned with a bowl of water and a cloth, he knelt in front of Horo carefully. "What happened?" He asked nervously as he dipped the cloth into the water and wet the blood so he could open Horo's hand with as little pain as possible.

Horo didn't answer and looked away as Ren tried to sort out hiss hand. Ren kept on wetting the blood until he managed to get Horo's hand open, when he saw the bloody mess of the engagement ring he looked up at Horo. His eyes were wide with sympathy. Ren lowered his head again and gingerly extracted the ring from the gash in Horo's hand. The older boy gasped and clenched his teeth in pain. "Sorry." Ren apologised guiltily.

Horo shook his head. "It's not your fault Ren." He admitted. "It was mine. I shouldn't have proposed yet. We weren't together for that long and it was silly of me to expect us to get married I just raised my own hopes. Then they got destroyed just as easily as I made them."

"Weren't?" Ren asked slowly. He pulled off a piece of bandaging that he had wrapped around his arm. "So you want to break up with me? I'm sorry that I left you in the hall like I did." He said even slower, thinking over how to put his words. "I didn't let you explain. But I understand if you want to break up with me. It's just that I don't think we should get married yet."

The older boy looked down at the younger. He smiled at how softly the bandage was being tied on. "Ren, I love you. I don't want to break up with you." Horo used his un-hurt hand to lift up the Tao's chin so they could look into each others eyes. "I want to be with you forever." Horo gently pressed their lips together.

Ren smiled softly when they parted. He finished tying up Horo's hand and then sighed getting up. "Horokeu I came in here to say sorry and I have." Ren looked at the door sadly. "I promised Manta that I would go for a walk with him. I'll see you later."

Horo instantly stood up. "I am not going to let you go anywhere with him." He yelled angrily. "Manta isn't as innocent as everyone says he is. I swear to you Ren he is no good." He managed to calm himself slightly. "Manta is nothing but a fraud."

The Chinese boy watched Horo sceptically. "I still don't know what to think of what happened today Horokeu." He said reluctantly. "So I wouldn't know if Manta is a fraud and no good. But I do know that I promised him I would go with him, and Tao Ren never breaks a promise." Ren turned around, walking to the door.

However he came to an abrupt halt when he heard a soft voice behind him. "Like the promise that you will never leave me." Horo said quietly. "You promised that you will always love me, that we will be together no matter what, and that you will trust me."

"I do still love you . . ."

"You said you will trust me!" Horo cried. "I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T ANYMORE!"

Ren looked over his shoulder at a crying Horo. He didn't want to see him like that, but he honestly didn't know what to do. He turned away from Horo completely and opened the door. "I'll see you later Horokeu." And left a crying Horo alone in his room.

Dinner was very quiet. It had been an hour since Manta and Ren got back from their walk, and since they returned Ren had been avoiding the blonde boy. Horo had seen that Ren had a love bite on his neck and had boiled over in rage at the thought of someone else kissing Ren's neck.

The entire table was trying hard not to talk since three members of the gang were deep in thought. Manta was glaring at Horo, Horo was looking at Manta to Ren and back again, and Ren was trying his hardest to ignore both of the other boys. Every once in a while Ren raised his hand to rub the mark on his neck and each time he did Horo growled and Manta grinned.

Horo eventually got annoyed with the awkward silence and went back to his room. A second later Ren went after him. "Horo?" He asked threw the door to the Ainu's room. "I'm sorry alright? I didn't mean to hurt you." The door opened and Ren stepped inside.

The Ainu closed the door after Ren. He turned to him with a mistrusting look. "He kissed you?" Ren nodded. "Did you kiss back?" Ren looked at the ground, which was answer enough. "Why?"

"I don't know."

Horo glared at Ren spitefully. "How could you betray me!" He was furious with everyone and everything. "I love you more then anything and you don't even seem to care about my feelings anymore!"

Ren was taken aback with this new development. "Horo of course I care." He reached up and rubbed the hickey on his neck.

"He gave that to you didn't he!" Horo yelled at him, glaring at the mark on his loves neck. "Did you let him do that!"

"NO!" Ren screamed desperately trying to get through to Horo. He wanted to make everything better between Horo and himself. "Horo I didn't want Manta to feel this way towards me, and I don't care that he does!" He took a step towards Horo. "The only person I care about loving me is YOU! I LOVE YOU HORO!"

Horo looked over Ren carefully. He knew he wasn't lying to him. "I love you too. But do you trust me?"

"I . . . I." Ren hesitated; he focused on Horo's pleading eyes and felt himself immediately drowned in the loving gaze. "Yes." He whispered. Then he felt himself being drown into a warm embrace.

"I didn't hurt him." Horo mumbled. Ren nodded and wrapped his arms around his koi. "Can we still be engaged?"

Ren pulled away and smiled at Horo, he really did love him more than anything. Horo pulled out the engagement ring; he grabbed Ren's hand gently and put the ring on his left hand finger. (SM: you know the one the ring is meant to be on.) Horo bent down and kissed Ren softly, letting it last until he was out of breath. They parted only when they couldn't breathe anymore.

A small knock at the door sounded. "Come in!" Horo yelled. Yoh walked into the room followed by Manta. "We're engaged!" Horo yelled happily. Yoh smiled and congratulated them; however Manta looked ready to kill.

Ren walked over to Manta. "If you ever even think about harming my koi then I will not be ashamed of killing you." He said menace seeping in his words.

"What was it you wanted Yoh?" Horo asked kindly, grinning at his fiancé.

"Oh. . ." Yoh said thinking over what he was going to say. "We were just making sure that you two were alright."

The Chinese boy went over to the Ainu and kissed him strongly. "We're fine." He breathed out afterwards.

Horo wrapped his arms around the smaller boy and thought; I'll always be fine if I'm with you. I know that our relationship will be hard but it'll be worth it in the end. With you in my life anything is worth it. Aishiteru Ren-koi. Always.

With me

SM: You have no idea how hard it was writing this chapter. I have been working on it for about three weeks. And I still don't think its right.

Oh well. I hope you like it.

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