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Chapter Twenty – Let Go
"Speaking"
Thinking
"There is a procedure that could help Ginny."
Everyone in the room was quiet as Steven said those words. Ginny was sitting up in her hospital bed, Molly was beside her and Serena was in a chair.
Janine stood beside Steven waiting for him to continue.
"It's been used on patients with similar symptoms as Ginny's and it's a combination of wand surgery and toxication."
"What is wand surgery and toxication?" Serena asked.
"Basically," Janine answered, "Wand surgery is when we can directly operate on Ginny's heart without exposing her chest cavity. Toxication will be used in conjunction, where toxic potions will be used to try to improve her condition."
"Wouldn't that be like taking poison?" Molly asked with worry.
"Yes, that's exactly what it is. The wand surgery is there to help us control the amount of toxication to the heart because too much will lead to immediate cardiac arrest. You need to know that this is a dangerous procedure but it is necessary if Ginny is to have any chance of surviving."
"Will this definitely heal her?" Serena asked.
"If the procedure is successful, there will be dramatic improvement however there is a 50 chance she will die during the treatment."
Serena frowned and Molly gasped.
"We know the chances aren't great," Steven said. "But we really encourage you to consider it. It may be the only chance Ginny will get."
Serena and Molly looked at each other unsure of what decision to make.
Ginny had remained silent while absorbing the information. Pulling the covers off, she swung her legs over the side of the bed and slipped on her shoes.
"What are you doing?" Molly asked.
"I want to go for a walk," Ginny answered quietly.
"I'll come with you," Molly suggested while also getting up.
"No, it's ok mum. I just want some time alone."
Ginny closed the door behind her and walked towards the garden.
It had been over an hour before Molly, Steven and Janine decided to split up to go look for Ginny because she had not returned.
Janine was the one who found her sitting on a bench in the garden watching a group of children play.
Janine sat down and placed a hand on Ginny's shoulder, who kept her eyes on the kids as she spoke.
"I remember playing in this garden all alone before I met Draco." Ginny said with a sad smile on her lips. "There wasn't much to do by yourself, and it was even less fun when you're sick."
Ginny turned her head to look at Janine.
"I've been sick my whole life. 13 years might not sound like a lot but I'm really tired."
Ginny closed her eyes and breathed in deeply. "I really am, so very tired."
"Ginny," Janine said as she placed her hand over Ginny's. "I know it's been hard on you, but things will get better. This procedure can really help you."
Ginny shook her head. "I don't want the procedure."
Janine was confused. "But it's the only way to get you better."
"It could also kill me instantly."
"There's a 50 chance it will be successful."
Ginny shook her head again. "I don't want to take that chance. I want to keep the time that I have to spend with my family. So I can say a proper Goodbye."
Janine was ready to persuade Ginny otherwise but didn't get the chance because Steven and Molly had found them.
Ginny stood up and walked into her Mothers embrace before they headed towards the hospital. Janine put her hands in her pockets and stood in the garden watching mother and daughter leave.
"What's the matter?" Steven asked her.
Janine shook he head and sighed. "Ginny won't accept the treatment."
"Just give her some time. She'll come through in the end…"
"She doesn't have time, Arthur!"
Mum and Dad have been arguing like that for the last half an hour. I told mum about my decision at the hospital and she was really mad. I came up to my room right after we got home and not long after, Dad came home so mum told him what had happened.
I don't know how Dad reacted because I was up here, but by the sounds of things he seems to understand. I hope he can calm Mum down because I didn't mean to get her so angry and worried.
50 isn't a lot. It's no better than tossing a coin or guessing if the sun will be out tomorrow. Is that what my life has been reduced to? To the point where I cannot decide what I want to do?
It's been so long. 13 years of hoping and waiting for a way to get better. To have a normal life. I don't want to wait anymore. Even if this procedure is successful it will not be a cure. I'll get sick again and go through the same thing in a vicious cycle.
I don't want the people I love to go through the ups and downs forever. To be given hope only to have it taken away again. If I was destined to have this illness, then it's probably destined that I should die. I accept it. I can leave without regrets.
There's a knock on my door. "Come in," I say.
It's my dad. He walks into my room and closes the door behind him.
"How's Mum?" I ask.
He sits down next to me on my bed and places an arm around my shoulders. "She's just a bit upset. I thought I'd give her some time to calm down."
I bend my head down in shame. "I'm sorry Dad. I didn't mean to get Mum so mad."
"You're Mum's not mad, honey. She's just sad that there isn't anything she can do for you."
I lift my head up to look at him and he places his hand on my cheek.
"I respect every decision you make Ginny. You're a big girl now."
I wrap my arms around him and bury my face in his shoulder.
"Your mother's going to speak to Bill and Charlie to see if they can come back for a few days. Then we'll write a letter to Dumbledore so Percy, Fred, George and Ron will know."
I lifted my head from Dad's shoulder and wiped my water eyes. I can tell this is hard on him but at least he understands.
"Dad. Can you do something for me?"
"Anything."
"Don't let Draco know."
Arthur informed Molly of Ginny's request so she could then tell Serena and Narcissa. Lucius supported the idea of not letting his son know, arguing that he would get distracted from school. But even though everyone else thought it was cruel to hide such news from Draco, they had to respect Ginny's wishes while praying she would eventually change her mind.
Christmas passed and spring was just around the corner. Ginny's condition got worse by the day while miles away Draco obliviously waited till he could go home and see her again. It finally came to a point where Martin, of all people, couldn't stand aside and do nothing so he decided to do what was in the best interest of his young Master. He went to Hogwarts with the permission of Narcissa to find a way to change Ginny's mind.
Draco stepped into Dumbledore's office and was more than surprised to see his Butler there.
"Martin," he said while expertly hiding his surprise. "What are you doing here?"
"I'm afraid your presence is required at home, Master Draco."
Draco raised his eyebrow but didn't voice his many questions.
"Draco," Dumbledore said. "Your mother has requested that you be relieved from school for a few days to deal with family matters. Martin here will be escorting you home and back when you have dealt with the issues."
Draco nodded his head in understanding. Martin turned to face Dumbledore and inclined his head politely. "Thank you Professor Dumbledore."
Draco waited until they were out of the school building before he spoke.
"What is going on Martin?" He demanded. "What's happened at home?"
Martin didn't answer him and merely opened a carriage door to reveal Serena sitting inside waiting for them both.
"Grandmother?" Draco said with surprise.
"Quickly Draco. We need to speak immediately."
Draco quickly leapt into the carriage with Martin before it took off down the pebbled road.
"It's not true. I don't believe you," Draco said stubbornly.
Serena was losing her patience. She had told Draco of Ginny's condition and her decision but he refused to accept it.
"Why do you think we have brought you home then?" Serena asked angrily.
Draco was silent.
Serena shook her head and sighed. "She specifically asked that this be hidden from you. She didn't want you to know."
"Why would she hide something like this from me?"
The carriage stopped in front of Malfoy Manor and Martin got up to open the door.
"Ask her yourself Draco," Serena said before Draco stepped out of the carriage.
Narcissa was waiting in the foyer when Draco walked in. She walked up to her son and gave him a brief hug.
"Is it true?" Draco asked. "What Grandmother said?"
"I'm afraid it is," Narcissa answered.
"Where is she?"
"In the garden."
Ginny had grown weaker in the last few weeks and was encouraged to use a wheel chair as often as possible. She was still able to walk, but it was best for her not to use up her strength if she could help it.
Sitting in her chair reading a book, Ginny heard footstep and looked up to see Draco standing in front of her. She dropped her book and shook her head.
"What are you doing here?" Ginny asked with distress. He wasn't supposed to be here.
"Grandmother told me everything," Draco answered sadly.
Ginny turned her head away. She couldn't bear to look at him.
Draco knelt down on front of her and took her hands into his. "I need to hear it from you. Are you really refusing treatment?"
Ginny turned her head back to look at him with apologetic eyes. "Yes," she answered softly.
"But why?" he asked.
"I'm tired Draco," she said sadly. "All this false hope is not doing anyone any good. I won't ever get better. Why delay the inevitable?"
"You have a 50 chance."
"And then what? I'll just get sick again. I don't want everyone going through this vicious cycle over and over again."
Draco shook his head and stood up. "Do you know what you're saying?" he asked angrily. "You will die!"
"It's for the best," Ginny said sadly.
Draco scoffed. "Best for who?" he shouted. "You'll just die, but what about us? Your family and friends. You're just going to leave us behind to deal with the pain. How can you be so selfish?"
Ginny stood up from her wheelchair angrily. "You have no idea what life for me is like Draco! I don't want to live like this anymore. And I will not let you make me feel guilty about my decision."
Ginny stumbled past Draco in her weakened state trying to get away from him but he followed her.
"Fine!" he yelled. "You can die but I won't cry for you Ginny! I won't cry for someone who chooses to give up. Someone who would rather leave everything behind then take the chance to keep it."
Ginny whirled around to face him. "This is exactly why I didn't want you to know. I wanted to leave with a perfect memory of us but now you've gone and ruined it."
"Oh yes," he said sarcastically. "I forgot to thank you for that cruel gesture. I would have felt so much better being told that my fiancé chose to die and didn't want to see me for the last time."
"I didn't want you to go through that pain."
"It doesn't make it less painful to find out later you know."
"Well I'm sorry for trying to make it easier for you," Ginny snapped angrily.
"It would be easy if you didn't want to die."
Ginny placed her hand on her forehead trying to stop the throbbing headache. Draco saw her swaying and automatically grabbed her.
"Let go. I don't need you," She said angrily while pushing at his chest.
"Yes, well unfortunately I'm the one that needs you," he said softly.
Ginny looked up and was surprised to see Draco's eyes all watery.
"I thought you said you wouldn't cry for me," she asked softly.
"I'm not crying," Draco said while sniffing and blinking the tears back.
Ginny's heart was breaking seeing him like this. She really thought it would easier if he wasn't here to watch her slowly slip away.
Draco wrapped his arms around Ginny tightly and placed a lingering kiss on her cheek.
"I don't want to lose you," he whispered into her ear.
Ginny closed her eyes and hugged him back tightly.
End of Chapter Twenty .Thank you for reading and I hope you review.