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Authors Notes: There have been a few suggestions for Ginny to have a heart transplant and it's a very good idea however I have other plans for her condition. Hopefully you all won't get too frustrated with me even though you all know that a heart transplant may fix everything, try to think that it's a muggle thing and they don't know about it just yet. Thanks all.

Chapter Nineteen – This Mask of Mine

"Speaking"

Thinking

Bell was sitting by herself reading a book in the common room when Blaise walked in. He made eye contact with her before he smiled, said a quick goodnight and headed for the boy dorm rooms.

"Hey, Blaise" Bell called. "Can you come over here for a second?"

Blaise looked lightly uncomfortable but went over to sit down anyways. He had been avoiding her for the past few weeks and she was going to find out why, right now.

"Hey Bell. What's up?" He said in a forcefully cheerful tone.

"I've noticed that you've been avoiding me." She stated bluntly.

"Don't be ridiculous. I'm not avoiding you."

She raised an eyebrow at him in disbelief and he looked away uncomfortably.

"What's wrong?" she asked gently.

Blaise didn't know how to begin. It was the most awkward thing that could happen to two best friends. People had been pointing out that Bell might have more than just friend feelings for him. At first he told them they were stupid, but lately he had been noticing the little things that made the idea not as stupid as he thought. He didn't know how to handle a situation like this concerning one of his best friends so he thought giving them some distance would help. But he couldn't avoid her forever and he didn't want to lose such a good friend.

"Bell," he began seriously. "You're one of my best friends and you know that right?"

Bell was getting a weird feeling about where Blaise was going with this but nodded her head. "Yeah, and you're one of my best friends too."

Blaise smiled. "That's good." He was silent again before an idea came to him. "Can I tell you a story?"

"Um…sure."

"Ok. Well, there was once a boy and a girl who had been really good friends since they were ten years old. They were really close and did nearly everything together. The boy thought of this girl as his little sister and took care of her as best as he could. It might have been because of this caring that confused the girl and she started to feel more than just friendship for the boy. The boy eventually found out about this and decided to tell her he didn't feel the same way. He had a lot of trouble thinking of how to break the news to her without ruining their friendship, so you know what he did?"

Bell shook her head. "What did he do?"

Blaise took a deep breath. "He came up with an idea to tell her a story. A story just like the one I'm telling you now…"

Blaise paused for a moment and looked at her. Bell wasn't stupid so she knew what Blaise was trying to say. The way he was avoiding her and the whole 'you are my best friend speech' all made sense now.

He knows I fancy him. She though while panicking. I have to deny it. Deny it!

"Blaise…" she tried to explain. "I…"

"I'm sorry if I ever gave you the wrong idea… " He interrupted her.

"No!" Bell stopped him. "It's not like that. I don't like you. I mean, I do like you, but you're getting it all wrong."

"I am?"

"Yes."

Blaise was sceptical. "Are you sure? There's nothing wrong with…"

Bell shook her head frantically. "Trust me, I'm sure. I…I don't like boys."

"What do you mean you don't like boys?" Blaise asked stupidly.

Bell swallowed the lump in her throat. No turning back now. "I mean... I don't like boys…" she repeated slowly.

It took Blaise a few seconds to interpret what she had said but eventually he understood. "Oh…" he said feeling a bit embarrassed. "So you like…"

Bell could only silent nod her head.

Blaise let out a big sigh and smiled. "Jeez Bell. You could have told me earlier. It would have saved me a lot of grief."

That hurt, but Bell smiled despite the pain she felt. "So now you don't have to worry, ok?"

"Everything's perfect now," Blaise said cheerfully. "You don't know how worried I was when I thought you were fancying me. How awkward would that have been eh?"

Bell laughed forcefully. "Yeah, well now you know that's not possible."

Blaise yawned and stretched his arms above his head. "Well, it's getting late," he said before standing up. "I'm glad we sorted that out Bell. Goodnight. I'll see you in the morning."

He was up the stairs before he could see Bell bury her face in her hands.

I was so scared when I knew what he was trying to say. I felt so exposed. So vulnerable. It was like knowing I fancied him was such a terrible thing. I could see it in his eyes. He was scared.

I tried to deny it but I could tell he didn't believe me. It seemed like the perfect excuse at the moment. I didn't think before I said it though, I was only worried about what was happening then, at that very moment.

The stupid ideas that I come up with. I don't like boys. I can't believe I said that. I practically admitted to him that I am gay, even though I'm not. Oh Merlin. What am I going to do?

It didn't take long for news to travel around Slytherin and soon enough the whole school knew. Other people in the common room had over heard their conversation and spread the news like wild fire.

It was weird because Bell wasn't bothered by her so called 'secret' being known by everyone but the mere thought of Blaise having the slightest clue that she liked him was enough to send her into hiding for a lifetime.

She knew that people were whispering about her but she didn't mind. Blaise and Draco were threatening physical pain upon anyone who teased her about it so the gossip died down rather quickly.

Bell thought the situation was rather funny. A few girls had asked her out and there was even a guy who tried to persuade her he could turn her 'straight' again. It didn't turn out to be as big a disaster as she thought.

"Of all the things you could have said," Draco said as he sat with her in the common room. "Why did you have to tell him you're gay?"

Bell shrugged her shoulders. "It's not like I planned it. It just came into my mind so I blurted it out."

Draco shook his head. "Is it that terrible to let him know you fancy him?"

"Yes it is. You didn't see the look on his face. He was petrified. We could never be this close again if he knew. Plus, I think things have worked out quite well."

Draco could only sigh. "As long as you're happy."

Bell smiled at him genuinely. "I am."

Ginny was in bed at Malfoy Manor after she had fainted again, this time in the middle of embroidery lessons with Narcissa. She was feeling fine after she had woken up, but Serena and Narcissa insisted she stay in bed for the rest of the day, just to get her strength back.

Fainting had become a frequent problem for Ginny, since Janine and Steven had still not found new medication that could keep her condition stable. She had to take a few different potions each day. One for pain relief, one to keep her heart rate stable, one to keep her condition under temporary control and one for the side effects from the temporary medication.

Sarah was siting next to Ginny on the bed to keep her company. It pained Sarah to see the little Girl she had half raised in such poor health.

"I can't wait till Draco comes home for Christmas," Ginny said with a small smile. Her face was pale and her voice was very soft, but at the mention of Draco her cheeks were rosy red.

"Draco isn't coming back for Christmas though," Sarah said sadly.

"Why not?" Ginny asked.

"I think Lord Malfoy had instructed him to stay at Hogwarts."

"Oh." Ginny said with disappointment evident in her voice.

"I could ask Madam to persuade Lord Malfoy and let Draco come home for Christmas…" Sarah suggested.

"Oh, no, that won't be necessary," Ginny said, feeling guilty. "I don't want to cause any problems. I'll just see him at the end of the school year."

Sarah couldn't help but wonder if Ginny could make it to the end of Draco's school year. Ginny's health was deteriorating and it was becoming more and more visible with each passing day. The tiredness, loss of appetite, loss of strength and sleeping more and more. Ginny was dying.

"I'll go get you some tea," Sarah said before she got off the bed.

"Thank you, Sarah," Ginny said with a smile.

After Sarah had left the room, I finally had the chance to get out of bed and stretch my muscles. Being cooked up in this room for so long it was starting to irritate me. Maybe walking around will make me feel better. The hallway was empty so I decided to head to the right. There's really nothing interesting to see but before I know it, I'm standing in front of Draco's bedroom.

It was the most natural thing to open the doors and step inside.

I had been in this room many, many times in my life but it had never been so obvious that it smelled like him. It's a silly thing, I know. I miss him so much, it's made my senses go into overdrive.

Scanning the room, there were bits and pieces everywhere that screamed this wasn't just Draco's room, it was also mine.

On his desk there was the chewed on quill I often used and my royal blue ink. His bookshelf held some of my old sketch books and my favourite novels. The fluffy green blanket that was originally in my room is also here, draped over his couch. This room occupies both or things, but I am standing here without him.

They all think that I don't know what's happening and it's kind of funny. How could I possibly not know my own body, my own heart? If Janine and Steven don't have any new medication or ideas I won't make it to the end of Draco's school year. I'm not even sure I'll make it past Christmas, but at least I was able to see him one last time at the station.

I'm not scared though. I've always known there was the possibility of death and all these years were just a bonus. I only wish there was something I could do for those I leave behind. I really hope Draco can forgive me once he knows the truth. Only after death am I brave enough to let him know who I really am.

Draco sat quietly by himself cursing whomever that had come up with a stupid idea like the Yule Ball. Not only was it boring, it was a total waste of his precious time.

"Why the glum face?" Bell asked before sitting down beside him.

Draco turned his head towards her and raised one eyebrow. "There's obviously nothing to be happy about, now is there?"

Bell smiled and pulled Draco onto his feet. "Come on. Dance with me."

Draco allowed himself to be taken to the middle of the dance floor and before he knew it, he was dancing.

"I'm glad at least you know how to dance," Bell said with relief.

Draco smirked. "Had your feet stood on more than a few times I presume?"

Bell shook her head. "You would think that if you asked someone to dance, you would know how to dance, but No…they would rather stomp on your feet. Idiots."

Draco laughed and spun Bell around. "You can't expect everyone to know how to dance, Bell. It's a skill not easily mastered."

Bell smiled. "I can see someone's modest."

Draco smiled cheekily at her before leading her into a grand dip. "Why be modest when it's true."

"And when did you master this skill?" Bell challenged.

"When I danced with Ginny."

Bell lost her cheeky grin and looked Draco in the eyes. The tone in his voice was of pride but also sadness. And looking at him, she could tell he meant everyone word that came out of his mouth. Suddenly she felt that dancing with him was wrong. That it was a privilege reserved only for his fiancé. She stood still instantly.

"What's wrong?" Draco asked her concerned.

"Ginny should be here with you."

Draco frowned in confusion. "You know she can't be here."

Bell sighed. "I know. But dancing with you now feels like I'm invading something special that you two have."

Draco laughed softly and started leading the dance again. "Don't be silly, Bell," he said gently. "If I didn't have you for a date tonight I would probably be stuck with Parkinson. This isn't just for Ginny and I. It's for the special women in my life. My Mother, Ginny and you."

"What about me?" Blaise said as he had suddenly turned up next to them.

Draco stopped and smirked at him. "As much as you look like a woman Zabini, I don't swing that way." He teased.

Blaise laughed. "In that case, go dance with someone else. You've hogged Bell enough or tonight."

Draco was more than happy to stand aside as his two friends danced.

"Couldn't find anyone else to dance with you?" Bell teased.

Blaise smirked. "Like that would ever happen. Girls line up to dance with me."

"Oh really?" Bell said trying not to laugh.

"Yes and I shooed them all away just for you."

"And why would you do that?" Bella asked curiously.

"To have the last dance with you of course."

He said it like it was the most naturally thing to do. Bells heart leap at his words and it was the happiest moment of her night. She had everything she could possible want.

End of Chapter Nineteen .Thank you for reading and I hope you review.

Hey all. I know nothing really happened in this chaper but I thought I should get started with the awkward relationship between Bell and Blaise becasue it becomes quite significant in future chapters. The next chapter will be much more Ginny and Draco orientated. I promise.