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Let Love Be Your Energy................chappie 13
Last time:
Why couldn't everything just be normal again? Why was it so painful? Trunks felt ache in his heart. The bond withdrawal affected him in a severe way. She had flown off in fright. He was worried for her a great deal. She thought she was fourteen, just a kid as she had said.
Where would she go now?
What would she do?
"Blast this damn amnesia!"
She was pregnant with his child too. Leonardo might be out of the way now, but Pan's old life and memories with the one who loved her more than any living thing in the universe was the furthest thing away from her. And she didn't even now it.
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Pan flew as fast as she could away from the balcony. Below her, the city seemed to whiz by as if it was a blur. The wind whistled in her ears and blew her hair around her face.
But she didn't care.
She was wearing a skimpy nightdress that kept rising up her leg.
But she didn't care.
There was a pain in her head, a pain that seems to split her head into two. Her bite mark was red raw and burning. Heat and pain radiated across her entire head and seemed to want to slow her down. Pan wanted to tear her head off, to get rid of the pain...and the images. They were there in her mind, wanting her to see them. The voices too. It was their voices, especially his: the lavender-haired saiyan. Tears ran down her face because of all of this.
But she didn't care.
All she wanted was to get somewhere safe where she could rest and get rid of the pain. She bit back a cry of pain as she decided her destination.
~Grandma Chi-Chi's~ she thought.
Pan changed direction due east and spotted the house. She had hardly any energy left. Her sickness and nausea along with what she had found out and the pain she was feeling had completely sapped her energy. As she landed on the front lawn, she gasped as nausea hit her again. She forced herself to stand and slowly made her way to the back door which would be open.
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Chi-Chi opened the oven and sniffed the cake. It smelt scrumptious and looked mouth-watering. Goten and Bra were coming round today. Chi-Chi wished she knew where Pan was. She was worried sick.
It was at that moment that she heard a noise at the back door. Chi-Chi turned and dropped the oven gloves she was holding.
"Pan?"
"G...Grandma...help me," Pan rasped before she fell forward in exhaustion.
Chi-Chi darted forward and caught her Granddaughter before she hit the ground. She nearly recoiled at the heat that radiated off Pan's skin. She turned her over and looked into her eyes. They were half-open and her breathing was laboured.
"Hold on, Pan."
Chi-Chi lifted Pan up and quickly laid her on the couch. She grabbed a cloth and soaked it in ice cold water before putting it on Pan's forehead. Pan moaned at the touch of the coldness against the heat of her skin. She closed her eyes and tried to relax, but to no avail.
Chi-Chi put her cheek to Pan's, "You've got a nasty fever Pan."
"It hurts, please stop the pain," breathed Pan. More tears fell from her eyes.
"Where does it hurt, honey?"
Pan bit her lip as another wave of nausea hit her. She sat up, the cold cloth falling to the floor. She clutched her head as the voices and images started again. Chi-Chi looked at her in worry.
"Pan, try to relax..."
"I can't!" Pan exclaimed, as she gripped her head again, her hair falling forward from her shoulders. Chi-Chi's eyes widened at the sight of Pan's bite mark. It was the deepest shade of red that existed and it had swelled to great proportions. It seemed to be pumping with excess of blood. Chi-Chi grabbed the sides of Pan's face and turned her towards her.
"Tell me. Where were you before you came here?"
Pan tried to turn away, but her Grandma's grip was too strong.
"At the palace. He was there..."
"Who was there?"
"Him..." she flinched in ache, "...Trunks..."
Chi-Chi nodded and touched her Granddaughter's bite mark. It was red and painful because she had either been in close contact with Trunks for too long and was crying out to be bitten again or her exhaustion had started a cycle of bond withdrawal. It was probably a bit of both. Pan cried out in pain as Chi-Chi touched it.
"Make them stop, make them stop..." Pan thrashed her head from side to side, mumbling and moaning in pain. It was as if someone was invading her head with noise and pain.
"Make who stop Pan? Please tell me or I can't help you."
"The voices in my head! It's their voices, and it's their faces in my head...especially his...these visions or whatever are driving me mad!!"
Her voice broke off into a sob as she clutched her head. Chi-Chi got up, in understanding of what she had to do, and returned with a small, sharp knife. Pan's eyes widened.
"I can only make some of the pain go away. Trust me."
Pan tried to hold herself still as Chi-Chi brushed Pan's hair away from her bite mark. Holding the knife horizontally above Pan's neck, Chi-chi put it to the skin. Pan could feel the sharpness of it, but it hadn't cut at the skin. Chi-Chi glanced at her before pulling the knife along her bit mark, cutting the skin and drawing blood.
Pan gasped as the blade severed her skin. The pain seemed to get worse around her neck and she tried not to cry out. But as she felt her hot blood seep down her neck, the pain seemed to numb itself. It was as if the tension in her neck had broken.
Pan breathed in heavily as the ice-cold cloth was dabbed at her neck to stop the bleeding. It was true that some of the pain was gone. The images and the voices seemed to quieten producing a smaller pain than before but her nausea was still there. Pan wrapped her arms around her stomach and squeezed her eyes shut.
Chi-Chi saw this, "What's wrong?"
"The pain in my neck has gone and the voices and images are still there but not as strong or painful, and I feel so...nauseous."
Chi-Chi looked into Pan's onyx eyes, "You're just exhausted. You've worked yourself up to much. Your temperature is still high: you need to sleep and rest and..."
"I'm gonna be sick," interrupted Pan, "for the second time today..."
Pan got up and ran to the bathroom with all the energy she possessed and emptied the contents of her stomach for the second time. She felt the acid of it burning up her throat and pain held her stomach like a hug. When it stopped, she flushed the chain and sat back. Her breathing became irregular and Chi-Chi rushed to her. Fresh tears were running down her face and she pulled her Granddaughter into a hug. Pan began to sob into her Grandmother's shoulder.
"Why is this happening to me? Why?"
"I don't know sweetie," hushed Chi-Chi, rubbing her shoulders.
"Am I that bad that someone is punishing me?"
"No! Don't think that. Just relax; sleep."
"I'm so confused..."
"Don't worry, okay?"
"Where is Mum?" asked Pan.
Chi-Chi froze. Because of her amnesia, she though Videl was still alive, "She's gone out. She'll be back soon."
When Chi-Chi next looked at Pan, she was asleep on her shoulder. She carried her to a bedroom and laid her on the bed. Her temperature was still high, though not as high as before. Chi-Chi left her and returned to the kitchen.
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Trunks breathed heavily and closed his eyes. He had been feeling weird for the last hour or so since Pan had left. He hoped she was okay. What he was feeling was probably what she was feeling. Although they were both suffering from bond withdrawal, occasional pain would be sent to Trunks.
He wondered where she was when his videophone rang. Trunks sat up on the sofa and answered the call. A screen popped up and Chi-Chi was there.
"Oh, hi Chi-Chi, how are you doing?"
Chi-Chi's face was serious, "She's here, you know."
"You mean Pan?"
Chi-Chi nodded.
Trunks sighed relieved, "Is...is she okay?"
"She came here in a terrible state, Trunks. What happened? She managed to tell me she was at the palace."
"She heard something that she shouldn't have. She...she went ballistic and sort of broke down before she flew off. What's wrong with her?"
"She came here and she couldn't walk. She had no energy left. She was clutching her head and kept saying stuff about voices and images in her head. It was causing her pain. Her.her bite mark was red raw and was ready to burst Trunks. That's extreme bond withdrawal. And mixed with her exhaustion and nausea it had become very serious. I had to cut it open to let the blood free itself. Then, thankfully, she fell asleep."
Trunks looked to the ground, "She's been having flashbacks of her life with me. She told me so. Combined with what she found out today and the confusion it's caused, she probably just fell apart. I haven't had bond withdrawal as bad as that. Her bite mark needed to be bitten and decided that was the best time to tell her. But my Mother told me that I would get the worst of the bond withdrawal as I know what is going on."
"She's finding out what's going on the hard way and it's causing her confusion. She's completely burnt out. All she needs is a good night's rest and she should be okay for now."
Trunks smiled, "Thank you Chi-Chi. Please, look after her...because I can't."
Chi-Chi nodded, "I will. She threw up as well before she fell asleep. She's pregnant."
Trunks' eyes widened, "I know. How did you know?"
"I'm a woman Trunks. I've had two children of my own. Being sick twice in the morning in one day is pregnancy. It isn't...his, is it?"
"No: the baby is mine."
Chi-Chi sighed in relief, "I just hope that everything's back to normal before she starts to show. She thinks she's a virgin because of her amnesia."
"I know...I just want everything to be back to normal, but that's too much to ask. I can't take it when I see her with him. It hurts so much. Why did it have to happen to us? Why not anyone else? When she finds out she's pregnant and if she still has amnesia, I think it's going to kill her. I'm scared Chi-Chi, so scared for her...I don't want to lose her..."
"And you won't. Trust me, it'll turn out fine. I know how much you love each other: you would die for her and she would die for you. Just wait, everything will be okay. Have hope," said Chi-Chi.
"Thank you Chi-Chi. Please, don't tell anyone else about Pan's pregnancy."
"I won't. Bye then, take care."
"Bye..." The screen vanished and Trunks flopped back down on the couch. He was scared for her: a lot. If she was experiencing that much bond withdrawal without knowing the truth, what would his be like: painful. And deep down, he knew that if she didn't remember soon, there was only so much he could take, and that it would kill him. Although he had vowed to wait for her, his body had other ideas. But he would fight on, he would fight on.
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Pan opened her eyes to darkness. As her eyes adjusted to the blackness, she looked around and noticed she was in her old bedroom. It was like before minus many of her personal things. She sat up slowly and winced in pain as a hot searing ache rushed to her head. She took some deep breaths and the pain vanished. She stretched cat-like before slipping out of the bed. The floor was cold on her feet.
She slowly walked to a door opposite and switched on the light. She blinked her eyes at the brightness and slowly opened them to adjust to the light. She was in the bathroom. She walked to the mirror to look at her reflection and laughed.
She looked an absolute state, but she felt much better than before. Her hair was matted and all wrong and her skin was blotchy. Pan tilted her head to the side to look at her bite mark and was surprised.
Before, when it had been throbbing with intense pain, it was as if she knew how it looked like: red raw, big and bursting with blood. But now it was back to normal, except that the two puncture marks that should have been there as a bite had been replaced by a thin line from when Chi-Chi had cut it.
Pan knew that what had happened was the result of not getting it bitten. She knew the inevitable: she would have to return to Leonardo to get it bitten before it happened again. She growled. She didn't want to do that, not after what she had found out. It was confusing, but she rather got an idea about what they were talking about. Pan felt a lump form in her throat and immediately thought of something not pertaining to the subject. She didn't want to get herself worked up again.
After a refreshing bath, Pan felt refreshed; but the confusion lingered in her mind. She needed to get it sorted and there was one person she knew who knew all there was to come for her and answer all of her questions.
~Yes~ Pan thought, ~I'll go see her~
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Senai closed her eyes as she finished her daily gazing. She felt more awake than ever, as she knew that this day the sun was happy and the birds were singing hymns of gratitude to their environment.
Senai got up slowly and grabbed her walking stick. She wasn't young anymore and her bones ached with every step. But she loved her profession because it was in her blood and she would continue it until the day she died.
She came to sit at her table. Senai knew that she was coming here, she could sense her troubled mind and her jaded signals were fluctuating wildly all over the place. Senai waited until she came.
The door closed and then there was silence.
"Come in, my child," Senai rasped with a cough.
Pan stepped through the beaded veil that hung from the frame of the door. She smiled at Senai. Senai was quite a short woman but she still had features that told others that she was once very beautiful. Her skin now was old and she wore glasses and long robes.
"It is good to see you, Senai."
"Even better to see you, my dear Pan. And don't worry about the statue."
Pan frowned, "What statue?"
Pan's hand knocked over a small statue of a tall woman as she glanced around.
"Oh! I'm sorry!"
"I said don't worry about it," replied Senai.
Pan blushed and took a seat in the chair opposite Senai.
"I knew you were coming here."
Pan smiled, "You know everything Senai."
Senai nodded and considered the possibility, "Perhaps..."
In truth, she did. You see, Senai was an Oracle. Although the Oracles and most of their descendants had been killed by the Queen of the Seventh Era, Senai's ancestors had lived on and pursued their profession. Senai and her ancestors had been the Oracles that the Sons preferred since the beginning of their existence. Senai knew everything there was to know, even before it happened. She knew that Pan had amnesia and all that had happened since. She even knew some of what was to happen next.
"So," began Senai, "How is my Great Great Grandson?"
Pan sighed, "He's okay, Senai, but I think that it's over between us."
"I know that Pan. Leonardo sometimes has a one-track mind. But if my daughter had taken up being an Oracle, this Oracle line might have continued. Leonardo could have had a great mind. Male Oracles are believed to be non-existent but they can see things that us women cannot. After me, there will be no more in this line unless any of my other Grandchildren want to learn."
Pan smiled, "So, how old are you then seeing as you think you're going to die any second?"
Senai laughed, "247 years 7 months and 27 days. The oldest saiyan ever recorded was 278 years and the average time for a saiyan is 250 years. But seeing as my bones are weak, I don't think I have long."
"That's a shame. So...do you know when you're going to die?"
"When, I'm not too sure, but how I do I know and I have to say that it's very peaceful."
Pan grinned and looked around the room. She loved this place. It was a small room painted a deep red. Bookcases and shelves lined the walls filled with dusty books and strange ornaments that seemed to stare at you. The floor was magnificently covered with exotic rugs. There was always incense burning which gave the room a wonderful smell. The table Pan was sitting at was made of oak and was polished. In front of Senai was a crystal ball, which reflected the light that emanated from the chandelier above. There were also tarot cards.
"I have a problem, Senai. I'm so confused about recent events and I think I'm going mad as I keep hearing voices in my head..."
"Do you have any idea how this all started?" asked Senai.
"After the Earthquake was when I first encountered confusion through confrontation. The Prince wanted to keep me for some reason. Then, in the Main Street he came. I've seen him after that as well. He even...abducted me from Leonardo's home. Hmm...Leonardo. I say that it is over, though I can't end it. I'm bonded to him: his bite mark on my neck. But...I don't love him. I don't want to have sex with him and I can't think of why if we're bonded. You don't just fall out of love when you're bonded! I'm surprised my Grandma even let me bond at fourteen!"
Senai nodded.
"Then, it's the visions. They're always about him...things that I don't remember happening at all. Maybe it's the future, but that can't be true because...it can't. One of them was when I was kissing him and another about his family. One was about a time when I was supposedly seriously hurt. It's just confusing...I don't understand. I heard them both talking today and I rather gathered that I don't belong to Leonardo. But then, why am I with him and why is he with me? Are they...are they fighting over me?"
She paused.
"Because if they are...I won't allow it. It is my mind and my body. Everything that's happened has caused all my energy to diffuse from my body. I felt ill this morning and my...the bite mark on my neck had to be cut open. I just want it to end...Is it possibly all my fault?"
She stopped and one solitary tear fell from her onyx eye, down her smooth cheek and fell onto her lap.
"Pan, my child, do not cry for none of this is your fault. Please just listen to what I have to say. I'll deal out my tarot cards and see what happens."
Senai picked up the tarot cards with her jewelled hand. She shuffled them for a moment or two before setting the 22 cards face down on the table in the shape of a triangle.
"Here we go."
Senai concentrated and lifted her hand above the cards. She rested it down on one of the cards and turned it over.
"Justice," said Senai revealing the card to Pan, "You feel neglected but you're not. Stay calm and think things through carefully. Trust your heart as much as your head."
Pan closed her eyes. Her Grandfather always used to say to trust your heart. But what was her heart saying?
"The Judge," said Senai, "Make sure you know who your real friends are. Things will change for the better. You will see someone in a different light."
"And the last card?" asked Pan.
Senai stretched her hand out and stopped above the top one. The top one was always last and the most important. Senai knew what this card held.
She turned it over and Pan gasped.
"The Lovers. You need to make a decision about the future. No one can force you to do anything. Deep feelings revolving around you are resurfacing. You've got to accept that."
Pan looked to the floor. Getting The Lovers card was a genuine sign that love of some sort was about to come your way, whether you wanted it to or not. She felt...apprehensive inside. After all the commotion that had happened in the last week and a half, Pan felt that this would just confuse everything more. Somewhere deep, she felt sick at the thought of love.
"But how can there be love? I'm bonded to someone already..."
"I know how you are feeling and the cards have revealed to you what you are feeling," said Senai, "Remember what the cards have told you and trust in them. They can help you. I know that you still may feel a bit confused, but please just listen to me."
Pan looked deep into Senai's eyes, which were filled with intense seriousness.
"Just try to forget about Leonardo for a while. Go your own way. I know that you don't love him so leave him. It doesn't matter about the bite mark right now. You're bite mark became like it was today because it had to be bitten, but if you stay away from the cause, it shouldn't happen for a while. And when it does, just cut it like before. It won't always work: then you'll have to go back to the cause. But just push him out of your mind. These visions of yours, please regard them as special. I leave it up to you how you decipher them. The nausea you are feeling is sickness. The voices and the pain in your head are partly to do with your injury following the Earthquake and partly because of your bond with another. As I said before. Stay away from the cause and you should be okay. What you heard this morning, I can't help you with. Thinking about it might cause more pain but it's up to you how you deal with it."
Pan said, "I understand, but why is this happening to me? And why now?"
Senai sighed, "Okay, listen to me. I'm going to tell you this once. How you interpret it is your choice."
Pan leaned in.
"Something bad is going to happen on this planet. Something very bad. Worse than anything ever before. Evil is all around us this very moment. It's in the air, but normal saiyans can't sense it. It's waiting for the right moment to strike; the right occurrence to commence. And when it does, certain individuals will be affected in such a deep way that it will tear this planet into two. It's already been working among the saiyans. It is making sure certain things happen and certain things don't happen. It's slowly taking over lives. Pan...you have something within you that you don't know you have. You have a past that if was ever known to you, would make you run and hide. The unlikely to you is the likely to your past."
Pan felt a lump in her throat. Senai was right, she didn't know who she was. And this evil was probably messing about with everything. She had to get away.
She stood up, "Thank you Senai, for everything. I'll take the cards seriously and what you've said so seriously too. I'm going to stay with my Great Aunt Valise, my Grandmother's sister. She lives on the other side of this planet in the middle of the Oasis. It's quiet and solitary. I think it will calm me down. Thank you...bye."
Pan stole one last glance at the tarot cards on the table before turning around and exiting the room with new ambitions.
"I hope it will help you Pan, I hope it will..."
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I really enjoyed writing this chapter, so I've made it as best as possible. It's 8 pages worth!
Here is the next chappie! It's really loooooooooooooooooooong! So be warned that you're gonna be hooked for a while!
Let Love Be Your Energy................chappie 13
Last time:
Why couldn't everything just be normal again? Why was it so painful? Trunks felt ache in his heart. The bond withdrawal affected him in a severe way. She had flown off in fright. He was worried for her a great deal. She thought she was fourteen, just a kid as she had said.
Where would she go now?
What would she do?
"Blast this damn amnesia!"
She was pregnant with his child too. Leonardo might be out of the way now, but Pan's old life and memories with the one who loved her more than any living thing in the universe was the furthest thing away from her. And she didn't even now it.
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Pan flew as fast as she could away from the balcony. Below her, the city seemed to whiz by as if it was a blur. The wind whistled in her ears and blew her hair around her face.
But she didn't care.
She was wearing a skimpy nightdress that kept rising up her leg.
But she didn't care.
There was a pain in her head, a pain that seems to split her head into two. Her bite mark was red raw and burning. Heat and pain radiated across her entire head and seemed to want to slow her down. Pan wanted to tear her head off, to get rid of the pain...and the images. They were there in her mind, wanting her to see them. The voices too. It was their voices, especially his: the lavender-haired saiyan. Tears ran down her face because of all of this.
But she didn't care.
All she wanted was to get somewhere safe where she could rest and get rid of the pain. She bit back a cry of pain as she decided her destination.
~Grandma Chi-Chi's~ she thought.
Pan changed direction due east and spotted the house. She had hardly any energy left. Her sickness and nausea along with what she had found out and the pain she was feeling had completely sapped her energy. As she landed on the front lawn, she gasped as nausea hit her again. She forced herself to stand and slowly made her way to the back door which would be open.
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Chi-Chi opened the oven and sniffed the cake. It smelt scrumptious and looked mouth-watering. Goten and Bra were coming round today. Chi-Chi wished she knew where Pan was. She was worried sick.
It was at that moment that she heard a noise at the back door. Chi-Chi turned and dropped the oven gloves she was holding.
"Pan?"
"G...Grandma...help me," Pan rasped before she fell forward in exhaustion.
Chi-Chi darted forward and caught her Granddaughter before she hit the ground. She nearly recoiled at the heat that radiated off Pan's skin. She turned her over and looked into her eyes. They were half-open and her breathing was laboured.
"Hold on, Pan."
Chi-Chi lifted Pan up and quickly laid her on the couch. She grabbed a cloth and soaked it in ice cold water before putting it on Pan's forehead. Pan moaned at the touch of the coldness against the heat of her skin. She closed her eyes and tried to relax, but to no avail.
Chi-Chi put her cheek to Pan's, "You've got a nasty fever Pan."
"It hurts, please stop the pain," breathed Pan. More tears fell from her eyes.
"Where does it hurt, honey?"
Pan bit her lip as another wave of nausea hit her. She sat up, the cold cloth falling to the floor. She clutched her head as the voices and images started again. Chi-Chi looked at her in worry.
"Pan, try to relax..."
"I can't!" Pan exclaimed, as she gripped her head again, her hair falling forward from her shoulders. Chi-Chi's eyes widened at the sight of Pan's bite mark. It was the deepest shade of red that existed and it had swelled to great proportions. It seemed to be pumping with excess of blood. Chi-Chi grabbed the sides of Pan's face and turned her towards her.
"Tell me. Where were you before you came here?"
Pan tried to turn away, but her Grandma's grip was too strong.
"At the palace. He was there..."
"Who was there?"
"Him..." she flinched in ache, "...Trunks..."
Chi-Chi nodded and touched her Granddaughter's bite mark. It was red and painful because she had either been in close contact with Trunks for too long and was crying out to be bitten again or her exhaustion had started a cycle of bond withdrawal. It was probably a bit of both. Pan cried out in pain as Chi-Chi touched it.
"Make them stop, make them stop..." Pan thrashed her head from side to side, mumbling and moaning in pain. It was as if someone was invading her head with noise and pain.
"Make who stop Pan? Please tell me or I can't help you."
"The voices in my head! It's their voices, and it's their faces in my head...especially his...these visions or whatever are driving me mad!!"
Her voice broke off into a sob as she clutched her head. Chi-Chi got up, in understanding of what she had to do, and returned with a small, sharp knife. Pan's eyes widened.
"I can only make some of the pain go away. Trust me."
Pan tried to hold herself still as Chi-Chi brushed Pan's hair away from her bite mark. Holding the knife horizontally above Pan's neck, Chi-chi put it to the skin. Pan could feel the sharpness of it, but it hadn't cut at the skin. Chi-Chi glanced at her before pulling the knife along her bit mark, cutting the skin and drawing blood.
Pan gasped as the blade severed her skin. The pain seemed to get worse around her neck and she tried not to cry out. But as she felt her hot blood seep down her neck, the pain seemed to numb itself. It was as if the tension in her neck had broken.
Pan breathed in heavily as the ice-cold cloth was dabbed at her neck to stop the bleeding. It was true that some of the pain was gone. The images and the voices seemed to quieten producing a smaller pain than before but her nausea was still there. Pan wrapped her arms around her stomach and squeezed her eyes shut.
Chi-Chi saw this, "What's wrong?"
"The pain in my neck has gone and the voices and images are still there but not as strong or painful, and I feel so...nauseous."
Chi-Chi looked into Pan's onyx eyes, "You're just exhausted. You've worked yourself up to much. Your temperature is still high: you need to sleep and rest and..."
"I'm gonna be sick," interrupted Pan, "for the second time today..."
Pan got up and ran to the bathroom with all the energy she possessed and emptied the contents of her stomach for the second time. She felt the acid of it burning up her throat and pain held her stomach like a hug. When it stopped, she flushed the chain and sat back. Her breathing became irregular and Chi-Chi rushed to her. Fresh tears were running down her face and she pulled her Granddaughter into a hug. Pan began to sob into her Grandmother's shoulder.
"Why is this happening to me? Why?"
"I don't know sweetie," hushed Chi-Chi, rubbing her shoulders.
"Am I that bad that someone is punishing me?"
"No! Don't think that. Just relax; sleep."
"I'm so confused..."
"Don't worry, okay?"
"Where is Mum?" asked Pan.
Chi-Chi froze. Because of her amnesia, she though Videl was still alive, "She's gone out. She'll be back soon."
When Chi-Chi next looked at Pan, she was asleep on her shoulder. She carried her to a bedroom and laid her on the bed. Her temperature was still high, though not as high as before. Chi-Chi left her and returned to the kitchen.
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Trunks breathed heavily and closed his eyes. He had been feeling weird for the last hour or so since Pan had left. He hoped she was okay. What he was feeling was probably what she was feeling. Although they were both suffering from bond withdrawal, occasional pain would be sent to Trunks.
He wondered where she was when his videophone rang. Trunks sat up on the sofa and answered the call. A screen popped up and Chi-Chi was there.
"Oh, hi Chi-Chi, how are you doing?"
Chi-Chi's face was serious, "She's here, you know."
"You mean Pan?"
Chi-Chi nodded.
Trunks sighed relieved, "Is...is she okay?"
"She came here in a terrible state, Trunks. What happened? She managed to tell me she was at the palace."
"She heard something that she shouldn't have. She...she went ballistic and sort of broke down before she flew off. What's wrong with her?"
"She came here and she couldn't walk. She had no energy left. She was clutching her head and kept saying stuff about voices and images in her head. It was causing her pain. Her.her bite mark was red raw and was ready to burst Trunks. That's extreme bond withdrawal. And mixed with her exhaustion and nausea it had become very serious. I had to cut it open to let the blood free itself. Then, thankfully, she fell asleep."
Trunks looked to the ground, "She's been having flashbacks of her life with me. She told me so. Combined with what she found out today and the confusion it's caused, she probably just fell apart. I haven't had bond withdrawal as bad as that. Her bite mark needed to be bitten and decided that was the best time to tell her. But my Mother told me that I would get the worst of the bond withdrawal as I know what is going on."
"She's finding out what's going on the hard way and it's causing her confusion. She's completely burnt out. All she needs is a good night's rest and she should be okay for now."
Trunks smiled, "Thank you Chi-Chi. Please, look after her...because I can't."
Chi-Chi nodded, "I will. She threw up as well before she fell asleep. She's pregnant."
Trunks' eyes widened, "I know. How did you know?"
"I'm a woman Trunks. I've had two children of my own. Being sick twice in the morning in one day is pregnancy. It isn't...his, is it?"
"No: the baby is mine."
Chi-Chi sighed in relief, "I just hope that everything's back to normal before she starts to show. She thinks she's a virgin because of her amnesia."
"I know...I just want everything to be back to normal, but that's too much to ask. I can't take it when I see her with him. It hurts so much. Why did it have to happen to us? Why not anyone else? When she finds out she's pregnant and if she still has amnesia, I think it's going to kill her. I'm scared Chi-Chi, so scared for her...I don't want to lose her..."
"And you won't. Trust me, it'll turn out fine. I know how much you love each other: you would die for her and she would die for you. Just wait, everything will be okay. Have hope," said Chi-Chi.
"Thank you Chi-Chi. Please, don't tell anyone else about Pan's pregnancy."
"I won't. Bye then, take care."
"Bye..." The screen vanished and Trunks flopped back down on the couch. He was scared for her: a lot. If she was experiencing that much bond withdrawal without knowing the truth, what would his be like: painful. And deep down, he knew that if she didn't remember soon, there was only so much he could take, and that it would kill him. Although he had vowed to wait for her, his body had other ideas. But he would fight on, he would fight on.
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Pan opened her eyes to darkness. As her eyes adjusted to the blackness, she looked around and noticed she was in her old bedroom. It was like before minus many of her personal things. She sat up slowly and winced in pain as a hot searing ache rushed to her head. She took some deep breaths and the pain vanished. She stretched cat-like before slipping out of the bed. The floor was cold on her feet.
She slowly walked to a door opposite and switched on the light. She blinked her eyes at the brightness and slowly opened them to adjust to the light. She was in the bathroom. She walked to the mirror to look at her reflection and laughed.
She looked an absolute state, but she felt much better than before. Her hair was matted and all wrong and her skin was blotchy. Pan tilted her head to the side to look at her bite mark and was surprised.
Before, when it had been throbbing with intense pain, it was as if she knew how it looked like: red raw, big and bursting with blood. But now it was back to normal, except that the two puncture marks that should have been there as a bite had been replaced by a thin line from when Chi-Chi had cut it.
Pan knew that what had happened was the result of not getting it bitten. She knew the inevitable: she would have to return to Leonardo to get it bitten before it happened again. She growled. She didn't want to do that, not after what she had found out. It was confusing, but she rather got an idea about what they were talking about. Pan felt a lump form in her throat and immediately thought of something not pertaining to the subject. She didn't want to get herself worked up again.
After a refreshing bath, Pan felt refreshed; but the confusion lingered in her mind. She needed to get it sorted and there was one person she knew who knew all there was to come for her and answer all of her questions.
~Yes~ Pan thought, ~I'll go see her~
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Senai closed her eyes as she finished her daily gazing. She felt more awake than ever, as she knew that this day the sun was happy and the birds were singing hymns of gratitude to their environment.
Senai got up slowly and grabbed her walking stick. She wasn't young anymore and her bones ached with every step. But she loved her profession because it was in her blood and she would continue it until the day she died.
She came to sit at her table. Senai knew that she was coming here, she could sense her troubled mind and her jaded signals were fluctuating wildly all over the place. Senai waited until she came.
The door closed and then there was silence.
"Come in, my child," Senai rasped with a cough.
Pan stepped through the beaded veil that hung from the frame of the door. She smiled at Senai. Senai was quite a short woman but she still had features that told others that she was once very beautiful. Her skin now was old and she wore glasses and long robes.
"It is good to see you, Senai."
"Even better to see you, my dear Pan. And don't worry about the statue."
Pan frowned, "What statue?"
Pan's hand knocked over a small statue of a tall woman as she glanced around.
"Oh! I'm sorry!"
"I said don't worry about it," replied Senai.
Pan blushed and took a seat in the chair opposite Senai.
"I knew you were coming here."
Pan smiled, "You know everything Senai."
Senai nodded and considered the possibility, "Perhaps..."
In truth, she did. You see, Senai was an Oracle. Although the Oracles and most of their descendants had been killed by the Queen of the Seventh Era, Senai's ancestors had lived on and pursued their profession. Senai and her ancestors had been the Oracles that the Sons preferred since the beginning of their existence. Senai knew everything there was to know, even before it happened. She knew that Pan had amnesia and all that had happened since. She even knew some of what was to happen next.
"So," began Senai, "How is my Great Great Grandson?"
Pan sighed, "He's okay, Senai, but I think that it's over between us."
"I know that Pan. Leonardo sometimes has a one-track mind. But if my daughter had taken up being an Oracle, this Oracle line might have continued. Leonardo could have had a great mind. Male Oracles are believed to be non-existent but they can see things that us women cannot. After me, there will be no more in this line unless any of my other Grandchildren want to learn."
Pan smiled, "So, how old are you then seeing as you think you're going to die any second?"
Senai laughed, "247 years 7 months and 27 days. The oldest saiyan ever recorded was 278 years and the average time for a saiyan is 250 years. But seeing as my bones are weak, I don't think I have long."
"That's a shame. So...do you know when you're going to die?"
"When, I'm not too sure, but how I do I know and I have to say that it's very peaceful."
Pan grinned and looked around the room. She loved this place. It was a small room painted a deep red. Bookcases and shelves lined the walls filled with dusty books and strange ornaments that seemed to stare at you. The floor was magnificently covered with exotic rugs. There was always incense burning which gave the room a wonderful smell. The table Pan was sitting at was made of oak and was polished. In front of Senai was a crystal ball, which reflected the light that emanated from the chandelier above. There were also tarot cards.
"I have a problem, Senai. I'm so confused about recent events and I think I'm going mad as I keep hearing voices in my head..."
"Do you have any idea how this all started?" asked Senai.
"After the Earthquake was when I first encountered confusion through confrontation. The Prince wanted to keep me for some reason. Then, in the Main Street he came. I've seen him after that as well. He even...abducted me from Leonardo's home. Hmm...Leonardo. I say that it is over, though I can't end it. I'm bonded to him: his bite mark on my neck. But...I don't love him. I don't want to have sex with him and I can't think of why if we're bonded. You don't just fall out of love when you're bonded! I'm surprised my Grandma even let me bond at fourteen!"
Senai nodded.
"Then, it's the visions. They're always about him...things that I don't remember happening at all. Maybe it's the future, but that can't be true because...it can't. One of them was when I was kissing him and another about his family. One was about a time when I was supposedly seriously hurt. It's just confusing...I don't understand. I heard them both talking today and I rather gathered that I don't belong to Leonardo. But then, why am I with him and why is he with me? Are they...are they fighting over me?"
She paused.
"Because if they are...I won't allow it. It is my mind and my body. Everything that's happened has caused all my energy to diffuse from my body. I felt ill this morning and my...the bite mark on my neck had to be cut open. I just want it to end...Is it possibly all my fault?"
She stopped and one solitary tear fell from her onyx eye, down her smooth cheek and fell onto her lap.
"Pan, my child, do not cry for none of this is your fault. Please just listen to what I have to say. I'll deal out my tarot cards and see what happens."
Senai picked up the tarot cards with her jewelled hand. She shuffled them for a moment or two before setting the 22 cards face down on the table in the shape of a triangle.
"Here we go."
Senai concentrated and lifted her hand above the cards. She rested it down on one of the cards and turned it over.
"Justice," said Senai revealing the card to Pan, "You feel neglected but you're not. Stay calm and think things through carefully. Trust your heart as much as your head."
Pan closed her eyes. Her Grandfather always used to say to trust your heart. But what was her heart saying?
"The Judge," said Senai, "Make sure you know who your real friends are. Things will change for the better. You will see someone in a different light."
"And the last card?" asked Pan.
Senai stretched her hand out and stopped above the top one. The top one was always last and the most important. Senai knew what this card held.
She turned it over and Pan gasped.
"The Lovers. You need to make a decision about the future. No one can force you to do anything. Deep feelings revolving around you are resurfacing. You've got to accept that."
Pan looked to the floor. Getting The Lovers card was a genuine sign that love of some sort was about to come your way, whether you wanted it to or not. She felt...apprehensive inside. After all the commotion that had happened in the last week and a half, Pan felt that this would just confuse everything more. Somewhere deep, she felt sick at the thought of love.
"But how can there be love? I'm bonded to someone already..."
"I know how you are feeling and the cards have revealed to you what you are feeling," said Senai, "Remember what the cards have told you and trust in them. They can help you. I know that you still may feel a bit confused, but please just listen to me."
Pan looked deep into Senai's eyes, which were filled with intense seriousness.
"Just try to forget about Leonardo for a while. Go your own way. I know that you don't love him so leave him. It doesn't matter about the bite mark right now. You're bite mark became like it was today because it had to be bitten, but if you stay away from the cause, it shouldn't happen for a while. And when it does, just cut it like before. It won't always work: then you'll have to go back to the cause. But just push him out of your mind. These visions of yours, please regard them as special. I leave it up to you how you decipher them. The nausea you are feeling is sickness. The voices and the pain in your head are partly to do with your injury following the Earthquake and partly because of your bond with another. As I said before. Stay away from the cause and you should be okay. What you heard this morning, I can't help you with. Thinking about it might cause more pain but it's up to you how you deal with it."
Pan said, "I understand, but why is this happening to me? And why now?"
Senai sighed, "Okay, listen to me. I'm going to tell you this once. How you interpret it is your choice."
Pan leaned in.
"Something bad is going to happen on this planet. Something very bad. Worse than anything ever before. Evil is all around us this very moment. It's in the air, but normal saiyans can't sense it. It's waiting for the right moment to strike; the right occurrence to commence. And when it does, certain individuals will be affected in such a deep way that it will tear this planet into two. It's already been working among the saiyans. It is making sure certain things happen and certain things don't happen. It's slowly taking over lives. Pan...you have something within you that you don't know you have. You have a past that if was ever known to you, would make you run and hide. The unlikely to you is the likely to your past."
Pan felt a lump in her throat. Senai was right, she didn't know who she was. And this evil was probably messing about with everything. She had to get away.
She stood up, "Thank you Senai, for everything. I'll take the cards seriously and what you've said so seriously too. I'm going to stay with my Great Aunt Valise, my Grandmother's sister. She lives on the other side of this planet in the middle of the Oasis. It's quiet and solitary. I think it will calm me down. Thank you...bye."
Pan stole one last glance at the tarot cards on the table before turning around and exiting the room with new ambitions.
"I hope it will help you Pan, I hope it will..."
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That was it! My fingers are hurting but I'm mega pleased with the results of this chapter.
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Quite a shocker for the next chapter! And a big bad cliffhanger!!!!!!!!
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