Author's note:

This is the big chapter, so many answers will come, but more questions will be made…geez I hate unanswered questions but they always add to the drama….lol, talk to y'all later!

Chapter 9

Cries in the night

Inuyasha and Kyasha had left a few minutes ago from the house, he thought Kagome had meant they could leave right after Kyasha was done supper, but no-o-o, they had to help clean up after supper, and then Kyasha decided to be the good girl and help Kagome with the laundry.

Kyasha was now asleep on Inuyasha's back, he smiled. She was different. So passionate, kind, Daitan loved her, he couldn't stop talking about her, she had a temper, she was athletic, and well, was just overall different from any other teenager he'd met, other then when he had met Kagome, already eighteen or so years ago.

"Are we there yet?" Kyasha asked. She was slowly coming back from her nap.

"Yeah, just a few more minutes…did you have a good sleep?" he asked. He felt her nod and sigh.

"My head still hurts and more and more lately my vision stinks…even when I'm human." Kyasha explained.

"Let's just hope Sesshoumaru has some answers about that…" Inuyasha just hoped he was right about this, Sesshoumaru wasn't always the easiest to get answers out of, but Inuyasha thought 'Tetsusaiga hasn't been used for a while, maybe I can fix that…' He smirked.

"Let's cross our fingers." Kyasha said as they reached the mansion's gates. "Wow, he's sure loaded."

"Yup, and he likes to show it off." Inuyasha said as he let Kyasha down and went over to the intercom. "I need to speak to my damn brother….let us in." He demanded as the gates opened. "Come on, let's get this over with."

Kyasha nodded, guessing the two brothers weren't all that close, remembering the battle a few days ago already. Se walked right behind him, not knowing what to expect. They walked through the great doors of Lord Sesshoumaru's house and ended up in an enormous lobby that made Kyasha's mouth drop, but she fixed that when a young boy about her age walked in.

"What can I do for you uncle Inuyasha?" The boy asked. Kyasha was stunned; this boy was Inuyasha's nephew? The boy was very noble looking, he had long silver hair that reached the end of his back, but what amazed Kyasha the most was his cold, calm, golden eyes that sent shivers down Kyasha's back. He looked a bit older then her, but he almost held a maturity of an adult.

"Yeah runt, and what have I said about calling me uncle, Takaromaru?" Inuyasha grumbled.

"Sorry Un- I mean Inuyasha." He said, but glanced back at Kyasha. "And who might this be…your daughter?"

"No, I'm…Kyasha…Kyasha Tanaka." She said as she was weirded out of being called her gym teacher's daughter.

"Oh, my mistake, nice to meet you Kyasha." He said, as he held out a hand for her. "I see you're a hanyou."

"Yeah, do you have a problem with that?" She asked in an innocent voice as she shook his hand.

"No, not at all." He said with a smile over her spunkiness.

"Where's that mutt of a brother of mine?" Inuyasha demanded.

"Oh, he's in his lobby as usual." Takaromaru stated. "He's actually expecting you, go right in."

"Come on, Kyasha." Inuyasha said as he walked into the room, Takaromaru showed them. Kyasha was amazed at the size of this place, it was huge! She looked around the rather large lobby and spotted Sesshoumaru sitting in his black, leather chair. Sesshoumaru looked up and smiled.

"What is it little brother?" He stated.

"I want to know what you did to Kyasha. She hasn't been herself lately." Inuyasha demanded.

"Why I didn't do a thing, she has done this to herself." Sesshoumaru looked at her and then back at Inuyasha.

"Are you saying that Kyasha fainted because she made herself do it? Do you seriously expect me to believe that?" Inuyasha growled.

"What I mean, is that she did do this to herself, but not on purpose, it is because of her mixture of both, youkai and human, blood. This mixture, like yours, is different from many; this is what caused my claws to harm her in this way." Sesshoumaru explained.

"Well, can we fix it? She's getting worse and worse by the day." Inuyasha yelled, becoming more and more irritated by his half brother's presence.

"This will never go away, it is permanent…" Sesshoumaru started. "But there is a way to protect her from it."

"Then tell us already!" Inuyasha asked.

"The poison that came from my hands, and the mixture of her blood, are causing her to become more and more vulnerable to her youkai blood." The older brother explained.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean…would you just cut the crap and tell us what's going on with her?" Inuyasha grumbled as he stepped in front of Kyasha protectively. Kyasha was so glued on to Sesshoumaru, his cold demeanor and his stoic personality made her wonder if he purposely made it tat way, or if he was like the twenty four-seven.

"What that means, Inuyasha, is that she will be more vulnerable and it will be more easier for her to change into her youkai state, like yours, her youkai is too much for her to handle, this goes for all vile hanyous." He added. Kyasha's expression went blank. It would be easier to change into her youkai state? Her nightmares were coming true, every last one of them, her bad memories were playing over and over in her mind as if they were a video being played too many times.

Kyasha lost it; she screamed and fell to the ground crying. Inuyasha fell to her side and lifted her up.

"Kyasha…Kyasha, what the hell?" he asked her as she cried and screamed.

"No, no, no….No!" Kyasha screamed out before passing out in Inuyasha's arms. Inuyasha was utterly stunned, he was afraid, he didn't want her to get hurt, but what the hell happened to her?

"What…happened?" Inuyasha muttered, not realizing he said it out loud.

"It looks to me like she was suffering from some mental problem…maybe she should stay with you for a few days; she seems in better care then with her family." Sesshoumaru stated. "I'll be leaving you now, but Inuyasha….watch her, she doesn't seem to be at her peak of health, she needs help." Inuyasha nodded and picked Kyasha up off the ground. He darted out an open window and ran back home.

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'Come on Sakura, we're going to be late.' Kyasha heard a voice call out. She slowly opened her eyes to find herself in a very familiar area, but she couldn't pin point when she had ever been there.

'I'm coming Kyasha, wait up!' Another voice called out. Kyasha just watched the scene play out in front of her, nothing reminding her of when and where she was. The little girl that had called her name seemed so very familiar, but so distant at the same time.

'What are you two little girls doing out so late? Aren't your mommies worried about 'cha?' That voice, the voice from her dreams…her nightmares. That voice had haunted her nightmares for as long as Kyasha could remember, but this memory or scene wasn't ringing any bells.

'Kyasha, who is this man?' The little girl whispered to the younger Kyasha.

'I don't know, but I don't think he's friendly, we better get out of here.' Kyasha whispered back to her friend.

'No, why don't you two stay with us.' The man said, as another two men came up from behind him holding what looked like baseball bats.

'Sakura get out of here!' Kyasha screamed, but it was too late, she had been hit across the head with one of the bats, and knocked unconscious. When she woke up, her life would be all over in the eyes of an eight year old.

The eight year old, Kyasha, opened her eyes slowly, and pulled her self conscious as she scanned the area. Her jaw dropped. What she saw would be the thing that would shake her world, her simple world. Her friend, the only person who ever actually called Kyasha by her first name at school was sprawled on the ground, even in her human form Kyasha could tell her best friend was in fact…dead.

After that day, her 'oh, so caring' mother sent her away to therapy, and that was where her memories came back of that day. Through therapy, she had found out that she was the one who had…killed…her friend. After she was knocked out, not even knowing it, but had reawakened in her full youkai state and killed the three men no sweat, but when it came to her friend, she shuddered at the thought.

'No, no…it's not true….I couldn't… wouldn't…not her. Not Sakura.' Kyasha mumbled to herself.

"No!" Kyasha screamed as she sat up and was huffing and puffing from exhaustion. She was coated in her sweat, and her eyes met a worried pair of chocolate brown.

"Kyasha, it's okay, I'm here…don't worry." Kagome cried as she pulled Kyasha into a tight embrace. At first Kyasha was going to push her away, she never really got hugs anymore, but right when Kagome's arms wrapped around her, she couldn't help it, she held on for dear life, never wanting to let go. Kagome felt warm to her, like she actually cared about her. Kyasha began to cry, she never really did that anymore, she always kept them in, knowing no one, before, used to care. But now, she had someone, maybe even a family in her eyes.

"Oh, Kagome, it was…awful." Kyasha found herself saying over and over.

"It's okay now; everything is going to be fine." Kagome tried to calm her down; she patted her back and brushed her hand through her hair. Slowly but surely, Kyasha began to calm down, all that was left were her hiccups and whimpers.

"Do you want to tell me what happened?" Kagome asked.

"I…killed my best friend…" Kyasha whispered.

"What? What do you mean?" Kagome began to worry, when did this happen?

"It was a long time ago…." She started, but Inuyasha interrupted and walked in the room.

"I was about eight years old…me and my best friend, Sakura, were walking home from a festival at our school…when it happened." Kyasha stated as another round o tears came. "There…we were attacked by these…men. They…I don't know what they wanted but…they had baseball bats, one of the guys hit me over the head with them…I thought I went unconscious…or maybe I did, but when…when I woke up, the men were dead…and my friend…as soon as I looked at my friend, the memories…I had transformed…I killed those men, after I went unconscious, but I didn't stop there…..I….I killed…I killed my friend, my best friend!" Kyasha screamed the last part.

"Oh, Kyasha…" Kagome stated, she almost felt like crying. Inuyasha was just frozen, not showing any emotion, he just stared at the floor in front of him.

"After…after that I went to the hospital for a month or two, I lost so much blood when I was hit over the head, but…when I transformed, I didn't care bout that, I just kept fighting…my mother sent me to therapy after that…that was when the memories came back. I was never really the same, my mother…everyone says I've become unopen with myself, like I don't share anything…I just can't do it anymore…my friend, she was he only one who cared about me…the only one I actually told bout my true self, my cursed blood, the blood that changed me…" Kyasha explained, but before anyone could say anything, she ran out of the room crying.

"Kyasha wait." Kagome said, but was held back by a strong arm.

"Give her time, she needs to be alone." Inuyasha said as he walked out and found that Kyasha had jumped out of the window and was now out in the town.

"We can't just leave her; she needs to know that we're here for her…" Kagome cried.

"She already knows, or she wouldn't have told us." Inuyasha said.

"I hope she's alright." Kagome pleaded.

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'Someone help me…please, I need help…' Kyasha thought to herself as she hopped from building to building watching the cars drive by at the bottom. She needed to get away, but there was never anyone she could turn to, usually Myouga was an okay person to talk to, her mother would just send her to therapy again, who could she turn to?

'Maybe, I already know someone to talk to…but don't want to, why do I feel like telling them everything, what makes them so special to me…' Kyasha thought to herself.

'It's because that make you feel like family, you never felt that before, your just s sucker for the hugs and kisses.' Her head told her. Maybe she was, maybe all it took to get on Kyasha's good side was to give her a hug, and she was all there's. She couldn't be that weak, she had to be alone, because not one ever understood her, no one.

'I have to be alone…I have to, even though I don't want to, I have to do it, or else, I'll lose everything.' Kyasha stated. The night was beautiful, the moon was out, she felt drawn to it, maybe it was because it pretty much controlled who she was, no the night of the first quarter moon she was officially human. On the third quarter moon, her youkai blood was stronger, and she would need to be on the watch, since something was in her blood that made her more vulnerable for these changes.

She would just have to be careful, maybe she could tell Myouga, or…maybe no one.

This chapter is a bit depressing, but you know the saying 'It gets worse before it gets better…' and I believe it, Kyasha will be happy in the end, I'm a sucker for the happy endings…lol