"Ayame" His voice was soft but it cut through her like an icy knife.

She turned to him, her face still streaked with tears. She looked up towards him. He, who had lied to her, played with her. She wanted so badly to hate him. But, as she looked at him she just couldn't, but damn it she could try.

"What do you want, I helped your friends, what else could I possibly do?"

By the time she had finished she was yelling. She didn't have the emotional strength to deal with it.

"I remember"

She couldn't believe it, but she could, she did.

"I know"

He looked taken back, and shocked. She took advantage of his silence and left before he actually saw her cry over him. She walked away with her back to him. There was no way in hell he was gonna see her cry. Then he said the one thing that cut her down and broke her into tiny bits.

"Ayame, I'm sorry"

Her brain froze. She stopped walking she just stood there, frozen. The butterflies in her stomach felt like a rock had been dropped on them. She turned to him, fire in her brilliant emerald eyes.

"Sorry, such a simple word, why does everyone think it will help me. That by saying sorry it somehow fixes everything. I heard it about you, my grandfather, my life, I don't want pity."

She couldn't look at him anymore, she was too close too tears.

" I'm going home"

As she ran away she whispered the truth, sharing it with the wind, her only friend.

She took a heaving breath

"I don't want pity, I want you."

Koga knew it was his fault she was miserable. He couldn't take his wolves to Kagome and dog shit though. He couldn't face her, was that how Ayame felt about him? He remembered that night almost three years ago.

He smiled, though the small wolf-demon on his back couldn't see it.

"Your enticing Ayame, I promise that when the lunar rainbow shines again I will make you my mate."

She looked at him in shock. Surely he didn't mean it she was only twelve and he fifteen.

"Do you promise Koga-kun?"

He put her down in front of him and kneeled. He put his now bruised right hand on his armor under which was his heart.

"With all my heart"
'I don't see why she's so angry at me, women.'

(A/N typical guy -.-;)

As Ayame ran through the darkness she knew that there was only one place she could go that Koga would not look for her, if he even cared enough to. She sped off as fast as she could towards Kagome's camp, desperate for help. She arrived some time later hot and out of breath. She collapsed next to the fire before anyone even noticed her. Then Kagome turned towards her.

"Ayame"

That caught Sango's attention as well.

"Oh my god, she must have run all this way."

Ayame slowly opened her eyes only to be greeted by two very worried faces hovering over her. She leapt up.

"Kagome I need to talk to you it's important, it's about Koga."

"Ayame wha-"

But before Kagome could finish Inuyasha cut in.

"What did that stupid wolf do this time?"

"Inuyasha" Kagome yelled. "You insensitive jerk."

"No, leave it Kagome I really need to talk to you."

Ayame walked over towards a small clearing nearby, she motioned for Kagome to follow her. Once they were alone she turned to Kagome, obviously struggling to hold back tears.

"Your the only one he ever loved and I just needed to talk to you"

"What is it Ayame"

"He's back."

"What do you mean?"

"Well he and his wolves got in a fight with a bunch of small demons and they needed healing but they didn't go to you because you told him the truth and he's well, I guess sad. So I know he won't follow me, and he can't face you"

"And..."

"I can't face him Kagome, after all the things he did, the lies, the fights, I...I still love him, I can't get over him. I want to be free of him, but I can't let go. He's all I have left and I hate him for it."

Kagome stood there for a minute obviously in deep thought.

"I wish I could help you Ayame, but I don't know, maybe you should give him a chance, who knows."

Ayame stood there a moment before speaking.

"Well, thanks anyway Kagome, do you have any soap so that I can wash my outfit, and a change of clothes?"

"Yea sure come with me"

When they reached camp Kagome handed her a change of clothes and some soap.

"I'll get them back soon. I'll wash up here and return after, if that's O.K."

"I think" She paused "Sango is Miroku asleep"

Sango kicked him. He just rolled over and drooled.

"yep"

"Then go ahead Ayame"

Ayame proceeded to take a bath and wash her clothes. It felt so good to be clean. She then changed into her loaned clothes. It was a warm night so Kagome had given her a tank top and a knee length skirt. They were white. She walked back towards Kagome.

"I'm sorry but these could get pretty dirty."

"Thats alright, just keep them, they don't fit me very well anyway."

"Thank you Kagome"

With that she waved goodbye to a now daydreaming Sango, a tired looking Inuyasha, a sympathetic Kagome, and a monk who looked like he had lost consciousness a while ago.

Then she was gone into the night. She was concentrating on the beauty of the night. It was abnormally pretty tonight. She looked up at the full moon, it was closer than usual. She didn't care, she thought it looked romantic. Then thoughts of Koga forced themselves to the front of her mind. She didn't have any tears left so she just pushed on.

When she finally arrived at her own cave she collapsed on her bed. She was too exhausted to do anything but fall asleep. As she lay they she looked and felt like a dirty angel that had lost its way and almost all of its hope. Her dreams were no better.

She awoke the next morning angry. She however didn't show it. When she needed to she could hide her emotions well. Then one of the other white wolves came in while she was still sprawled face down on her bed.

"Ayame. Are you awake?"

She sighed

"Yes what is it Katane?"

"Koga's wolves are waiting for you"

She looked up at her with a seriously pissed off look on her face.

"Why?"

Katane visibly cringed.

"Well they thought it would be polite to wait for you."

"God, is he just trying to piss me off"

"What?"

"Nothing go inform them I'll be out in a minute."

"Yes, lady Ayame."

" Oh and Katane."

"Yes Milady?"

"It's Ayame, O.K.?"

"Yes mi-Ayame."

"Good"

She got off her bed. She knew her clothes weren't dry yet so she would have to see them wearing her dirty white outfit.

'Great, that's impressive...well...whatever.'

She got up and straightened up a bit then she walked out and headed for the main cave. She was still tired and a little groggy. When she arrived the only people there were Ginta, Hikkaku, and the last person she wanted to see, Koga.

"You smell like Kagome. When did you go there?"

" She's my friend, Koga, and I have every right to visit her whenever I want to"

She was getting angry again.

"You have my blessing go forth"

"Well" Ginta steeped forward

"yeah?"

"We were wondering if we could stay here for a while longer."

"Why?"

"We haven't been here in a while, we thought it would be O.K. if we stayed for a week or two"

'I don't want them here, especially Koga. But we could use the extra protection.'

"Fine, whatever."

She went back into her room. She need time alone since she had been denied it last night.

As soon as she arrived she came in contact with the last last last person she wanted to see.

I give you one guess who it is and if you don't get it then your pretty dumb. Loves

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Chibi- thanxies extra cookies to you XD

WolfGurl24 –the reason he is crying is cause I see him as a lot like inuyasha in the fact that he puts up a barrier but he's really got a soft side. And he does feel.

Mistress Blu- I am so glad

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