Chapter 11 : Just the 2 of us Part 2(Secrets revealed)

'Ie!'

Hotaru(POV)

'Nani?'I looked at him.I was expecting him to leave.I knew that his pride was huge and his patience had a limit.But I was determinated to make him angry,to make him leave me alone.Alone...that was what I want?That sounds so familiar...

Flashback...

'Hotaru!Hotaru!Open your eyes,Hotaru!'I ehard my sisters voice but it is so cold...and I can't open my eyes..they are so heavy...Why are you so noisy onee-chan?

'Let me sleep...'I say with difficulty.

'NO!Open your eyes.Stay with me,Hotaru!Please!I'm sorry!Its all my fault!'

But is so cold...I will sleep only a few minutes...a few minutes,and then I'll have the strength to open my eyes and say that everything is allright...Yes...that I will do...Wait...what's that light?its so worm...but no.I don't want to go there...It scares me...No...don't touch me...NO!

End of flashback...

'Hotaru!Hotaru!'I heard my name called out loudlly.I open my eyes and I see him,over me,shaking me.I stand up in my bottom and look at him,but my mind is so far away...

'What was that?'he askes me.

How could I answer to that when I don't even know?What memory was that?Its not mine...It can't be...But it was my name called by her.It was like a bad dream,but it felt so real...I'm scared...If that's a memory when did it happend?Why don't I allready know it?

'Hotaru!Say something to me!'

I look into his amber eyes.I don't wanna know.Its just a bad dream..It has to be...Yes,Hotaru,that was a bad dream...a bad dream...

'You have such nice eyes...'I whisper to him,smilling coldly.

He gives me an odd look.Like I was nuts or something.Then,he huggs me.

'What's wrong?I ask.

'What happend?What did you saw?You're shaking!'

I am?Yes...I am shaking...I almost bite my tongue...His worm.the way he huggs me...How can I feel so good in his arms when he is my enemie?His propossal...one night...why not?

'Sesshoumaru?'

'Hai.'

'About your proposall...to spend a night thinking that we are not enemies...still stands?'

He takes my chin in his hand and approaches to kiss me but I turn my head.Not...that...I know what he wants...I want that too,but it can not bee...I don't understand why I can't just hugg him back or make love to him.My hate...is gone...my soul is the one that is trying to keep it here,in my heart but there is no place for her anymore...

'As you wish...'I heard and he leaves,leaves me alone there...But I deserve to be alone...I don't know why,but I just know...I see him going and sitting on the bed,looking over the window,staring in nothing.Forgive me...I hear my heart whispering...Forgive me...cause I can not forgive myself for something I can't figure it out.

'Come next to me.'

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'I...'he openes his mouth but she stoppes him.

'I can't remember Sesshoumaru...I can't remember all...'

'What?'

I remember her..her soul taking out of her body..'she said with taers coming out in force.

He looked at her in confusion.What was she saying?

'I know that you don't know...She...gaved...her soul...'she said and then looked at him.'...for you...'

His eyes became bigger at this news.She did what?

'What I remember is that I heard her saying that she is willingly gaving her soul to save you.And then...something camed thru her body and taked almost all her soul...because she died next to me,as you know...she wanted to die next to me...That's why..I hated you so much...'

'Hotaru...'he said her name.It was the only thing he could do in that moment.

'Sssss...I know that you didn't knew...I remembered recently...I thought that she died because of your rejection...but...It wasn't that way...This is strange...'

'It is...'he looked at her and she let him hugg her again,closer to his chest,feelling the safety of his protective arms.

Sorry...can not continue this now...my sister's husbund is here and I really can't write naymore.maybe tomorro!Sorry!