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A/N(yes, even more- sorry!)

Her eyes are black because the entity inside her is kinda pissed off its body stealing didn't completely work)

note, italics represent flashback.

Jack stepped forward indignantly

"Excuse Me?"

He spoke clearly but dangerously quietly, which showed the rest of his team all the warning signs of an extremely pissed off colonel. Sam's eyes widened slightly, almost as though in recognition of his anger,the mist of blackness in her eyes lightened to the colour of Sams normal eye colour but it was only for a flicker of a second. Just as quickly as the shock had appeared, the uncertainty was replaced by a cold and detached feeling as though someone had walked over their graves and her eyes clouded back to midnight black. The feeling of despair and hopelessness filtered to their bodies and chilled them to the bone.

"This is MINE. I found it. I like it and I chose it. There is nothing more you can do about it." The entity spoke with a finality that was disturbing.

Teal'c raised an eyebrow as Jack whipped out his zat and raised it to point straight over Sam's heart whilst whispering

"Oh I think there is something I can do about it."

Daniel involuntarily shuddered at Jack's clinically cold manner and spoke up, hoping to stop O'Neill from doing something that would result in the rest of his life being eaten up with regret and guilt.

"Jack" Daniel spoke quietly and Jack found it ironic that as many languages as the archaeologist knew, he could still manage to communicate an entire conversation with that one word.

Jack winced slightly and hesitated a bit. Before he had a chance to change his mind, the entity lunged at Jack as though to strangle him, through instinct his hand tightened on the trigger and Sam fell forward limply almost as though someone had cut the strings on a puppet, her head impacting the floor with a hard thump. Blood pooled around her head and Janet winced.

"crap."

"Doc, she is gonna be ok…right?"

Janet looked up slightly at the colonel and sighed heavily, but remained silent. She didn't trust herself to speak at first, but seeing Jack's wide eyes she swallowed down her feelings and almost whispered

"I...I don't honestly know colonel. I don't even know what the entity is or its intentions, let alone trying to get it out of her…" her voice cracked and she abruptly stopped and she turned around quickly, harshly brushing the tear that had streaked its way down her face away with her sleeve.

"I meant her head."

"oh."

Sam awoke to find her hands covered in a strange material and strapped firmly down by her sides.Her head felt like someone had stuck hundreds of pins in it. She adjusted her head slightly to get a better look at her surroundings and the room started spinning. Looking down she saw that her wrists were wrapped in bandages and she was pinned down to the bed by restraints. Shame rose from the depths of her memory as she remembered slitting her wrists. But shame wasn't the only thing to rise from her memory. There was something else. Something stirring and awakening. A Voice. Distant at first but getting louder in a sing song manner.

"I will kill them all. Dead dead dead. They'll all be dead. Just like me. Just like how you let me die."

Sam struggled at the restraints in an attempt to stop the voice. It was coming from inside her head.

The voice was high pitched as though that of a child and she knew she recognized it from somewhere.

"Remember how you left us?"

"No I don't. Who are you?" replied Sam, fear seeping through her very essence at the anger portrayed in the voice.

"The Jaffa came. They wanted the in…the in…infamous SG1. the voice stressed out the word as though trying to pronounce it. The voice went quiet temporarily as though in remembrance, but then continued suddenly

"that's what they yelled for. They caught my village. Killed my mom. As they shouted for you to come. They killed my mommy and you didn't stop them.

I was screaming and The largest came towards me and hit me again and again and laughed. Said I'd die and you wouldn't help. Do you remember now?"

Sam's memory swirled and she remembered.

Jack, Sam, Teal'c and Daniel were hiding high up on a hill in the trees, watching the village. Six dead Jaffa were lying sprawled around their position, and to save time they didn't have, Daniel used his zat and pointed it at each of the bodies in turn, firing to disintegrate the remains. Sam crouched down and readjusted her binoculars as she looked towards the village again. Fire and destruction showed all the classic signs of a Jaffa attack, dead bodies rife around the village. The center of the village known as Bliterae was visible from their position and Sam could just about make out Aderyn, a young woman around 25 Sam had befriended earlier with dark black flowing hair, a sweet smile and a young son called Tom. She was being held down by Jaffa. The tallest Jaffa called out.

"SG1, my master Baal knows you are here. I demand you come out at once she will not be harmed. This is your last chance."

Daniel looked quizzically at Jack waiting for his response. He shook his head marginally and winced. Daniel's eyes widened and he looked round at Teal'c. He answered in a low voice.

"Indeed, O'Neill is wise not to reveal our position. Our deaths would be assured."

Daniel looked down dismayed as did Carter.

The fire of a staff weapon told them everything they needed to know; Aderyn was dead.

Screaming penetrated their pensive silence and Sam looked up again with her binoculars. Tom had thrown himself on the floor and was rocking his mother's dead body. The Jaffa laughed until his screaming became annoying and they grabbed him by the scruff of the neck and threw him to one side. He retaliated and bit the tallest ones leg at which the now murderous Jaffa punched him hard in the face. He skidded backwards, dazed and the Jaffa started to lay into him; punches and kicks rained down on the small boy until Sam could take it no longer. She jumped upwards aiming her P-90 and firing at the Jaffa. He fell to the floor, motionless.

Sam put protocol to the back of her mind, she wasn't about to let a small boy get beaten to death. Concentrating on steadying herself, she grabbed onto grass as she slipped down the steep slope, ignoring the colonel and Teal'c and Daniel racing after her. In the rush they didn't see the lone Jaffa also hiding in the woods. He threw a large rock at Sam. The rock met its target, hitting her on the back of the head. The sharp blow to the back of her head made her stumble as her vision narrowed. She never even saw Jack take out that Jaffa with a fierce spray of bullets.

Sam rolled down the hill, her arm catching underneath her as she fell. A loud crack was heard as bones broke. Daniel winced as he ran towards Sam. She lay in a heap at the bottom of the hill and he slid down the rest of the hill to get to her quickly. The blonde head looked up and inwardly the other three members of SG1 breathed a sigh of relief. Sam got up to unsteady legs but Daniel was immediately by her side, supporting her.

She strained her eyes to see Tom, eventually her eyes found the small child, other children had gathered near, a young girl and two boys she recognized as friends of Tom.

Tom struggled to get up and Sam's heart ran cold as she saw in slow motion the Jaffa she had shot and presumed dead raised his head to show a malicious grin, and raising his right arm, gripped his staff and fired. Tom's eyes looked down unbelieving at the gaping hole where his stomach had once been. He fell forward to the floor and her heart ran cold. She hadn't been quick enough. He had died and it was her fault. The children gathered near screamed and scattered.

Teal'c hauled her up the hill, aware that the remaining Jaffa were in hot pursuit of them. Sam was numb with guilt and wanted nothing more than to stop and break down, but the façade of soldier Sam slipped into place and her friends dragged her insistently on. In her pocket she reached to grip the small gray broken stone Tom had given her. He called it a soul stone and had showed her the other half in his hand. Sam chocked back a sob in the back of her throat.

They were running for so long, that was all she remembered. Eventually she risked a glance over her shoulder. The Jaffa were still there as was something else.

"Sir, wait!"

"Carter, there's no time!"

Sam turned around to see several small children following them, quite a distance away, meaning they were only small specks. The smallest girl stumbled. Daniel slowed to grab Sam, she struggled and by accident he grabbed onto her broken arm, she yelled at the pain and tried to stop to let the girl and two young boys, no older than seven, catch up. Teal'c also stopped to grab her and together the two men pulled her forwards. The Jaffa chasing them aimed. She screamed as they fired at the children. They fell to the floor, dead.

The memory swirled and vanished.

"See what you did? You killed us all" the voice screamed.

Sam surrendered to the oblivion that was overtaking her.