Around 1.30 in the afternoon Will found himself stood in front of his best friends door, but unable to knock. Ever since they had fought over Jack's latest 'phase' (as he still referred to it) he couldn't get him out of his mind. He had a vague idea where all this was coming from, but he knew deep down he wasn't attracted to Jack, he didn't want a relationship with Jack, yet he was extremely jealous of his confession. And not the bisexual confession, the attracted to Karen confession. Which basically was unimportant on the scale of things and yet the only thing that mattered to him. If he was being honest he has always been a bit jealous of Karen. How close they had become in such a short space of time. How she knew more about him than he did. How he would hug, touch and kiss her. She was the most important thing in Jack's life. Will knew this yet he was still jealous. He didn't no what to say to Jack and was just about to leave when Jack rushed out of the elevator.
"Oh Will, thank god, I didn't think I'd make it on time, you haven't been waiting long have you? I'm glad you came." He opened his door and walked in, Will following close behind. Neither one spoke for sometime, both scared of upsetting the other.
"Will there is something I need to tell you, and I'm afraid you're not going to like it."
"Wait me first, I'm sorry for everything over the past few days, I should except that your feelings are valid and support you through this time of confusion." This seemed and sounded rehearsed but Jack knew he meant every word.
"Will I'm in love with Karen." Jack blurtered out quickly not looking at his friend.
"Will say something."
Will just looked at him in silence.
"Will, please, hit me, march out on me, do something please." Jack pleaded.
"Have you told her?" Will asked quietly.
"Yes"
"Does she feel the same?"
"Yes" Jack replied.
"So your now what, dating, a couple, what?" He questioned his voice rising in anger.
"Will please understand."
"No jack, I can't understand, I don't understand, how can a gay man, in just a few days turn his life on its head and start a relationship with a woman."
"Will I've felt like this for ages I just didn't realise what was right in front of me." Jack was starting to get upset he sensed he was going to lose his oldest friend over this.
"Have you slept with her?" Will snapped.
Jack didn't answer him he started to pace around the living room.
"Jack have you slept with her?" Will shouted.
"Yes" Jack screamed back "yes I slept with her, and you know what I slept with her more than once, it was the best sex I'd ever had, do you want all the details or do you want to stay, she'll be here in about an hour we could do you a live reply." Jack hadn't meant for that to all come out, and regretted in as soon as he'd said it.
Will grabbed his briefcase and headed for the door. "This is just wrong, I pity Karen, you know why? Because you're going to break her heart, it's sick that you would use another one of your best friends in your little experiment. I knew you were selfish but I thought Karen was the one scarred part of your life that you and nobody else messed with, I guess I was wrong." He walked out the door and into his own apartment not looking back at Jack whose eyes fill with tears.
Jack started to doubt himself, how could Will see this in such a different way? Was he right? Was this just an experiment to him? He sat on his sofa and buried his head in his hands. When he was with Karen everything felt so real, so right, a feeling he had never had with anybody before. And yet he still doubted his own sexuality, he was still attracted to men, could he ever fully be with Karen if that was the case? He hated the fact that he might one day hurt her, and was scared of the fact that he could loose her completely; he didn't know what to do. Lying down on his sofa he drifted off to sleep, hoping his worries would be gone when he woke up.
Around 6 0 clock that evening Grace and Karen stepped out of the elevator. "God Karen, I can't believe you stayed at work with me all this time, must be a record." Grace joked.
"Well honey, I had to give my Jackie time to rest, if you no what I mean." Karen teased causing both of them to giggle loudly. Karen looked at the closed door and then back at Grace. "You think poodle has told Will yet?" she asked her friend.
"There's only one way to find out, I'll see you later Kare."
"Yeh honey, and remember what I told you today, our little secret."
Grace smiled at her friend as she opened the door to her apartment. "My lips are sealed although I know where I coming to get tips." She joked as she waved bye leaving Karen stood outside Jacks door. 'Here we go' she thought to herself as she entered.
When Grace walked in she saw Will curled up in his pyjamas watching the TV. "Hey you, what going on? You feeling ok? Thought I'd beat you home."
Will tried to smile up at his friend. "Hey sweetie, I didn't go back to work this afternoon, I came bye to see Jack and I couldn't face going back out again."
"Oh" was all Grace replied as she went to the fridge to get a drink.
"I'm assuming you know all about their sick little affair from Karen." Grace nodded her head a bit scared to reply.
"And?" Will question.
"And what?"
"What do you think, it's a disaster waiting to happen right?"
Grace didn't reply, which only annoyed Will.
"Grace!"
"Ok fine" she shouted back at him. "Yes I've spoken to Karen, and I've also spoken to Jack, Will they're in love, its strange how things have changed but they are, and they are so happy. You should have seen Karen today, she didn't drink, she helped me with my work, Will she complimented my hair. That is huge, she is so happy why are you against this?"
Will couldn't believe he was hearing this. "Grace you have got to be kidding me, this is Jack and Karen we are talking about, one feels everything and everyone! And the other feels nothing, how can they be in love?"
"Will they are, I've had Karen telling me all day how happy she is, how amazing Jack is, how they've wasted years which could have been spent together."
"Jack is GAY!" Will screamed.
"Well I think the details of their antics last night is enough proof that he's so not." Grace screamed back just as loud.
"I can't believe this, in three days the world has gone insane, fine you support them, but when he breaks her heart, which he will my friend trust me on this one he will, I hope you can pick up the pieces, cause I'm going to be standing up there on my moral high ground doing your stupid 'I told you so dance', told you so told you so told told told you so." He imitated Grace's dance for a few seconds then stormed off to his bedroom.
"Whoa, someone lost their tiara." Grace said aloud.
"I heard that." Will shouted back.
"Big eared fairy." She whispered.
"And that." He shouted back again.
When Karen entered she found Jack still asleep on the sofa, she bent down next to him and kissed him lightly. "Hey Jackie" she whispered as he stared to stir "miss me?" she teased kissing him again. Slowly getting up he moved away from her. "Jack what's wrong?" she questioned looking worried.
"I spoke to Will." He replied unable to even look at her.
"And?" She questioned moving up to him wrapping her arms around his neck. He removed them and walked away from her.
"Karen lets not make this harder than it already is."
"What you talking about honey?" She tried to smile but feared what was coming.
"Karen I love you, I do, you're the most important person in my life, but this isn't going to work, I think we should just be friends, I don't want to be responsible for breaking your heart, Will is right, I'm selfish, this could all just be an experiment to me, and I could wake up in a week or two and realise this is not meant to be, I can't do that to you Karen I love you to much to hurt you like that."
Karen's eyes filled with tears "and what exactly do you think your doing now, like doing this to me now isn't hurting me or breaking my heart, Jack I told you before we started all this, when you kissed me, yes you! Do you remember that, I told you then that this is too much for me to come back from, I love you Jack, I've never loved anyone the way I do you, not Stan, not Lyle. Jack please." She pleaded tears running down her face, "don't do this."
"Karen I can't risk losing you." He muttered not able to look at her, all he wanted to do was to hug her tightly and never let go. She stood before him, opening up her heart, she looked so small and venerable, yet he needed to think about his own life, he felt so confused, so lost he didn't know what to do. Karen opening the front door interrupted his thoughts. He looked up and saw her tear stained face "you have lost me Jackie" she whispered as she closed the door. He fell into a chair and cried heavily, he knew deep down he had just made the biggest mistake of his life, he wanted to run after her but his legs felt weak, he just sat there and cried.
Outside Karen tried to contain her emotions she looked across at Will and Grace's apartment and felt her anger rise, wiping her eyes she flew into the apartment only to find Grace eating cake. "Where is he?" she shouted storming around the flat.
"Karen are you alright, what happened, have you been crying?" Grace asked softly seeing the tear stained face. "Where is he?" Karen asked again slowly losing her patience.
"Karen calm down, tell me what happened."
"Don't tell me to calm do, get off me." She shouted pushing Grace away.
"Hey what's going on out here?" Will appeared from the bedroom "Oh, Karen please not now, I'm sorry if I upset your poodle again but leave me alone." He said in sarcasm as he headed back to his room.
"Happy are you?" Karen shouted "happy, you've got your way, happy that everyone is now as miserable as you."
"What are you talking about?" Will asked only to be cut off by Karen's screaming "don't pretend that you didn't have anything to do with this, he gets a visit from you and miraculously he thinks we should just be friends, how could you do that, I know you've always hated me but I loved him."
"Karen, this sordid little affair of yours began last night, how can you say you love him and act like it's the end of the world, because Jack does what Jack always does and looks after Jack!" Will shouted back.
"You have no idea you stupid fairy, I've loved Jack since the moment I met him, how do you think I've felt for the last 7 years, being in love with my gay best friend, having to listen to all his stories about his latest conquest, having to have him kiss and hug me all day to go home to nothing, knowing he was out there meeting someone else."
"You had Stan." Will replied.
"Yeh, I had Stan, the two and half years he was in prison, the year he was out having an affair behind me back or now that he's dead! Yeh I had Stan. How could you do this?" Karen burst out crying and Grace grabbed hold of her in a hug "I love him Grace," she cried into her shoulder.
"Hope your happy now" Grace snapped at will.
"Why is everyone blaming me?"
"Because you've had a problem about this since Jack's announcement, you hate the fact that Jack fell for a woman, you hate it even more because he fell for Karen, what the hell did you say to him today?"
Will was getting angry at the fact that nobody would take his side on this. "All I said was that he would break her heart and he would lose her forever."
"Why say something like that Will, how do you know how Jack feels?" Grace hugged Karen tighter.
"Because he's Jack, he uses people and tosses then aside, that's what he would have done with Karen, she is an experiment to him, he's obviously woke up and realised that by doing it now it will save her pain."
"Well it hasn't worked" Grace mocked pointing to Karen still sobbing on her shoulder. "I don't even understand how you can say that about him, he's suppose to be your friend."
"Grace I know him, he uses people."
"How do you know?"
"Because I do."
"How?" Grace pushed
"Because he did it to me." Will shouted. Karen looked up and both women starred at Will.
"Jack and I slept together, I thought it meant something, it meant something to me but Jack didn't want to know, he wanted to forget it ever happened, so trust me I know he uses people cause he did it to me and he was doing it to Karen, you're well out of it." Will began to retreat back to his bedroom, knowing he wouldn't get far.
"Hey, where do you think your going? You don't just drop something like that on us and walk away." Grace shouted walking towards her friend. Will turned and looked up at Karen who still had tears rolling down her face.
"You slept with Jackie?" she muttered softly.
Will didn't answer he just looked at her, a new understanding of each other became present as Karen realised he knew exactly how she was feeling at this moment. And yet the two still felt betrayed.
The silence was interrupted by Grace, "Will, how did this happen? Why have you never said anything?"
Knowing that he had to tell and relive the whole story he made his way to sofa, Grace joined him but Karen hung back, she sat at the table wanting and not wanting to hear what was about to be said.
"After Stan's funeral, when we scattered the ashes, as you know Grace, Jack and I woke up in bed together, it just so happens nothing did happen that night, as we later found out thanks to Karen's CCTV. After that night we decided that we should continue on as normal, as friends and at the time I felt that was what I wanted."
"Oh my God, your in love with Jack" Grace exclaimed.
"Grace!"
"Sorry continue." She moved eagerly to the edge of the seat, this was all intriguing to her, the other two people in the room were hurting badly, but Grace being Grace just wanted the gossip.
"As I was saying, I thought that was what I wanted, however over the next few months I started to have feelings for Jack, I don't know why, I think ever since that night on the boat I had opened my eyes to the fact that Jack was an option for me, and slowly I realised I liked him, as more than a friend." He paused knowing that this next bit was going to shock his listeners. "I didn't say anything of course, kept thinking my feelings would go away, and then last week"
Karen's head shot up, "last week?" she confirmed quietly.
Again Will didn't answer her just starred into her eyes and nodded.
"Last week, when you and Grace went to the theatre, Jack and I stayed in, we chattered, had a few drinks, watch Zanado, and before I knew it I was telling him how I felt. He told me that he had always wondered ever since that night, that for the past few months he hadn't really dated because he was confused about his feelings, one thing led to another and that was that." Will paused still looking at Karen, forgetting that Grace was there right next to him.
"So what happened the next day?" Grace asked eagerly.
"The next morning I woke up so happy, thinking we would give a relationship ago, but Jack was distant, he left abruptly, for the rest of the day he ignored my call's and I didn't speak to him till later that evening, when he came skipping in as if nothing had happened, when I brought the subject up, he told me that it was a mistake, that he loved me and didn't want to be the one responsible for breaking my heart."
"He said that to me" Karen interrupted.
"He said he was still confused about his feelings and that he realised that morning that he didn't feel anything but friendship for me."
"Ah sweetie." Grace signed bringing Will into a hug, "you should have told me."
"I know Gracie, but I had my reasons, I think deep down I realised that my feelings for Jack were not what I thought, I just get so lonely sometimes, after it all I just wanted things to stay the same. Yet when he came in the other day and announced he was bi, and attracted to Karen I just felt betrayed, hurt, as if he was laughing at me." Will turned his attention to Karen. "I'm sorry if I hurt you, if Jack hurt you, but you have to see this from my perspective, I know Jack for what he is and I'm sorry to say I find it difficult to believe that within a space of a week he can change so much, and truly love you."
"But I love him" Karen cried "how can this be happening last night, this morning everything was perfect, he loves me he told me so over and over. And now this, you slept with Jack I can't believe this is happening." Grace went over to Karen and hugged her again, not knowing what to say.
"Karen, I'm sorry if you feel betrayed by this, I feel the same way, and yet neither of us are in a relationship with him, that's what Jack does to people, please Karen don't hate me over this, I only interfered because I didn't want him to hurt you the way he did me, it's better to be friends its easier." Will tried to explain hoping that in time it might easy her pain and not destroy their friendship.
"I can't be his friend Wilma, not after this, I warned him last night, before anything happened between us that I couldn't go back, I warned him and he told me he loved me, he did, he told me he loved me." She sobbed hard onto Grace who stroked her head in an effort to comfort her. Neither Will nor Grace had seen Karen like this, she was always so immune to human emotion, so distant, yet seeing her like this, both knew that every time they mocked or joked with her about not having a heart, or worries, or emotions, that deep down she felt everything acutely, she just buried it and now she had finally aloud her true feelings to show and Jack had just crushed them.
Not knowing what he was about to walk into Jack shuffled into the apartment and froze when he saw the scene in front of him.
"Kare" he whispered feeling fresh tears burn in his eyes as he looked at the state she was in.
"Not now Jack" Will said harshly.
Grace released Karen and turned on Jack, "have you seen what you've done, what your games have done to my two best friends."
"No, tell me you haven't told her, please Will."
Karen still crying grabbed hold of Will who hugged her tightly, knowing she didn't want to hear anymore. Grace stood in front of her friends in an effort to protect them.
"Yes we know it all Jack, that within a space of a week you can use your two best friends just so you can figure out your own feelings, I always knew you were selfish, but this, Jack look at them, ok Will may only be bitter at being used by you, but look at Karen, you've broken her heart, and seeing that I've now got to take care of my friends I think you should leave." Grace walked behind him and opened the door, but Jack didn't move.
"Please let me explain, Will I'm sorry for what I did to you, really I am, but Karen it's always been you, I love you, the second you left I knew I had made the biggest mistake of my life, I wanted to run after you but didn't know what to say, please believe me, I want you, I can't imagine being without you, please Karen." He was crying as he reached out to her only to have his hand grabbed away by Grace.
"Don't you dare touch her, she's not a doll you can pick up and put down when ever you feel like it, Jack do you know that she's been in love with you since the day you met, that she was so happy all day that she didn't drink and stayed and helped me with a project, and then not only do you break her heart by changing your mind but she has to find out that what just a matter of days ago you slept with Will, Jack I think you should leave."
Karen didn't say anything she didn't even look at him just buried herself further into Will's embrace.
"Please Karen you have to believe me, I know how this looks, that I was just using you in the same way as Will, but I swear I wasn't, I love you only you, please Karen."
"Jack just go, she needs time." Will said a little more understandingly, nodding Jack left getting death stares from Grace, she went up to Karen and took her out of Will's arms.
"Come on your staying here tonight with me, lets go get you settled." She led Karen to her room signalling to Will that she'd be back to talk with him soon.
As soon as they had gone Will headed over to Jack's, he entered without knocking and found Jack crying in his chair.
"You meant that didn't you?" will questioned making Jack jump in the process.
"Every word" he sobbed back "that's why I've been so confused lately, well for months now, I've been in love with Karen, I just didn't realise, being a gay man, I assumed that the feelings I was having were for you, but they weren't its Karen, it always has been." With that Will walked out, leaving Jack alone again.
