Chapter/Episode One

Part Two

"Your past makes you, you"

Carmen bopped her head to the song "Niki FM" by Hawthorne Heights on her ipod while she sat in the computer lap during her study hall looking at her photos which she had took so far during the day.

Most of them were dark and deep and a little dumb like a picture of people taking a test with confused faces and her converse shoe. Some were of the lockers but bits and parts of them.

"Those are nice" said a dark haired 12th grader next to her. He was wearing an old rolling stone tee and a leather jacket with some jeans "I'm Craig and I take photos too" he said smiling at her.

"Carmen" she said smiling at him "Um thanks, I love taking photos you know capturing time" she said handing him the camera.

As he looked at them they got to get to know each other. They both loved taking photos, music and had their hearts broken over and over by the same person.

"So she left me here and she's in London with some Greek guy" Craig said. Carmen nodded "Wow that sucks" she said "After my Ex took nude photos of me and showed them to everyone and embarrassed me I got kicked out and moved here and am talking to you" she said laughing a little.

"Looks like we can share our misery" he said as the bell rang "Well I have your number so I'll call you and we can maybe hang out" he said.

"Yeah" she said smiling watching him leave.

Darcy took a deep breath and walked up to Jimmy in Gym "Hey Jimmy" she said pulling on her gym shorts nervous.

"Hey Darcy, what's up" he said.

"Nothing, I just wanted to ask you something"

"Go ahead" he said.

"Are you ever going to forgive Spinner, he's really sorry" she said as he rolled away "Jimmy wait, I can understand why your mad but he didn't shoot you. Rick did and Spinner has been hurting"

Jimmy looked at her "Darcy I'm the one who should be hurt look at me" he yelled. '

"I understand but hundreds of people get shot and most of them don't live and there are thousand s of people are in wheel chairs"

"What's your point" he said

"My point is that you didn't die and you still have your arms, mind and heart which most wheel chaired people don't so stop playing the poor crippled kid" she said walking away.

Carmen unscrewed the cap to her Dr. Pepper bottle and set it next to her on the bench outside the school. She watched as people ate their lunches and joked with their friends. They all seemed so happy. No pain or hurt. "Bull shit" she said taking a picture.

Carmen felt weight on the bench and turned to see Manny "Hey" she said giving her a hug "haven't seen you all day"

"I know" said Manny "So having fun" she asked,

She shrugged "Met some people and a one guy who was a little annoying but cute his name was…..Peter I think"

Manny smiled "Beautiful whore" she joked.

Carmen laughed and saw Peter walking over "Hi Carmen, Manny" he said.

Manny stood up "This is the Peter who taped me Carmen" she said running away.

Carmen looked at Peter and he started to back away "So you hate me now" he said.

"Manny does, not that I do but I have no one else to talk to" she said opening a bag of chips.

"Thanks I think" Peter said sitting next to her "So what part of New York are you from"

"Brooklyn, I was a model in a program but my parents pulled me out of it and kicked me out"

"Why" he asked.

She played with the ends of her hair "I…um I got too wild for them" she said.

"I love wild girls" he said putting his arm around her.

"Yea well I hate asshles like you" she said standing up.

"I'm sorry it was dumb please sit back down" he said grabbing her arm.

She sat back down but farer away. "That was pretty mean what you did too Manny"

"I only sent it to some friends" he said "Then they sent it to everyone"

"It was still wrong, someone did that to me once with photos" she said looking in his eyes "I felt so horrible after everyone saw I tried to kill myself but the rope wasn't tight enough" she said rubbing her neck where if you looked close enough you could see a scar. "I tried again" she said showing her wrists which were scar as well.

"But it didn't work so I dealt with my new name as a slut, I party hard and had sex. A lot of it, and drank, got high anything I could do to take the pain away" she looked at his face; he was shocked but didn't show it. He just looked in her eyes as she told her story with no emotion "That's when I got kicked out and the pain is still here" she said holding her heart.

"But you could have stopped it" he said.

She smiled and moved closer "You can't stop something when you have a knife to your throat" she said "He told everyone I wanted it like that, that I was some kind of a freak"

Peter sat back and looked away to a game of basketball going on "I didn't make Manny" he said

"I know" she said "That's why don't completely hate you Peter" she said putting her stuff away "Well I have to get to class bye" she said.

"See you later" called Peter more a question.

Carmen looked back at him "Yea, sure" she said and headed to English.

Peter didn't have a clue of what was to come.