Disclaimer: I do not own Fushigi Yugi or any of the characters…so my therapist says
Genre: Romance/ Drama
Rated: T
Type: Continuation
Summary: Another story for another tear. Yui and Suboshi are best friends and trust each other completely. The only thing they don't trust each other with is their hearts. (YuixSuboshi)
Chaper Three: Apathy
Part One
ap·a·thy
n.
1. Apathy: an absence of emotion or enthusiasm syn: spiritlessness
Yui tried to hold in her tears as she saw the hurt, confused look on Suboshi's face. She wanted nothing more than to throw her arms around him and tell him that it was a sick, terrible joke and that she really did love him. Yui wanted to whisper in his ear that loved him more than she did anything else in this world and to have him press his feathery soft lips against hers.
"I don't believe you." Suboshi said finally, his stunning blue eyes gazing into hers. "Tell me you don't love me."
Yui avoided his eyes by lowering her head. Why? Why me? Why do I have to be the one to hurt him?
"Tell me Yui." Suboshi said again, wrapping his arms around her shoulders. Yui pressed her head against his chest and closed her eyes to stop the tears that were threatening to fall.
Suboshi I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
"No," She whispered into his chest. "I'm sorry Suboshi, I can't love you."
"You can't, why not? Why don't you want to be with me?"
Oh Gods Suboshi I do! I want to so badly! "Don't ask me why." Yui replied in a voice that was not her own. Why can't I have what I want?
"I won't let that Nakago guy have you Yui!" Suboshi yelled holding her at arms length. I won't let him hurt you.
"Why not? What if I want to be with him? What if I honestly don't want to be with you?" Yui yelled back.
"Then you wouldn't be crying." Suboshi said calmly.
Yui raised a hand to her face and wiped away her tears.
"What do you really want Yui?"
You. To be with you, but Chichiri he said…he said… "Just leave me alone Suboshi!" Yui yelled taking off down the street by herself.
What's gotten into her? Does she really not want to be with me? I guess I've been blind to see it. Suboshi thought while slinking down to sit on the sidewalk, there wasn't any point in rushing to school.
Idiot.
Idiot.
Idiot! Yui repeated in her head as she ran down the street. Where was she going anyway? School? Home? There really was no where she wanted to be.
"Ohayo Yui-chan." A childlike voice in the passenger of a white Chevrolet Beretta GT called as it pulled up beside her.
"Yui-chan do you need a ride to school? I thought Suboshi and you went together? Aren't you breaking tradition?" Amiboshi teased leaning over to passenger seat.
Amiboshi slowed down the car and Chiriko, who was sitting in the passenger seat, opened the door. "Come on Yui-chan." The fifteen-year-old said shuffling closer to Amiboshi.
Yui slid in the car and Amiboshi sped up slightly.
Chiriko immediately noticed the tears streaming down Yui's face. "Yui-chan what's wrong?"
Amiboshi momentarily took his eyes off the road to look at Yui. "Yui what happened…Did you have a fight with my brother?" Amiboshi asked tentatively.
Yui nodded and tried to wipe away the uncontrollable tears flowing down her face. Yui pulled her knees up to her chest and cried quietly into her lap. "I was…so mean to him." She whispered.
Chiriko wrapped his small arm around her shoulder. "Don't worry Yui-chan. Suboshi and you will work things out. Your bond is too strong to be broken by a small quarrel." Chiriko said reassuringly.
B-but I broke his heart.
You're such a fool! Suboshi reprimanded himself. You're just a big stupid pushy moron! He got up off the ground and spun around beginning to pound his fists into the wooden fence behind him. You always figured that she didn't have any feelings for you, yet you went ahead and took advantage of her! She was upset because of her mother and…and… "Goddammit!" Suboshi yelled aloud. He felt the skin around his knuckles beginning to tear creating bloody gashes.
"Hey buddy! Get it under control!" A passenger called from their car.
Suboshi pulled his fists away from the fence and stared in disbelief at what he'd done. The wood was cracked and broken, smears of blood covered it. Suboshi winced as he unclenched his fists, feeling the splinters in his knuckles.
I should go home and clean up this mess. Suboshi thought looking at his self-inflicted abrasions.
"Yui would you like me to take you home?" Amiboshi asked drumming his fingers on the steering wheel as he waited for the red light to turn green.
"Well…I-I can't go…I can't go back home." Yui replied quietly.
"Did you have a fight with your mom?" Chiriko questioned, already knowing the answer.
"Yeah, and it's a little complicated, she…uh…kinda kicked me out." Yui said with a forced smile to try and lighten the gloomy atmosphere she'd created.
Amiboshi cleared his throat, "Alright so we'll drive by your place so you can pick up your stuff, then we'll drop it off at my apartment, then we'll go to school. We'll be an hour late, max."
"Amiboshi what your offering is—"
"Yui I'm not offering. I'm not going to force you, but you're staying at my place until you sort things out with your mom."
"I don't want to impose on you and it's not your responsibility to—"
"Yes it is. I'm your friend, and so is Suboshi. No matter what happened between you two, we're not going anywhere Yui. We'll take care of you."
Yui could find nothing else to say so she remained silent as he drove her to her house.
"Oh, Suboshi's here. I guess he hasn't gone to school yet." Amiboshi noted as he walked into his shared apartment. "Oi Suboshi, you around?" Amiboshi called down the hall.
What's Amiboshi doing home? Isn't he supposed to be at school? Suboshi wondered as he reached under the bathroom sink for some bandages. He grabbed them and tried unsuccessfully to wrap the white fabric around his bloodied fingers.
"I've got to use the washroom Amiboshi, I'll be right back." Yui said dropping her bag in the hallway. She walked down the hallway and opened the door to the bathroom.
"…Suboshi…what happened to you?" Yui asked seeing him standing over the bathroom sink trying to wrap up his bloodied hands. "Let me help you." She said rushing to his side.
"I'm fine." Suboshi mumbled.
Yui looked into his eyes and regretted what she saw. Hurt, sadness, it was all because of her. She carefully re-wrapped the bandages around his fingers and Suboshi remained stiff at her gentle touches. She cupped the side of his face gently; "You have to take better care of yourself Suboshi." She said as Suboshi brushed past her to leave the bathroom.
"What about you?"
"What do you mean?" Yui asked turning to face him.
"I mean that you have to take care of yourself as well." Nakago can't be trusted. Why won't you believe me? I love you Yui. I want to protect you.
Yui nodded. "Do you mind if I…I mean if you don't want me to — then alright but, what happened with my mom this morning and—"
"No, I don't mind if you stay here. Why would I mind?"
"You're a good friend to have Suboshi." Yui smiled softly. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'll never forgive myself Suboshi.
Nothing more than a friend right? Suboshi thought as he walked out of the bathroom and into the hall to wait with his brother."Come on Yui. You ready?" Amiboshi yelled as he stood at the front door waiting patiently for Yui to get ready so he could drive them to school. "I'm really sorry you're late Chiriko." Amiboshi said talking to his fifteen-year-old friend.
"Oh it's no problem. I'm certain that the class discussions that I miss would be nothing important or even interesting."
"Sorry about that I'm ready now." Yui said reappearing out of the bathroom.
"Y-Yui…your hair you—"
"Cut it off. Yeah, I decided I needed a change." Yui said giving Amiboshi a forced smile. Suboshi glanced behind him to look in astonishment at Yui's hair. Her shoulder length hair had now been cut just above her ear.
"It looks good though, short hair suits you." Amiboshi stated.
Yui avoided Suboshi's gaze by staring down at her shoes subconsciously tucking a strand of blonde hair behind her ear.
"So are you two okay to go home after school? Cause I can't pick you up. I have an important meeting regarding—"
"Smart people stuff right?" Suboshi interrupted his twin.
"Yeah, yeah." Amiboshi grumbled pulling into an empty parking space as Yui and Suboshi walked off to the front of the school.
Suboshi and Yui walked towards the front of the school in complete silence.
I should say something.' Suboshi thought. I wonder why she cut her hair all off. Was it because of me?
What should I say? I broke his heart a few hours ago. It's not as if I can just suddenly start up a friendly conversation pretending that it didn't happen. Yui thought as her eyes scanned the parking lot. I wonder if he knows that I cut my hair for him.
"Yui!" A familiar voice called from inside a Cadillac Eldorado.
Dammit it's Nakago. Suboshi growled. He watched out of the corner of his eye as Yui gave him a look of uncertainty and then took off towards the car. What does she think she's doing? She's going to get hurt. Doesn't she see that?
"Hi Nakago. How are you?" Yui asked as she kneeled down to talk through the rolled down window.
There were already several other people in the car. A girl sitting in the passenger seat Yui knew to be HakuKaen Soi. Soi was a beautiful girl with long chestnut brown hair and fierce blue eyes. She was known to be very popular with the guys. Rouchuin Tomo the elegant dark haired homosexual in her first class sat in the backseat. Beside Tomo was another…boy? They didn't really look like a guy; but then again they didn't really look human either. He looked to be in about his thirties. What was he doing hanging out with a bunch of teenagers? He had brown-gray hair and a menacing, yet torn look on his face. If he hadn't appeared so vicious he would have almost looked….lonely, as if he was afraid.
He emitted a low growling noise when Yui looked at him and Nakago immediately looked back at him and harshly said, "Ashitare, shut it!" Nakago focused his attention back on Yui.
"Your hair Yui you cut it all off why? Sorry, pardon my rudeness. I must say though this new look is very enticing." Nakago said with an amorous gleam in his eyes.
"Why aren't you in school Nakago?" Yui asked, brushing off his comment while trying to avoid the cold stares she was receiving from Tomo and Soi.
"Well I decided to skip today. It seems pointless now, your school doesn't seem challenging enough for me. Would you care to join me for a drive?" Nakago asked.
"Umm," Yui tried to think as quickly as possible for a good excuse. "Well the car seems a bit crowded today, so maybe some other time."
"Soi would have no problem leaving to--"
"No, no that's not necessary." Yui cut in, already backing away from the car, but not before the blonde haired boy slipped something into her palm.
"I'll see you later!" Nakago called as Yui dashed into the school.
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Slipping into her seat, Yui glanced around to make sure that no eyes were on her as she slowly opened the not Nakago had slipped her and opened it in her lap.
Yui,
I find you most attractive and I think we would make quite an excellent pair together. Please consider going out with me this Friday.
Nakago
Yui's slender fingers gripped the paper as she inhaled sharply. I guess changing yourself starts with changing those around you.
TBC!
A/N…/sobs/ I haven't updated in…5months? That is so pathetic. I had the majority of the chapter done over the summer…then I went away…then I had to go back in school, now I'm in school and it's so freaking…just… grr. 'Kay any excuse is a bad excuse I'm sorry.
Rosygirls92 – Sorry it took so long. Ooo I like your idea, I'll definatly have Yui think about that somewhere hee hee. Thanks for your review.
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