Chapter five

Shadow proves the sunshine

Ginny

'Pass the butter Gin' Ron said as he stifled a yawn. I gave him the butter which was sitting about half a foot away from him. He spread the butter over his toast, pausing every now and then to yawn.

'Bit tired mate?' Harry asked, suppressing a grin. Ron nodded.

'Why's that?'

'Hermione and I were doing…err homework pretty late, and then just when I was leaving Malfoy came through the portrait hole, looking smug as ever. I tried insulting him, but nothing I said would affect his Godly mood. So then I spent the night wondering what Malfoy's next evil plan is that has put him in such a good mood.' Ron explained slowly, as if every word bought him pain. I laughed at him nervously.

'Sure, like you and Hermione were doing homework!' I said as he gave Harry a sheepish grin.

'Gin, lets head off to potions.' Beth commanded as she yanked me out of my seat. I gave Harry and Ron a weak smile and followed Beth out of the Great hall.

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'Today you will be making a very powerful potion – if brewed correctly that is. It will make the drinker invisible for up to 2 hours. It is called, coincidently, the invisibility potion. The ingredients and method are on the board. You may begin.' Snape barked sharply at his 6th year class. I put my old third hand cauldron on the desk and looked up to the ingredients. The method looked quite difficult. I sighed, knowing I would never be a great potion master. But I guess I can try, because today is a good day…I think. Ok first step…cut up toad skin into small sliver's. Lovely.

I pulled back hair from my face. I have got to start thinking straight. Half an hour to go, and I will not think about him once. Except I'm still confused. I mean, what does he think will happen tonight? Is he going to go back to his arrogant old self, or be that Draco who has depth? I have put myself in a position where I am vulnerable. Last night I spilled my guts. God I hope he is the person I was with last night. Whoever he is tonight, I need to keep my head. I have told him things I haven't even told myself.

Somehow I managed not to do quite as terrible as some. My potion turned out to be blue, which is quite similar to green.

'How'd you go?" I asked Beth as we left potion together.

'Oh yeah alright, I mean it was green, but just not the green he described.' She replied as we walked through the entrance hall and out onto the grounds.

'Guy's wait up!' A voice yelled as us. We turned to see Abby running wildly toward us.

'Thanks for waiting fo me at potions!' She said sarcastically. Beth and I shrugged.

'Sorry…' I offered lamely.

'Oh its alright. Anyway, lets get going to. Herbology is my best subject, so I can help you guys out.' Abby explained as we followed her to the greenhouses.

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I saw at the dinner table, unaware Abby was talking to me, until she elbowed me sharply in the ribs.

'Gin! You didn't get a word of that, did you?'

'I would say yes – but I'm a really bad liar." I said as I looked her in the eyes.

'You've been weird today'

'Have I?'

'You know you have.'

'Yeah, I guess. I've just got some stuff on my mind.'

'Want to talk about it?' She offered, trying to hid her mouth full of potato.

'Oh no thanks. Its just you know about school work and all that.' I lied. Abby raised an eyebrow.

'Yeah you're right, not too good at lying are you?' She commented. I laughed and excused myself. I made my way up the stairs leading to Gryffindor common room. I stopped suddenly as I came out of the portrait hole. Harry was sitting next to the fire, just staring at it. He hadn't even noticed I was there. I knew what he was doing, what he was thinking about. Nowadays I rarely saw Harry smile. It was Sirius. Still her lingers on Harry's mind, after all this time. I approached Harry quietly, but he looked up. Our eyes met, but he didn't say anything. Without a word being said I reached him and gently hugged him. Ron was always with Hermione these days, so this left Harry alone quite often. He returned my hug and I tried to let my sympathy for him drown, because I know that is not what he wants. After a while I pulled out of the embrace and made my way up to my dormitory leaving him alone once again.

Later in the night

I waited anxiously for Draco to show. God I'm afraid, so afraid. I don't know what he expects from me. I watched him come p the stairs and approach me. As he came to me he took my hand in his and took me to the railing of the tower. There we stood facing each other until he spoke.

'Hi'

'Hi' I replied softly.

'Regret last night?' He asked me as he caught the look of confusion darting behind my eyes. I stood silent, not knowing what to say.

'Well, honestly I don't know.' I replied, braving to look into his eyes.

'What'd to regret? We've finally found each other. I've been alone for so many years, just as you. I know its odd, I mean we are arch-enemies, but if we feel this connection, should we be fighting it?' Draco said passionately.

'Who are you? That, what you just said then; it was beautiful. But how can I honestly trust you? I'm sorry to say that, but for so many years you have tormented me. Maybe it's just not meant to be.' I concluded sadly.

'You can go. Leave me like everyone else in my life has. But before you do, just look me in the eyes and tell me you're not feeling what I'm feeling! Fuck Ginny, I can't get you off my mind. Can you honestly tell me that I'm not on yours too?'

I stared into his eyes boldly. I can't tell him that. I sighed, knowing he was right.

'See? This is too strong. If you feel uncomfortable with me now that's fine. We don't have to do anything till you feel ok about it. But I'm just saying, lets be there for each other. We can get to know one another.' He suggested.

'But when we see each other in the hallways, or we bump into each other. Who are you going to be then? I just don't know who you are. How have you changed so much?'

It was then Draco's turn to sigh.

'I don't know. I honestly do not know why I'm so different. Maybe it's because I've woken up to my father and realised what a bastard he is. Maybe because I know what Voldermort is doing is wrong. Whatever it is, just please believe that I have changed. In answer to what we'll do when we see each other, I think you know what we have to do.'

'You have to insult me right? Pretend like you're still the same?' I said, not liking it one little bit.

'Yes. Because to everyone else I am the same. But just for now, can we put this out of our minds, and just relax?' Draco pleaded with me.

Draco

She smiled at me, and it lit up her face. I just want her to know how beautiful she is! She makes me feel so…so human. She reached forward and raped her arms around my neck.

'So you don't want to do anything like…this?' She said cheekily before she reached up to kiss me. I was taken by surprise, but after the initial shock, I responded and kissed her back as my arms snaked around her waist.

Just as I felt comfortable in the embrace, I had to pull myself away, so I could yawn.

'Tired?' She asked me, looking amused.

'Well you've been keeping me up lately. Seeing you, then thinking about you. It's hard work being Head Boy as well you know. I need all the sleep I can get!'

'Is that so?'

'Yes, it is.' I replied as I yawned yet again. She smiled at me again, and then before I knew it we were kissing again.

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I tip-toed through the common room I share with Granger and went into my room. I flung myself onto my bed and grinned stupidly. It was late…well actually early. I'll only get a couple of hours sleep until I have to get up. But she was worth it. After she pulled back from the snogging we had the best talk I've ever had. I don't know how it started, but when it did, it just took off. It wasn't a deep, moving conversation. It was more like…I was getting to know her, and her know me. The more I got to know her, the more I feel for her. She made me alive tonight. I slowly closed my aching eyes and drifted into a heavy slumber.

I snap my eyes open and sit bolt up right. My breathing is laboured, and my forehead is moist with sweat. I try to control my breathing as I recall my dream…Father. My father is smiling. His face is triumphant. He finally has his wish. I can see Voldermort's gleeful face, and I can feel burning flesh on my forearm. Father's wish has come true. I have been given the dark mark. I am now, like him, in service to the Dark Lord.

It was just a dream. There's nothing on my arm. This does not mean it's going to happen. I've just got to put it out of my mind…I focus on emptying and preparing my mind for the day as I pull on my jumper. Grabbing my bad I make my way out of my bedroom and stop once I get into my common room. Granger and Weasel are on the couch in deep conversation. I was about to go when I heard Ginny's name. I edge my way closer and pretend to be looking at a book while I listened.

'Beth told me she leaves late at night though! I'm telling you, there is something going on with her.' Weasley said desperately.

'Ron you can't accuse her of anything until you know for sure. I mean do you even have a guess at what she's doing?'

'Well not really. I think maybe she's meeting someone when she goes out. Someone she doesn't want anyone to know about.' Weasley said in a unconfident way.

'Ok…well we'll just look out for her more, ok?' Granger suggested. Weasley looked up at me and I quickly looked away.

'Get lost Malfoy!' He sneered. I was to tired to retaliate, and to his amazement I left without saying a word.

Authors note – Wow! I haven't updated in so long. I actually wrote this a while ago, but never got around to typing it up. Anyway now that I've read over this story, I can see how much I've learned in English class since then, and I know it was poorly written. So I need your advice everyone who's reading…should I continue this, or start a new story that doesn't change tense all the time and all that stuff?

REVIEW if you want me to update or whatever! Just review please :) Also if anyone knows of a Beta reader that would want to be mine, please let me know, because I didn't check this before I put it up. I just wanted you guys to read it. Enjoy and please review!