"Diary Entry 3"
Date: August 5th
Well, I'd like to start off this entry by telling you that putting the laxative in George's milk failed miserably. Instead, Ron jacked the milk from him and drank it. I am not too positive, but I think it worked. The washroom was tied up for most of the evening. Hehe.
I apologize for ranting so much about Harry last time. I really was just angry, and I don't know what else. I still love him, I suppose, and that makes me furious. It would make any girl furious, I'm sure. I just don't know what to do about him. I wish I could make everything go back to normal, and just have him be my best friend again. That would be nice. I miss that. Even today, he barely laughed when I told him about the laxative Ron accidently consumed. But in all seriousness, how bad would it be for me to find someone else?
I mean, maybe it would make Harry realize that he still cares about me. Or maybe it would make him jealous. Or hell, there's even the slightest bloody possibility that I could find someone who would make me happy.
I know, shock of all shocks, but it would still be nice. Its been ages, meaning a month or so, since Harry and I had our split, and the terms still aren't good between us. It's just, so hard sometimes, looking at him, and seeing him look at me, and just not being able to do anything. I want to kiss him, but I know if I do, it would ruin everything that we've worked slowly towards.
I just miss him. So much.
I miss having someone hug me, having someone kiss me. I just want someone to fill his shoes, and just make my whole world right again. I don't want to fall in love, god no. I just, need someone. I'm so lonely, Diary. And its not even like I have that much to miss! Sure me and Harry fooled around, and boy did we (hehehe), but not that much. And its not like we shagged or anything. He always said he wasn't ready, and I believed him. Bloody hell, I wasn't ready. But I always fancied the idea of him being my first. Even now, with all the pain I'm sure we're both going through, I want him to be my first. It would be a beautiful experience that we could share together. I don't know if it'll happen or not, but I would love it.
So, maybe finding someone new is a good thing. I love Harry, I really do. I think that finding someone new would be good.
But can I actually make myself do that? Jesus. I don't know. The idea sounds find and dandy on paper, but what if it doesn't work. I could always just make this guy fall for me, and then oops! Harry comes back, and what am I supposed to do? Drop him like Harry dropped me? I don't want to cause anyone pain like that.
Ok. Lets find someone who won't necessarily mind me "using" him, even though thats not exactly what I'm doing. I think that if I'm honest with him from the beginning it'll be fine. But how the hell would THAT conversation go? "Oh, I'm still in love with the famous Harry Potter, and am just using you because I think you're hot, I need sex, and I want to get back at him." Yeah. I'm sure he'll take that beautifully.
What if I dated Malfoy? I don't know. Hahahaha. I mean, he's such an ass, and it would so be a nice way to rub everything in Harry's face. They absolutely HATE each other! And I just keep thinking about that stupid day in Diagon's Alley. I mean, did he actually go and hex her skirt off? Because if he did, that would be so awesome. Hilarious really. She was being so obnoxious, it's not like she didn't deserve it or anything. I think it probably was stupid Malfoy, but who am I kidding?
But who else could it have been, really? Harry and Ron looked just as shocked as I did, and he was the only one with his wand out that I could see. But then there's also the information that I ripped his clothes.
Or maybe he was trying to hex my skirt off and just missed.
Well. I guess there is a little way that I could solve this. Yeah. I think I'll do that. One second Diary, I need to write something.
Ok, so I'm back now. I just sent him a note, asking him if he did it or not.
Holy crap. It really just hit me. Ten minutes ago it didn't seem like that big of a deal! I can't believe it!!! oh shit! what if he REPLIES?! god dammit. i hate it when I do things like this! Of course it SEEMS like a good idea, but then after you do it... crap. Bloody hell. So...yeah, what I did, Diary. I wrote him a letter asking if it was him who made her skirt came off. It was a simple one sentance letter, with a signature at the bottom. I even grabbed Pig to send it.
Oh... well, le sigh. He probably won't even reply. There's nothing to worry about, right? God I am so stupid sometimes...
Ginny
TBC
Authors note: Yeah. This is also kind of short, but I like it. I hope there are actually people who are enjoying this as much as I enjoy writing it. Please review! The next probably won't be too long...but don't count on it too soon here. Ciao -- Sailor Gemini
Date: August 5th
Well, I'd like to start off this entry by telling you that putting the laxative in George's milk failed miserably. Instead, Ron jacked the milk from him and drank it. I am not too positive, but I think it worked. The washroom was tied up for most of the evening. Hehe.
I apologize for ranting so much about Harry last time. I really was just angry, and I don't know what else. I still love him, I suppose, and that makes me furious. It would make any girl furious, I'm sure. I just don't know what to do about him. I wish I could make everything go back to normal, and just have him be my best friend again. That would be nice. I miss that. Even today, he barely laughed when I told him about the laxative Ron accidently consumed. But in all seriousness, how bad would it be for me to find someone else?
I mean, maybe it would make Harry realize that he still cares about me. Or maybe it would make him jealous. Or hell, there's even the slightest bloody possibility that I could find someone who would make me happy.
I know, shock of all shocks, but it would still be nice. Its been ages, meaning a month or so, since Harry and I had our split, and the terms still aren't good between us. It's just, so hard sometimes, looking at him, and seeing him look at me, and just not being able to do anything. I want to kiss him, but I know if I do, it would ruin everything that we've worked slowly towards.
I just miss him. So much.
I miss having someone hug me, having someone kiss me. I just want someone to fill his shoes, and just make my whole world right again. I don't want to fall in love, god no. I just, need someone. I'm so lonely, Diary. And its not even like I have that much to miss! Sure me and Harry fooled around, and boy did we (hehehe), but not that much. And its not like we shagged or anything. He always said he wasn't ready, and I believed him. Bloody hell, I wasn't ready. But I always fancied the idea of him being my first. Even now, with all the pain I'm sure we're both going through, I want him to be my first. It would be a beautiful experience that we could share together. I don't know if it'll happen or not, but I would love it.
So, maybe finding someone new is a good thing. I love Harry, I really do. I think that finding someone new would be good.
But can I actually make myself do that? Jesus. I don't know. The idea sounds find and dandy on paper, but what if it doesn't work. I could always just make this guy fall for me, and then oops! Harry comes back, and what am I supposed to do? Drop him like Harry dropped me? I don't want to cause anyone pain like that.
Ok. Lets find someone who won't necessarily mind me "using" him, even though thats not exactly what I'm doing. I think that if I'm honest with him from the beginning it'll be fine. But how the hell would THAT conversation go? "Oh, I'm still in love with the famous Harry Potter, and am just using you because I think you're hot, I need sex, and I want to get back at him." Yeah. I'm sure he'll take that beautifully.
What if I dated Malfoy? I don't know. Hahahaha. I mean, he's such an ass, and it would so be a nice way to rub everything in Harry's face. They absolutely HATE each other! And I just keep thinking about that stupid day in Diagon's Alley. I mean, did he actually go and hex her skirt off? Because if he did, that would be so awesome. Hilarious really. She was being so obnoxious, it's not like she didn't deserve it or anything. I think it probably was stupid Malfoy, but who am I kidding?
But who else could it have been, really? Harry and Ron looked just as shocked as I did, and he was the only one with his wand out that I could see. But then there's also the information that I ripped his clothes.
Or maybe he was trying to hex my skirt off and just missed.
Well. I guess there is a little way that I could solve this. Yeah. I think I'll do that. One second Diary, I need to write something.
Ok, so I'm back now. I just sent him a note, asking him if he did it or not.
Holy crap. It really just hit me. Ten minutes ago it didn't seem like that big of a deal! I can't believe it!!! oh shit! what if he REPLIES?! god dammit. i hate it when I do things like this! Of course it SEEMS like a good idea, but then after you do it... crap. Bloody hell. So...yeah, what I did, Diary. I wrote him a letter asking if it was him who made her skirt came off. It was a simple one sentance letter, with a signature at the bottom. I even grabbed Pig to send it.
Oh... well, le sigh. He probably won't even reply. There's nothing to worry about, right? God I am so stupid sometimes...
Ginny
TBC
Authors note: Yeah. This is also kind of short, but I like it. I hope there are actually people who are enjoying this as much as I enjoy writing it. Please review! The next probably won't be too long...but don't count on it too soon here. Ciao -- Sailor Gemini