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Warning: DEATH OF CHARACTER!

Silent motions: Chapter 2

"Are you still saying you don't remember about the war?"

The small room was empty but for a table and three chairs. The mirror on the side wall was probably so people from the room next to us could look inside, but I chose to ignore that fact. I just wanted to know what the hell was going on here. I wasn't officially arrested, so I didn't get handcuffed, but it was damn clear I was not supposed to resist.

"Are you still saying I'm supposed to know you?"

The Asian man sighed as he sat down. He reached inside his pocket and took out a picture, which he showed me. On it I saw five boys, one I recognized as myself, the other one was Heero. My mind seemed to recognize two of the others as Quatre and Trowa, the ones I had, up till now, not been able to give a face. The fifth boy was an Asian one and he looked quite like the one sitting opposite of me. His hair was longer in the picture, but the dark eyes were just as piercing.

"That's us?"

He was looking at me, I didn't need to see it to confirm, I could feel his eyes upon me. "That's us five Gundam pilots."

"Gundam pilots..." I knew I had been named zero-two and Heero had been zero-one. So there had been five... My mind was working overtime right now and I could feel a headache getting up. I rubbed my forehead in futile attempt to ease the pain. "Chang... Wufei Chang... Dragon clan?"

I raised an eyebrow as I looked up at him and he seemed satisfied. So I'd hit the right spot here. "You know Heero is in there, right?"

"Yeah, I remember Heero from there. Now will you please tell me what is going on?"

The blond man took this as his cue to speak up. "We first need you to answer some questions."

Questions? I was full of questions, it wasn't more questions I was looking for, I wanted answers, damn it! But I could hardly tell them that. Shit, they were preventers, they were like the law.

"When did you meet with Heero Yuy?"

I snorted. "In the war?"

The blond man glared at me and was about to retort something witty when Wufei cut in. "We mean, when did he come to L2?"

"Couple of months ago." I answered. "Why? What did he do?"

But my questions were obviously not important enough. "What did he come for?"

"I dunno." I was really starting to get irritated. "He was sent on a holiday and thought he could stay with me."

"Just like that?" the blonde snorted. "After all that time?"

I glared at them. "Yes, just like that. If you don't believe me why even bother asking?"

"Heero Yuy, as you most likely figured out already, is a wanted man."

Yeah duh, I'd figured that out long ago, I wasn't that stupid! What did they take me for? "What did he do then?"

"I will explain everything to you later," Wufei answered, putting me off again. "But first I am still wondering, if he was on a vacation, why didn't you get suspicious when he was still here after months?"

You've got to be kidding me. "He said he was on 'vacation' or something" I stressed the word vacation with my fingers, "until his hearing showed improvement, which it was just starting to do."

The two men –the silent guy wasn't present here– Glanced at each other and the blond motioned for Wufei to step outside for a moment. It seemed to take quite a while before they returned, but it was probably only minutes. I was getting quite anxious now and I really wanted to know what was going on.

The door opened and the two men stepped in again, Chang carrying a mug with coffee, which he handed to me. The coffee was black, just as I preferred it and it was scary to think he knew that about me while I could barely remember him.

"I'll be straight with you, Duo," Chang said after giving me a moment to sip my coffee, "We need to catch Heero Yuy fast and we need your help doing so."

I stared at the two men. That sounded more like a demand than a request. "And if I refuse?" The last thing I needed was more preventers showing up at the scrap yard. My closing early today could already have cost me a potential good client; I wasn't waiting for more trouble along the way.

"You can refuse to help willingly," Chang nodded, "But we can not just let you go if you refuse."

"And on what grounds would you be holding me then?" I was scared shitless, but I did know how to play this game. This wasn't a war where you could just imprison everyone you disliked and label them as an enemy. Unless they had some kind of proof there was nothing they could do to keep me here and I was still quite clueless as to what was going on so I doubted they had much to hold against me.

"Please listen to us first, Duo, we're not the enemy here."

I snorted. "And Yuy is?"

"Yes." I wasn't going to believe it, not when they refused to say why. "Let me explain." Okay, so there came the explanation. I put down my mug and folded my hands beneath my chin. I was all ears.

"I'll start at the beginning, Duo, or at least from where you left on your own after the war. I heard from Winner that you visited Yuy in the hospital when he was unconscious, am I correct?"

I nodded. I had some vague memory of this visit.

"Yuy fully recovered from his injuries and was asked to join the preventers. He refused the offer at first, but accepted after 18 months of trying to find his way on his own. We even started working together on some assignments.

"But Yuy had his mind still on the war and he clearly didn't mind making sacrifices for the sake of what he labeled as 'the greater good'. Many a time innocents died or got injured while it could have been prevented had he chosen less violent measures. In the end Une put him behind a desk and assigned him a psychologist. This man stated that Yuy had some kind of post-war syndrome and started giving medication in hopes of him being able to deal with his past. Do you understand so far?"

I nodded. It was a lot to take in and I had to take a sip of my still too hot coffee, but I was following it so far. Post-war syndrome, not being able to put your past behind you. I'd tried it the opposite way, I just forgot it all.

"The medications Yuy got," Wufei continued, "Were quite heavy and he was prohibited to do field work for a while. As a result of that, he started working less, according to the psychologist he had worked out some kind of schedule to speed his recovery and he needed more spare time and more rest to follow it. So more time is what we gave him.

"Then, after almost a year, we got the message that Yuy was as good as healed and that he was seen fit enough to start with some field work again. This was about ten months ago. We didn't want to rush things so we put him at the desk for three more months, giving him enough time to train in the gym before he was assigned a mission with me again. That was where his hearing was damaged."

I nodded. I understood it so far, but what I didn't understand is why they were chasing Heero. I had yet to hear a valid reason and if my counting was right, he'd come to L2 not long after that mission Wufei was speaking of. At least that part fitted what little Heero had told me.

"I've worked with Yuy for a long time now, Maxwell." Wufei continued, his voice dropping a tone or two. His face looked even more serious than it had before. "I am quite capable of judging his behavior by now and his behavior during this assignment was anything but normal. He seemed more on the edge, but I figured that was just because he had been out of it for so long.

"However, when the time came nearer for us to enter and make the arrest, he grew more and more nervous. By lack of better description, he 'screwed up big time,' Duo. He managed to have a whole building collapse because of explosions. Where there should have been about ten people arrested, there were over a hundred deaths and countless people injured."

That was unlike the Heero I knew. Surely they weren't speaking of my boyfriend, right? I

mean, how could they be, not once in these past five months had he tried anything violent on me. Okay, so he could loose his temper when something got stuck, but he usually just kept to cursing and pulling. I just could not see him hurt anyone. The war was over. I thought he had been glad about that.

Something just didn't completely fit.

"You're telling me that all this is because of that incident?"

"Not exactly."

A small pause fell and by lack of a better idea, I grabbed the mug and took another sip of my coffee. The temperature was almost perfect now.

"His behavior at this assignment was different from what he had been like earlier and Yuy's disappearance made sense once we'd interrogated one of the terrorists whom had survived the incident. Do you remember Trowa Barton?"

Trowa, yes, I remembered him. I glanced at the picture still lying on the table. "The circus guy?"

Wufei nodded. "He was the terrorist we captured. We cannot indulge you in too many details, but he declared that for the past year, Yuy had been working as an assassin for the same crime organization as him. In fact, Trowa was the one to get him in, as the organization consisted mostly of war criminals and former soldiers. Men who couldn't, for one reason or another manage to adapt to the peaceful life. We can speculate it was for that reason Yuy had been so nervous, why he had caused the building to collapse, he never wanted to catch those people. He wanted to silence anyone who could identify him."

I couldn't believe my ears. Were they telling me my lover was a terrorist? Well, he had, at one time, been just that, but I'd had no lesser part in that either. But that was years ago, there was no way my Heero could be the same one they were speaking of.

"Duo, are you all right?"

No, I was not fucking all right! How dare those guys just waltz into my life and take away the one thing that I could hold onto after all these years of emptiness! It wasn't fair, it was just not fair! How could they be so certain that Heero had been this 'bad guy' as they'd labeled him? What more did they have to go on than just the word of a criminal? Surely they could not be solely relying on that?

"Duo, I'm sorry, but Trowa showed us enough reason to arrest Heero." As if the devil was listening in on my thoughts. Mad as I was, I shoved the chair backwards roughly only to have it fall on the floor with a loud bang. The blond guy made a move to get up as well, but Chang withheld him from that by placing a hand on his arm. I ignored the two as I started pacing my side of the small interrogation room, cursing in whatever language I knew. I felt like hitting something and as the chair on the ground was the only thing available –and horribly in my way– I kicked it once, twice, three times until it ended up on their side of the room. I didn't really want to follow it there as I saw the warning look I got from both officers. Instead I moved to the wall furthest away from them and leaned back against it, closing my eyes.

Luckily –whether for me or for them I hadn't quite figured out– they allowed me whatever time I needed to calm myself down. Once I had my breathing under control again I opened my eyes, hoping my glare was as cold as I felt inside. Damn it. I didn't want this! Not now! Not when things were finally starting to look good for me again!

Surely, this was all a mistake, right? I mean, it had to be, Une must've given Heero some sort of top-secret undercover mission, or he had done it all on his own, all the while collecting information to destroy the organization. It had to be that, or something like it. I just couldn't believe that my Heero was the man they described him to be.

"Is there anything else I need to know?" I practically sneered, "Like the reason you're telling me all this?"

Wufei glanced at his partner before got up to he pick up the chair I'd kicked away and put it back in its place. He resumed his position at the other side of the table. "Why don't you sit down and calm yourself, Maxwell." He gestured to the chair.

Well fuck him! I didn't feel like sitting down in a fucking chair, I fucking felt more like murdering him at this moment! Of course, I realized that was not a smart move to make. "Just tell me what else there is."

"All right." Wufei sighed. "I told you he most likely blew up the building to cover his tracks, right?" I nodded. Just get to the damn point! "If Heero worked under the codename we suspect him to have worked under, he has a history of silencing anyone who knows too much about him."

My eyes grew wide. If it weren't for the wall supporting my back, I was certain I would have fallen to the ground. I felt my knees get weak as my mind raced over every possible interpretation of those words, only to come up with the same one every time.

Were they implying Heero was going to kill me?

No way. There was no way. Heero loved me, he... we... we did all these things together and we worked together and we trusted each other. I loved him and he loved me back!

A nightmare, that had to be what I was experiencing, just another nightmare. A few more minutes and I would wake up and I would feel his arms around me, protecting me from any danger that could possibly be, holding me, caring for me, loving me... Killing me? I wouldn't believe it.

My eyes must have showed my emotions, for by the time my body was ready to collapse, Wufei was right next to me to catch me. He gently sat me down, leaning against the wall. My coffee mug was offered to me by the blond guy, I took it, I drank from it. The coffee was too cold now; it was spoilt. I didn't care though, I felt like I really needed the caffeine.

"I'm sorry to have to ask this of you," the blond man's voice sounded, "but do you have any idea where Yuy could be right now?"

I shook my head as I swallowed the last bit of barely hot liquid.

"You have absolutely no idea whatsoever?"

I managed to glare at the man. "I have to work near 24/7 to keep a business running, I got no time to baby-sit anyone!"

I didn't care whether he got angry with me for my reaction, but found myself a little surprised when all he did was nod and straighten back up.

"Duo," Wufei spoke silently, "we can take the measures necessary to ensure your safety. We have a hotel room for the night, we can post guards wherever you want them and we will arrange a shuttle off this colony first thing tomorrow."

A weak 'no' escaped my lips, but Chang ignored it.

"Quatre has offered to lend us one of his estates, you'll be safe there, maximum security will be around you until we catch..."

"NO!"

The grip on my empty coffee mug was tight enough to keep it from flying away, instead I nearly smashed it against the wall.

"I don't want any fucking security! I just wanna get the hell out of here and get back to my life and my scrap yard to save what's left to save of it after the scene you made there! I don't want any safety-measures around me and I certainly don't want to ever have to see your faces again!"

"Duo, please listen to me, if..."

"No!" I refused to hear any more. "I don't want your fucking security, Heero won't kill me, unlike you, I am a friend!" I saw the hurt those words caused Chang and I decided to swallow my next remark.

I didn't need to say any more, for Wufei stood up and backed away a few steps. I didn't miss the glance in the mirror's direction, confirming my suspicion that it was a one-way window.

"Very well." Wufei said, looking down at me. "I'll let you go back to your scrap yard, but on one condition." I looked up at him suspiciously. "You will co-operate with us so that if Yuy does decide to come after you, for whatever reason he may have, you will help us catch him."

There was time to think. I went home immediately, I'd already closed the scrap yard for the day when Wufei requested my coming with him. It was strange, coming home to an empty cottage, no-one there waiting for me with a warm plate of food, no-one there to smile at me, to let me talk to, no-one there to fill the emptiness I felt inside. But that was nothing compared to the mere thought of sleeping alone. It had been months since I'd done that and I knew I just wouldn't be able to fall asleep like that. So, as I had done before Heero entered my life again, I settled on the couch with a blanket, watching TV. My mind kept seeing Heero, though.

I eventually did slumber asleep, only to wake up with a nightmare so bad I hadn't had it months. Ever since Heero joined me in my bed, I was at least able to sleep trough the night, him silently comforting my body, reassuring my mind whenever those horrible blooded images came up again. But there was no Heero this time, so when I woke up at four in the morning, after only two or three hours of sleep, I felt so alone it hurt in my chest. I closed my eyes again, trying to feel Heero's arms around me but my imagination just couldn't compare to the real thing.

From that day on, I was like a ghost. I went to work, did what was necessary to ensure it was safe, that people believed I was not involved with anything illegal. I made up some kind of story about Heero in the hopes of calming down my neighbors, but it didn't really matter to me anymore. Heero was gone and that was that. Without him, my life held just as much meaning as it had before he'd showed up, which was basically down to none. Business went bad, but I didn't care. I had saved enough money to make it at least another month or two, but I didn't care what happened after that. I didn't care about anything anymore as I closed myself off more with each hour I was separated from him.

I didn't have to wait two months, just a couple of weeks. He didn't show up at my scrap yard, he was waiting for me back home.

It was on a Wednesday, I knew that much, for my shower routine had never changed. I didn't notice the door being ajar and if I had, I wouldn't have thought anything of it. I knew I was as worthy as a living dead guy was and it wouldn't have been the first time I let the door stand open.

I didn't even notice the figure on the couch as I headed for the shower, only when I returned to settle myself in front of the TV did I see him there.

My first instinct was to... I didn't know. I didn't know what to do, but I knew, even though I couldn't see any features, that it was Heero. I knew that much on instinct. Once he realized I'd noticed him he got up and stepped into the light, where I could see him. I noticed he was standing between the door and me, so bolting was not an option for me. Not that I really wanted to, I just wanted an explanation

"Are you here to silence me?" My voice was colder than I'd wanted it to be, but the words were cruel and not supposed to be said as an invitation.

His eyes widened for a moment as if he was hurt by the mere suggestion. "I could never do that, Duo."

I narrowed my eyes, more to myself than to his answer. This was Heero, he had come back to me, then why was I feeling so cold inside? I had dreamt of this, hadn't I? Of him coming back to me because he loved me and now that he was here... why did it all feel so fake? Like betrayal.

"Then why are you here?" It was a whisper, afraid to hear the truth.

"To be with you." The answer came as he looked at me with those intense eyes. "I have arranged everything, Duo. A shuttle, disguises, everything. We can be off this colony tomorrow and spend the rest of our lives together, if only you'll come with me."

I looked at him with eyes as cold as stone. "So it is true." I said, the hurt clearly showing in my voice. "Chang was telling the truth, you have become a terrorist."

"I'm sorry for that, Duo, but it doesn't matter anymore. Not as long as you're with me."

"No." I shook my head and stepped back, holding on to the last piece of feeling I felt inside of me. "Tell me it isn't true, Heero," I begged him, "tell me it was all just some bad dream or some cover up or... or… I don't know, just tell me it isn't true!"

He bowed his head and I could barely hear his whisper. "It's true."

"You liar!" I felt like I exploded inside as I strode towards him and punched him square in the face. "Everything you've said to me, about your vacation, about preventers, about your life. Lies! They were all lies! Just to get me in your bed, wasn't it? That must've been the whole thing all along, poor Duo Maxwell can suit my needs while I play this game of terrorist once again! Damn it, Yuy! What do you think I am, an unbreakable doll?"

I was panting by now and he was stumbling to get up. He must've missed part of what I'd said in the meantime for his eyes darted from my lips to the surroundings a couple of times. I didn't care though. He had betrayed me, he had lied to me and the betrayal I felt burned so deep, I just didn't care anymore.

"It's not all been a lie, Duo." He said as he finally managed to stand up straight. "I never lied about my feelings for you." He said it as if it was the most sane thing he'd ever said and I wanted to believe it, oh god, I wanted it to be true. But that voice inside my head, telling me this was all a lie as well just refused to shut up. I had to get the hell out of there.

Then I remembered the little device Wufei had given me. He wouldn't have let me go unless I took it with me. Damn it, where had I left it again? The couch. It sounded so appealing. I rubbed my forehead and headed for the couch, muttering I needed to sit down. He saw the look on my face and stepped aside, no longer blocking my only way out. I sat down, but didn't look for the device, the knowledge it was near me was enough to calm me for now. I hadn't decided on what to do just yet.

Heero disappeared into the kitchen and returned moments later with a glass of water. He handed it to me and I warily took it. My fingers and his touched briefly and I felt his cold skin on mine. I remembered how we'd laid together in bed, him holding me because I needed to be held and me snuggling into him because his body was so in need of the warmth my skin could give him.

"Please consider coming with me, Duo. We won't have to run forever, we can build a new life somewhere, away from this colony, wherever we want.

I stared at him as I drank the water slowly. Then I set the glass down. "I can't Heero, I don't want to any more. How do I know I can trust you after everything that has happened?"

"Duo! I love you, I want to be with you Duo! I've arranged everything just so we can be together, just so I can hold you at night, work along side of you during the day. I want you to be mine and mine alone, Duo and if I can't have you..." His voice died in the dark and I felt my skin standing up straight.

Oh god, he'd really gone insane now. I felt my hand heading for the cushion on the couch as I asked him. "Then what, Heero," I asked, fearing the answer, "then no-one will have me?"

He bowed his head. "I could never do that to you, Duo."

Okay, so maybe there was still some sanity left in there. My hand had slipped under the pillow and it connected with the hard metal. I felt around for the button, but didn't press it immediately once I found it. There had to be some other way, something, anything else we could do.

"Why did you do it, Heero?" He shifted and I saw the light reflect on something metal at his pants. Oh God he had a gun!

I realized it was really to late this time. The thought of him holding a gun made me feel nauseous. I couldn't let him stay like this, he really needed to be helped before he hurt any more people. I pushed the button and thought back to Wufei's words. 'Keep him calm and keep him talking for as long as you can. Once the tracker's is activated, we will be there in mere minutes.'

So that was what I had to do, I had to keep him talking until they were here.

I vaguely heard him explain that it had been a need to kill, that he hadn't known how to stop, that Trowa had told him of an organization that wouldn't force the peace on him. He told me he'd wanted to step out a couple of times, but the need to work on the adrenaline just kept drawing him in deeper and deeper. And all this time I thought keep talking Heero, keep talking. They'll be here soon, just keep talking.

"How many more victims do you have to make?" I asked him. By that time I'd long since gotten up from the couch. I had made my way in the door's direction, knowing that when Wufei came, his men would be there and I would be safe.

"No more." He said, "I'm done killing. I don't have to kill anymore, at least not when I'm with you." I narrowed my eyes at that, no longer trying to believe him. I heard the distinct sound of a car in the background, but ignored it. "Don't you understand? You're the one thing that kept me sane, your love for me and mine for you made me realize I don't have to kill anymore. It's enough to just be with you."

"And what if one day I'm not enough anymore?" I heard the silent footsteps around the house and knew Wufei had arrived. Heero never noticed, his hearing was still far from good.

"That's never going to happen. I promise." Calm as he said those words, the moment he saw the door open, panic grabbed him. The gun was drawn from his pants in no time and he was aiming it at the three policemen who stood in the door.

They commanded him to put the gun down, saying that the house was surrounded, that he had no escape left but to come with them. Wufei talked to him, but he didn't hear their words. The gun was pointed towards the door, but Heero's eyes were on me.

I could see the hurt in his eyes, I could feel it in my chest. "Why, Duo?' He asked me silently, "Why did you do this?" I kept silent, for no words could give him what he wanted. Heero finally directed his gun to the floor, realizing I wasn't going to help.

I felt my heart ache as I made my way to the door but I didn't exit immediately.

"So this is the choice you make." Heero said, ignoring the orders to drop the weapon and put his gun to his head. I was already guarded by an official, pointing a gun at my one time lover. I turned around, just in time to watch his face go blank.

"If I can't have you..."

It all happened so fast. The sound of a firing gun, his eyes widening, the searing pain in my heart. I watched how his hand loosened around the gun, letting it fall to the ground. The sound of metal connecting with wood was followed by a loud thud. Despite the darkness I could clearly see the red liquid trailing from his head.

I screamed. Hands tried to hold me back, but I broke free and made my way towards my lover. I cursed him, pounded on his still body, yelling at him to come back. How dare he scare me like that! His eyes were open, but his body remained unresponsive. Finally, two sets of hands grabbed my arms and pulled me away from him. Someone held me, comforted me, soothed me, but my mind didn't process. All I saw was Heero standing there, gun in his hand. Those words would hunt my mind forever.

'If I can't have you...'

End of part III

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