Chapter 38 - Right Now.
"Well, we hooked up when she was 19, she's 20 now, where ever she is. She was still in high school when I met her at races one night. She had no where to go that night but her garage. Her step father was really scary. It was in the middle of bumble fuck and she wanted me to leave her out there all alone. I couldn't do it. I brought her home with me and for the first time ever I didn't try to get on a girl in my bed. We just slept in the same bed. It kinda grew from there. I mean I taught her to race. Of course Letty says that she really did, I just gave Nys the foundation she needed for Letty to teach her the real skills she has. She has a skyline too, but she's just a good racer, not a great one like you. It just wasn't her, I mean she can race, she's won her fair share, but she'd never beat Dom, or even Leon. She's good with cars though, not Jesse good but good. She was like Mia in a lot of ways, she liked to do house stuff too. We had a lot of good times. She knew about the shit we pulled with the trucks." Vince turned his head sideways to look at Kat. He shouldn't have said that.
"I knew all about it already V. Don't worry 'bout it. I'll never tell another soul." He didn't look reassured. "You guys know what I did to Leon, and I know Brian reported it so I guess I'm hiding almost as much as you guys are." Vince nodded and continued.
"Well, the last one went really really wrong. And she saved my ass and helped Brian keep the whole team outta jail. She was so down, I really loved that girl. And we had a great relationship she stuck with me while I got the use of my arm back and everything, even though I was always in a bad mood. Then one night she saw me in my bed with another girl. She left without even asking me what was up, she just assumed the worst and left."
"Well, hell no Vinnie, more details. Who was the girl and what was she doin' in your bed. I told you my whole sorry story."
"Ok, ok. Well the girl was Letty. Her'n Dom'd had a huge fight. Dom, well, he didn't hit her I guess but he shoved her really hard against the wall and she ran. She ran to me cause I was always the one that looked out for them as kids you know, her'n Mia. I took her downstairs to calm her down and we just ended up in the bed. Nothing happened and nothing ever would, not between me'n Lett. She was just scared and I had to take care of her. But Nyssa" Vince made himself say the whole name, "wouldn't even let me explain she just flipped without asking me what happened and left. I mean, I loved her and Letty was her best friend and she assumed the worst and left me, left us. My pride wouldn't let me go begging for her just to listen to me. I shouldn't have had to explain myself anyway. I loved her and she saw me nearly fully clothed in bed with her best friend who was also nearly fully clothed and left all without ever even asking me what was up."
"I see where you have every right to be mad but if you love her you need to go after her. Make her see."
"It's not that easy Kat."
"Sure it is Vinnie. You go, you tell her what she saw, she feels silly, you tell her you still love her, you make up."
"But do I still love her?"
"I don't know baby boy, you need to answer that one yourself."
"Do you love Leon?"
"I don't know." She sighed and thought for a minute, looking up at the stars. It was both really cool and really ridiculous to her all of a sudden to be lying in the backyard with someone who was almost a stranger to her, drunk out of her mind, spilling her guts. But it was good to get it all out too so she continued, trying to put what she felt for Leon into words. Words she wasn't sure she even knew. "Leon was the first guy I ever got serious about and we weren't even together that long. I think we had something special. I just can't go on caring about him when it's clear that I was just a good time to him and then I fuck up once, before I even know'd him and then I'm not worth the work to him. I saw him with that blonde in the house. Here I am barely gettin' by and he's already picken' up skanks. His heart wasn't ever really sure. He always held back from me. I put my whole heart into it but the guilt was always in the back of my mind you know? Plus I mean if he really cared about me in any way I don't think a skank would already be lookin' good to him. I mean you still don't really look at them and your girls been gone for months. I know it's not really the same but still." She trailed off. "He's better off without a girl like me anyway. I'm a big pain. I don't know how the guys have been puttin up wit me for the last 4 years."
"Kat, I don't think anyone is better off without you, but yeah, I do know what you're gettin' at, but I don't think that Leon was holding his heart away from you, he'd never really fell for a girl before either. It was a first for both of you."
"Really? A guy like him? But he coulda had any girl he wanted. I was never really sure what he saw in me."
"He saw what I see. A beautiful, caring, smart, innocent woman with this sexy, crazy, daredevil side to her."
"Oh V. We're goin all soft'n shit. Listen to us. We sound like old women or people in some sorta twelve step program. We sound so sad. It's kinda pathetic'n shit. There's gotta be more to life." She jumped subjects. "Are you still drunk?"
"Kat we only been out here about 45 minutes, we finished a bottle of tequila, yeah I'm still loaded."
"Me too. Wanna go for a walk?"
"Yeah, I do, since neither of us can drive anywhere and I gotta get outta this cold wet grass." They tipped their heads to look at each other and smiled. Vince kissed Kat on the mouth but just in a friendly way and got up. Then he helped her up, she really needed his help, she was loaded.
What they didn't know is that Leon had listened to their whole conversation. He felt bad about doin it but he'd had to know. He was glad to know. He knew that he wanted a second chance with Kat now. He'd go talk to her tomorrow when she sobered up. Knowing how she'd lived and how bad she'd really felt made him feel like an ass for what he'd done and made him realize that she'd never gotten to hold onto anything in her life.
He watched her and Vince walk down the street, his arm over her shoulders and hers around his waist. They'd be friends for life now, they knew each others most intimate secrets now. Leon wished he'd been there for Kat instead of acting like a total ass. He hoped she'd forgive him when he spoke to her and apologized. He was sort of mad that Vince had gotten to be the one to comfort her, comfort her and be the one she finally confided in. He knew he hadn't done anything to be worthy of her trusting him with her secrets but he still wished that it had been him she'd told.
He watched Vince and Kat start back up the street and Vince walked her up to her house. She stood with her back against her door and smiled up at Vince. She was thanking him for the night. Even if Leon never once tried to talk to her, which had been the whole point, she'd still had fun. She said she didn't care as much about that as she did felt good to get all the other stuff off her chest. Vince told her he was also glad to have gotten out the whole true story and to know at least one person in the world both listened to him when he said he never cheated on Nyssa and believed him too. Kat hugged the big guy and as she pulled away he leaned in and gave her another kiss.
It started out just friendly but then something changed. She didn't know if it was the night, the liquor, what they'd shared, or just the fact they were both vulnerable at the time but they almost mutually deepened the kiss beyond friendly. She was kissing Vince like she'd only kissed Leon in the past and she was liking it. Even the feeling of his beard against her face. She knew in her heart it was wrong, that her and Vince didn't really want each other like this. It was just the night they'd had, they'd been all over each other then into deep emotional conversation but she kept kissing him and letting him kiss her. And when his hands started to wander she didn't stop him. It wasn't the same as with Leon, she made that distinction, even it her state. It wasn't as passionate; it was more comfortable to know that another man could turn her on like this and that she could have the same effect on him. Vince stopped kissing her for a second. If either had known Leon was still watching them from the shadows across the street one of them would have come to their senses and put a stop to what they were doing, but both were drunk, emotional and now turned on. Kat unlocked the door and turned to Vince.
"You wanna come in V?" She asked shyly, quietly so the guys didn't hear.
"I think I do." He said as he grabbed her and started to lick her neck and shoulder again as he walked her in the door and shut it quietly behind him.
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"Well, we hooked up when she was 19, she's 20 now, where ever she is. She was still in high school when I met her at races one night. She had no where to go that night but her garage. Her step father was really scary. It was in the middle of bumble fuck and she wanted me to leave her out there all alone. I couldn't do it. I brought her home with me and for the first time ever I didn't try to get on a girl in my bed. We just slept in the same bed. It kinda grew from there. I mean I taught her to race. Of course Letty says that she really did, I just gave Nys the foundation she needed for Letty to teach her the real skills she has. She has a skyline too, but she's just a good racer, not a great one like you. It just wasn't her, I mean she can race, she's won her fair share, but she'd never beat Dom, or even Leon. She's good with cars though, not Jesse good but good. She was like Mia in a lot of ways, she liked to do house stuff too. We had a lot of good times. She knew about the shit we pulled with the trucks." Vince turned his head sideways to look at Kat. He shouldn't have said that.
"I knew all about it already V. Don't worry 'bout it. I'll never tell another soul." He didn't look reassured. "You guys know what I did to Leon, and I know Brian reported it so I guess I'm hiding almost as much as you guys are." Vince nodded and continued.
"Well, the last one went really really wrong. And she saved my ass and helped Brian keep the whole team outta jail. She was so down, I really loved that girl. And we had a great relationship she stuck with me while I got the use of my arm back and everything, even though I was always in a bad mood. Then one night she saw me in my bed with another girl. She left without even asking me what was up, she just assumed the worst and left."
"Well, hell no Vinnie, more details. Who was the girl and what was she doin' in your bed. I told you my whole sorry story."
"Ok, ok. Well the girl was Letty. Her'n Dom'd had a huge fight. Dom, well, he didn't hit her I guess but he shoved her really hard against the wall and she ran. She ran to me cause I was always the one that looked out for them as kids you know, her'n Mia. I took her downstairs to calm her down and we just ended up in the bed. Nothing happened and nothing ever would, not between me'n Lett. She was just scared and I had to take care of her. But Nyssa" Vince made himself say the whole name, "wouldn't even let me explain she just flipped without asking me what happened and left. I mean, I loved her and Letty was her best friend and she assumed the worst and left me, left us. My pride wouldn't let me go begging for her just to listen to me. I shouldn't have had to explain myself anyway. I loved her and she saw me nearly fully clothed in bed with her best friend who was also nearly fully clothed and left all without ever even asking me what was up."
"I see where you have every right to be mad but if you love her you need to go after her. Make her see."
"It's not that easy Kat."
"Sure it is Vinnie. You go, you tell her what she saw, she feels silly, you tell her you still love her, you make up."
"But do I still love her?"
"I don't know baby boy, you need to answer that one yourself."
"Do you love Leon?"
"I don't know." She sighed and thought for a minute, looking up at the stars. It was both really cool and really ridiculous to her all of a sudden to be lying in the backyard with someone who was almost a stranger to her, drunk out of her mind, spilling her guts. But it was good to get it all out too so she continued, trying to put what she felt for Leon into words. Words she wasn't sure she even knew. "Leon was the first guy I ever got serious about and we weren't even together that long. I think we had something special. I just can't go on caring about him when it's clear that I was just a good time to him and then I fuck up once, before I even know'd him and then I'm not worth the work to him. I saw him with that blonde in the house. Here I am barely gettin' by and he's already picken' up skanks. His heart wasn't ever really sure. He always held back from me. I put my whole heart into it but the guilt was always in the back of my mind you know? Plus I mean if he really cared about me in any way I don't think a skank would already be lookin' good to him. I mean you still don't really look at them and your girls been gone for months. I know it's not really the same but still." She trailed off. "He's better off without a girl like me anyway. I'm a big pain. I don't know how the guys have been puttin up wit me for the last 4 years."
"Kat, I don't think anyone is better off without you, but yeah, I do know what you're gettin' at, but I don't think that Leon was holding his heart away from you, he'd never really fell for a girl before either. It was a first for both of you."
"Really? A guy like him? But he coulda had any girl he wanted. I was never really sure what he saw in me."
"He saw what I see. A beautiful, caring, smart, innocent woman with this sexy, crazy, daredevil side to her."
"Oh V. We're goin all soft'n shit. Listen to us. We sound like old women or people in some sorta twelve step program. We sound so sad. It's kinda pathetic'n shit. There's gotta be more to life." She jumped subjects. "Are you still drunk?"
"Kat we only been out here about 45 minutes, we finished a bottle of tequila, yeah I'm still loaded."
"Me too. Wanna go for a walk?"
"Yeah, I do, since neither of us can drive anywhere and I gotta get outta this cold wet grass." They tipped their heads to look at each other and smiled. Vince kissed Kat on the mouth but just in a friendly way and got up. Then he helped her up, she really needed his help, she was loaded.
What they didn't know is that Leon had listened to their whole conversation. He felt bad about doin it but he'd had to know. He was glad to know. He knew that he wanted a second chance with Kat now. He'd go talk to her tomorrow when she sobered up. Knowing how she'd lived and how bad she'd really felt made him feel like an ass for what he'd done and made him realize that she'd never gotten to hold onto anything in her life.
He watched her and Vince walk down the street, his arm over her shoulders and hers around his waist. They'd be friends for life now, they knew each others most intimate secrets now. Leon wished he'd been there for Kat instead of acting like a total ass. He hoped she'd forgive him when he spoke to her and apologized. He was sort of mad that Vince had gotten to be the one to comfort her, comfort her and be the one she finally confided in. He knew he hadn't done anything to be worthy of her trusting him with her secrets but he still wished that it had been him she'd told.
He watched Vince and Kat start back up the street and Vince walked her up to her house. She stood with her back against her door and smiled up at Vince. She was thanking him for the night. Even if Leon never once tried to talk to her, which had been the whole point, she'd still had fun. She said she didn't care as much about that as she did felt good to get all the other stuff off her chest. Vince told her he was also glad to have gotten out the whole true story and to know at least one person in the world both listened to him when he said he never cheated on Nyssa and believed him too. Kat hugged the big guy and as she pulled away he leaned in and gave her another kiss.
It started out just friendly but then something changed. She didn't know if it was the night, the liquor, what they'd shared, or just the fact they were both vulnerable at the time but they almost mutually deepened the kiss beyond friendly. She was kissing Vince like she'd only kissed Leon in the past and she was liking it. Even the feeling of his beard against her face. She knew in her heart it was wrong, that her and Vince didn't really want each other like this. It was just the night they'd had, they'd been all over each other then into deep emotional conversation but she kept kissing him and letting him kiss her. And when his hands started to wander she didn't stop him. It wasn't the same as with Leon, she made that distinction, even it her state. It wasn't as passionate; it was more comfortable to know that another man could turn her on like this and that she could have the same effect on him. Vince stopped kissing her for a second. If either had known Leon was still watching them from the shadows across the street one of them would have come to their senses and put a stop to what they were doing, but both were drunk, emotional and now turned on. Kat unlocked the door and turned to Vince.
"You wanna come in V?" She asked shyly, quietly so the guys didn't hear.
"I think I do." He said as he grabbed her and started to lick her neck and shoulder again as he walked her in the door and shut it quietly behind him.
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