Adoration and Fidelity

Sorry about the wait to update. I was caught up in some stuff and school is starting soon, which I'm really dreading. Since I live in Florida school starts at the beginning of August. I really wish I could move back up north. School doesn't start until September there.

Rating: M for Mature

Warnings: Sexual Content; Extreme violence; Offensive Language

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, but I do own the storyline.

Recap: "Inuyasha..." Kagome took a deep breath. "Can I ask you something?" Inuyasha looked confused and gave Kagome speculative look, wondering if he should dare answer yes. The look in her eyes clearly signified it was not the smartest thing to do, considering the question was probably important and dramatic and hard to answer. Inuyasha finally nodded. "I..." Kagome looked low and her bangs shaded her eyes. "I want to stay with you Inuyasha. I don't want you to slip away from me... but if you will I need to know... I need to know something..." Kagome gulped. She was blushing a little. "Do... do... you love me?" End Recap

Chapter 7: For Your Bliss

(Inuyasha and Kagome's theme begins to play)

"W.. what... do you mean?" A bright red blush appeared on Inuyasha's face. That was the last question he had expected to be asked. He did not know how he could possibly answer such a thing. "Baka!" Inuyasha stepped back reluctantly. He was angry at her for asking him that. She should have known that he was not the type to answer that rightfully. Inuyasha watched an even larger frown appear on Kagome's face.

"It's just.." Kagome looked down at the ground. She did not want to cry in front of him anymore. It would only cause him to worry. "I just... was curious.. I mean..." She bit her lip. Inuyasha stared at her incredulously. He could feel his insides trembling. Kagome cried silently.

"Kagome?" Inuyasha leaned down in front of her again. He stared at the side of her face. She was looking away from him, avoiding eye contact. A war waged in her mind and then she turned to him. She was not frowning... she was smiling?Inuyasha wondered why she could possibly be smiling.

"I'm sorry." She wiped away the tears quickly and tried to make an even bigger smile. "That was stupid of me to ask. I feel like such an idiot." She looked up at the stars. 'I should have known he'd react that way...' Kagome thought to herself. She wondered deep down in he would ever answer such a question truthfully.

Inuyasha continued to stare at Kagome, examining every facial expression she made and every movement of her eyes. He felt guilty. Maybe he should have just pushed aside his hard outer covering just this once... It was to late now.

The Next Day

Instead of cleaning in the morning the group had stayed up late into the night and into the early morning to clean up all of the mess the festival had left behind. They had been so tired and warned down, but as noon approached they realized they had to wake up. They had something important to do today. They had to purify the sacred jewel.

Kagome was the first one up. Her heart and head worked together to bring her to wake before the others. She wanted to visit the well before purifying the jewel. She would not go to the other side, but she still wanted to stare into it, if only to calm her soul a little.

Kagome walked down to the well. She knew many villagers were still sleeping, because of how they had stayed up late to help with the cleaning as well. She was glad that she would not have to confront anyone on the way to the place that allows her to transcend time.

The young miko entered the clearing with the well. Her heart seemed to tighten in her chest. This was the last time she would see it able to carry people through time. She ran this time. She slid to a stop at the beginning of the well and looked down into it. It looked just like a normal, plain well, but it was definitely far from that. This was the well the made bones disappear when they were dropped into it, giving it the name 'The Bone-eaters Well'. This well was the only link through time that had ever existed. It was the thing that permitted Kagome to meet Inuyasha and her other companions in this time.

"Goodbye modern life..." 'That was the life that I was supposed to live. That was the life I had always thought would be mine. Just a normal teenage girl going to school and preparing for college and a job later on. A woman who gets married and has two kids with the man she loves deeply. That was what I had dreamed my life would be like, but it seemed fate had a different roll for me, Kagome Higurashi, to play.'

Meanwhile

From the tree Inuyasha watched Kagome stare down into the well. The wind was blowing silently around him and his eyes were filled with curiosity. 'Why does she just stare into it? Isn't she going to go back to her own time or something?' Inuyasha did not understand this. He had not understood why she was so sad yesterday and why that sadness had continued on until today.

"Has she made her choice?" Inuyasha's mind flashed to Kagome's sadness, aloofness, and many bags. He was starting to understand what this was all about. He was understanding why she had asked that question yesterday. She wanted to know... She needed to know whether or not he cared about her. Inuyasha had been so busy concentrating on other things yesterday that he had forgotten about the whole affair with the jewel. "Is she going to stay here than?" Inuyasha felt relief and sorrow at the same time. He had wanted Kagome to stay there, but as he watched her he noticed how sad it was making her. He did not want her to suffer this way for him. He could not allow this to happen. He wanted her to be happy no matter what... no matter how sad it made him.

He understood exactly what had to be done. Inuyasha jumped down from the tree. He walked slowly out into the clearing. His legs felt like stone as he walked. So much of him wanted to stop, but he could not. This had to be done.

"Kagome.." Inuyasha's voice had never been so shaky. Kagome gasped and turned around to see him. She had expected him to be asleep still. He was frowning down at her. She did not know what to say. She had hoped he would not see her here.

"Inuyasha... what are you doing here?"

"I followed you." He answered bluntly. Inuyasha knelt down in front of her. She gazed deep into his eyes. Inuyasha's lips felt numb. Everything seemed to be going by at an irrational speed. Kagome swallowed the next lump in her throat.

"Why...?" She felt her heart skip a beat as Inuyasha grabbed her hand and slammed her body against his in a strong embrace. She felt dizzy. This was familiar. What was he doing? "Inuyasha?"

"Kagome." Inuyasha held her a little tighter. "Be happy.." Kagome wondered what he meant by that and then she realized why this whole thing was so familiar. 'No!' Her mind screamed. Inuyasha pulled away from her and pushed her back. She noticed the gleam in his hands and recognized it immediately as the sacred jewel.

"Inuyasha stop!" Kagome grasped onto his haori so she would not fall. She held on tight and held her head to his chest as tears sprung from her eyes. Her heart pounded in fear. If he sent her back she would never see him again. She could not let that happen. She would hold onto him just as she was doing now. "Please don't!" She cried faster. Her heart was hurting more now than it did yesterday. The thought of losing Inuyasha forever was much to much to bare. She would have an emotional breakdown. "I want to stay with you... I want to stay here. Don't make me leave! Please..." That was when she noticed the fact that Inuyasha was just standing there. His body was trembling. He was afraid of letting her go. 'So how come he is trying to send me back?' Kagome wondered as she continued to hold onto Inuyasha's haori, but pulled her head back to look up at his face.

"Kagome.." Inuyasha was not facing her. He was sorry for this. He felt guilty. He felt heart-broken, but Kagome could not stay there. It was dangerous and he would not allow her to suffer without her family. He had lived without a family and it had turned him cold, he could not let the same thing happen to Kagome. Sometimes it was better to have someone physically distant, than emotionally.

"Why are you doing this?"

"You'll be happier there. In your own era. That's where you belong." Inuyasha's hand grasped the one that was holding onto him. Her eyes opened a little more when he pulled her hand off him. She felt so open and helpless. Kagome feared what his next movement would be. She could not fight him. If he pushed her it would be the end. She had to stop him.

"No! I'll suffer if I have to leave your side!"

"You're already suffering for leaving them. You have to go back. You will be happy."

"You don't know how I'll feel." Kagome shook as well now. She was crying harder. She did not want to go back. She only wanted him to be happy about her decision to stay there. It seemed destiny was not going easy on her. "Sit!" Kagome screamed out.

THUMP

Inuyasha went slamming into the ground, quickly letting go of Kagome's hand so he did not bring her down with him. He did not growl. He just laid there with his face in the ground, completely aware of how Kagome was staring down at him in angry tears.

She leaned down and pulled the jewel out of his hand.

"Inuyasha... I have made my choice. By trying to stop me you only made me hurt more... I am not going back there. My farewell was forever. Why can't you just understand that I want to be here?"

"For your bliss..."

"What?"

"I want you to go back for your own bliss Kagome.." Inuyasha pulled his face out of the ground and looked at her. Kagome gulped. She gave Inuyasha a look which he could not determine.

"My bliss is here." She said holding out the jewel and staring at it. 'I wish for the jewel to no longer exist in this world. Be purified. That is what I want. Please grant this for me.' The jewel glowed in her hand and Inuyasha's eyes widened as he realized what she was doing. She was shattering all of her chances of going back to her own time now. She did not understand what she was giving up.

"Kagome, no! Not yet!" He wanted her to think this over more. She needed to be happy and rushing things never helped anyone. His words came to late as the jewel whitened and disappeared in Kagome's hands. Kagome took a deep breath and opened her palm, which was reveal empty. 'It's finally over.'

"Inuyasha I am going to stay in this time, but that doesn't mean you have to stay with me. You still have a decision of your own to make." She reached her hand down and scratched his fury ear before getting up and walking away.

Inuyasha finally sat up. His own decision? That was right... He had completely forgotten. He had been so into whether or not Kagome was making the right choice he had forgotten he had a choice to make here as well. Now that Kagome had chosen to stay he had a fairly good idea of what he wanted deep down, but he also had a good idea that someone would end up hurt here and that was not what he wanted. Perhaps he needed to give it just a little more thought.

Inuyasha stood up fully and looked on at Kagome's diminishing figure. Since she had chosen to be with him in this time she would be in danger concerning demons and all. She would need protection. She would need him. It was selfish of him to think that he still had a choice to make. His choice was already made for him and he could not complain. He did not mind the fact that he would be able to spend the rest of his time with Kagome and he did not mind that Kagome would no longer leave for tests, but he did mind the fact that Kagome would no longer be as happy as she once was. One of Inuyasha's joys was to see the modern girls smile. He loved being able to see her purity and smiles that were so real on dark and cold days where he could feel nothing, but sorrow and hate for the world. She was the only one who was able to heal him. He needed to tell her how much he truly cared about her. He wanted her so dearly to know...

Inuyasha walked off in the same direction Kagome had gone. He was now sure of it. He wanted to stay with Kagome. Kagome was the choice he was going to make. Kikyo was no longer in the picture for him. Perhaps making Kagome go back to her time was not the way to make her joyful, maybe all he had to do was stay with her for her bliss.

Stepping through the woods he did not really know what the others would think of the fact that the jewel was now gone. They would probably all go their separate ways and try to rebuild their lives that Naraku had ruined. Was this truly the end? Was this the time that they could all be freed from their horrid past and hardships.

Inuyasha had had such a lonesome life as a child, but he was no longer alone. He now had friends to cherish and be cherished. He knew he himself could be glad, but the others had a lot to reflect on.

Two Days Later

Inuyasha looked away from the others as they all ate. Kagome was not sitting close to him like she usually did. In fact she had seemed more distant lately. It was making him feel very uneasy. The others were as quiet as ever and Miroku had not even dared sneak a pinch at Sango's bottom.

There was a lot of tension in the room and no one liked it, except for Kagome - who seemed to be paying attention to nothing other than her food and own thoughts. She sipped the broth from her soup and placed the bowel on the ground.

"Excuse me for a little please. I'll be right back." She stood up.

"And just where do you think you're going?"

"I'll be right back." She repeated and walked out. Inuyasha growled a little and turned back to his food. He heard breaths of relief from the others in the room and then gave them confused looks.

"Wow, Kagome seemed really scary tonight..." Shippo said with a little shiver. Miroku and Sango nodded.

"What are you talking about? She's been like that for the past two days." Inuyasha informed.

"Yeah, but tonight... we should just give her some time to be alone." Sango said as she took another bite of soup.

"No we shouldn't. We should find her, bring her back, and then ask her what the hell is up with her."

"She's left her family for good Inuyasha!" Sango glared at his insensitivity.

"She did it on her own. I told her to go back! But she purified the jewel instead and walked off!"

"You... you told her to go back..." Sango slowly turned her eyes narrow on him. "You baka! So that's why she's been so tense! How could you?"

"What?"

"You told her to leave when she had already chosen to stay! Inuyasha, that's cruel!"

"What the hell are you blabbing on about? I only told her to go, because she'd be happier there."

"No, she told me that she had chosen to be here to be with you and yet you... you.. ugg!" Sango placed her food down and stomped out in aggravation of Inuyasha's lack of brain use.

"Why does everything always get blamed on me?" Inuyasha asked, but not to a specific person. He growled and then put his own food down, suddenly realizing all of what Sango had just informed him. She had said Kagome wanted to stay to be with him! Kagome wanted to be with him. This was new news to him. He was excited and also a little angry that Kagome had not just said something earlier.

I'm real sorry I haven't updated in so long. I've just been getting into so many new anime's and now that school has started back up I barely have time to write at all!

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Random Comments: (Episode: 48)

Inuyasha - "Kagome, I could never trust anyone before I met you, but you cried for me... You were always there for me. It was fun being with you and you made me feel comfortable. However, I can't be having fun and relaxing. Kikyo was... Kikyo came after me and lost her life. It's only right that I repay her with me own."

Kagome - "Yes, I can't compare with Kikyo. After all... I'm still alive. I though a lot about Kikyo too. Kikyo and I are totally different. Even though it's said that I am Kikyo's reincarnation. But I am not Kikyo. My heart belongs to me. But you know, I understand one of Kikyo's feelings. It is the same as mine. Inuyasha, we both share the desire to be with you again."

Just to let you know I get the random comments from Japanese episodes that I have saved on my computer. Since it's Japanese, English translated the words don't fully match the English versions.

Bliss means Joy