Hi all! Ok, I have finally gotten off my tail and gotten back to writing. Eternal thanks to Cobalt Blue for beta reading this and future chapters. As always reviews and constructive criticism are welcome.

Fair warning: M/M consensual relationships abound in Bleu Soliloqui. Rated "R" for M/M consensual affection, sex etc…

Adam stared at Alex's proffered hand in a slight daze as he wondered if it would be worth it and how it would affect things between himself, Billy and Jason. Just jumping into something with Alex could be the best thing he had ever done, or a detrimental decision that could bring disaster to them all. Deciding to take advice from an old movie and live a little, Adam grinned and took Alex's hand. "I just hope I am not making the biggest mistake of my life Alex," he said as he gazed into the emerald eyes that were sparkling with joy and a hint of mischievousness.

"Believe me Adam, you won't regret this at all. Now let's join the others. I haven't met most of them formally and I am intrigued by these infamous smoothies I kept hearing about while I was in Chicago." Alex started walking, pulling Adam behind him.

Adam snickered, pulled Alex around and oriented him in the opposite direction. "Well you'll never meet anyone if you head that way. You're headed toward Stone Canyon, not Ernie's." Alex smiled and followed Adam to the Youth Center.

Meanwhile Jason and Billy were sitting in the kitchen trying to hash out what to do about their newly discovered affection for each other, Adam's feelings, and what to do about Aisha. For long moment's Billy was silent as he stared into the blackness of his coffee, as if he could scry the answers from the deep brown liquid. Jason smiled remembering how emphatic Billy had been in his explanation of why coffee should be enjoyed without cream or sugar.

The whole thing had been sparked when Jason brought him coffee during a study session and Billy actually spat it out before realizing it had been rude to do so. Billy had sheepishly apologized to his friend and then launched into an impassioned speech about how coffee should be savored in an unadulterated state and not ruined by creams and sweeteners. Billy looked up and caught Jason's wistful expression.

"What brought on your change in temperament Jason? You have a nostalgic expression upon your countenance." Billy said as he got up to get more coffee and nearly dropped the mug as he poured in the Columbian Jason kept around the house for when Billy came by.

Jason gently reached around him and removed the mug from Billy's hands as he steered him back to the kitchen table. "I think that's enough of that Billy. You're starting to get edgy from all the caffeine. I don't like it when you're hopped up on coffee." He smiled and then continued, "I was thinking of the first time you gave me your explanation of why we should drink coffee sans cream and sugar. That just made me realize how much of our lives we've shared with each other over the years, and how close we already are." He gave an ironic chuckle, "Still, that doesn't help us with our situation though."

"I know Jase. I'm positive Adam's sudden appearance was because of concern for our lack of attendance at school today. I have yet to speak to Kimberly as well about this- her grandmother's illness required her absence from school today as well." Billy sighed and ran his hands through his sandy locks- another sure sign he was nervous and agitated. "I suggest we need to make an appearance at the Youth Center." He rambled on, "As I have failed to attend school and have broken one promise to my brother- I was supposed to show him around the school grounds today, but since I-"

Jason put his hand over Billy's mouth cutting him off before the self depreciating rant can gather any more steam. "I'm sure he will understand once you tell him you were emotionally drained and just didn't think you could cope with dealing with school today." He smiled and took Billy's hand, pulling him to his feet, "Now, let's get going and no more running yourself down, Mr. Cranston." Jason took a moment to leave a note to his mom telling her where they were gong before he steered Billy in the direction of the door.

Arriving to find everyone but Alex and Adam at the usual table. Before either boy could say anything, Kim ran up and flung herself around the two boys. "Jason! Billy!" She pulled back and smiled at both boys, before letting her gaze rest on Billy, "You feeling better?" They both nodded nervously and hoped Kim would write it off to all the stress they had been under for the last week or so.

As they sat down, Adam and Alex entered the Youth center and came over to the group. Alex wasn't sure about meeting them all at once, but since he was there he couldn't just turn tail and run. He leaned down from behind Billy, patted him on the shoulder briefly and whispered, "Thanks," into his ear before releasing him.

Billy briefly wondered what that was about, but was unable to pursue the line of thought as he and Alex were suddenly inundated with a barrage of questions. Alex backed off a little, considering he had just met most of them, and was uncomfortable with discussing private matters with what amounted to total strangers. He realized that they really meant no offense, and their questions were out of an eagerness to get to know someone they saw as a potential friend- as well as a sibling of one of their own. He glanced at Billy when the questions suddenly abated. "Why don't you tell them what you're comfortable with, Billy."

Looking down, Alex wondered if his reticence to be open with people he didn't know would alienate him as usual. Adam tapped his leg and smiled. "Stop it, I'm sure everyone will respect your wish for a little time to get to know them." Then smiling he asked, " Now, how about I treat you to one of the smoothies you have heard so much about?" Adam hopped up and ordered smoothies for them.

Billy and Jason followed the two of them with their eyes and wondered what had transpired between them to make Adam so attached to Alex.

Alex sat quietly and listened to Rocky and Kim chatter about something unrelated to the minor soap opera that had become their lives as he caught Billy staring at him with an unreadable expression on his face. Alex tilted his head slightly and gave Billy a nod that said not here, not now. Billy returned the gesture, and for the hundredth time in the last ten minutes, what the hell was going on with his brother and Adam. A couple of days before Adam had professed his affections for Billy… … no Billy had ruined that earlier in the day. He shook his head to clear it of the thoughts and feelings that were threatening to overwhelm him. Billy leaned back and observed the others as he listened to the mundane conversations taking place around him.

However, he felt that something was off from the normal group dynamics as he noticed Aisha and Rocky get up and move to another table. It seemed their discussion was intense- like something important was at stake. Jason tapped him on the leg as Billy stared at their other friends, and he wondered what could have Aisha so upset. Damn, she must have figured out something or she is wondering why I have basically ignored her since that day I talked to William. Another realization hit Billy… …. William! He must be losing his mind since all of this happened! He closed his eyes and thought about Will. He got nothing but rage and helplessness in response. Will, please let me know you can "hear" me at least. I have enough to worry about without wondering if you have gone ahead and tried to kill yourself again, Billy thought as he sat there and attempted to split his attention in three directions.

Not getting a response from Billy before, Jason let his hand stay on his lover's knee. He knew that Billy was being stretched in more directions than any teenager had a right to be, and wished there was something he could do to help him cope.

Billy sighed inwardly as it seemed as if Will was ignoring him or was asleep maybe. Turning his attention back to the Youth Bar, he watched the interplay between Adam and Alex as if they were now a couple. Then, Rocky and Aisha left abruptly without a goodbye to anyone… Billy looked down to see Jason's hand resting on his knee, and smiled.

Turning to Jason, he said, "Sorry, I was a million miles away-I'm trying to figure out what happened with all of us. Rocky and Aisha just bolted out without so much as a word, Adam and Alex are all cozy since that incident earlier and I can't get an answer from William. It seems as if the recent chaos in my life has taken a permanent hold." Billy sighed a little as he shifted in his chair and reached for his drink. Jason stretched out and looked up to where Adam at Alex were ending their conversation. "Say Adam, can I talk to you for a moment?" Jason asked, wondering if he would say no to his request.

Adam shrugged and got up. "Sure Jason, mind if we go outside?"

Jason smiled, "That might be a good idea." Turning to the others, he said, "Excuse us," and then followed Adam to the outdoor seating area of the Youth Center.

Sitting opposite of each other as if the situation would turn explosive at any moment, Jason spoke and he hoped that they could diffuse the situation…"Adam, I'm sorry that you were hurt this morning. We…, it just happened that way. I have no idea what started it, but I'm not unhappy about it and neither is he. Billy," he paused for a second before adding, "and I, are worried about are you and Aisha. We didn't mean for either of you to get hurt. "

Adam cut off Jason by holding his hand up in a "stop" gesture. "Jase, Its ok. Alex and I talked about it… we are going to make a go at it. The only person you have to worry about is Ish'. I think she's hip to what happened and the fact that she hasn't had a chance to talk to Billy in the last couple of days is rubbing her raw. She bolted out of here after she talked to Rocky. I should probably talk to her tonight." Then looking around, he smiled, "What are you guys up to later?"

Jason shrugged. Since they had spent a great deal of time hashing out what to do about Adam's unannounced appearance that morning, he and Billy hadn't had a chance to make any plans much beyond that. "No idea. From what I remember, Billy told Alex that he would come home with him soon to talk to their father. He's pretty worked up about it. If it goes badly, I planned to be available for him. What about you?"

"Nothing specific. If Alex is going home with Billy in tow I'll make myself scarce until it's over. No need to add fuel to the fire you know." Looking down at his watch he said, "I should be heading off, my mom will wonder where I've gotten off to. I'll call you later if anything happens."

Adam stood and went back to Alex. "So, what have you got planned for the rest of the day?"

Alex smiled and looked over at Billy as he addressed both other boys, "Well, that will depend on if Billy is willing to come back with me or not. No pressure, but ignoring this isn't going to make it go away William."

Billy sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "I know, I know Alex." Standing, he added, "Fine lets go and set off World War III. I'll meet you at Jason's in a half hour."

"Cool with me." He reached out and put a comforting hand on his twin's shoulder, "We'll be ok Billy… I really do believe we will come out of this alright." Then turning, he left with Adam close behind. Billy turned to Jason and smiled, and the two boys left side by side.

Arriving at Jason's, Billy sat on the couch and sighed as if the world was ending and all he could do was wait.

Jason went to comfort him but Billy stood and went to the window staring down the street as if could will some natural disaster to keep him from keeping his word. He really didn't want to see his father, but deep down he knew that avoiding the elder Cranston wouldn't help matters. Of course, there was still the issue of three look-alike Cranston's running around Angel Grove to be dealt with as well. It did help that William could pass for an older cousin if necessary but he and Alex looked so much alike it was painful to look at Alex sometimes. Briefly, Billy wondered how his life had suddenly become so complicated. A small grin played across his features as Billy got an idea of how to remedy the confusing situation.

Jason came up behind him and stood a foot or so away so that Billy knew he was nearby but not too far away. Billy stood there until he saw Alex coming up the street. "Oh well, it was nice while it lasted." Billy muttered as he turned around and gave Jason a grateful look. "Thanks for being around. I'm sure I'll need you later today. Wish me luck." Billy allowed himself a brief embrace before leaving to meet Alex on the steps.

Unknown to either boy, another figure observed them from shadows of the stairs, and briefly Mrs. Scott wondered what was going on with her son and his best friend. Some part of her suspected a great deal more than either was letting on about.

"Hi…does he know I'm coming back with you?" Billy asked as they turned from the steps and headed toward their home.

Alex shrugged and looked ahead as they walked. "No, he doesn't. I want both of you to talk. This way neither one of you can run. I know this is very likely going to be a nasty, knock down- drag out, all-out fight but if you both keep avoiding each other nothing will get resolved. Unless you plan to permanently stay with our uncle in Forest Creek or move in with the Scott's you're going to have to deal with him."

Billy cursed but kept walking. Then smiling up at his brother, he said, "Remind me never to piss you off. You play dirty, Alex." Then sighing he added as they entered the back door of the Cranston residence, "But not telling him may be for the best."

Apparently no one was home, and then after looking around, Alex found a note…

Alex we went grocery shopping. We'll be back by 7:00. If you need anything call my cell. 500-4290. Thanks, Lance.

"They went grocery shopping, should be back any minute." Alex told him. Billy sat on the couch in the living room as he stared at the television blankly. He looked up at the sound of a car pulling into the driveway. Getting up, he joined Alex in the doorway between the living room and dining room. "Looks like time is up, Bro'." Billy said as the door opened and Lance saw them both waiting for him.

"Billy?" was all Lance could utter. He didn't think Billy would be coming back anytime soon. Let alone be waiting for him to return.

"Once you have had a chance to put down your parcels, I would like to speak to you. I'll be in my room." Billy turned and followed Alex up the stairs to their room, and sat on the bed.

C'mon you didn't think I'd get into the whole argument here did you? You'll have to be patient and wait for it…

In Chapter 7: Finally! Billy and Lance get into why they were deceived all their lives… Adam and Alex get closer, William, Jase and Rock try to acclimate to their new lives and so much more.