Cordelia's New Obsession 19?

Disclaimers in part 1

Okay RL is going smoothly again so here is another chapter to this epic tale.

Harry2- It seem like she has made up her mind subconsciously. Now we have to wait and see if it becomes reality.

The rain hitting the windows woke Buffy out of a not so good sleep. She was being plagued by dreams, but didn't know what they meant. Her heart was heavy for the fact that they were burying her first love. The rain is very lovely weather to bury a loved one. There was light tapping at her door with a soft 'Buffy'. She looked at the door and pulled up the covers.

"Come in." She said, neither yelling nor shouting.

Lindsey walked in and opened the door and smiled when he saw Buffy sitting up. He closed the door behind him and sat down on her bed. It was something that she would do whenever she would stay the night over his house.

"How are you this morning sunshine?" He asked her.

Buffy let out a small smile. "I'm doing okay. It felt like I've been sleeping for hours. Did I get Anyanka? Did my spell work? I just came up with it at the last minute." She babbled.

Lindsey let out a smile, he loved it when she babbled. It seemed like she was herself, but she was a little on the pale side this worried him a little.

"You did good princess for your first vanquish. It took a lot out of you, unfortunately you can't cast or anything for another twenty four hours. That spell took a lot out of you, and grandma said you needed to recharge." He gave her a smile.

"I won't I have no reason to. At least not now anyway, I'm just scared. There are so many people, demons, and whoever else who want me. They either want my power or want to corrupt me, or have me join the dark side. I went from this normal California girl to the underworlds most wanted." She tried to joke.

There was another knock at the door, Buffy mumbled come in and Jenny walked in. She smiled at the girl who has come to be more like a daughter to her than anything.

"I just wanted to see how you are doing. You look a little pale, are you feeling well this morning?" Jenny asked.

Lindsey moved out of the way when his mom approached the bed. Jenny put her lips up to Buffy's forehead to see if she was warm.

"You're not running a fever or anything. It must be the after affects of the spell. You did a good job last night Buffy. You really proved yourself, to me and probably to the elders who are watching." Jenny praised the young Wicca.

Buffy blushed at the appraisal she was getting. It's not everyday you try to rid the world of evil.

"It was really nothing, it felt really weird though. It felt like I wasn't the only one in my body, like someone had just took over." She shrugged.

"You evoked the Goddess of Forgiveness. She can be very tricky at times, but it did you some good. Are you sure you're up to attending Angel's funeral this afternoon."

Buffy and Lindsey exchanged glances and Buffy gave a nod of her head.

"I need the closure, to be able to move on you know." She smiled.

"Your moving on wouldn't have anything to do with Cordelia does it? It seems like you two are a lot closer than you let on."

It wasn't that Jenny had a problem with it, she was just concerned. Buffy was one of those girls who love easily and whole heartedly. It was people like her that get their hearts broken. It nearly killed her when Angel cheated on her; Jenny's heart went out to the young girl.

"Don't freak out, but I am attracted to her, and I like her as in I like her like I did Angel. Maybe even a little more, but we are taking things slow. You know with the death of Angel and all that other good stuff."

Lindsey looked at his mom trying to gouge her expression. Buffy thought she was going to see a look of disapproval on her aunt's face, but was surprised when she saw a small smile.

"That is of the good, as you would say. I don't want you rushing into anything, like your crazy cousin over here." She pointed to Lindsey.

Lindsey looked away not wanting to meet his mother's eyes. He didn't think that he rushed into something with Drusilla. It was a mutual attraction on both their ends. Jenny noticed that Lindsey and Buffy wanted to talk.

"I'm going to go ahead and fix breakfast. I want you two down there in twenty minutes. Lindsey are you coming to the funeral?" She asked her son.

"Yes mother, I am. Even though I didn't like him, I want to be there for Buffy." He gave her a smile.

Jenny walked out of Buffy's room closing the door. Something was off with the blonde but she didn't know what. Shrugging it off she went down stairs.

"Good morning sunshine. You're up early." Jenny greeted her husband.

Giles gave her a kiss on the lips. "I wanted to fix some breakfast. Are the children up?" He asked, while putting pancake batter in the frying pan.

"Yeah, they are. Lindsey is in there talking to Buffy; she doesn't look too well this morning. She is pale looking, but still has a little color to her."

She sat down on the stool and watched her husband cook. He was the best she loved his cooking. Hers was just as good, but Rupert put something extra in it.

"I'm pretty sure it's just the spell she worked. It did take a lot out of her; I'm surprised she's still not sleep. Does she still want to go to Angel's funeral?" He asked.

"That's what she said. I think it's something about closure, besides she has her eye on someone else."

Jenny decided to see how he would react. Giles took off his glasses and wiped at them and put them back on. It was something he did whenever a subject was uncomfortable or he was nervous. She couldn't help but smile.

"Let me guess, this person is Cordelia. She just met this girl and already she's making eyes at her. I know that Cordelia is very attracted to her, but I didn't think it was mutual." He tried to explain.

"Listen she is a teenager, Buffy is going to experiment. Besides it may not be serious, it could be just a passing thing. She will be going off to college in a few more months."

Lindsey and Buffy made their way downstairs and into the kitchen. They could tell by the sudden silence that they were talking about something. Giles was putting pancakes on a plate and Jenny was getting the juice together.

"Good morning children. How did you sleep?" Giles asked the two.

"I slept well." Buffy answered.

"I slept like a log, but I'm hungry." Lindsey joked.

Jenny walked passed him, "You are always hungry." She gave him a smile.

Giles walked in passing out the remainder of the plates. Everyone began to eat except for Buffy who was pushing around at her food. This alarmed Jenny, but Giles was oblivious.

"Sweetheart is everything okay?" She whispered to the girl.

Buffy put her fork down and whispered back, "Yeah, I'm just not really hungry."

"Buffy, please try to eat something for me. I don't want you wasting away; you have to keep your strength up." She pleaded with the teen.

Buffy started to eat her food, it tasted different to her. She wanted something else, but she didn't know what. Her stomach started to reject the food and she ran to the bathroom. Giles, Jenny, and Lindsey looked after her in concern. Lindsey was the first one out of the chair. He tried knocking on the door, but it was locked.

Buffy started throwing up nothing, but blood. It scared her a little; she managed to clean up the toilet, and her face. She began to feel dizzy, but regained her equilibrium. Today was a little unusual to her. Opening the door she was Lindsey standing there, this startled her a little.

"Lindsey, what are you doing here?" She tried to keep herself calm.

"You rushed out of here so fast, I was getting worried. Mom and dad are worried too."

He put an arm around her shoulders and led her back to the kitchen. Jenny and Giles looked at her in concern. She offered them a small smile and sat down. Lindsey did the same.

"Are you pregnant Buffy?" Giles asked causing Buffy to spit out her juice.

Lindsey wiped the offending juice. He couldn't help but laugh at his father's way of asking things.

"P-Pregnant? Giles in order to become pregnant you have to have sex. I haven't had sex with anyone. If you must know, I'm still a virgin." She smiled.

This statement caused Jenny to choke, and Giles to blush. It seemed that Buffy was back to her normal self. Lindsey and Buffy gave each other a high five and continued eating.

"W-W-Well that's a good thing. Terribly sorry, forget I asked that." He stammered out.

The rest of breakfast was eaten without any incident. Buffy ate a little more, but her body was craving more. Unfortunately she didn't know what it wanted.

Cordelia's

Cordelia was pacing the confines of the kitchen. She had been on edge all morning, and she hated that. Today was Angel's stupid funeral and she was torn between attending and staying home. Dru said that she wanted to go, just to be respectful. After all Lindsey was going to be there and so was Buffy.

"Cordy, I really wish you would change your mind. Buffy is going to need a lot of comforting. She's burying her boyfriend, her first love." She told her.

"I don't want to be there, besides its raining. I don't like being in the rain, it does something to my hair." She gritted out.

Drusilla could tell that there was something going on with her sire. She had an idea that it revolved around the little blonde. Honestly she wanted to get this whole thing over with, her sire would have Buffy and she would have Lindsey.

"I'm sorry Dru; it's just that she keeps calling out to me. I want nothing more than to answer it, but the time is not right... I need to have her right were I want her. Buffy has to want no one else, but me. That's proving a little difficult because her family is around her constantly. I know I said don't kill anyone, because I don't want to make her insane." She sat down on the chair.

"Go to the funeral, make your presence known. Be there for her in her time of grief and that is one way of having her depending on you."

Drusilla walked out of the kitchen leaving her sire to think. The raven haired girl was right. Willow was now in a mental institution, Buffy would definitely confide in her. She needed to find something black to wear. Cordelia Chase is going to that funeral.

Rosedale Cemetery

The rain had stopped falling to give way to sunny skies. The mood was somber and down right depressing. Buffy was sitting next to Angel's parents like the dutiful girlfriend. He must not have told him that he cheated on her. Everyone who was anyone was in attendance. The only person who wasn't there was Willow; she saw her parents but not her. She made a mental note to ask about her later. The preacher droned on and on, Buffy tried to keep herself from crying, but couldn't help it.

"Ashes to ashes, dust to dust." The preacher put the consecrated dirt on his coffin.

It's sad when a parent has to bury their own child before them. The mourners came around and gave the family hugs and condolences especially to Buffy. His family loved her to pieces and the feeling was mutual.

Lindsey was about to make his way towards his cousin, but decided against it. Willows parents caught up with her first. Drusilla and Cordelia walked up behind him.

"How is she doing?" The raven hair vampire asked him.

Lindsey looked over to her cousin talking to the Rosenberg's. "She is holding up."

"Buffy we are sorry for your loss. I know how much you loved Angel and he you." Mrs. Rosenberg told the blonde.

"Thank you, I miss him a lot though. After all he is my first love." She tried to smile, "Where's Willow? I thought she would be here." She looked around for her friend.

"Willow is at Ridgeview. She was going crazy literally, so we had to confine her." Mr. Rosenberg told her.

Buffy let out a gasp, "She told me that she wasn't feeling herself. I didn't want to believe her. Is she going to be up for visitors?"

Mrs. Rosenberg looked at her sadly, "Not for at least a month. They want to evaluate her and everything else."

"Well, if you talk to her, tell her I love her." With that said, Buffy turned and walked away. She really didn't need anything else to think about.

The Rosenberg's watched as she walked away. So much pain for a young girl to go through. Mrs. Rosenberg prayed that it wouldn't effect her test on Monday.

Buffy was walking towards the waiting limo when she felt a familiar tingle. It was faint at first, but then it got stronger. She looked around headstones and the feeling kept getting stronger and stronger, it caused her to double over in pain.

"There you are. I've been waiting to talk to you." Cordelia told her.

Buffy let out a soft sigh when the feeling subsided. She gave Cordelia a big smile and a hug.

"I'm so glad that you are here. I didn't know if I could make it through the day without you." She gave the brunette a smile.

"You're holding up the limo, I will meet you at Angel's." Cordelia gave her a smile.

"I will hold you to that." The blonde left and went towards the waiting limo. She prayed that she didn't have to ride in another one anytime soon.

The ride back to the house was made in silence. Buffy looked out the window at the trees passing by.

"I have some things of his that he would want you to have." Angel's mother told her.

Buffy looked at the woman and smiled. "I would cherish them forever." She said softly.

"I hope you will still come around. Just because Angel is gone, doesn't mean I want to lose you too." His father added.

"I promise I will." She gave him a soft smile

The limo came to a stop and the chauffer let them out. Buffy got out and went upstairs to his room. She really didn't want to be bothered with all of those people in there. What she really wanted was to be alone. She opened up the door and walked in, the memories came rushing back.

"You know you're my best friend right?" twelve year old Angel asked Buffy.

"Yeah, I know. You're mine too." She gave him a smile.

"Would you marry me?" He asked blushing.

"Where's my ring?" She asked him seriously.

Angel reached into his pocket and pulled out a roll of candy and handed her one.

"A life savers?" She asked in curiosity.

"It's just until, I can get you another. Don't worry; we can live with my parents." He gave her a smile.

"I love you Angel."

"I love you too Buffy."

She lay down on his bed and drifted off to sleep. The events of the day taking it's toll on her mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Buffy sat at the edge of the river bank lost in thought when someone approached her.

"I was wondering when you were going to show." The familiar voice said to her.

She looked up and standing there was Angel. Looking as young as he did a few years ago.

"You don't age do you?" She asked him.

"Not really, but you are as old as you feel. Your dad is with me too, but he can't face you right now. The big guilt and all." He told her.

"I forgive him. What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be looking out for others?" She asked him.

"I was sent to you specifically. The next month is going to be real trying for you, there is something huge happening and you need to be ready for it. Whatever you do, don't be tempted. All will be lost." He disappeared.

Buffy started screaming and crying, "Why me? Why do you keep doing this? I can't take it anymore." She started sobbing.

Buffy felt herself being shaken awake, "Angel?" She asked sitting up.

"Sorry princess, not Angel." Cordelia smiled at her.

"What are you doing in here? I came up here to be alone." She mumbled.

"Your aunt and uncle are real worried about you." She held out her hand for Buffy to take.

To Buffy it was a strange sense of deja vu.