A/N: Ok. I'm so sorry I haven't been thanking y'all. I will in da next chappie. I had less time to write this as is. So don't worry, I AM like everyone else, I LOVE hearing from the critics. So thanks to Mandy, Rachel, Erin, and Sarah, for reviewing chapters 15-16-17!
Chapter 18
Talks, and Loneliness
While Sirius was being somewhat pitiful, and partially trying to be serious and work it out for himself what he and Gwyn are; James was beside Lily's side in the Hospital Wing from breakfast to every break he got, to spending every night by her bed. He would stay there and do homework and the like, but always subconsciously talking to her. "Potions was HILARIOUS today. Professor Herb was so pathetic that one of those simple vanishing charms fooled him! We vanished the potions and then his nose, and then he thought that the room was "Haunted" by some unseen spirit because he's never seen a ghost! Even you'd laugh…" he thought, Oh, please laugh! I miss you so much… but he knew there was no hope. The girls were said to need rest til at the earliest late November/early December. He had planned that whole Christmas, there would be no play, that was Lily's thing, instead they were going to have an auction of the "hottest boys and girls in each house" voted on by the houses. James cleverly took himself out of THAT process, " If I was on the list, I wouldn't be able to work on everything ELSE!" but everyone guessed he was still sad about Lily.(who James put on the list along with Gwyn, "Because" he told everyone, "just because they are in the hospital wing for some time, doesn't take away from their hottness." "Amen to that, brother." Sirius said.) James waited, and waited, and waited, every second of every day, for that flutter of her eyelids, that emerald glow, the cascading red of her hair that bounced up and down, her laugh…HER LAUGH especially when she laughs at me…James thought. Head thrown back, gasping for breath, happy. Oh, he missed her.
Dia could see this. When she did, she felt exactly as Remus said people do, she felt pity and sympathy for James, and she saw the ONE THING that made him happy. Being with Lily. She told Rem all she heard and all she had felt, and he told her EVERYTHING.
"Well, ok. When James and Sirius first became my friends, this was I dunno, 6-7 years ago, about the 3rd day, we started getting closer than brothers. They told me the whole story that day, the ol' sad truth that James has to live with his whole life. Relatives sort of dropping like flies, all in the auror business, parents going to be dead soon, and he and his future wife gonna be killed by you-know-who himself. His parents are this" he made about a millimeter of space between his thumb and index, " close to being killed, and he and Sirius, 'cause Sirius lives with them since he hates his own family and would NEVER live there, are that close to being almost homeless, well, they'll have a home, but James will have no family left… If you tell Lils this, she'll know what she's done to James over the years. James would rather do anything than be in class, but he is only because of Lily. You can tell he cares for Lily more than his own life…"
"I'll tell Lily and Gwyn the whole story, the whole enchilada. They need to know."