Seras walked outside to be alone. She was sure Alucard would let her have it later. Whatever he decides to do, she thought, I deserve it. I shouldn't let Pip affect my duties with Hellsing. Seras stopped by a tree and took a few deep breaths wondering what she was going to say to him. He and Walter had been…doing the kinds of things she and Pip did. The whole idea both angered and intrigued her. Pip just didn't seem like the type. Walter maybe, but Pip? Never.
She froze at the sound of voices getting closer. It was them. Seras wasn't sure what to do. Should she let them know that she was there or stay quiet? Seras couldn't even think about talking to them, not when they were together. Maybe she should have turned around and left but something told her to stay.
"So, what are you going to tell her?" Walter asked Pip. They were walking along side of one another, almost touching but not.
Pip grinned at him. "Tell her? Tell Seras? I don't see why I have to tell her anything. If she asks I won't lie. I never promised her anything."
Walter grinned and considered seducing the man again. Pip really had proved to be a benefit of this assignment that he had not counted on. "I have a feeling Miss Victoria has a different perception of your relationship, Captain. You do know that in some way she is still very human." Walter was surprised how easy it was to play the part of someone he no longer was. Being with Pip made it easier because he didn't have to pretend with him. They were almost back at the mansion and Walter felt a tinge of disappointment that Pip would be returning to Seras' room instead of his.
"Well Walter, we're almost there. I think we should---" Pip was cut off when Walter grabbed him and pushed him against a tree. He knew that they were too close to Hellsing to be acting this way but Pip could not bring himself to stop the man. He moaned into Walter's mouth as the vampire kissed him roughly.
Pip shuddered as Walter's fangs nipped at his skin on his neck. He whispered in Walter's ear, "Don't stop." And the butler obliged, sinking his fangs deeply into Pip's neck. The swoon of the feeding filled him sensations of extreme plasure. "Oh fuck." He said. Pip knew all was lost now. Anything Walter wanted from him, he could have.
"No, not there but there are other things we could do." Walter moved his mouth down to Pip's chest, licking and nibbling on his hard chest. He bit the young man's nipple and watched him writhe against the tree. Watching his effect on the young Captain and the torment it inflicted was almost as good as the pleasure itself. He felt Pip's muscles in his legs and abdomen tighten as he knelt and unsnapped his trousers.
"Wait a minute, maybe we shouldn't." Pip mumbled. He knew that if Seras saw what he was doing, she would be hurt, but the pleasure was so intense. How could anyone say no to feeling like this. "Oh fuck it." He leaned his head back and focused on how good it felt. Even the few night he had spent high-priced call girls did not compare to this. Must be another benefit of becoming a vampire. Waves of pleasure built up inside of him until he climaxed. He watched Walter as he licked his lips.
"Delicious, Captain. I do think we should go now." He said and motioned for Pip to snap his pants.
"Oh yeah, I guess you're right." Pip said.
"I don't. Captain Bernadette." A soft voice said from the shadows.
Pip watched in horror as the figure of Seras Victoria formed from mist. She did not look pleased. Pip could tell from the look on her face that she had seen it all. "Shit. Fuck." He muttered. What can I possibly say to her now?
Walter had to stifle a chuckle. The whole situation amused him entirely too much. "I'm sure Miss Victoria can show you back to the mansion, Captain. I have a report to give her Master…about out mission." He licked his lips again, enjoying the traces of Pip's juices left on his lips. "Good evening, Miss Victoria." Walter didn't wait for their replies and quickly left Pip to handle the situation on his own. The human Walter would have felt guilt but he had not been human for some time.
Pip started to tell her it wasn't what she thought but Seras didn't let him say one word to defend his actions. "Don't, Pip. Just don't. Don't tell me it wasn't what I think or that it didn't mean anything. I don't want to hear it." Seras felt tears just behind her eyes but refused to shed any over Pip.
"Wha-what do you want, Seras." Pip stood there, waiting.
Seras couldn't look at him; afraid she'd lose control. "Just tell me when you have 'activities' planned. I was training with my Master and I saw, I saw…I never want that again." Seras clenched her fists hard, her nails digging into her palms. The pain comforted her in bizarre way. Maybe it was because just for a second she wasn't thinking about him.
Pip thought to what he and Walter were doing. "I-I-I had no idea, Seras. I never would've if I had known. Damn girlie, I'm really sorry now." Pip looked at her, his red eyes glowing. There was pain in them.
Seras wanted to tell him all was forgiven but she just couldn't. Seras was still hurting from the events of tonight. She felt so betrayed by him. If only he had told her something. She looked down. "I didn't know either, Pip. I guess we are still linked somehow. I don't really want to talk about it anymore. Let's just go home."
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Pip pulled Seras by her hand. "Wait," he said. They stood facing each other and he pushed a stray hair from her eyes. The part of Pip that remembered everything she meant to him felt like shit for what he did tonight. There was pain in her eyes and he had caused it all for a good time. Damn, he thought, I am a bastard. Pip pulled Seras against him and held her in his arms while he stroked her hair. He tried to ignore that other side of him, that was already thinking of being with Walter again. That part of him was feeling a perverse pleasure knowing how much he had hurt her. What in the fuck is happening to me?
Seras was relieved that Pip didn't argue with her decision to sleep alone tonight. Maybe he does feel guilty, she mused. And he should. Seras tossed and turned for another hour but it was no use, she was not getting to sleep today. She wasn't sure what bothered her more, Pip's betrayal or that she had gotten aroused watching the two of them together. No, that can't be right. I hate that he chose to be with Walter instead of me. Then why did I stay there and watch them? She felt like screaming. Seras had not been this confused since the night Alucard turned her. She decided a cold shower might be what she really needed.
Seras got undressed and jumped in the shower. The cold water felt good on her skin and it washed away a few of the tears falling from her eyes. Seras let herself cry for the first time since last night. She had held in her emotions because she did not want Alucard or Pip to see just how hurt she was. Seras felt better after releasing her sorrow but felt ashamed of being so weak. Alucard wouldn't cry over anything so trivial. But then again, do I really want to be like him?
She got out of the shower and put on the Addidas tracksuit that Integral had bought her before the war. She didn't wear it often but it was the most comfortable thing she owned. As she brushed her hair, Seras watched Pip sleep. So angelic, she thought. Well, appearances can be bloody deceiving. Seras wasn't as naïve as others thought. She knew that Pip was far from innocent and had a somewhat wild past before they met. It was one of the reasons she had resisted her feelings for him in the beginning. Seras had even considered the possibility she might not be enough for him, that he might want to see other women. Another woman - that was what she thought Pip would want, not another man. And Walter? Things were getting entirely too weird.
Seras looked at her coffin and considered trying to get back to sleep. No, I'll never get to sleep. Her stomach grumbled and she remembered that she had not eaten before going to bed. Food had been the last thing on her mind. Seras shut her door quietly so she wouldn't wake Pip up and went to the kitchen. She was relieved when she didn't run into any of the household staff. Seras just wasn't in the mood to even see anyone else.
She pulled a few blood pouches from the refrigerators and sat down at the table usually reserved for servants. Since the though, most of the servants ate their meals in the bedroom. Seras couldn't blame them. Things had certainly gotten strange in the mansion. Even she was different.
Seras could not stop thinking about them, Pip and Walter. She cursed at herself for not being strong enough to control her own thoughts. Damn it, I should not have to think about anything so perverted. Thinking about the two of them together was making her angry, horny, and confused. I shouldn't even like that, she thought to herself. Then she started imagining herself…with them. "No!" She screamed.
"Is something wrong, Seras Victoria?" Alucard's smooth voice asked from a dark corner of the room.
Seras nearly fell out of her seat. "No, not really, Master. I just couldn't sleep." She was afraid to look him in the eye after the way she had acted during their training exercise.
Alucard sat down and grabbed a blood pouch from the middle of the table. He studied her face. "Don't lie, Seras. You have my blood inside of your veins; I can tell when you are being less then truthful. You don't want to know what I did to liars when I was a human."
Seras swallowed nervously. "Sorry, Master, I-I-I just don't want to even think about it. I would never really lie to you." Seras glanced at Alucard. He didn't look angry. "Umm, Master, I'm sorry about last night. I should have kept my mind on our training. I won't let it happen again."
Alucard grinned at her and nodded. "You need to focus on the task at hand. If you were on a mission and you lost your concentration because of something that he did, you'd be dead for good."
Seras nodded and got up to leave. She still felt nervous around her master. "I should try to get some sleep. Good bye, Master."
"Good bye, Seras." Alucard sucked the last of the blood from the bag. As Seras reached the door he stopped her. "Seras, tell me why do you resist your true nature so much?"
Seras mouth dropped open. She was stunned and did not know how to answer him. "Master?"
"You were excited by what you saw, weren't you? And yet, I can feel your resistance and guilt. You are no longer human, Seras Victoria. Stop judging yourself and others by man's morality. Honestly Seras, you need to grow up and embrace what you are. I thought after defeating Zorin, drinking the Captain's blood and losing your virginity, you already had. You disappoint me, Seras Victoria."
Seras couldn't look at him right now. He knew everything and she felt like such a fool. "Bu-bu-but Master, I can't."
Alucard got up and patted her on the head. "You do know Seras, that vampires have appetites other than blood. They need to be fed too. Stop thinking about whether it's right or wrong and do what you truly want."
Seras thought about it but she just could not imagine herself with the two of them. "I-I-I don't know, Master. I'm not sure if I could…"
"Believe me Seras - satisfying your carnal appetite is more enjoyable than thinking about it."
Seras watched as he dissolved into mist and sighed. Is everyone is this mansion a bloody pervert but me?