Disclaimer: I own nothing, it all belongs to J. K. Rowling, except for the song, that belongs to Evanescence. But I mess with them from time to time.
Perfect by nature
Icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
I looked up from my Potions text long enough to see what the fuss was. I sighed. It was just Draco telling the rest of the Slytherins about his latest plans. I put my book down and studied Draco. I'm very secure in my masculinity, so I can say that Draco is very good-looking, gorgeous, in fact. He seems to be very proud, self-involved and dedicated to being a Death-eater's son. I sighed again. It was all a lie.
Look, here he comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know he
Never was and never will be
I sat back and closed my eyes trying to remember a time when I felt like everyone else, when I thought that Draco was the perfect leader. It was so simple back then. Draco was going to save us from Voldemort. Not save the wizarding world like Potter is destined to, but to save the Slytherins. To save us from becoming what our fathers and mothers have become. I used to believe that, used to bow down to Draco's every whim, but now I know the truth. He's just as lost as the rest of us, he just hides it better.
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
I thought back to when I discovered the mask that Draco wears. I was on my way back from the Great Hall. Draco had been missing and I just assumed he had been studying or planning a prank on Weasley. I headed to my dorm room, which I shared with Crabbe, Goyle, and Draco. When I got close, I heard slight sobs coming from the room. I paused and then went in, to see if someone was hurt. To my surprise, I found Draco sitting on his bed crying. He had received a letter from his father. It said that Draco was to receive the Dark Mark on his 18th birthday. He wasn't invincible either, and he had to get the Mark just like the rest of us. He lost his mask that day, at least in my eyes. Sometimes I wonder what the real Draco is like. He's only shown me a few glimpses of the real him since that day in the dorm. I wonder if even he knows the difference.
It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool
Draco doesn't know how hurt I am that he can't save us. But I can't dwell on that, it's not his fault he can't save us or that we can't save our selves. Sometimes though I wish the lie was back, that I could believe like everyone else does. As I opened my eyes, I noticed that everyone except Draco had left. He looked at me and picked up my discarded Potions book. Silently he handed it to me and smiled.
"I'm sorry you know." He says quietly.
"For what?" I asked.
"For not being able to save you."
And with that Draco went to the dorms, to leave me confused in the common room. I guess he does know that it hurts. A soft smile crossed my face, when I realized what he just gave me. He showed me a little more of the real Draco. And with that, I went back to reading my Potions text.