Return my memory Pt4
(A/N) I guess I never got as much reviews but I don't mind. I'll still carry on! Well I really don't know how many chapters I'm gonna take but what the hell, ENJOY!
"Hi, hon- Xiao? What wrong?" asked my mom sounding concerned.
Guess she seen my mascara running down. Those red eyes didn't help nor the tears.
"Umm, we have to talk." I said quickly. I pushed through the door ran down to the bathroom looking for a cleanser to clean my face. Ning saw me.
"I'm fine!" I said before she could ask. She gave me a concerned look.
"Where's every one?" I asked meaning dad and Gramps.
"Uh they're out… Xiao, what happened?" she yet again looked at me with her face bloomed with worry.
"Oh yeah, can we talk?" I replied.
"Sure." Said both mom and Ning.
"Umm I'm gonna go get dressed." I said not looking at them. They followed me up the stairs. Man did I look that Bad?
I chose a pair of white cotton pjs and sat on my bed cleaning my face. Mom and Ning both looked at me for an explanation.
"It's not that bad!" I smiled but they looked serious.
I sighed. Mom came close and started to undo my hair. It came all loose.
"Xiao?" asked mom again as I finally got in my pjs.
"Honey, did anything bad happen?" Ning moved closer and sat at the end of my bed.
"Okay, well… I hate Chun ling and Shu fang. They all lied to me and were bitchy. I hate them!" I breathed deeply.
"God did you get into a fight?" asked mom sitting down by the chair near my bed.
"No way. I'd win easily! Gosh, I don't want to hurt them!" I laughed. Auntie joined me but mom looked serious.
"Then what? Has anyone hurt you? Like abuse hmm?" She said reaching over to stroke my hair.
"Mom! Seriously! Actually no… I'm happy!" I smiled and look at her. She finally smiled too.
I told them about Fai but not including the bra or kisses bits. I didn't want to discuss those types of things with them. I giggled to myself.
"But now… I know! I know what to do! Before I was clouded! Xiao is back. The sun finally came out!" I cheered happily. Then I said, "That's, not… all," I finally began to tell Everything, EVERYTHING! About Jin, Miharu, Me, our love, the accident, out time together, and my pain.
It took like two hours. I didn't miss any detail but… as usual I ended in tears. But now, I wasn't alone to cope with it all. Mom, Ning and Miharu made me a stronger person.
"Xiao, why didn't you tell me? Huh, why?" said mom nearly in tears herself.
"I know, I've been so stupid. But you guys are the best. You and Miharu. You've helped me through all, all of this…" I sighed with my eyes red since all of the crying.
"But you know what? I'm not sad anymore, I don't feel alone. I just realized tonight. I'm free from my pain and I know what to do." I said confidently.
"Yeah?" asked Ning.
"Mom, Ning, I have to go back to Japan." I breathed.
"AW"
"WHAT?"
Replied the voices, and the angry one was mom's.
"Yeah, my life is set there. I can feel it and no one is gonna stop me! After all, how could a repay Miharu?" I smiled even though my mom's face completely fell.
"I love Jin! I still do! No matter what he done, I know now that I can't move on without him. He means too much." I sobbed but it felt good. It was just releasing everything out.
"OH MY, You gonna marry a criminal?" asked mom looking shocked.
"No mom, I have to find out about his story yet. I know Jin wouldn't do it unless he really had to." I sighed.
"Yeah Hui ling. She can marry a gangsta if she wants!" laughed Auntie. I joined her then mom did too. Then we all hugged tight.
"I love you guys!" I whispered.
"We love you too!" replied my gals. These were my proper gals. They didn't despise me, they weren't jealous of me. They cared a great deal for me. I felt the same way too! They ruled.
"Okay… that's a lot to take. Anyone want anything to eat?" Mom said after we pulled apart from the hug.
"I am! I'm going to eat now!" exclaimed auntie and left the room in a hurry.
"You know, I'm not hungry, I'm tired though." I said dropping myself on the bed like I had no skeleton. Ahhh. I breathed happily.
"Well of course, with all the drama-
"One more thing! I have to see Panda, tomorrow." I cut mom off.
"Oh honey, Panda is too far away, I mean c'mon, you got a lot of time. You can go next week." sighed mom tidying up the clothes on the floor. I should have cleaned up after myself but I was in a hurry.
"No mom, don't you get it? I haven't a lot of time… I'm going to Japan soon." I corrected her.
"What? When?" asked mom looking well furious.
"In about, umm 3 days time?" I said turning my back on her. I knew she'd be angry.
Deep sighs were heard then finally I thought she was about to say something…
"I LOVE these doughnuts! What you call Xiao? Creepy kreme's?" asked a very I didn't know, almost stuffed voice.
"Huh!" I asked as I turned to see my aunt stuffed with doughnuts in her mouth. Then we all began to laugh. Wow Auntie could really bright things up. After a crazy time of laughing Auntie said,
"Sorry was I interrupting something?" she looked at mom and feeling slightly scared, ran out of the room.
"Xiaoyu? Do you really want to go back to Japan without staying even a week here?" she hesitated and I again, turned my back on her. I had to tell her that my place was there but I guess it was hard to except, she was a mother.
"Mother I feel so strong about this that it's off the scale! Actually there's no scale because it's even stronger than that." I seriously replied.
"Huh ho… Goodnight Xiao." She said with out no expression in her voice and left the room. I knew she'd find this hard but really she was just sad. But coz mom is stubborn she just decided to be angry instead…
I finally put the light off and slept. Well at least I got that off my chest…
I saw the familiar surroundings... Huh? I was at Mishima Mansion. Wow. So long ago since this. I really couldn't remember that much but everything was the same. Was this a memory? What was it that made this scene well, I couldn't put my finger on it but there was something different. I examined the spacious hallway which had such a modest yet creepy feel to it. Beautiful wooden floors and light modest grey walls filled the area. It was all coming back. I remember now the creamy designer Italian sofa's by the corner and when I looked over, they were still there. To the other corner lay two sophisticated pillars and in the middle of them stood the familiar wide marble staircase. From the back I could almost remember the huge glass doors which headed to the kitchen and to my left were other unknown glass doors were I had chose not to enter. Wow the Mishima mansion hallway... Why was I here again?
Ever slightly I noticed something at the corner of my eye. It was my hair… but wait? Did I somehow have haircut? It was way shorter. Now thinking about it I looked way shorter. I was wearing my Mshima school outfit. Huh? What happened? I looked at least sixteen! I climbed the stairs fast and I knew where I was heading.
The Balcony! My only way out of this mansion. I saw the huge glass doors that lead to my goal of freedom. I ran, I sprinted. I didn't stop. The automatic glass doors opened and I immediately felt the surrounding area. Some happy memories entered my brain and I couldn't stop thinking about them. Sure I was going crazy but it felt so good. So happy.
Happy enough to jump off the balcony and die. I kept laughing. I got near to the balcony. I was so close to vaulting over… Lalalala
Push yourself… up and weeeeeeee… I jumped.
Whiteness… Complete bright whiteness. Bright felt so... So safe. I think I was floating.
I closed my eyes and enjoyed the sensation.
"So… bright" I whispered slightly.
"Can you hear me?" said a gentle, concerned voice.
"Hmm? Who are you?" I said all slowly and carefree.
"Xiao, I'm here!" replied the voice louder this time. Was it Jin?
"Jin? Are you there?" I asked slowly.
"Can't you see me? I'm here!" insisted the voice of Jin. I felt a hand touch my waist… ahh Jin. He hugged me from behind. Those arms wrapped around felt like heaven… those strong arms.
"You're here!" I breathed happily. I felt glowing inside.
"Shhh…" he whispered in my ear.
"Jin?" I asked feeling completely happy but warm.
"Xiaoyu, don't trust me. Ask questions okay? I don't want you to get hurt again." He whispered and kissed my cheek.
"Jin? What are you saying?" I asked totally confused. I? Questions? Trust?
"Listen? You your senses and heightened protection… Keep your eyes open." He finally breathed.
"Jin… please…" I responded all carefree and warm. Was I high?
"Just do it." He ordered kindly and began to kiss my bare neck. Wait? Bare? I looked down in horror. I was naked. But somehow, I didn't care plus, it felt like Jin was too. Then I felt his hands pull away.
"No don't go!" I whispered softly.
"Be careful… Be careful…"
I yawned as I woke up. What the HELL? My cheeks immediately flushed red and I began grinning crazily. Then I started to laugh. OMG! What a dream!
I looked at the clock by the end table and saw the number that said 7:26 am.
I stretched letting out another immense yawn then I got up and… umm, wait. How the?
Thereflection on my mirror showed me, but there was a slight, well, BIG, difference.
I was naked!