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Authors Note: Sorry it's been a while. Thanks for the reviews. So here goes, 5th Chapter.

Chapter 5- Impossible Choice

Lily sat at the library her nose nearly touching the parchment of an potions essay she was writing. Her quill made scratching noises as it scurried back and forth, back and forth.

"It's a wonder you don't have glasses." Lily looked up suddenly and saw James standing over her; he pulled out a chair and sat down opposite her, smiling. "It's bad for your eyes to be that close when you're writing." He said pretending to be serious.

Lily lifted her face away from the parchment and finished the sentence she was writing. "Fine… whatever James."

James leaned back, lifting the front legs of his chair off the ground. "So, the costume Dance is next week… you going?"

Lily suddenly grew tense. "Um… maybe…" She paused. She had to tell him, she could not go to that ball with him. "actually, I think I'm going to be sick that day – I mean studying that day." Lily blurted out, cursing herself afterwards.

James looked a little put off but smiled back "What's with you today Lily? Do you want to go to the dance with me?"

Lily looked at him and hesitated. But Sirius… "Um… maybe."

James looked a bit shocked "But, we're going out, I mean unless you're going out with someone el-"

"NO, no, I'm not going out with someone else. Why would you think that?" Lily said quickly.

James looked confused. "I was joking… Well, will you go with me?"

"Fine, fine, I'll go with you." Lily said automatically. But then she froze, she was supposed to go with Sirius. She should have told James, she should have told him everything. She looked up and saw James walking away and knew there was nothing she could do about it. She was going to the ball with James. What made it worse was that she could see Sirius walking towards her, looking serious.

"A man just walked out of here." Sirius said sat down next to Lily. "He told me he was going to the Dance with you, and guess what, that man wasn't me." Sirius looked into Lily's eyes, searching for the guilt he knew was there. "Don't you want me?"

"Sirius –"

"- no, no Lily. You have to make up your mind. If you want to go out with James, then fine. I don't mind. If you want to go out with me then go and tell James." Sirius was speaking in a harsh whisper and Lily could tell he was angry.

"Sirius… I tried to break up with him." She went silent looking at his stern gaze and changed her sentence "I will break up with him."

"When Lily, you've been saying this for a long time now."

"I know, I know…"

"Lily… I want to go to the Dance with you."

"But I already told James I would-"

"-Well then untell him." Sirius said quickly.

"Untell isn't a word." Lily sighed. "What if I can't?"

Sirius shook his head in amazement. "Lily, you can't have both of us, If you can't tell him, then you've lost me. Your choice Lils, I like you, but I can't go out with you if-"

"-I know…"Lily said. Sirius nodded, forced a smile, got up and walked away leaving Lily sitting on alone with a half-finished potions essay and a impossible choice to make.

Authors Note: Ok, I know that was a short chapter, but I know what to write for the next one, so here it is, chapter 5. I know Sirius' character is a bit different to what it normally is, I'm sorry if you don't like it, but I figured Sirius would have been angry at Lily and I somehow don't think an angry Sirius would be happy and making jokes, so there you go. I'll write again as soon as I can. Please review!