Title: "Wake Me Up"
Author: scarypuffringo
Disclaimer: This story is mainly about Jesse and Emma but there's also some Brennan and Shalimar. It takes place in season three. (I don't own anything. I'm just borrowing the characters!)
Author's note: I want to thank you for your words. I love to know what you guys really think about my writings. As you can see, I didn't take another year to update. I've been reading some fics here and it made me want to write more and more. I appreciate that you guys haven't been paying too much attention in my grammar mistakes (there are a lot of them). I'm still trying to improve my English and writing these stories helps a lot. Okay, I'm going to leave you with chapter eight. I must remind you that I haven't watched any episodes of season 4 nor season three (I don't have cable anymore). But I've been reading some reviews and soon you'll get to read things here that really happened in the show but with a different point of view and turn outs. Again and again Thank you very much! I hope you enjoy this one!
"Wake Me Up – Chapter Eight"
The tension between Shalimar and Lexa seemed to be slowly dissipating, although Brennan could tell that Shalimar was only playing a part. It didn't bother him so much, as long as the fights between them stopped and they finally agreed to work as team, that's all that mattered to him. As impossible as it seemed, Brennan was the one that most changed since what happened at Naxcon. He grew, not only as a man and a fighter but also as leader. No one could ever see that coming but Shalimar was happy about it. In the past Adam and Jesse were the ones that kept her from falling apart; Adam was the father she cared the most and Jesse was the brother and friend life had presented her with. Now Brennan seemed to add all that and even something more; something Shalimar was afraid to face but deep inside couldn't deny. Every time she stopped to think about that, it made her feel once again safe.
Shalimar was standing aimlessly in the middle of the hallway, her stare lost in emptiness. Brennan sluggishly walked out of his room and was surprised to find her that way. He walked up to her and gently placed his right hand on her shoulder, lightly calling her name. "Shal?" It took her more than a few seconds to notice his presence behind her. She turned to look at him with confusion crossing her eyes. "Are you okay? What you're doing, standing here?"
"I..." Shalimar begun but wasn't certain of what to say to him. She blinked a few times, searching her mind for a reason to be there. "I don't know."
"What?" He frowned at her answer. "Shal?"
"What, Brennan?" She returned with a question, her face still giving him signs of confusion and disconnection.
"I'm... I..." He started talking but she stopped him.
"What?" She asked again, looking at him as if she had no idea what he was talking about. Since Brennan wasn't able to put together his own thoughts, Shalimar just turned around and left him. He watched her disappear down the hall and couldn't help but continue to wonder.
Lexa was passing by and caught with the corner of her eye Brennan talking to himself. She stopped and made a funny face at the scene. "Hey!" She called aloud making Brennan to turn and look at her. "What are you doing?" He heard her ask curiously then placed his hands over his hips while nodding. Lexa snickered a little. "I mean... What you're doing here... besides... talking to yourself?" She made those last three words linger in the air before laughing at him.
"Ha-ha-ha-ha!" He pretended to laugh as well and couldn't help himself but wonder why Lexa was in such a great mood. It seemed a little odd since she was always serious and centered.
"I'm gonna go back to the lab and let you continue whatever you were doing." She kidded with a smile plastered on her face.
"Lex, wait!" Brennan lightly grabbed her arm. "Have you noticed something unusual about Shalimar's behavior lately?"
Lexa rolled her eyes at his question and mumbled. "And is there something that's not unusual about Shalimar's behavior?" Brennan didn't go for the joke and gave her a warning look. "Alright. Alright... Well, she seems quieter than the usual. I even thought that she finally got over her desire to kill me but..."
"Lexa! Watch it!" He again warned but with a small smile threatening to emerge on his face.
Lexa lowered her eyes and mouthed a 'sorry'. "Humm... But you're right... She's different. I don't know. Sometimes I look at her and it's like she's not really here."
"I know." He added lowly.
Both of them paused in the conversation not knowing if there was anything else to say. Lexa knew Brennan was worried about Shalimar, his eyes couldn't hide his feelings but she also knew that, even though he wanted, there was nothing he could do to help her. "I gotta go to the lab finish something. Wanna come? I could use some help..."
Brennan this time allowed himself to smile. "Sure. What you're working at?"
"Oh, nothing much really... Don't worry. You'll be out of there in twenty minutes. Now, come on!" She exclaimed, grabbing his shirt...
"Jesse!" Emma called and heard no reply. She stepped outside the cabin and started searching for her teammate but couldn't find him anywhere. "Jesse! Jess!" She went on looking. She past a certain place near the cabin he used to spend time whenever he got bored of the cabin but he wasn't there either. After looking all around, there was only one place he could possibly be. Emma sped up her pacing and when she first got sight of the river, she also got sight of something else. "Urrrrr urrrmm..." Emma forced, clearing her throat while she looked down at Jesse; he was lying over a blanket placed on the ground, eyes shut and a smile plastered on. His eyes shot up opened at the minute he realized Emma's voice was a lot closer than before.
"Huh... Hugh..." Jesse gave her his best smile. "I was just... hum..."
"Ignoring me?" She added knowingly.
"I was not ignoring you. I was just... resting." He explained while he got up and grabbed the blanket from the ground.
"I know what you're doing." She announced causing him to gasp. "Jesse, what about what we talked?"
He let out a snorted laugh. "Emma, could you be more specific? We talk about a lot of things all the time." He played dumb and started in the cabin's direction, leaving Emma standing on her own.
She rushed after him. "Oh, you're not running away from this again. Jesse, wait!"
"Running away? From what?" He knew exactly what she was referring to.
Emma was tired of his behavior so she stopped and firmly stated. "Jesse, you promised." Her words made him stop. Jesse closed his eyes and knew she was not letting it go easily. He looked over his shoulder and spotted her, standing behind him only a few meters away. "It's been two weeks. Adam hasn't contacted us since the last time he talked to you. I'm worried." She informed, stepping closer to him.
"Emma, all I want is..." Jesse tried to explain his reasons one more time but she wasn't up to listen.
"I know but... if you don't go with me..." She looked straight into his eyes then finished her sentence. "... I'm gonna go alone."
"Emma, you're not alone. I told you. We're doing this together." He reassured her, touching the skin of her arm.
"Are we?" She questioned him, not only his words but also and mostly his actions towards the situation. Jesse was almost breathless; he saw so much determination in her eyes that only at that particular moment Adam's words were finally making sense to him. Indeed, Emma was a lot stronger than they all could ever imagine. "We can't keep avoiding it. We can't... Postponing it, is only gonna make things worse. And besides... We haven't much food left. I don't know how much longer we can last this way."
Jesse sighed heavily. He stroked both of her arms gently and joined their foreheads for an instant. "You're right. I've been avoiding it but I'm not gonna do it anymore."
"So, you're saying..."
"Yes!" He lowly confirmed what she already knew. Even though Emma couldn't read him anymore, somehow she was still able to see through him. She was certain that he would agree with her even not being okay with her decision. She knew he would always be by her side and it meant the world to her. She knew that no matter where she headed, as long as Jesse followed, she was home...
The time seemed to be standing still that day; three hours felt like thousands to them. Now that the time had come again, she feared inside for herself, for Jesse and for the others. What if she didn't make it? What if she wasn't strong enough? Well, there was no room left for doubts and questions anymore. Jesse and Emma were already on their way to the same restaurant. Emma looked outside her window; she saw everything passing them by... Emma sighed painfully when cars passed by them. She tried her best to hide it but he knew that she was picking up emotions all around...
"Emma?" He called her and she looked at him. "Are you okay?"
Emma was confused, flashbacks from the first time they left the cabin popped up into her head, and she couldn't help but remember everything. "No..." Jesse's eyes widened when he heard her most honest answer and his heart ached knowing that there wasn't much he could do to keep her from suffering. What surprised him the most were her following words. "... but I'll be... soon..." She looked straight ahead and the confidence she gained at that second somehow gave Jesse the sensation that everything would turn out okay this time.
Jesse slowed down the car then parked at the restaurant's driveway. Once again she looked at every single people, every single thing around her and it seemed that the world had slowed down once more. As they walked among the parked cars and the few people standing around, Emma wasn't able to hold a groan of pain. "Haaaahhhh!" She groaned lowly, instantly grabbing Jesse's hand, squeezing it as tight as she could. She searched for strength in him and that was what she found. The waves of emotions were getting stronger each second that went by and it was paining her to death. At the minute she set foot into the restaurant she froze in place. For a few seconds everything turned black and the pain she was feeling was becoming more and more acute. Jesse promptly placed himself behind her, using his body as a support to hers. Seconds later Jesse took her by the hand and guided her to one of the empty tables. Emma quickly sat down, her hands came to the sides of the table, her eyes were shut and her breathing was heavy and shallow. Out of the sudden the table started to shake, Jesse was panicking, he couldn't use his powers in front of everybody there and besides no one had noticed what was really going on. His eyes scanned the place and he realized his table wasn't the only one shaking; all the tables, all the chairs, everything inside that place was starting to shake as well. People started to wonder what could be causing that since earthquakes weren't to happen in that area. The tremble became stronger and panic seemed to take over each one in there.
"Emma?" Jesse called her name in an attempt to bring her mind to the present moment but it was useless. Emma was battling against herself; at that moment she heard nothing, she saw nothing. Jesse found himself needing to take action when a blast of light became to form in her forehead; it faded as fast as it appeared, though. Jesse felt powerless just to sit there and watch her go through all that pain. Knowing there wasn't much he could, Jesse only place his hands over hers and whispered. "I'm here! You can do this!"
After Jesse's words Emma whimpered lowly and with one deep breath, her eyes shot up opened. The tremble stopped and people slowly started to calm down. Jesse waited until she felt ready to speak. Emma could read the anxious in his eyes. She strayed her eyes to look at their hands pressed together; a smiled crept on her face. "So?" Jesse began; he felt like he couldn't even keep himself inside his own body. Emma brought up her eyes to look at then down, looking at their hands; her action made Jesse remove his hands from hers.
With a smile, that barely could be noticed, plastered on her face, Emma grabbed the menu and started reading it. "Emma?" Jesse observed her with curious eyes; she only let the side of her mouth kick up a little and Jesse didn't need much more than that to realize the plan was working. He sighed heavily in relief then simply sat there, staring her.
A waitress caught vision of them and approached politely. "Are you okay?"
"Humm? Huh..." It took Jesse a minute to grasp what the waitress was talking about. "Yes... We're... ... we're okay."
"What was that? You have any idea what could have caused the tremble?" Emma put on a face and pretended she was just as clueless as everybody else in there.
"No. I have no idea. This was very odd. It never happened in this area. But..." The waitress answered then paused, not having much else to say. Her eyes strayed down to look at Jesse for a second. She lightly put her hand over his shoulder and with a smirk on she spoke again. "My name is Gina. Just call me when you're ready to order... ... or... if you need anything else... Just call me." With that, the girl left their table and went to talk to another waitress.
It was now Jesse's turn to grab the menu and start reading it. "I'm hungry!" He exclaimed in joking manner.
Emma lifted her eyes and looked over him from the menu, in a low voice she insinuated. "I missed this."
Jesse stopped and puzzled. He looked at her and she had this expression on her face that he couldn't exactly put his finger. He thought to himself it was better not to ask her but changed his mind when he heard her snickering a little. "What?" He asked and she nodded her head, dismissing him. Then seconds later, she laughed again. "What?" He asked more firmly than the last time.
Emma put down the menu and thought torturing him was a little mean of her. "She likes you!" She exclaimed.
Jesse got confused for a second. "Who?"
"Gina?" She simply responded, pretending to focus on the menu again.
Jesse looked over his shoulders and caught Gina overlooking at him. "The waitress?" A smile grew on his face and she nodded a reply. Jesse looked at the waitress again then turned to Emma. "She's hot!"
"Oh, God!" Emma couldn't contain herself so she let out a very loud laugh, then covered her mouth quickly to prevent the sound from keep echoing.
"Why are you laughing?"
"Nothing." She said then supplied her own answer. "It's just that... ... You haven't changed a bit!"
Jesse's mouth fell opened to hear her comments. "You're implying it's my fault?"
"And isn't it?"
"I didn't flirt with her. She flirted with me!" Jesse defended himself and she started laughing again. "I know what this is..."
"You know?" She made a funny face, trying to anticipate what he was going to say.
"You're jealous!" He said with triumph.
"I'm not jealous!" She denied, staring at him with threatening eyes.
Jesse gave her one his famous smiled and repeated. "Yes, you are. You're jealous because a hot, tall blond likes me."
Emma opened her mouth, ready to dispute but chose not to. She looked at the menu again and put on a serious face. "I'm gonna have a simple salad and some orange juice. What about you?"
"Macaroni and cheese!"
"I should've seen that coming!" She kidded a little.
Jesse turned with a very malicious face. "Gina!"
The waitress promptly answered his call. "Yes?"
Staring at the waitress then casting a glimpse on Emma, Jesse ordered the food then handed the menus back to her. Emma remained in silence, pretending to look around them. After Gina left, Jesse added. "She likes me..." Emma's eyes were now on him. "... and you're jealous!"
On the way back to the cabin neither Jesse or Emma spoke a thing. She was playing the though and he was playing the superior but once they got at their secret place, the need of acting out was gone. Jesse opened the door and they both entered with one sudden act, Jesse grabbed Emma his arms, hugging her as tightly as he could. "You made it! You made it!" They both let their joy appear. Laughs filled the cabin while they held each other. Jesse stepped back letting go of her body then cupping her face with his hands. "You're amazing!" He gently said, staring straight into her eyes; their laughs slowly faded and they just stared into each other's eyes for a few seconds.
"I only did it because of you." Emma confessed in a sweet, weak voice and looked away from him.
"I didn't do anything, Emma. I was even holding you back 'cause I was too..." Emma's hand came up to his lips, making him stop in his talking.
She smiled innocently, warming his heart while her other hand lightly touched his fingers. "You were here... You didn't leave me... You did everything..."
Jesse watched tears spring in her eyes but this time he knew those were not tears of sorrow. Jesse closed the distant between them and place his a kiss on her forehead. Their arms knew the way to each other's body; they locked themselves into an embrace that was a mix of emotions they could not understand. Jesse stepped backwards leading Emma to walk with him. He laid on the couch and Emma placed herself over his body, her hand rested on his chest while his hand stroke her hair gently... ...
TBC
P.S. Again, I apologize for the delay in updating. This chapter was not supposed to end this way but I wasn't ready to continue writing. Even though this is not a masterpiece, I dedicate this chapter and the following text to my grandmother. She died at the age of 67, 25 days ago. She was everything to me. She was my mother, my father, my grandmother, my grandfather, she was my best friend... The only one in the world that truly loved me. I lost her... I lost everything... I dedicate this to her...
Heaven's Tears
Standing on my own
From poet to poet I borrow
Words to write my sorrow
Crying out silently I go.
My petrified heart tries to beat slowly
Longing, wishing upon a lie
Hoping something, someone
Anything will make it heal tonight
And I go on and on
I'm writing along the falling raindrops
Heaven's tears.
Another word I borrow, I scribble down
I'm building up a living lie
Somewhere I feel safe
It's somewhere I can hide
Don't look at me
I'm not worth it
Don't even bother and don't even try
You'll never see the truth I keep inside
It's not mine, it's not yours
Those things I carry inside belong to no one
They've just got lost in this soul I call my own
And on and on I go
Again and I again I write
Raindrops falling, pouring
Heaven's tears.
Trapped within darkness, I feel
The walls of this invisible prison
They're closing in on me
I can not breathe.
I try to run, I try to escape, break myself free
But there's no way I can move
Crimson fears hold me tight
Blood tears blind my eyes
But I never stop writing, I hang on
Coz the rain still falls, it hasn't stopped
It's falling, it's pouring down
It's out there for you, it's out there for me
It is Him suffering for my misery
And I go on and on, writing along
Raindrops fall, they're pouring down
Heaven's tears...