Say Goodbye

Chapter Four

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of 6teen.

By: Desiree

I looked at Jonesy and then I turned away. "Jonesy..." I say to him. "Please... I'm sorry, I really did lose my temper and I didn't mean too but you did mention breaking up and that really did upset me," I said.

"But Nik, we really do need to talk about this, you know that it is something we have to dicuss," he said to me.

I hug into him. "Well, this is what I think about it, no! I want us to still be a couple," I start to cry all over again."I'm going away, that's bad enough, I wouldn't be able to deal with us breaking up as well," I said.

"But..." Jonesy puts his hands on my shoulders and looks at me deeply in the eyes. " I'll always still love you and only you, you are the only chick that I'll ever love and nobody will ever replace you but I just feel that this is better while you are gone, I mean what if you don't return, we can't go on like that forever," he told me.

"Yeah..." I look away."But I don't want us to break up Jonesy, I really, really,love you,"Iclosed my eyes and I leaned in toweard him and I felt his lips press against mine and then he pulled away.

"Nikki," Jonesy looked at me. "Listen, you will still be mine and I will still be yours we are just single but most definately not available," Then he reached into his pockey and pulled out something in a black velvet box. "I was going to wait until tomorrow but I think that now is the right time," he gives me the box.

I open it and I am shocked at what I see. It's a locket, with a pucture of Jonesy and I in a heart. Also, it has Nikki N Jonesy forever incraved in it. I smile and this time, tears of joy fall from my eyes. "Jonesy, this is so beautiful, I would normally kill you for giving me jewelery but I love this," I said to him as he put it on me. He gently kissed my neck after putting it on. Then I reached into my pocket and pulled out a box which contained a silver watch that I bought him. In the face of it was the Toronto Maple Leaf symbol and I also had our names incraved into it. Jonesy absoutly loved the watch. He started kissing me all over... that boy is crazy.

"Don't worry Nikki... I'll be waiting for you to come hoome, because I believe in my heart that you will come home to me," Jonesy said to me. Then we went to bed and fell asleep.

The Next Day

The six of us are at the airport. I swear I have never felt so said in my whole entire life. Caitlins flight goes out first and we about to say goodbye to her. I hug her and tell her that I am going to miss her and the rest of the gang does the same. Now it's just the orginal five. And now it is Wyatt's turn to say goodbye. We all hug him and tell him how much we have enjoyed all the memories and that we are going to miss him and that we all know that he is going to be the next Canadian Idol. Then it's Jen's turn. Saying goodbye to Jen was really hard because she has been my best "girl"friend for a very long time, and it just about killed me... uh and I have yet to say goodbye to Jonesy... whoa, now that is going to be hard. Everyone had a hard time saying goodbye to Jen, especially Jude, I really do think that the two of those have some sort of connection... and then it was Jude's turn to say goodbye. Man, I sure am going to miss that dude, he's so funny. And now, it's just the two of us, just Jonesy and I. We have thirty minutes left together.

"Jonesy..." I say.We are sat down right by each other, actually I am sat in his arms. I kiss him on the lips and then I pull away.

"What Nikki?"Jonesy says. He's now playing with the watch that I gave him and I am playing with the locket.

"I don't think I can leave you," I say. I was able to contain myself of all the tears but now I release them but I stop."I'm not crying,"I lie to Jonesy.

"Oh Nik," Jonesy hugs me tightly."Listen, I told you that I would go with you if you wants me to," he said.

"No! I want you to stay here so that you can persue your dream!" I look at him and kiss him again. When I pull away I start to make a speech to Jonesy. "I'm just going to miss you so much, no body in my whole entire life has ever shown me happiness like you have, it is because of you that my emotional side was opened up to somebody, I have always been a tough girl but deep inside... you know I wasn't so tough. You have always been there for me, always. Even when everyone else hated my guys in school, you was there. We have shared so much together, and now well we have to say goodbye and I never wanted this day to come and I'm telling you it really is tearing me up inside," I take a deep breath and then I finish. "It's breaking my heart to say goodbye to the one man that I ever loved. You are so amazing and you are so nice and funny, perverted... yes but you are such a lovable guy and I don't care what people thinks fo you, I'll always love you and I will return so that we can carry on with our lives," I give him another kiss.

When we break from the kiss Jonesy looks at me."Nikki, listen, I will always be here for you, waiting because I love you and only you and that will always remain true. That's something that will never change, you have showed me a great life, well since we've been togetehr, even before that, you've always been a great friend, yeah ... rough around the edges but still a really loving person, you are the best and I promise you, my undying love, and you hold the key to my heart, forever!" he tells me. I start to cry and he kisses me. This time, I don't wipe away the tears because we only have ten minutes left together and I'd rather spend it kissing Jonesy than wipping my tears away.

When the ten minutes are up I feel like, I don't know. I feel so lost, so blank, so sad. I walk up to the gate and Jonesy is holding my hand. I am really crying. "Nik, it's going to be okay, I'll see you again, don't worry, before you knows it, you'll be back and we will still be together... you hold the key to my heart," he tells me.

I wrap my arms around him and he hug. It's a long hug, a one that I most definately don't want to let go, but it has to end. And when it does... I feel so cold, without Jonesy's arms around me. Jonesy looks at me. "Goodbye my only love..." he says and he turns away and starts to walk.

"Jonesy!"I call out. He turns around and I runs toward him and I jumps in his arms and we kiss one last time, and I put all my love and passion for Jonesy into that kiss and he does the same for me.It's a long lasting passionate kiss that is intertuped by the flight attendent. I am told to go on board the plane or the plane is going to leave without me. I hug Jonesy one last time. "I love you..." I tell him.

"I love you too," Jonesy says back to me.

The flight attendent guides me to the plane, she knows how hard it is to say goodbye to loved ones, she has helped them before and now she is helping me. I am so lost inside, Jonesy and I aren't a couple but we are still together... kind of. It's rather confusing and hurtful. Well, I get on the plane and I sit down in a seat right by a window and I look out it. I see Jonesy leaving, he looks so sad. I put my hand on the window. "I love you Jonesy..." I say. "And I am going to miss you so much," Then Jonesy looks up and he points to his eye, then his heart and then to me. I does the same and he stays there, looking at me until the plane takes off. When we leave, I feel a rush of regret come over me, maybe I should of stayed home instead, something inside of me is saying that... but what exantly is it?

Yay! Another chapter. Well that's all I have for now.

Desiree!