Adoration And Fidelity

Thank you all for your reviews. I understand that this fan fiction is not going along well with some of my usual fans. Not that they have said anything, it's just I have not seen them review for this yet, meaning they were probably not interested in the summary. I just wanted to ask you all if I should I just the summary a little? Would that make it better?

Rating: M for Mature

Warnings: Sexual Content; Extreme violence; Offensive Language

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, but I do own the storyline.

Recap: As Kagome walked to Wacdonalds she decided she would buy a soda for old times. Deep down she wished her friends could have a soda with her. When she knew what she was hoping for in the depths of her heart she tried to change her mind focus. She decided that for now on whenever she would made a wish that she was with someone on this side of the well she would say to herself 'Well wouldn't it be even nicer to do that with Inuyasha.' That way she was sort of saying she was making the better choice. It was a speck bamboozling, but it would work. It just had to. It was one of her main senses of security. End Recap

Chapter 5: Saying Your Final Farewells

Kagome walked down the streets to her home. During her WacDonalds break she had thought a lot about every thing. She mostly thought about what things would be like in the feudal era. She would have to pack a life supply of ramen and soda. She would need a bunch of shampoo and soap. She was also print some ingredients for making soaps and shampoos out of wild plants. That way she would never have to be without.

She was not to far from the shrine now. She would have stopped at a couple of other places, but she hoped her family would be home by now. As Kagome walked down the street she tried to keep in mind all of what she was seeing. She would always want to remember what this place was like. She would tell her kids about it and they would tell their kids.

When Kagome came to the shrine steps, she sighed. The car was still not there. She hoped they would be there any second. If worst came to worst she would have to leave them all notes, which would probably be the easiest way to go, considering saying goodbye to them all would be one of the most difficult tasks she ever needed to accomplish.

The miko reincarnation walked up the steps. He legs ached to a slight extent, but not half as mush as her soul. She bit the inside of her cheek. She could not remove the frown on her face. She desperately wanted to. She didn't want the whole world to know her sorrow. She did not want their pity and she did not care for their sympathy.

When Kagome came to the shrine door she slid it opened and closed as she walked in. Since she would probably have a little more time before they came she concluded that she ought to take a bath for the last time in a real bathtub.

Meanwhile

Inuyasha stopped and rubbed some stray sweat from his forehead. It was a hot day and carrying all these bags of rice on his back was a slight hassle and discomfort. 'Fuck, it's hot out.' Inuyasha kept up his pace and walked into the entrance of the village. He had to bring this rice to Kaede's for her to cook. Now Sango, Kirara, and Shippo were setting up for the festival, while Kaede and Miroku cleaned the food they had already collected, and Kagome... Well Inuyasha had no idea where she could be. He would have to ask Sango or Kaede.

After Inuyasha would finish with this load of rice he would need to go and get another one and after that he would have to hunt the meat and secure the area for demons. 'Why is all of the damn work left up to me!' Inuyasha thought angry when he finally came to Kaede's door. He used the side of his body to push the door over, because his hands were completely full.

When he walked in the hut Kaede and Miroku gave him a glance, but then just continued what they were doing. Inuyasha piled the rice in the corner and took in a deep breath. That was a big relief on his arms, which would probably be soar later.

"How much more rice is there?" Kaede asked. Inuyasha growled lightly.

"Why would it matter to you? You're not the one who has to carry it all." Inuyasha snapped. Kaede gave him bored look. It was not like she was surprised by Inuyasha's usual attitude.

"Honestly Inuyasha... Must ye be so gruff whenever you need to help out?" Kaede commented as she chopped the head of a fish. The head was not needed in the meal. She put it in a pile with other decapitated fish. Inuyasha wrinkled his nose at the not-so-pleasant scent.

"So what kind of meat do we need?" Inuyasha asked ignoring Kaede's comment.

"Kinds. We'll need chicken, rabbit, and deer."

"All of that?"

"Aye."

"Kagome won't be happy if she finds out." Inuyasha informed as he crossed his arms over his chest. Kagome could handle a dead animal here and there for a meal, but the thought of slaughtering so many for some party would not sit well with her.

"She'll understand."

"That's what you think now.." The hanyou mumbled as he walked out the door, heading in the direction where he would collect the rest of the rice.

Meanwhile

Kagome scrubbed the dirt and blood from her body with the soap and shampoo. She made sure to scrub really hard. It felt a little strange that the wounds were not there. She was still obviously confused that the spring had healed her. It was odd, but with all of the other odd stuff in the warning states era it wasn't really surprising.

Kagome relaxed back into the tub, allowing the warmth of the water to take possession of her soul. She felt numb, yet fabulous. A smile almost came to her lips. She remembered all of the good times she had ever spent with her family. She would miss them, but she was making her choice and it was the right one. She may not be psychic, but that didn't mean she didn't have a good feeling about the future. 'Momma, Sota, Gramps... I'll miss you all. But I beg of you to understand the choices I'm making.' Kagome twirled her fingers trying to come up with full sentences about how she would explain all of this to her family and then tell Inuyasha about her decision. 'Will he be mad that I'm staying there?' She couldn't help, but frown again. She was giving up half a life for him. She hoped to all heaven and hell he would not be furious with her. That would ruin all of her plans. She was putting all of her trust in Inuyasha for this one.

The next thing Kagome heard was the sound of a door opening and keys jingling. Kagome smiled. 'Finally.' She finished getting the soap off her and rushed out of the tub. She could hear people talking downstairs. She quickly dried and put on her clothing. She wore just a normal gray, flexible skirt and a red, short sleeve, tight-fitting shirt. After quickly brushing here hair she ran down the steps. Her family was all sitting on the living room couches, talking about something unbeknownst to Kagome.

When Kagome walked in they all looked at her. They had not really expected her to be there.

"Kagome, dear you're home." Mrs. Higurashi said with a smile.

"Hey sis."

"Hello."

"Mom, Sota, Gramps..." Kagome could feel the tears welling in her eyes. She ran over to them and pulled them all into a bear hug. Mrs. Higurashi laughed.

"It's nice to see you too, sweet-heart."

"I'm missed you guys." Kagome said pulling away and smiling as brightly as she could stand. "There's so much we need to talk about."

"How about we talk about it over some iced-tea?" Mrs. Higurashi stood and the others all smiled and nodded. Kagome bit her lip nervously. 'Okay... tell them the good news.. spend some time with them... tell them the bad news.' That was what she had planned in her head. She hoped things would go well. She hoped they didn't ask her about what she planned on doing next. She didn't want to tell them so soon.

She watched her mom pull some cups from the cabinet, pull out the ice, and pull out the refrigerated jug of iced-tea. She did everything so orderly. First she took two ices and placed them into the four glassed. Next she poured the tea. After that she placed the glassed on a tray, and finally she cleaned up any spilt tea. Her mother walked over holding the tray and smiling the whole time. Kagome tried to soak in the smile. She wanted to remember it always.

When she turned to her brother and grandfather she found them smiling as well. She would remember that too... She wished she had some way to remember them forever, not only in her mind... then it clicked. A camera! Kagome had a camera where the pictures come out after the shot is flashed.

"I'll be right back." Kagome said as she rushed up the stairs. Mrs. Higurashi placed the glassed on the table.

"Alright." She said. Kagome rushed into her room. She pulled out her album. She had got it when she started her journey in the feudal era. It had many pictures in it from her time spent there, but a third of the large book was empty. Kagome took out her camera. She was glad to see her mom had restocked the film.

After taking a picture of her room she moved and took them of all of the other rooms. Her family watched her do this with wonder.

"What's she doing?" Sota asked. The adults just shrugged their shoulders. Kagome rushed up and down the stairs and back and forth through the hallways.

When Kagome entered the living room the first thing she saw was the family cat Buyo. Kagome held the camera up and took a picture of the sleeping cat. The cat shot up, meowing in fear from the flash. Kagome laughed. Then she turned to her family. She got a picture of them all together and then each one separately. She sighed and picked up all the pictures she had taken. She placed them on the coffee table. She would put them in the album a little later.

"Kagome isn't that supposed to be used for the feudal era?" Gramps asked picking up his iced-tea.

"Well.. yeah.. but I just wanted to take a few picture of you guys to show the people there. That's alright, isn't it?"

"Of course it is honey." Mrs. Higurashi handed her daughter the ice tea she made for her.

"Thanks." Kagome took a big sip.

"So would you like to explain to us what all the good news is?" Mrs. Higurashi sat on the long couch with the others. Kagome sat on the one-person couch.

"Oh.. that's right. I almost forgot." The young miko put down the glass of iced-tea on the counter. "Well Naraku is finally dead... and the sacred jewel is finally complete." She watched as smiles slowly glided onto the faces of the people before her. They were quiet for a moment.

"That's great sis!" And then they all began hugging, kissing, and congratulating her. Kagome laughed and took another picture of them all looking so happy.

"So what will you do now?" Gramps asked the one question Kagome could not handle. Kagome bit her bottom lip.

"I don't know." She lied. Now the joyous faces turned to frowns.

"You don't?" Her mother questioned. Kagome shook her head no. Kagome gulped. It became quiet for a little while..

"Um... mom.." Kagome began. "Would you mind taking me to the store? I have to restock for my next trip to the feudal era."

"Of course I wouldn't mind." Mrs. Higurashi stood up. "I'll grab my purse. You go wait out in the car.

Later

Kagome stuffed up a couple back packs with things she would need. She would have to make more than one trip back and forth between the modern and feudal era. Her mother and other family members were curious of why she would have needed so much stuff from the store and why she was bringing so many bags back to the warning states time.

Kagome kept an eye on what she was doing and tried to ignore the bewildered gazes of the people she would leave on this day. She did not know how she was going to say goodbye forever. Goodbyes were so complicated and heart-breaking, but she had to do it soon. She had to say her final farewells.

Kagome frowned. She could no longer hold a fake smile on her face. It was so saddening. She felt as though she was in some sort of drama movie. Kagome zipped up her last bag and placed it with the other ones.

"How come you're packing so much?" Sota asked. Kagome took in a deep breath.

"Um.. I need to talk to you all about something very important." Kagome crossed her arms behind her back. She had had so little time with them, but it was better this way. The sooner she left the easier it would be.

"Al.. right..." Mrs. Higurashi sat down on the ground. Sota and gramps stood behind her.

"First you need to know.. you'll have to understand what I'm going to say. I've given this a lot of thought and made my decision. There's no changing it, so please don't try." She took a moment to soak in the expressions of the people before her. They seemed more worried than anything. "The jewel... the jewel is what allows me to pass back and forth through the well..." She stared into one pair of eyes at a time. "If the jewel is gone then I no longer have any methods of time travel. In other words I have to choose between now and then..." She knew that they were beginning to understand where she was going with this, because their faces slowly became horrified. "I love you all so much." Kagome finally looked down, not being able to withstand the looks everyone was giving her. Their stares were so deep and they were digging into her soul. She could feel tears burning her eyes. "So, so much." Kagome's teeth began to chatter in fear. Her bangs shaded her eyes. "But I love Inuyasha as well..." Kagome closed her eyes tightly and tear slid down her cheek. "I love him. I do. I need him... I'm sorry..." Kagome sucked in a scarce breath. "But this will be the last time I can ever be with you all again..." Everything was silent. Only the ragged breathing of all the humans in the room could be heard. Kagome no longer had anything to say. This was it. Her goodbye. She had to leave now. She could not bare to see them so sad. The young miko looked up at them. They were all frowning and Sota was biting his lip, trying not to cry.

"Kagome..." Sota walked a little closer to his sister. "You're leaving forever?"

"I..." Kagome flinched her head back a little. "Am." Another tear slid down her other cheek. Sota looked down at the ground. He began to whimper. He was losing the person he admired. Gramps looked away. He felt so sorrowful. Perhaps it was to much for an old man like himself. Kagome's mother just took in a deep breath and then sighed.

"We understand." Mrs. Higurashi said. Everyone looked at her. "We will miss you. There is no need to be sorry." She smiled. For the first time Kagome could see her mothers smile was false. She could see tears brewing in the middle-aged woman's eyes. "If you honestly love him there is nothing we can do." She stood up and walked over to Kagome giving her a bear hug. Kagome hesitantly wrapped her arms around her mother.

"Oh mom." Kagome hugged her mother tighter and began to cry into her shoulder.

Later

Kagome sat there. She cried and cried and cried and cried. She felt so lonely and lost now. She had left her time for good five minutes earlier. She was just sitting on a patch of grass now that was in the middle of the forest. Her knees were pulled to her chest and her arms wrapped around her legs. 'Momma, Sota, Ji-chan...' She cried even louder at the mention of their names. She was crying so hard now and it felt nice. If felt like she was crying out all of the pain. She tried to stop herself so her eyes would not become swollen for the others to notice, but she could not.

Kagome pulled out there jewel. Her whole body trembled. In fear, anger, anxiety, and anguish. 'You stupid thing! Everyone who comes in contact with you is always harmed. How can something so pure be so evil?' Kagome squeezed it in her hand and placed it back in her pocket. She continued her tear-fest.

"Kagome?" Kagome turned quickly at the echo of familiar vocal cords.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome wiped off her tears quickly. Inuyasha was standing there with a package of rice slung over his back. He was giving her an inquisitive look. "W.. what are you doing here?"

I'll end it here.

Sorry:

I'm so sorry it took so long to update this chapter. I was just so busy with this new anime I'm into. Please forgive my selfishness.

From here on:

I'm not so sure where I plan to go with this fan fiction, but I do know it will be a true work of art that I'm almost sure all of you will enjoy. So keep reading and telling me what you think.

Random Comments: (Episode 13)

"He's dripping in sweat." Kagome said and took out a handkerchief to wipe the injured human Inuyasha. Inuyasha opened his eyes. "Sorry. I didn't wake you up did I?" Kagome asked, pulling the cloth back.

"No." Inuyasha turned his head away from her. " Kagome?"

"What is it?"

"Tell me something. Why were you crying?"

"You mean back in the other room...?... Because I thought I was going to lose you. I thought you were going to... die."

"You shed tears for me. Cried for me. Kagome if it's not too much trouble, may I lay on your lap." Kagome nodded.

Moments later Inuyasha's head was on Kagome's lap. Kagome was blushing as she wondered why her heart was pounding so much.

"Kagome..." Inuyasha began. "You smell kind of nice."

"Hey wait a minute! You always say how you hate how I smell!"

"I did." Inuyasha turned his head towards her a little more. "But I lied."

For those who don't know Farewell means goodbye.