A/N – This is a Seto/Joey yaoi fan fiction. If you don't like, don't read. The title of the fic and ideas are from the song 'Fix You' by Coldplay, seeing as from day one of listening to it, I found it to be so inspiring and made it easy to write a story. So have a read, maybe review! Positive and negative reviews are welcome, always open to a bit of constructive criticism. But no flames because of the pairings or just because the idea of it doesn't take to your liking, thankyou.
Disclaimer – I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh, any of the characters or the song 'Fix You'. Hell if I did, I'd be rich!
Summary – Final chapter. No summary.
Reviews – Wow, I never expected to get anything more than ten reviews, if that, for this fic so you've all been fantastic! I haven't personally responded to any for a while now, so…
Soltic - Haha, glad it made you laugh! That is such a good idea for the last good thing, but I didn't think of it sooner! Gravitation music is really cool. I'm into electro-rock music and synthy stuff anyways but it really is so much better than I thought it would be!
MizuiroSnow – Thanks for the nice comment :) Glad you like the plot! I'm not bothered about the amount of reviews but thanks for saying I should have more, makes me happy! First Joey/Seto one you read? Oh my gosh no…go read some more, there's loads better than this one! Hehe!
Assassin of the Shadows – When I wrote that bit I couldn't resist making him check himself out, it would have been a wasted opportunity otherwise! Hehee! I just imagined him in that red car that he bought during the Dartz episodes, doing a really cool swerve in the road and then checking his hair was still in place or something hehe. What CD haven't you heard of? Weezer? They rule, really cool band with ridiculously funny songs that they still make sound so genuine and sincere. Thanks for all the reviews!
markyc58 – Aww thankyou! The Seto/Joey pairing is my favourite but Joey's not one of my favourite characters in the show, funnily enough; he's still too cool though! Yeah Seto did grow up too soon, way too soon. I think it's quite sad really, but then they need a bit of angst for the resident bitch in Yu-Gi-Oh! or it wouldn't be right! Hahaa!
So thankingyou all loads for all the reviews that I got on this fic, I really enjoyed writing it even though there were a few 'eugh' moments when I got a total block on where I was going with this, but I've made it to the end! I was going to drag out the final thing over a few chapters but I couldn't think of anything to fill them up with so instead of trying to find inspiration for that I decided to just write the final chapter. Hope you all liked it, anyone who's reading, because I enjoyed writing it! L. xx
All flashbacks are in italics.
Domino High
Joey Wheeler's POV.
I had lied. Although it was fun to prolong his wait, I had lied to him. I told him that he would know all the good reasons by the end of yesterday, but there was still one that he hadn't told him. One that he was too scared to, even though Seto had heard it before, it was quite a daunting thought. But nevertheless, if I didn't tell him, he would get angry with me, push me away and probably never talk to me if I didn't succeed in 'fixing him'. The whole idea of fixing someone's feelings when any psycho off the street could tell them what was going on, did seem pretty pathetic and ridiculous but if it had given him a day or two to get closer to Kaiba than I had ever done before, who was I to complain. Even though I knew I would undoubtedly fail in my mission. I wasn't going to fix him, what the hell was the guy on? Nobody can fix him but himself, and besides, why should having a crush on someone need fixing? That was blatantly what was wrong, he liked me and he couldn't handle it. I could see it, Yug' could see it and I bet even Mokuba could see it. It was just Kaiba being the usual egotistical bastard that he has always been…no. Wait. He hasn't always been like that. Mokuba was always talking about the days when he would smile and mess around like kids do. So what had changed? It had to be Kaiba Corporation, no kid, no matter what age or mental stamina could take over as CEO at such a young age, it was preposterous. Heh, new word. Preposterous.
But still, it wasn't fair to leave him hanging, I thought as I got ready for school. I was up earlier than usual, wanting to catch him before class. I knew he was always in stupidly early doing work of some sort so it shouldn't be any different today.
However, I still ran to school…I didn't know how much time I would need! I would have to tell him, like face-to-face, and then give the explanation and then see his response. It was a huge toll on me that I didn't want but I got myself in the mess and I'd have to get myself out.
When I reached the school I found that my presumptions had been correct. There he was in all his glory, briefcase on the floor, head resting on the de…he was asleep! It would have been a perfect camera moment, but of course, never around when you need them. But at least it bought me time to think. I stood there, leaning in the doorway watching him sleep. If there was ever a time that I realised I really did love him, it would have been now. For once he looked normal, he looked equal and he looked beautiful. No one could deny that.
But as I watched him, I began to weigh up the pros and cons of what I was about to tell him, namely remembering the time beneath 'his' tree, the same tree I carved my message into. I still had the notes he passed that day, on my desk at home. I couldn't just throw them away for some reason, it wasn't like they held any sentimental value, but I kind of wished that someday they would.
"And you wanna know the worst thing? I don't like how it's making me feel, so why don't you damn well sort it!"
I could remember him saying that as clear as anything, still fresh in the back of my mind. I was so puzzled after that encounter but I really hoped that it meant to him what I interpreted it as. It was a shame that he couldn't see it, shame that he didn't have any interaction with others bar work and family. Well, unless he was picking a fight with me of course…
And then there was the kiss, the ever fateful kiss that had been so perfect for both of us and yet he still denied it. He was honest about what I did to him then but somewhere in his mind the idea of attraction was being rejected.
"You…err…you would have to….erm…kiss me." I hesitated but decided that it was better out, than wracking my brain for another way. I needed to know how he honestly felt after he kissed me, it was the only way to put both our minds at rest, I assumed.
"Kiss you? What on earth…this isn't some weird, sadistic plot is it, Wheeler? Because that ground is looking awfully inviting from here." He smirked at me again. The bastard had a real habit of doing that. I finally looked up at him, meeting his eyes. His hair was blowing in the breeze while he looked straight at me, ordinarily as if through me, but not today. Today he was looking at me, looking in me, trying to figure me out…and then after a few minutes of being transfixed like that, he slowly leaned in towards me. I couldn't believe it, he was actually going to do it, and he was the one to initiate it.
He began to shut his eyes and as his lips touched mine it felt so natural, so right that it would seem wrong to be doing anything else, and I knew he felt that same way, I don't know how, but I just knew. We stayed like that for a few more minutes, neither wanting to pull away from the other, or so I hoped. This wasn't my first kiss though, I suspected it may have been Kaiba's, but it wasn't mine. I remember after I figured I liked Kaiba I had better go confirm the idea by kissing a girl, but sadly I was proven right. Kissing a girl was just weird, it didn't feel right and it was so 'off'. Nothing like this at all, this was spectacular and better than I had ever hoped for, so many thoughts in my mind were banished in those few moments. It was just amazing. And then, as if we were totally in sync with each other, we both pulled apart at the exact same time, at first looking straight at each other again, but then stepping apart and looking away with embarrassment.
That day was one of the best I ever had the pleasure of experiencing with Seto. It was such a passionate moment and no one could describe it, it just felt so…so right! There was never any doubt in my mind that he was feeling the same way, because a feeling like that isn't a one-way thing. Even more surprised by his admitting to it a few moments later. I'm still not sure why I thought a kiss would be a good idea, maybe it was my subconscious trying to find an excuse to jump him and kiss him so hard that he would never be able to resist me again. My subconscious could be really pervy at times, like super pervy. For example, the dreams I had been having, the way throughout the kiss all I wanted was to take it all one step further and that every time I saw him I wanted to jump him and re-enact the whole event.
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
Well I figured I had done enough thinking on my part. It was time to wake him up, so I walked into the room and straddled the chair in front of his desk, spinning it around to lean on the back of it. I gingerly leaned over him until I was right next to his ear.
"Seto…Seto, c'mon…you can't sleep in school…I got something to tell you!" I whispered, hoping it would stir him but apparently not. I moved my head at an angle to get a better view of his face and was surprised to see that he wasn't asleep at all. He was hiding his face away from me, not wanting me to see the tears. I then felt as though my heart had been ripped right down the middle as he carefully moved his head so his face was buried in his arms, still trying to give off the sleeping crap.
"Seto I know you're awake. C'mon I only wanna talk!" I was getting impatient now. I wasn't sure I wanted to see him cry but as he sat up I didn't have to worry about it as he sat up, still looking down with his face buried in his hands, his hair sitting messily on top.
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
"What do you want? I'm tired, Joey." He snapped, clearly not a morning person.
"I promised you six things and only gave you five. I felt kinda guilty and decided to deliver in person." I tried to be chirpy about it, but I was distracted by the trails on his cheeks that the tears had left, glistening where he hadn't wiped them away.
There was an awkward pause where neither of us knew what to do, what to say or even what to think for that matter.
'C'mon Joey…just say it...it's no big deal…' I thought to myself, trying my hardest with the pep-talk. But I was broken away from it when I heard Seto sigh and slouch forward even more.
"Set…Seto…Erm…yeah…Seto Kaiba…SetoKaibahassomeonetolovehim." There. I knew it wouldn't be so hard.
But he didn't say anything, all that stuttering and effort and he wasn't going to say anything? Not even utter a single sound?
"Joey…" He finally said. "We are not blessed with the mid-afternoon breeze on the school roof where my attention span is four times yours and where I can hang onto everything you say and understand it. Today we are in a classroom at half past seven in the morning, I'm tired, you only woke up half an hour ago and my deciphering skills aren't up to scratch at this present moment in time…so…you were trying to say?"
Cocky bastard. But he was right. Somehow, though, now I had said it, or more likely made a huge sound-a-like noise, it was all so much easier to say, and Seto was easier to handle like this. So I decided to sigh for a dramatic effect.
"Alas…you are right…" I started messing around, but then thought twice about continuing when I realised that he really was tired and didn't want to hear this crap.
"Ok…I said…I said that Seto Kaiba has someone to love him." Whew…that was out of the way once and for all and I was definitely sure he heard me or at least understood me this time!
"I assume you mean you." He stated. It wasn't a question, it was actually a statement.
"Yeah…why?" I asked, hesitant to receive an answer.
"Because I don't love you, Joey. Don't link this to the other night, with what I told you. It has nothing to do with that and everything to do with the fact that right now I'm sitting here crying in front of you, while you proclaim your love for me and all I can do is reject you because you didn't fix me and I still have these feelings running riot around me and I hate it Joey! What's wrong with me?" He asked. I could see in his eyes that if he didn't keep a hold on himself then more tears would be spilling to join the collection he had already made on the table. So instead I thought of another solution. It was a game psychologists had used on me before, quick answer questions that you had to answer the first thing that entered your mind. It kind of tapped into the subconscious or something like that, but it worked on me and with Seto in his vulnerable state, I was sure it would work on him, enable him to get anything he has suppressed out of his system once and for all.
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
"I can help you, Seto. I have an idea, but you have to say the first word that pops into your mind, remember it's only me here and I'm hardly one to laugh after telling you I'm in love with you. Seems you got the catch this time eh? So…you game?" I asked, forcing a smile onto my face in a final ditch attempt to prevent the tears from spilling as I grabbed his hand and held it tightly within my own.
But all he did was nod at me. He was far too down and out for much else and I doubt that he slept at all last night and I know that the night at the park wouldn't have left him with much sleep.
"Why are you crying?" Was the first question I asked. It seemed logical.
"Because I don't know what to do, with my mind telling me one thing and myself telling it to piss off." Well…he was honest. I wondered if he had done this before, because my plan to find out the answers we both needed might not have worked. I'd just have to pray.
"Have you slept at all?"
"Not really over the past few days."
"Am I your friend?"
"I'd like to call you that but my mind is telling me something more." He looked bewildered that he had answered so honestly like that and I was certainly knocked for six when that came out.
"What do you think about me?"
"Right now I think you're kind, loving and beautiful even with the creases from where you've laid funny."
If I wasn't trying to remain so composed for his sake, I might have jumped him right about now, forgetting any qualms I had previously, but not when he was so fragile. Because that would be wrong.
"Did you really ever hate me?"
"Never, it was jealousy."
"Why were you jealous of me?"
"Because you had everything, the only thing stopping you was money but count that as a blessing." I was surprised, because that didn't seem a very likely answer from the CEO of one of the world's biggest organisations, but yet I soldiered on!
"Do you enjoy running Kaiba Corp.?"
"It has it's perks but it holds me back and causes a lot of stress."
"How do you de-stress?"
"Play games, listen to music or hang out with Mokie." It was at that point, I nearly burst into tears. I wish I was recording this because I could imagine the look on Mokuba's face if he heard Seto finally calling him that again, he would be overjoyed and so happy. But it was the overwhelming amount of love that Seto had oozing from that one comment for Mokuba that had overcome me, suddenly making me very aware of the absence of my only sibling, Serenity. Damn I missed her.
"What music do you like?"
"Rock music mainly, it seems to vent a lot of my anger and stress. And it's noisy."
"Been to any gigs?"
"No, Gozaburo never let me and I don't have the time anymore. There's so many bands I want to see though, like…" But before he could finish I grew impatient, just waiting for get the last question out, I had waited this long and it was killing me so I threw caution to the wind and went for it…just like a Wheeler would.
"Do you love me?"
"Yes."
And if the heavens were to strike me down, I would leave happy safe in the knowledge that I never fixed Seto, I shattered him, broke him into a million pieces and fell in love with what I did.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
A/N – And that is that. I'm sad to see it go, but I like the way I left it, kind of weird. I thought that writing any more on it would have gone wrong as I would have made it so clichéd and awful. It was kind of sappy and cheesy in the end but I still like it, I enjoyed writing it! But that's not what is important, I wanna know what you all think! So please review! Good/Bad as always! Thankyou all again for reading and I really hope you liked it! Also for anyone unfamiliar with the song 'Fix You' by Coldplay, I have put the lyrics below, v.beautiful and inspiring song! Now I'm orf to write 'Certitude' – already got the first chapter up hahaha! Love you all. L. xx
Fix You
Coldplay
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you