Adoration And Fidelity

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Rating: M for Mature

Warnings: Sexual Content; Extreme violence; Offensive Language

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

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Recap:

"Kagome?" Kagome turned quickly at the echo of familiar vocal cords.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome wiped off her tears quickly. Inuyasha was standing there with a package of rice slung over his back. He was giving her an inquisitive look. "W.. what are you doing here?" End Recap

Chapter 6: Hard To Be Blithe When You're So Downhearted

"What do you mean 'what am I doing here'? What are you doing here?"

"I..."

"And why the hell are you crying?"

"I... I wanted to come out here for some peace and I... am crying because I'm just so happy that everyone can finally be happy." She lied. Inuyasha gave her an x-ray stare. He was looking right into her soul. He could smell her lies so he glared deeply.

"Why are all of those bags there?" He asked allowing the pack of rice fall to the ground.

"I went to my time. I wanted to bring some stuff back... in case I was planning to stay a while." That time it was really close to the truth.

"You're lying." Inuyasha kneeled before her. His face mere inches from hers. Kagome bit her lip as she stared into his transparent, amber eyes. He was staring straight through her. He had never done this before... and he was so close. Kagome tried to look away, but she couldn't. He was pressuring her mind. His own eyes pleading for the truth.

"I... am not." Kagome finally looked down. The lock in their stares had been broken with the key of lies. I angered Inuyasha that she still could not trust him with the truth. His eyes softened a little.

"Yes... you are. You can't hide the truth from me woman. I can smell your deceitfulness towards me right now."

"It's not deceitful!" Kagome yelled. She gave him a dark, and annoyed look. She did not notice the simple thing that Inuyasha did. A single tear was dripping down her face. This surprised Inuyasha. He opened his mouth to say something, but stopped himself realizing there was nothing he really could say if Kagome was going to keep refusing the truth from him.

"K..."

"I'm not!" Kagome leaned her head on his shoulder. He blushed a little. She cried into him. "I'm not..."

"Kagome.." Inuyasha said softly with a frown. He wanted to know what was wrong with her and why she was crying, so he could help her. He always felt so helpless in these sorts of situations. He could always battle off a demon, but when the hurt was coming from the heart there was really nothing you could do. Inuyasha finally draped his arms around Kagome and pulled her in.

Kagome felt so foolish. She was crying into him and he had no idea what was wrong with her. She was not going to tell him yet. She would do that tomorrow when they purified the jewel. For now he needed fun and if he knew she was suffering so much he would not allow himself to. For now this simple gesture was enough to calm her nerves. Her cries became whimpers.

"Just tell me what's wrong." Inuyasha ordered calmly. Kagome shook her head 'no'.

"There's nothing wrong with me." She answered. In all literality it was the truth. The was nothing wrong with her. She was just sad because she would never see her family again. Since it was the partial truth Inuyasha did not smell lies.

Inuyasha pulled away from her with an annoyed breath.

"Baka." He mumbled. He was blushing a little. He felt a little embarrassed that he had hugged her. There was so much tension between the two now it was almost making him sick. "Come on back to the village and start helping with the preparations." Inuyasha grabbed the rice and walked off. Kagome stared on after him. 'Was it really worth giving up? Should I really give up my family for Inuyasha? Does he even care for me the same way I care for him?' Kagome stood up and wiped some dry tears from her face. She then dusted off her bottom. 'It doesn't matter now. I've said goodbye to them and now I'm here. I should try to live happily.' Deep within her she felt that that was impossible. She would never be the same person without her blood to support her. She was stuck in a world of demons and wars. She was stuck away from all of the people she had loved since she was a young girl.

That's when Kagome realized... she had given it all up. That was saddening, but what was important was why she gave it all up. She gave it all up for the hanyou. Her heart had chosen this path for her. Could your heart be misleading? No, not Kagome's. Not now.

Kagome picked up all of her bags. She swung one around one shoulder and two around the other. She headed off towards the village.

Meanwhile

Miroku finished cleaning the last fish as he threw it into the pile. He wiped his forehead and was careful that his fishy hands did not touch his face.

"We're going to have to start on the rice now." Kaede informed as she pulled out the first sack of rice Inuyasha had brought in earlier. She opened the top and was glad to see it was fine, fresh rice. "We'll need something large to boil all of this and ye are going to need to bring lots of boiling water." Sango walked in with Shippo on her shoulder at that moment. She seemed a little worn down, but had a great big smile on.

"We're finished!" Shippo informed excitedly. Kaede and Miroku smiled.

"Good now ye must help Miroku with the rice." Kaede stood and handed Sango the package of rice. Sango moaned in agitation. This was only more work. "Ye must not complain. After all it is your celebration. It's time for excitement." Kaede patted her hands together and walked out the door.

"Where do you suppose she's going?" Sango asked. Shippo shrugged his shoulders and replied.

"Maybe she wants to find us more work."

"Shippo!" Sango whacked his tail. "That's rude."

"What is?" Kagome asked as she walked into the hut. The others all looked at her.

"Kagome!" Shippo jumped over to her shoulder and hugged her.

"Where have you been lady Kagome?" Miroku asked. Kagome swallowed a lump in her throat and gave Sango the 'what should I say' look, but she looked at her friend she found her frowning.

"Kagome. Could you come with me?" She asked, completely ignoring Miroku's question.

"Um... sure." Kagome dropped all of her bags and placed Shippo on the ground. She followed her friend out of the hut. "Is something wrong?" Kagome questions as they walked farther and farther away from the hut.

"Kagome... I'm worried."

"Why? Is something wrong? Is there a demon?"

"No. I'm not worried like that. I'm worried for you."

"But why?"

"I know you said that you chose this because you wanted to stay with Inuyasha, but are you sure he's worth what you're sacrificing?"

"Of course. He's worth the world to me..."

"You shouldn't have done it."

"Hmm?"

"You should have never decided on this before asking him. I'm concerned that he won't stay with you Kagome. You have to talk to him." Sango stopped and stared into her friends eyes waiting for a reply.

"I will... tomorrow." Kagome answered. "Before I purify the jewel. You don't have to worry about me." Sango was a bit surprised at Kagome's tone. Kagome seemed to be giving her a colder look than usually. That had never happened between them before.

"Is... something wrong?"

"Ah... No." Kagome looked away from her friend. She just felt so childish. She felt as though she was being scolded or lectured about her own decisions. She decided it was best not to get angered at her best friend. "I'm sorry. There's just a lot on my mind." Kagome walked off past Sango. The slayer looked on as her friend left once more. 'Kagome.. be safe.'

That Night

The celebration was great. All of the villagers had dressed in their fanciest kimonos. Everyone was dancing, eating, and playing games. Laughter echoed throughout the small residence.

Sango and Miroku were laughing out as they danced together in goofy ways. A couple villagers were playing some old feudal instruments for music. Sango was dressed in a special kimono. It was Light blue with green leaves on it. She had also changed her eye shadow to match the leaves. Miroku was also in fancier clothing. He was wearing a black, light blue, dark blue, and white traditional two-tone haori.

Inuyasha had - of course - chosen to where nothing more than his fire-rat haori, but Kagome on the other hand had been giving a special kimono for being such a main link in the quest and being such a kind miko to the villagers. Her main Kimono part was such a dark red that it almost looked black. It was lined with a lighter red. The obi tie was red with pink flowers. The ends of her sleeves matched the obi tie. She had worn her hair up in a slightly messy bun, with a thick piece of hair hanging to one side of her face and she wore light pink eye shadow and had glossed her lips.

Speaking of Kagome... Kagome had managed to climb up upon a hut's roof. She was staring at the villagers having their party below and occasionally looking up to the stars to admire them. She looked so nice, but she felt so miserable. She was supposed to be having a good time here like everyone else, but she couldn't. It was just to impossible. She sighed and leaned back, resting her head on the roof top. She looked up into the dark, night sky. She could see the faces of all of her family members and modern era friends. 'I'll miss you all.'

"Kagome!" Kagome sat up when she heard someone calling her name. She looked around and noticed Inuyasha in the crowd. The other scents were probably confusing him.

"Inuyasha!" Kagome waved her hand in the air to try and snag his attention. Sure enough he looked over and up at her. He gave her a scolding look as he jumped over and landed beside her.

"Woman! You can't keep running off like that."

"Oh really...? I was under the impression I could make my own choices."

"Ha! Who gave you that idea?" Inuyasha retorted. Kagome just let out a deep and annoyed breath. "So... what are you doing up here anyway?"

"I wanted to be alone for a little while..."

"You get enough alone time. You don't need it when you're supposed to be having... unalone time." Kagome giggled at Inuyasha little lack of correct grammar.

"Unalone time, eh? Well maybe you should be the one spending some 'unalone' time with the others. You're usually the one wondering off to be by yourself."

"Most of this damn thing is in your honor. You shouldn't just sit up here."

"Since when do you care?" Kagome looked down at the villagers. "And it's not mostly in my honor. It's for everyone who helped me and you accomplish this task. Which includes Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara, and Kaede."

"Task.. more like mission."

"It doesn't matter. Which ever way." Kagome pulled her legs to her chest and leaned her head on her knees. Inuyasha looked over to her only to blush. The moonlight was hitting her face at the perfect angle. Her lips were glossy and welcoming and that sad, lonely look on her face made him yearn to comfort her. His insides seemed to twist. Oh what he would do to simple hold her at this time. "They seem like they're so happy... Sango, Miroku, Shippo, and Kirara that is..." Kagome smiled lightly. She could feel some tears coming on. "I'm so glad for them. Finally after so much suffering they can be happy again." Kagome gave Inuyasha a bright smile. He could smell the tear slide down her cheek and it seemed to sparkle beneath the stars. "And you can be happy to..." Inuyasha tensed. Happy. Could he really be happy now? After all the pain and battles would he be happy?

Kagome looked back to the villagers and wiped the tear. She had hoped it had passed as a joyous tear, but in all factuality it was a tear of longing. She wished she could be so blithe as them, but it was hard to be blithe when you're so downhearted.

"What's... wrong?" Inuyasha never did well with tears. He would have thought Kagome would be happy about all of this, but she - of all people - seemed the most depressed, which was highly unusual. In fact she had seemed this way the whole day Inuyasha had been near her.

"Inuyasha..." Kagome took a deep breath. "Can I ask you something?" Inuyasha looked confused and gave Kagome speculative look, wondering if he should dare answer yes. The look in her eyes clearly signified it was not the smartest thing to do, considering the question was probably important and dramatic and hard to answer. Inuyasha finally nodded. "I..." Kagome looked low and her bangs shaded her eyes. "I want to stay with you Inuyasha. I don't want you to slip away from me... but if you will I need to know... I need to know something..." Kagome gulped. She was blushing a little. "Do... do... you love me?"

My, my how cruel of me to end it there. Ha. Well I just could not pass up such an opportunity. By the way I would like to say that these chapters don't seem more dramatic to me, where they might seem annoying to you and that's because I'm ALWAYS listening to music while I write and the sad songs inspire my writing.

Oh and forgive me for making this chapter so short.

About the definitions:

At the end of each chapter I always define the title just in case some of you are confused, because usually I have someone complaining and asking if the title is a word or now. Just to allow you all to know all the words I use are real words. Whether they are Japanese or English. The only word so far that I can think of that isn't a real word is the 'unalone' word I created in this chapter.

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Random comments: (Episode: 151)

Kagome leaned her head on her knees as she held them to her chest.

Kagome thoughts - 'Ah, man I'm horrible. I'm mad at myself and I let it out on Inuyasha. He probably hates me now.' Looking up Kagome sees Inuyasha in front of her with his back turned to her.

Kagome - "What do you want?"

Inuyasha - "Are you still mad?"

Kagome - "You're no going after Kikyo?"

Inuyasha - "When I was by myself at the foot of the mountain I ran into Hijiri-sama. Although it was just a human form that Kikyo was controlling. The real Kikyo had been consumed by Naraku's shouki, and her life was running out."

Kagome's thoughts - 'So he knew.'

Inuyasha - "What kind of condition... was Kikyo in?"

Kagome - "She was injured and asleep. However, since I could purify the shouki she's okay now." Inuyasha finally turns to Kagome.

Inuyasha - "You were the one who did it?"

Kagome - "Yeah."

Inuyasha - "I see."

Kagome's thoughts - 'That's right. He's worried.'

Kagome - "Inuyasha don't hold yourself back." Inuyasha quickly turns and faces her completely.

Inuyasha - "I won't go!"

Yes, I know that was long random clip. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the whole Hijiri-sama ordeal you'll just have to wait and see.

Blithe means happy

Downhearted means depressed