God Blessed the Broken Road: Part 4

The living room finally cleared out and that left Angel and me alone for a few moments. I sat down on the couch and patted the seat next to me which she promptly proceeded to fall into. Then flopped over into my lap and looked up at me with the silliest grin I have ever seen on her face.

"I can't believe the Dinobots snuck in and stole that DVD of yours."

She gave a long stretch and just looked back up at me again and this time proceeded to bless me with something that I would never have seen coming. She giggled at me.

"Least we know that they are fans." She giggled some more.

I shook my head at her and proceeded to prop her up with one of my knees.

"Angel?"

She looked back at me, still with that strange grin plastered on her face.

"Hmmmmm?"

"Are you stoned?" I had to ask.

That sent her off into fits of giggles again which lasted for a good five minutes before she finally came up for air.

"No 'Rion," She sat up and sobered considerably, "I am not stoned. They were just muscle relaxers."

"Then why are you acting like your stoned?" I demanded.

"Because," She put her arms around me and kissed me on the cheek, "I may not be stoned but, I DO feel REALLY relaxed."

"So basically you're stoned." I answered.

She got a blank look for a second and then nodded, "Pretty much."

That of course made me start laughing, and it was another five minutes before the both of us managed to calm down enough to think coherently again.

"I am sorry 'Rion," She flopped back down, "Honestly. But you have to admit, this is better than being in constant discomfort."

"No I do not have to admit that," I managed to get my own composure back, "I do appreciate the gesture. Next time though I think I'm just going to keep my trap shut."

"That's impossible," She grinned at me again.

"Oh hardy har," I adjusted her in my lap and grinned down at her again. "Shouldn't you be getting sleepy by now?"
"Now that you mention it," She yawned, "I am. Why?"
"Then go to sleep silly," I informed her.

That actually caused her to stop and think for a second, which resulted in her slowing down enough for the things she had took to fully kick in and send her off to la la land.

I was about to doze off my self when the door to the room flew open and every one who was in the house came charging in.

"Ratchet said she had the episode three DVD?" Sideswipe demanded.

"Come on hand it over!" His twin added.

I gave them both a flat look as every one crowded behind them.

"Did it ever occur to any of you guys that it MIGHT be a good idea to KNOCK?"
That was when it registered with all of them that Angel was in my lap and was in the process of snoring slightly.

"Uh oh," Prowl managed.

"Hey did we wake her up?" Bluestreak popped his head up, "Cus if we woke her up I know a really good way to…"

He was cut off by Jazz and a few others as they did the best they could to try and muffle him.

At this point the door flew open again and Ratchet and several others spilled into the room and began to dig in the movie cabinet.

"So is it in here?" Hound demanded.

"I wanna know how she got her hands on a copy of it early," Ratchet shot back.

"Who knows," Hound shot back, "You know that Miss Angel is pretty much capable of anything she wants to do. Heck she probably called in a favor or some junk like that."

"AHEM," I coughed.

That caused them to freeze, look at the couch, and suddenly develop two of the most pathetic looks that I have ever seen in my tenure with these guys.

"We're sorry!" Hound managed.

"SHH!" This came from Ratchet, trying his best to keep his partner quiet.

I carefully stood up with Angel in my arms and took her to the room we shared and then shut the door behind us. I made sure and count to ten to get them nice and nervous and then tossed the DVD out and watched as the scramble began.

"Geeks," I muttered as I shut the door and went over to settle down next to Angel.

Over the past few hours, I knew that she had been thinking about the things in our lives that have lead us up to this point where we are at now. Indeed there have been many things that a great many people out there in both her world and my own, would never have though could possibly happen to bring the two of us closer.

I watched her roll over in her sleep as her long hair fanned out behind her on the pillow and she muttered some thing under her breath that made very little sense to me. I have to admit it was nice to see her just relaxing for once and I made up my mind to enjoy my self since she had put her self in this condition for my sake.

I settled down to watch her sleep and suddenly I found my self thinking of my first mate, Elita-1. Strangely enough, I didn't feel like I had betrayed her by taking this human girl as my new love. No, it was exactly the opposite; I think she would have been happy for me because I had found her. Lita was never one to hold grudges or hold some one responsible for things beyond their control. She had tried so hard to get to me, but in the end there had been nothing she could do. She was as much of a fighter as My Angel. Both of them strong willed and willing to do what they had to, to make sure that the things that they valued were safe. Both of them were more than willing to stand up to me and tell me where to take it and stick it if I needed that done. Not to mention that they are great leaders and organizers in their own right. No I would guess that the only thing Elita did for me that Angel hasn't done is have a child.

The son that I never met but was sent away almost as soon as he was born to make sure that he would never be put in the position of being used against his parents. I would like to believe that the child still exists. I would like for him to meet Angel and see if they would accept each other. I would truly like to make it a family if there is ever a chance that I can.

But no, I realized as I watched this girl I loved now, no I didn't the love I had felt for some one else in the past against her or my self. The time and the place where I had fallen in love with Angel had been right for the both of us and it was more than just sheer coincidence. I would like to believe that the two of us were meant to be. Rather than thinking that Lita would hate this new love, I believe deep down that if any thing, Lita is the one that sent Angel to me so I could find happiness again. As silly as that sounds I have seen much stranger things in my life and something in my heart and spark tells me that the two of us will be with each other for a very long time.

A line of though which in turn leads to a different line of thought altogether, the line of thought that it is very possible that Angel and I MAY very well be together for a very long time. Ratchet told me that what has happened between us has changed the girl, and even now he doesn't know just how much of a change that might be. It may only extent to the mental link that binds the two of us together. OR, it might run deeper than that and connect Angel to me in a way that means we never will have to face the choice of my self out living her. At some point were going to have to address this matter, or not. I don't think it will matter to Angel one way or the other. As for me? I don't want to put anything on her that could cause her more stress. After having seen where this girl I care so deeply about has come from and what all she has been through to get to the point where the two of us met that night, I don't think she needs any thing else in her world to make it more complex. I could tell the whole story and we could look for the truth about the matter, Angel and I, it's just not at the top of the list right now. There are so many other things that I have to deal with in so many different ways, I think that its enough now for the two of us to just love one another and make the most out of that one way or another.

I hear her make another sound in her sleep and she rolls over in the other direction and is now facing me. Two nights ago when she got the DVD that is now causing such a flap in the other room, we managed to sneak off and watch it with each other. It was a good movie, if some what sad. Something about it managed to hit a cord in me for some reason. It took me most of the following day to pin it down but I finally made sense of it at some point. It had to do with the heroine. A strong willed girl, with long dark hair who wound up literally sacrificing her live for some one and something she loved. I ran over that scene in my mind and for some reason her face wasn't the actresses it was Angel's. That's when I guess I knew deep down that we were meant to be with each other.

You see I had always assumed that if I lost Elita my world would fall apart around me. The truth is it would have, had I not been in command of a mission at the time with the lives of so many depending on me and the choices I had to make. But with Angel its different, to honor her memory to honor the strength she has, would not mean letting my world fall apart. It would mean making sure the world that she had fought for lived on. That there is the key difference between my love for Elita and my love for Angel, the type of love that I had and have with each girl. With Elita it was very much romantic passionate love, built in a world that was falling apart and meant to be treasured because of the fact that it burned to hot for any one to hold for very long. With Angel, it's a much more stable love. Not that there isn't passion, but it was because we have taken the time out of the war to let the love we have develop into what it needed to be for the both of us, we are much more complete as individuals for it. If Angel were to die, I would be able to live with out her. What would destroy us I think would not be being able to be with each other, being forced to be apart by the war or by other circumstances would kill us. Death we could accept, after all it is a part of life. We would mourn, we would cry, and we would indeed be lost for a time. However we would know that some day we would meet again, we would find some way to stay connected. Loneliness? That is what would send both my self and Angel over the edge. Knowing that the other was some where but we were unable to help them or reach them for what ever reason, I think that would be a challenge that not even we could face.

She rolls over again in her sleep and I think that I should probably leave her alone and let her get some rest. After all, the fiasco with her parents had worn her out and then her...ahem, condition didn't make it much better, so I got up and headed out.

The living room was in full swing as the movie started up and every one in there proceeded to fall silent and get lost in the world presented on the screen in front of them. I had to smile over seeing them at peace for the first time in a long time, considering the war, but I didn't feel like I wanted to be there just then, I had no desire to see the movie a second time. So I left them to their movie and headed out to stare up at the night sky and think over once again all that had gone through my head.

I heard a loud giggle come from the direction of the barn and I looked in that direction to see Alyssa having fun with the Dinobots trying, like a mom with small children to get them to calm down and finally go into recharge. I watched for a few more seconds suddenly heard a wuff of breath as someone came up over the hill. Wheeljack noticed me and waved as he jogged the rest of the way up to where I was standing.

"Man I don't know how she does it," He wuffed again and looked back down at the girl. "She's got so much energy, maybe the nap was a bad idea."

I had to laugh, "Well, that's what you get for letting her meet the Dinobots Jack."

"I know I know," He looked at the house, "So? Did they ever get their paws on Angel's copy of Episode Three?"

"Finally, though they nearly woke her up to get it."

"Considering what Alyssa told me she took," Jack proceeded to get a very evil grin on his face, "I seriously doubt that. Speaking of which, why are you still conscious?"
"Don't worry," I made a face at him, "I'm sure it's going to kick in through the link in a while and I'll be just as stoned as she was."

"Angel stoned?" Wheeljack blinked. "Now I would have paid to see that."
"No," I shook my head, "No you wouldn't have, because Angel would have found out that you laughed at her later and Alyssa would have needed a new mate."
"Oh very funny," He smiled at me again, "They really are great girls ya know?"
"Oh yes," I nodded, "They really are."

He gave me a soft shove in the direction of the house and motioned to it.

"Go on in and crash next to your lifemate boss." He turned and headed back, "I just came up here for a bit of a breather."

"Okay," I raised my hands in surrender. "I give. I suppose it would be nice to go to recharge early for once."

"Hey look at it this way," Jack called as he headed off, "Enjoy it while you can!"

He had a point unfortunately. Megatron and his warriors wouldn't stay quiet forever. I was stunned on some level that they had kept it down for this long. Perhaps back on Cybertron I had gotten my point across to Megatron, or perhaps they were planning something of some nature. Maybe they were still stuck back on Cybertron and the space bridge just wasn't working. Whatever the reason I knew that Wheeljack was in fact right, the peace was not going to last forever. So I headed back into the house and finally made it to the room where Angel was still passed out, now snoring lightly as was her usual pattern.
I felt her snuggle into me as I pulled her close and shut off my own optics intent on just savoring the moment. I was hoping that above all else in the universe, this would last for as long as possible.