A/N – This is a Seto/Joey yaoi fan fiction. If you don't like, don't read. The title of the fic and ideas are from the song 'Fix You' by Coldplay, seeing as from day one of listening to it, I found it to be so inspiring and made it easy to write a story. So have a read, maybe review! Positive and negative reviews are welcome, always open to a bit of constructive criticism. But no flames because of the pairings or just because the idea of it doesn't take to your liking, thankyou.
Disclaimer – I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh, any of the characters or the song 'Fix You'. Hell if I did, I'd be rich! But I don't…Nor do I own any references to Romeo and Juliet, or any similar ideas…Mr Shakespeare does…but then his copyright may have run out by now…
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Domino City
Joey Wheeler's POV
He had just walked away. Walked away from me. And insulted my intelligence. If the over-confident bastard had actually bothered to get 'people skills' he would know that I was stuck for an answer. I had felt hurt when he had walked away, like I had been let down somehow, a feeling all too familiar. I cursed at myself for being attracted to Seto Kaiba of all people. There were plenty of great guys I could have, I presume. Duke Devlin's one of them, I would be after him like a shot had Kaiba not come into the equation and had Tristan not been so hung up on him for like a year now.
I didn't really know where I was headed as after school I had left as quickly as possible without worrying Yugi and the others. The last thing I needed was them on my tail, asking what was wrong, when all I wanted was to walk along in the fresh air to clear my head. If this was what liking someone did to you, was it really worth it? Was all the pain and effort really worth it? Or more to the point, is it worth going through all that to win someone you can never have, someone who hates you so much he can't even keep a conversation going, someone who can't stand to be near you, someone who would do anything to make you miserable? Was Seto Kaiba really worth it?
But I was a fool in love and for once I really did feel that the phrase 'You do stupid things when you're in love' was appropriate to how I was feeling. I knew I would love nothing more than to snuggle up to Seto on a winter's night, the same way I had seen Yugi and Yami so many times before. All I wanted was to walk down the street with Seto and know that nobody else could have him, because he was mine. He was Joey Wheeler's.
But that was as far as it went. Just want. Nothing more than dreaming and wanting but never having. And this was the part that cut me up inside, because I knew that I could have anyone else. That may sound big-headed but you wouldn't believe the wonders that being a Duel Monster's finalist TWICE in a row does for a guy's reputation! It was like popularity I had never experience before. But it hurt to not be able to enjoy it, to be so caught up on one person, one horrible, cold, heartless person who couldn't even tolerate me.
"I just want this to end." I said aloud, hoping no one had heard me speaking to myself. But hope was not enough as pretty soon a familiar voice piped up from nowhere.
"Want what to end, Wheeler? You must've been thinking pretty hard, I could hear the cogs whirring from the other side of the road." A deep voice said, calmly, but so full of ridicule.
"Please leave me alone, Kaiba. Surely you must get bored." I answered effortlessly. I was not in the mood for his games and certainly wasn't up for petty comments.
"How can I get bored of such a fun hobby?" He sneered back. It took all I could not to burst with rage at this point. There was all the proof I needed that my feelings were completely unrequited. I was just his hobby. Just a game he would play and always win and this made me feel lower than I already was.
"Is that all I am to you? Just some stupid hobby?" I asked before I could stop myself, trying to hide any anger in my voice. It wasn't working, but it was worth try. I just didn't have the fight in me anymore.
"No. Although I can't imagine that that would be a problem. Honestly, what has gotten into you?" He asked. And then I saw it for what it was. This was just another ploy to find out what was wrong, playing on the fact that I was down, not putting up a fight. Well I was going to stand my ground. I didn't have to tell him anything and besides, it would be wasted on a guy who doesn't actually care. All he wants to know for it so that he can change his insults in order to get me to bite. As well as a hobby, I would turn into his new project and although the idea of me being on his mind made me feel good, it made me feel worse about the situation I was in and acted as just another reminder of something I could never have.
"Nothing has gotten into me, Kaiba. What are you doing here anyway?" I had another comment I could add to the end there, but it was seem unexpected with my current mood.
"I came to collect Mokuba from his school. He had an after school project to complete. I must be going crazy, but I'll let this off for today. You are in no state of mind to be talking to be in an intellectual conversation…although I think I'll have to wait a while for 'Joey Wheeler' and 'intellectual' to appear together. But don't think I'm giving up, I will find out what's going on, Wheeler, mark my words." He said as he turned away, trench coat billowing in the harsh wind that had just picked up.
"I don't have to tell you anything, Kaiba! And you say that like it's almost a threat!" I called after him. I had a hunch that he would ignore me and started to walk away. I started slowly, just in case, but I could read him like a book and as soon as I saw a blue, sports car drive past with the license plate '5 KA1BA', I knew I was right. There was no point in even hoping anymore, it only made me feel even more hurt and even more unappreciative of myself.
How I had ever managed to fall for Seto Kaiba was beyond me.
A/N – So there you have it, the longer, more angsty update. I'm really feeling up to writing tonight. All my friends are leaving for Uni so I'm fuelling my upset/anger through my writing :-) Trust me to hang out with people a year older. slaps wrists I'm going to try and update once a week, but on weekends like this one it'll probably a couple of times a week :-) Thanks for reading and please keep reviewing!
