A/N – This is a Seto/Joey yaoi fan fiction. If you don't like, don't read. The title of the fic and ideas are from the song 'Fix You' by Coldplay, seeing as from day one of listening to it, I found it to be so inspiring and made it easy to write a story. So have a read, maybe review! Positive and negative reviews are welcome, always open to a bit of constructive criticism. But no flames because of the pairings or just because the idea of it doesn't take to your liking, thankyou.
Disclaimer – I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh, any of the characters or the song 'Fix You'. Hell if I did, I'd be rich! But I don't…Nor do I own any references to Romeo and Juliet, or any similar ideas…Mr Shakespeare does…but then his copyright may have run out by now…
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Iridescent Vie – Yeah, I've got no school work at the moment which is handy so I'm spending a lot of my free time writing this so it means quick updates, but I dunno how long it'll last, I'm bound to get bombarded with work soon! And thankyou! I don't know what I'm doing either! Haha! I'm kind of drawing from past experiences of feeling like they are but I dunno if that's doing anything to it:D
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Any text in italics is a flashback
Domino City
Joey Wheeler's POV
I think it was pretty much safe to say that I was miserable. I hadn't been out all weekend and it was all stupid Kaiba's fault. Except he wasn't stupid and it wasn't his fault which I realised as I walked over Domino City trying to find a way out of the state I was in.
I thought after the kiss that was that and I could get on with it. But I couldn't. I couldn't deal with Kaiba's cruel rejection, without saying a single word, I couldn't deal with never having the one thing I wanted more than anything, the only thing I ever prayed or wished for. The only thing I was now certain I was well and truly in love with. And it really hurt.
With all my walking and thinking, I never realised where I was. I had been drawn to the playground in Domino Park. It was so quiet and so dark. I even had school the next day, but checking my watch told me it was already two o' clock in the morning, was there any point in leaving now? Ordinarily no, but when I began to feel a presence, a presence of another person, I got a little worried, tightening my arms and curling my hands into fists. But the feeling soon went and I made my way to the swings. It was no use keeping it all inside. No one was here, it was really early in the morning and the swing was just screaming at me to go for it.
"Why don't you ever share anything?"
I had begun to ask the things aloud with each movement of the swing, to a mental image of Kaiba.
"Why can't you accept me?"
"Why can't you accept you?"
"Why do you hate me so much?"
My voice had gotten louder, sounding more angry by the second. I couldn't help it, but I felt that the longer I had it all bottled up, the longer it was going to hurt, and where better to let it all out than in the dead of night, screaming at the stars?
"Why do you need fixing?"
"Damn it, Kaiba…I love you!" I screamed into the night, swinging higher than I ever had. I felt so much better for letting it all out, it was a form of release and it had cleared my mind.
"Well that was certainly interesting." A voice came from next to me. It was said in such a tone that just had to have a smirk to match. But regardless, he had terrified me and I nearly fell off the swing.
"Damn it, Kaiba! You trying to kill me? No wait, stupid question." I snapped, slowing the swing down to recover from the fright the boy next to me, had given me. He must have crept up on me, damn me being so wrapped up in myself. In fact, damn the world! What's it ever done that's good for me?
"I haven't got time for this. Go on, tell everyone about how I feel. Humiliate me. Tell them all I was shaking really bad. Go on, Kaiba! I dare you." I snarled, shooting him an angry glare. I had made the ever fateful mistake of assuming but I didn't care, I just needed to let it out.
"Careful, Wheeler. I might just take you up on that dare. Well, while you're here…Joey, I'm giving you one more shot. Fix me. Please." He said. It was kind of a polite order, from the Great Seto Kaiba? Impossible. But at least he had recognised that the problem lay in himself and not with his feelings alone.
"I already tried, it didn't work did it?" I said, not turning to look at my companion.
"No."
"Well I'm all out of ideas, Rich-Boy. I'm sorry. Really." However I really was sorry. I would've done anything he asked me to, and because I was unable to fix this one thing, I was overcome with guilt and apologetic feelings.
But what could I do? It's not like this is a broken bone that I can swaddle in bandages and then cradle him and tell him it was alright. Not, this was much deeper, this was a mental insecurity and last time I checked I wasn't a psychiatrist!
"You…you could tell me why you…erm…like me." He said quietly. Had it not been two AM and deadly silent, I was sure I wouldn't have heard him.
I turned to look at him and noticed that he was now looking down at the ground, pushing himself on the swing, ever so gently. It was almost poetic.
"I already tried that, cleverclogs!" I believe I had given up on my 'play it cool' and 'keep him sweet' campaign. Back to arguments and name-calling.
"Maybe…I have thought of a different approach. I agreed to kiss you and as life goes, you don't ask for something without giving something back." He was still looking at the ground. It seemed he was almost afraid of what would happen to him if he dared to look at me.
"Jeez, what world are you living in here, Kaiba?" I asked, trying desperately not to laugh at his old-fashioned ideas. It shocked me that finally I had an insight into Kaiba's mind and that was what I was given.
"Joey." I flinched at the sound of my name. The last time he called me that he had told me I was a crazy fool lusting after him. He was partly correct but totally inappropriate with what I wanted to hear.
"Joey, you can't love me. I'm a cold, heartless, spoilt little brat. The only person I have ever loved is Mokuba. He is the only one to accept me as I am. I'm a bastard, I threaten people, threaten to kill them," I shuddered at the memory. "And I practically have killed someone. Joey, I am not someone you can love because I am not someone. I'm just a person waiting to die. No one can love me because I can never love them. Do you get it now?" He finished and had stunned me into silence. Before an hour ago I didn't know who Seto Kaiba really was. He was someone constantly with a brick wall in his way never letting anyone near. But to hear him speak like that was a bitch. How could someone with practically everything, so successful, possibly think that about themselves?
"No, no Kaiba that isn't true. You're a stucl-up bastard all right, but none of that is true. How can you feel that way? I mean, come on man! You're fantastic, everything around you is fantastic. You're wrong." I said, slightly worried that I would be falling into a sympathy trap, but on the off chance I wasn't, I was glad I didn't screw that up.
"Tell me some good things about Seto Kaiba then." He said bluntly. He was so demanding, so challenging and you could hear it in his voice, as if I wouldn't manage it. Well Joey Wheeler was not one to deny a challenge when it was thrown at him. And then it was like a lightbulb switching on in my head. He wanted me, no needed to hear some good things about hom and he would. But not now. It was wasn't like I had to think about it, I could name them right now, but he would forget over time and not be able to look back at this moment in years to come to comfort himself. No, he needed a permanent reminder. So with that I flashed him my trademark grin, stood up and left the park.
Heh, who said I couldn't be a psychiatrist?
A/N – Better warn you, as much as I hate doing it, all the 'Tell me some good things about…' bit and all that follows to do with it…I got the idea from 'The Talented Mr Ripley' (Amazing film – go see!) because it's just too cute in the movie and wanted to use something like it in this and it suits it all :) Just thought I'd say unless I get sued or people start yelling at me:P
