This chapter is dedicated to my one reviewer Samantha Thanks for your review.

If this doesn't sound like what would happen after a race I have never been to one or seen one so I couldn't tell you whether or not it's right. Anyway enjoy.

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Alan's eyes scanned over the crowds at the stadium looking for the familiar face of one of his brothers. He sighed every race he would get his hopes up only to have them dashed again by the non appearance of his family.

He fixed a forced smile on his face as some press came up taking photos and asking questions Alan answered some of the questions though he often marvelled over how the press could hear him over the noise of each other.

His face hardened as one of the press stupidly asked him about his family coming to the wedding, "I don't know if my family are coming." Was all he answered before pushing his way through them and into the building adjacent.

Alan walked out of the stadium 20 minutes later after changing and getting a shower. He was wearing normal jeans and t-shirt he smiled as he spotted Tin Tin talking to some young girls. Alan walked behind her and grabbed her shoulders making her jump, "Alan," She exclaimed, "Don't do that." She said smiling at him.

"Sorry," Said Alan not really sounding it at all.

"It's ok. I was just talking to some fans of yours," She said gesturing with her hands to the girls behind her.

Alan smiled, "Well it's always nice to meet fans, hi."

The girls seemed to shell-shocked to be face to face with him to say anything Alan often found this with young girls mainly teenagers when they met him they would go all giggly or just stop moving all together, "Well it was nice to meet you but we should be getting going," He said starting to move away.

"Wait," Came the voice of one of the young girls, "Can we have a photo taken with you?" She asked holding up a small camera which he hadn't noticed before.

"Sure," Said Alan moving over to stand beside the girls, "Tin Tin can take it," He said taking the camera off the girl and handing it to Tin Tin.

Tin Tin smiled and told them to stand closer together Alan stood in the middle of the small group and put his arms around the two nearest girls shoulders he could feel them quivering with excitement under his touch.

5 minutes and several photographs later the girls finally satisfied had walked off smiling and talking excitably between them. Alan shook his head in amusement, "When will they ever learn that I'm a normal person just like everyone else,"

"You'll always be special to them baby cause your famous," Said Tin Tin smiling at him she knew that Alan's fame frustrated him he enjoyed racing and that was why he did it he didn't do it for the money or the fans he truly enjoyed it.

Alan climbed into the driver seat of his normal car not his racing one and Tin Tin got into the passenger seat. Alan reached into his pocket and pulled out a small model of a racing car almost exactly the same as the one he raced and sat it on the dashboard.

Tin Tin looked at it curiously, "you never told me why you always carry that around," she had always wondered the origin of the tiny car knowing it meant a lot to Alan.

"I know," was the only answer she received Alan started up the car and Tin Tin pulled on her seatbelt.

"Are you ever going to tell me?" She asked looking at him as he concentrated on his driving.

"Maybe," He said.

Tin Tin nodded not knowing the reasons for her fiancé's secret she knew it probably had something to do with his family she never knew the finer details of the fight between Alan and his family he didn't often talk about it actually come to think of it he didn't ever talk about it he generally avoided the topic altogether.

That night when Alan was sure Tin Tin was asleep he went over to one of his drawers and lifted some stuff out of it he put the stuff on top of the unit and lifted the bottom of the drawer up Alan reached his hand under and soon found what he was looking for.

He lifted a pile of photos out of the drawer most were of him and his brothers.

Alan found one of him and John lying on their backs in their back garden staring at the stars one night when Alan was about 9 the one time Alan had been completely fascinated by the stars though he would admit he still liked to watch them sometimes.

Another photo was of him and Gordon having a food fight both completely covered in cake and jelly it was Alan's 6th birthday and Gordon had decided as a treat he and his youngest brother should have a food fight Alan still remembered how their Dad had tried to stop the food fight and had ended up more covered in food than either Alan or Gordon.

Another photo was off Alan sitting at Virgil's Piano at the age of 10 thumping on the keys while Virgil looking on worriedly and wondering how he was meant to give his little brother a piano lesson if he didn't listen to anything he said Alan remembered how he had broken several keys during the one and only lesson he had ever gotten on the piano.

Alan soon found the photo he was looking for and smiled at the memory of this one the photo contained him and Scott one of the very few with just the two of them together Alan was 8 in the photo and was standing proudly beside Scott who was crouching down so he was level with his brother holding a small red racing car the same one Alan pulled out of his pocket at that very moment

Alan remembered when Scott had taken him to the shop to buy it Alan had been upset because of their mothers accident so Scott being the oldest had taken him to a toy shop and said he could have anything he wanted from the shop Alan had walked round the shop several times before deciding on the tiny car which only cost $3 he was fascinated by the colour and the shininess of it and wanted it as soon as he spotted it. When he told Scott of his choice Scott had asked did he want anything else but Alan insisted on only getting the small car their mother of course being like any other mother insisted on taking a photo of the two of them with the car.

Alan placed the photos back in the drawer and placed the stuff back on top of them he hardly ever took them out just tonight he felt the need too. He smiled at all the memories the photos had brought and realised that the saying his mother had always loved 'a photo holds a million memories' was true every photo to Alan was very special and he could place a story to nearly every one.

Alan was agonizing over whether to invite his family to the wedding or not he wanted to but he didn't want to be rejected he was worried that if he sent invites they wouldn't come and he would hurt even more.

He looked over at Tin Tin's sleeping form and wondered should he tell her off his worries, he knew it was only a matter of time before the matter of who to invite to the wedding came up.

He smiled as she mumbled something in her sleep about princess' and barbies before turning over so that she was facing Alan.

Suddenly as though she had sensed someone watching her, her eyes snapped open and she spotted Alan standing watching her, "What are you doing up?" She asked sitting up and rubbing sleep out of her eyes.

"Couldn't sleep, sorry if I woke you," He mumbled apologetically.

"That's ok," She said getting out of bed and walking over to him.

"You ok?" She asked touching his cheek.

Alan looked at her wondering how she always seemed to sense his mood, "Yeah just thinking,"

"What about?" She asked gently.

"Nothing you should worry about." He said smiling at her before walking round her and climbing into bed.

Tin Tin frowned as he refused to tell her what was troubling him, "Why do you keep things from me?" She asked him.

"I don't keep things from you." He said trying to reassure her.

"You do," She said putting her hands on her hips, "I hardly know anything about your past and when I ask you about it you change the subject,"

"There's things in my past I would rather not talk about," He mumbled turning away from her hoping she would give it up.

"Like what?" She asked refusing to back down.

Alan didn't answer which frustrated her more, "Alan answer me!" She demanded off him.

Alan turned over and sat up so that he was facing her, "There's things in my past I would rather forget and if I was to tell them to someone then that would drag up loads of memories that I don't want so I'm not telling you, ok?" He said in a low voice that frightened Tin Tin.

Tin Tin was frightened he had never spoken to her like that before Alan saw her frightened expression and softened a bit, "Tin Tin I'm sorry I didn't mean to frighten you," He said standing up and walking up to her.

He tried to hug her but Tin Tin pulled away she had never seen him take that reaction to a question. She ran downstairs and Alan could have smacked himself at his stupidity she was only curious she was right he did avoid his past and he knew he would have to confront it but he wasn't sure he was ready.

He got an idea which could help both of them he walked over to the drawer and got out the photos he had earlier. He walked downstairs and found Tin Tin sitting on the sofa holding a glass of water, "Tin Tin?" He asked, "Can I show you something?"

Tin Tin nodded and Alan walked over and placed the photos in her hands, "these are what I want to forget," He said sadly.

She looked at the top photo it was the one of Alan and Scott, "You want to forget your family?" She asked.

Alan nodded slightly, "Some things about them," He said.

She gasped as she recognised the small car Alan was holding proudly in his left hand, "That's the racing car you always carry around," She said astounded he had owned it since such a young age and that it was still in such good condition.

Alan nodded, "Yeah I was 8 in that photo it was just after my mum was in an accident she was in hospital and I was so upset that Scott," He said gesturing to Scott in the photo, "Took me to a toy shop and said I could have anything I wanted. I chose the car, it's sort of a lucky charm to me cause next day I took it to the hospital with me to see mum who was in a coma because of the accident and I told her about it. She woke up later that day and Scott always joked that the car was lucky over the years I never left it behind where ever I went and it became my lucky charm."

Tin Tin nodded glad that she finally knew the origin of the car. She put the photo down on the table in front of her and looked at the others. She laughed as Alan told her the stories behind each photo and Alan was soon laughing as well.

Tin Tin soon felt as though she had known the Tracy brothers all the life Alan didn't seem to want to shut up about them once he got started Tin Tin didn't mind it was interesting she soon knew each of their personalities she learned that Gordon was closest to Alan in personality but Alan and John shared a strong bond that neither could explain. She learned that Scott was the brother Alan wanted to be most like and that Virgil was the one he admired most cause of the way he could make great music.

Alan's eyes darkened when she reached the last photo the one Alan always avoided looking at when studying the photos.

The photo showed all of the 5 Tracy brothers together smiling and having fun. Obviously the photo had been taken only a few years previously as each of the Tracy brother where grown up in it, but Tin Tin could still see the strong bond between each of them. She was surprised at Alan's reaction to the photo, "What's wrong?" She asked , she personally couldn't see anything wrong with the photo.

"That's the last photo I have of them it was taken on the Christmas we all fell out," He said softly staring at the photo even now he wondered how just 2 hours later they were all at each others throats.

Tin Tin's mouth formed a small O as she looked at the photo each brother looked so happy to be in each others company that Tin Tin wondered how they had such a huge fall out, "How long after this was the fight?" She asked.

"2 hours," Said Alan looking at the clock in the background of the photo.

Tin Tin looked at him sympathetically, "You miss them don't you?" She asked.

Alan nodded, "A lot," He whispered.

"Maybe you should try contact them," She suggested trying to lighten his mood even slightly.

Alan shook his head, "No,"

"Why not?" Asked Tin Tin confused.

"I don't want to contact them hoping to forget about the fight then find out that they still hate me," He said taking the photo of her and putting it face down on the table so he didn't have to look at the happy smiling faces anymore.

"I don't think any family could hold a grudge for that long, Alan," She said softly putting a hand on his knee.

Alan stood up forcing her to remove her hand, "You don't know my family," He said spitefully.

Tin Tin stood up so she was face to face with him though she was several inches smaller than him she tried her best, "No family could hate each other so much that they hate someone for 5 years,"

"Look I was always left out in my family whenever I did something good John or Virgil had done it first and better and whenever I did something they hadn't it would always be 'Oh Scott would have done this or Gordon would have done that'" I was always the odd one out I could never do anything right without it being compared to what my brothers have done," He would have said more but Tin Tin cut him off by putting a finger on his lips.

"Have any of your brothers ever became racing car drivers?" She asked, Alan looked surprised by the question so she continued, "Are any of them famous? Have any of them got loads of girls practically at their feet or guys admiring them in any way possible?" She asked knowing she had caught him off guard.

Alan shook his head not able to say anything, "And," She continued taking the photo out of his hand, "Did any of them look like they hated you in this photo?"

Alan looked at her amazed, "You know I have something fantastic that my brothers will never have," He said staring into her eyes.

"What?" Asked Tin Tin confused.

"Such a brilliant fiancé," He said smiling at her.

Tin Tin blushed profusely at the compliment, "I'm not that great," She said.

"You are, trust me," He said kissing her on the lips gently.

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