A/N: Hey! I'm so very sorry for not updating. If you haven't heard yet, my computer broke. When I got it back, it broke again. SO now it's getting fixed...AGAIN! I don't know why computers hate me so much. Any Way I know that people don't really like this story, but I'm hoping that the more I write in it, the more interested poeple will get! Anyway, on with the second chapter! ENJOY! Oh, I almost forgot! I'm so sorry for misspelling Jun's name. I usually never include her in my stories, I'm so Sorry. Please find it in your heart to forgive me!

Jelousy

Chapter Two: Dilemas

Matt finished his lunch with Jun and Sora before hurring to his next class. They didn't say much, for Matt was fearing what he felt. Everyone, except the brunette, knew that Matt liked Tai, so how did he start liking Jun? He was gay, wasn't he? So he couldn't like girls.

'Jun does have a nice smile.' Thought Matt, who quickly shook his head trying to get rid of the thought. 'She does not have a nice smile. I like Taichi and only him. No one else. I could never like anyone else. Then why do I feel like this?' Matt's thoughts were lost when he ran into the one person he didn't want to see right this second. Tai. They both landed on the floor, Matt on top of Tai, sending their school books and papers flying around the hallway.

Tai smiled at his best friend, and secret lover, before lening forward and kissing Matt on the lips. (I'm sorry, but I had to have Taito in it some what. What's a story with out Yaoi, or Taito?) Now Matt was having a dilema. He knew that he shouldn't like the kiss, shouldn't be wanting more, but there is one thing he argeeed to. He sure didn't hate it!

"I'm sorry, Tai." Said Matt. He got off of the brunette and stood up, dusting away the dirt that was on the front of his shirt. He put his hnd down for Tai to grab, which the teen did, and Matt pulled him up.

"That's o.k. Matt, it's all my fault. I should have been watching where I was going." Tai didn't look at Matt at all. He kept his focuse on the pale white and blue tiles which made the floor, as if they were the most interesting thing in the world.

"Tai, are the tiles that interesting?" Asked Matt, looking down at the squares. Tai looked up from the floor, smiling softly at his best friend.

"Not as interesting as your eyes, Matt. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. Or did that. I'm so, so sorry. I hope you can forgive me." Tai leaned down and grabbed the scattered books and papers. He put his in his crimson backpack, resting it on one shoulder. He handed Matt's books to him and with a faint, but forced smile, he was gone.

Matt put the papers and such in his black and gold backpack. Now he found himself in another dilema, did he like Tai or Jun? Well, he knew that he definetly didn't like Jun, he simply cared for Jun, and he certinaly didn'tlike Tai. He loved him more than gold, more than silver, more than the world and the air he breathed.

For the first time Matt admitted that to himself with out argueing, but he knew that he'd eventually stop liking Tai and end up liking Jun. He already thought that she had a nice smile and was good at starting conversations. She was, so far, fun to hang out with when she wasn't following him around.

He knew that he WOULD forget about loving Tai and move on with his life. They were in their last year of high school after all.

'Yes, we will go to diffrent collages and diffrent careers.' Thought Matt. 'I will forget about ever loving Tai, eventually.' Or at least that's what he thought.

---ONE MONTH LATER---(This is going to be written in Matt's dairy. I'll tell you when it ends!)

We saw eachother on the feild today. Tai was playing soccer, as always, and I was simply watching him, but pretending to do school work. I loved watching Tai play soccer, even if I did rant and rave when we had to go to one of his soccer games. I did still love him, even though I tried to convince myself other wise. I knew that in my heart I would always remember Tai, but I would push myself into not loving him anymore.

He was cerently going out with Davis Motomiya, another goggle head. No surprise. He was interested in soccer just as much as Tai. They had so much in common, their hair, Tai gave Davis his googles and bought another pair for himself, teir eyes. They just had o much in common, something me and Tai would never have.

He loved soccer, I loved music. He was social, I was a loner. He was hyper and active, I was cold and emotionless. He was the light, while I was the dark. Everyone says that light would die with the dark. Yeah right. I'm the dark, and I don't have the light. I haven't died, yet. To put it in simpler terms, I didn't have Tai, and I can asure you that I am not dead.

He loves Davis, I can see it in his eyes. He used to look at me with soft, happy, miscviouv glint in his honey brown eyes. Maybe I'm jumping to conclusions, which is another reason me and Tai could never be together and are diffrent. He's a leader, I' m a follower.

I'm still with Jun, yes Davis sister. I hate going to her house, for I knw that Davis will most likly be there. I hate him for stealing my Tai away. O.k. hate is I strong word, but I really dislike him. I've started liking Jun more and more, with each passing day. She's became quiet pretty, and her smile is still beautiful.

I know that I shouldn't be talking that way about her. I mean she's my girlfriend and all, but this is Jun we're talking about. The same redish-pinkish haired girl who followed me around and I asked me out fifty times before I said yes. And yes, it was exacually fifty times, I counted. Fifty, nothing more nothing less.

I look back down at the feild, realizing that I was staring at the sky. Looking at a cloud that made the shape of a starfish. All starfishes remind me of Tai. The way his hair looks, of course Tai had more hair than a starfish.

Anyway I watch the game a few minutes, before it ends. I stand up and I see Davis rush onto the field. Had he been there the whole? I don't know. He greeted Tai with a kiss, which Tai fell into. Another reason why I dispiese Davis. He had what I wanted with Tai. Well, I should go.

Lonly Wolf (That's the name Matt signs his dairy as in this fic.)

---There! It's finally out of Matt's Daisry POV. Hope you liked!---

TAICHI'S POV

I see Davis heading towards me, and I smile. I looks so much like me, he even acts like me to. It's freaky. He breaks into a run and kisses me, I fall into it. Davis always has reminded me of Matt, or more like I wanted him too. When he kissed me, I pretending it was Matt. I know Matt is getting over me, but I will never get over him. I love him so much, and I love Davis, but not as much.

"Wanna go get ice cream?" Asked Davis. I smile at him. He reminds me of a big kid.

"Sure. Just let me changed." I said, ice-cream sounded really good at the moment.

"You were thinking." Stated Davis. Well, he's smart.

"Yeah." I answer.

"About Matt. You still love him." Davis did act and seem stupid, but I have to hand it to him. He's really smart when he wants to be. Maybe a little to smart. How did he know I was thinking of Matt? As if reading my thought, agian, he says: "I could see it in you eyes. I know that you can never love me the way you love Matt."

"How about that ice-cream?" I asked walking towards the changing rooms. His face lights up and he bounces up and down.

"YAY!" He shouted, attracting looks from some of my team mates. After they realized it was Davis, they went back to talking as they left the field. Davis shouting wasn't very odd around here. "I love Ice-Cream. Hurry up and get dressed so we can go!" I nodd and head into the changing rooms.

----BREAK---OUt of Tai's POV

ONE MONTH LATER...

He ran into the boy's bathroom, shutting it loudly. He sank to the floor and cried. Taichi never cried, but he had to. He didn't understand why, but when Davis broke up with him, he started to cry. And taichi Yagami NEVER, EVER cried.

"Tai?" Called a soft voice.

"Matt?" Tai comes out of the stall wiping his tears away. "Hey."

"What's wrong."

"Noth..."

"Don't tell me nothing Tai, I know you to well. Your crying 'cause your heart aches from something that you'll never forget. Someone hurt you and you probally never ever forget them. You don't vry over nothing Tai. Tell me."

'Well, didn't he just have me figured out left, right and inside-out' Thought Tai.

"Davis broke up with me, he said he loved another. I know that's nothing to cry over, but I thought of him as you Matt. Losing him, to me, meant losing you. I still love you Matt." Said Tai weakly, looking at the floor. He knew that Matt was still going out with Jun, but then again you can't help who you fall in love with, right?

"Tai don't be sorry." Tai looked at Matt, but he was gone. Tai couldn't believe it.

'I'm so stupid. I should have never said that.' Thought Tai, starting to cry no that Matt wasn't with him.

People say that you can never forget the ones you love, or the first one. No matter how hard and much you try, they are still going to hold a speacial place in your heart. For Matt this is true, but he found that out to late.

---ONE YEAR LATER---

A/N: Yes, I am leaving it there. Sorry, but I want to have more chapters. I could have ended it, but I didn't want to. Review please!