Entry 784
They is an old saying, 'If something is seems too good to be true, it probably is'. I think that I just crossed that line in the eyes of Captain Jack Bartlett. He and Pops were talking along and I know that I was about me.
I should be careful from here on out. Part of the reason why I joined the Air Force out of all of the other military organizations was because I didn't wish to draw any attention, but with that kind of skill, I just did. Especially when I when I was telling my wingmen what I knew because of my sixth sense.
I guess that that what happens with the adrenaline is pumping through me. I didn't really think about what I was doing until after I was on the ground. At that time the dogfight was over and it was too late.
When think about the dogfight I have one thing to say about 'Thunderhead' and his orders… THAT MAN IS SO PIGHEAD! He ordered weapons safe after we were being attack! Did he want use shot down or something? My god!
Gettingthat outmakesme feel so much better. Sigh. I think that Nagase also need something to make her feel better. She takes everything so seriously. It doesn't matter the subject, it was a serious matter to her. She needs to unwind a little. As well, she should a lot more confidence then she has. She seems to have no faith in any of her abilities and I thought she flew so beautifully. She was amazing up there. I guess that it's not really my business. But she has so much potential.
I wonder if it has anything to do with the reason why she always looks so sad. To my knowledge, she has never smiled while I was around. I guess she had a rough life.
Not that I can talk. Considering what Emily and I have been through, rough life is an understatement. After all, to our parents, we were not children. We are the 'Blue Dove' and the 'Razgriz'. May they both burn in hell! No, I should be like that. Another saying goes, 'Mindless hatred blackens the brightest heart'.
-Adam Blaze