((Second Chapter.I feel accomplished.Lol.I wrote this in French since I dont like French very much.My mind tends to wander then I end up writing and writing.Yes,the CURSE words were supposed to be part of the first chapter.Im sorry if it offended you in anyway.I just upped the rating.Enjoy))
I envy you...
Its been at least three years since you've seen her.Well,the body switch doesn't count since you didn't really exsist then.You didn't really exsist when she snuck into your room to talk.It hurt that night because you knew you weren't going to see her anymore.Because Buffy always wins.And you were right.Oh,how you cried.Joyce thought it was because you didn't win the Justin Timberlake tickets.Xander and Willow thought it was because Angel almost died,they thought you loved him the way Buffy did.But they were all wrong,so wrong.
So she's back.Standing right next to your sister,light and dark,good and evil.But she isn't evil anymore,so they say.So you fix her with your best blue eyed 'Im going to kill you if you breathe wrong' glare.And she just smirks back and calls you a brat.You leave her with the others and wonder if she still envies you.
Look,the brats all womanized.
God,its been so long.You wonder if she remembers what you told her in her room that night.It seems like its been so long since she's been that young.Now you can see in her eyes.That the world got to her.Fucked her up.The way it fucks everyone up eventually.You wonder what was it.You can't really come up with anything.Maybe it's because Buffy died and now she's back but not right.You can tell right away.Buffy's not right.You can tell that she wants her big sister back.The one who beat the evil away with Mr. Pointy and who would yell at her for borrowing a sweater.By her eyes,her actually haunted blue eyes,you know that Buffy doesn't say much to her anymore.
It takes you all of your power to stop yourself from hugging her.From telling her it's alright because the world gets to everyone sooner or later.And that she's so grown up and strong to survive all that she has gone through.Instead you smirk and she leaves you and you want to call out to her.Tell her that you still envy her.
((Im sorry if it doesnt make any sense.But thats how my mind works.There might be more.Im not sure.Depends on how I feel in French.Review and make me happy?))