Never Thought it was You
Chapter 4: In your arms...
Tamao's mind had gone blank with shock. Not only was Ren kissing her, he was doing so aggressively, until they were both lying on the sofa, with her eyes still wide from the shock of what's happening. She was starting to kiss him back, moving her lips against his to deepen their kiss, when… Yoh's image appeared in her mind. She froze. Whereas Ren kept on kissing her, and not until he opened his eyes for the first time did he realize…the tears that were streaming from her eyes…she was crying…
He stopped abruptly, getting slowly up and staring at her eyes. He was starting to ask what was wrong when it hit him… how could he have been so stupid? Of course, she was still in love with Yoh, that bastard, he thought.
He didn't know what to say, I mean, what's a guy supposed to say in a time like this? He had just kissed a girl he barely knew…but she was the first to break the silence,
"Ren-kun…I…" but he knew what he had to do,
"Tamao, I'm sorry. I…I don't know what came over me. Don't misunderstand me; I don't love…so…it was just a mistake, ok? So just forget…what happened…" and with that he turned and started walking away… when he heard a swift movement from behind, he turned just in time to see Tamao's back as she left the house as fast as she could, her tears visible even from that distance.
He was left alone…
He went back and sat on the same couch he had been sitting on with her just a second ago, thinking. Did I hurt her with my words? Is that why she left? Or is it the fact that she felt she had betrayed Yoh? No, that can't be it…she's not evenwith Yoh…
He sighed deeply. He didn't want to think about this, it wasn't like him at all to be this troubled over a girl, especially a girl who was so much in love with someone else…but the fact that he was hurt about it made him realize that he liked her, and he wanted her for himself…
Tamao's P.O.V:
I hate myself….I hate myself…that was what Tamao was thinking all the way she ran…where she was going, she had no idea, she just wanted to run…how could I? How could I do that? My true love is Yoh, and has been since I can remember…but…Ren…Ren-kun…he's…different. He's nothing like Yoh, but he has his own charm…I like him, but I also like Yoh…
She cried harder and her tears flew past her as she realized something…she was in love with both shamans, Yohand Ren…no, I can't, I can't love them both…she ran even faster, she tripped and was almost knocked really hard to the floor if it wasn't for a pair of hands grabbing her, and they fell together, her on top of her saviour…
"that was close," she recognized that voice, she knew it so well… she opened her eyes to see none other than Yoh hugging her waist from beneath her, smiling at her. But when he looked at her, his smile vanished.
"Tamao? What's wrong?" he had never seen her this upset before.
She hesitated. She decided not to mention what happened between her and Ren.
"Ummm…arigato Yoh-kun, that would've been a nasty fall" she smiled weakly at him as he pulled her to her feet.
"Tamao, you didn't tell me what's wrong," he pointed out to her.
"It's nothing. Really Yoh it's not important," she was about to resume her running when he caught her arm, and gave her a serious look.
"Tamao, if you don't want to tell me it's ok, but don't lie and say it's nothing,"
Her eyes began to water again, she couldn't take it anymore. That's why she did what she always wanted to do, and jumped into his embrace…hugging him from all of her heart…
And she broke down completely…
She cried her eyes out. All the love she ever felt for him…all the jealousy she held in her heart of Anna…all the moments she wanted to spend with him…every time she wished he was hers…every time she wished she could hear him say "I love you" just rushed to her mind as she held him tightly, feeling every bit of him. This was what she had wanted all her life.
Neither of them was aware of the pair of golden eyes staring at them from across the street, wide and horrified.