Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore girls go sue somebody your own size.

A/N: read the bottom note it explains a lot about the sap I turned Jess into.

"Rory what's wrong" Logan sat down next to me and put his arm around me.

I opened the box of chocolates and cried even harder. Inside was a note.

'Rory

I love you

Forever

-Logan'

"Okay way to kill a guy's ego" Logan said sarcastically.

He's mad. Wouldn't you be? He's hardly ever sarcastic that's Jess's thing. He's hurt. Not as hurt as me. I don't know I'd say you're about equal you cried when he told you he loved you and the guy you really do love just told you off. I love him? Is that a statement or a question I can't tell? Question. Yes you are. Yeah I am.

I got up off the bridge and started running.

"I don't love you Logan never did, never will" I called back to him. I stopped for a second.

Harsh. Don't care I'm in love.

"See ya 'round Lory" he called out to me. I knew he knew and I kept running. I ran to the diner and saw Jess leaning on the side of the building. I ran up to him and pinned him against the wall. I leaned in and he did the same.

"Logan" Jess whispered.

"Over never started." I said almost inaudibly.

He leaned in closer and our lips touched. I shivered at the lightness of his touch and pulled him closer. It started out slow but was soon turned into a full fledged make out session in the middle of the night in front of the diner in the drizzle. How cheesy chick flick. I love this. Me too.

I pulled back much to Jess's displeasure. At that moment I remembered part of his book. It seemed to fit here.

"Always and forever you'll be the center of my thoughts." I whispered

"You consume my heart no space for anyone."

"You're on the top of my list you always have been you always will be."

"I've been searching for you since before I met you."

"Now that I found you I guarantee I'll hurt you several times."

"I'll forget you even exist and leave."

"Just to start thinking of you when I'm almost wherever I'm going."

"I can't do this to you.'

"I don't want you to."

"I will."

"I know."

"We can't do this."

"I know."

"We need to stay away from each other."

"You're poison.'

'I know.'

"Good bye Jess Mariano."

"Good bye Rory Gilmore I love you."

"I love you too."

Jess walked away but not without slipping a note in my back pocket.

I walked back home. I went into my room and opened the door. I took out the note and started to read.

'I can't stop loving you Rory but I know that I'm a screw up and I'm going to hurt you whether I mean to or not. I hope you understand but although the chances of me getting over you are slim you need to get over me. I'm going to the wedding but I won't talk to you promised. I'm still going to Yale but it's a big school I don't think we'll see each other all that often. I'm sorry I probably messed things up with you and Richey Rich.

Love always

Jess'

I cried myself to sleep if you can even call it sleep I tossed and turned all night. I got up at least seven times. I got up again and saw someone at my window. It was Jess he had something in his hand and was about to leave it when I got up and opened the door.

Cheese! I know I know none of the characters would ever be this cheesy but you know maybe they would because I know this guy and he reminds me a lot of Jess and he's kind of the cheesy romantic type also. So you know what I dedicate this to him because he's my inspiration for turning Jess into a weak pathetic sap so if you're mad be mad at him and not me. It's fun to blame people. Oh and sorry about the whole sidetrack thing.