Aurorawhisperwind: gomen, chapter one was all in Kaoru's view. And Kenshin's still male. I will never on my vow to death, make Kenshin female… lol I'm too much in love with him.

Bradybunch4529: thank you for liking the description.

aintnolove2me: yes it's all mental. I got this idea when I read a novel about how everyone feels trapped and we just don't know it. Well, it was about Kaoru being trapped in her own mind and not wanting to face rejection so she hides, planning on forever.

blooded wings: I haven't gotten that far in thinking… I wrote this the last day of school during finals. All I have so far is that, well I won't give it away, but she's not going to be as nice as Kaoru herself, and to distinguish the difference between her other half, I might also give it a name.

Chapter 2

"This one must leave, our relationship, it can't go on. It's over…This one hope you'll find your happiness with someone when I am gone, someone who is worthy of your love. Good bye." I closed my eyes and walked away from the women I loved.

I can't be with her, I can't make her happy, sempai was right, and I don't deserve her. I felt so torn up inside, but with time we both will heal, won't we?

"No… no, no, no, IT CAN'T BE."

I snapped around in fear as I heard my love's voice in a desperate call. I saw one crystal clear tear gleaming in the sun, slide down her beautiful face. I looked at her with concern as she looked up with a blank face. Her beautiful crystallized sapphire eyes now replaced metallic and yet dull faded blue marbles staring past me. She wavered for a moment before she leaned forward, collapsed. I ran forward and caught her right before she hit the ground, but her spirit was gone. Her face was different, still beautiful, but of a different beauty. Smile, the smile was gone. I just realized I've never seen her not smile before; this was the first time I asked her if she was ok, and didn't respond. Her chi disappeared, as her lifeless form lay in my arms. I took her in my arms as I got up and raced to the Kamiya Dojo.

Next chapter: who's the golden amber eyed spirit? Will she take over? What will happen? Will Kenshin still love the new Kaoru, or will he stop at nothing to get his old Kaoru back?

A/N gomen, I know it's short and basically retell of Kaoru's view but forgive me. at this point he doesn't know the golden amber eye spirit yet. And I suppose since I basically just retold what happened in Kenshin's view, I'll repay my slowness in return with updating the next chapter right now.