Chapter 2:

Yesterday I told myself

I was gonna be okay.

Gonna start a new day

Truly happy

I was gonna take control of me

A week had passed since the day Ishizu heard from Kaiba when she got caught in the rain. That night, when she realized that she was alone again, she didn't cry. Of course, she had been devastated.

With the help of self therapy, lots of bubble baths, Marik and Odion, and a new food, called ice cream, that was quickly becoming her favorite, Ishizu was learning to cope with the fact that Kaiba probably didn't love her. Ishizu sat looking at herself as she brushed her hair in a vanity mirror she had in the master bathroom.

Ishizu was sure that she hadn't given Kaiba the impression that she was only good for sex. She thought back to the situation in which they first met, the way she acted, the way she dressed, and still dressed. No. Ishizu was positive that she hadn't given him that impression. So what was it? She wanted to believe what everyone else did. That he was just a selfish, self centered, uncaring, unlovable jerk. But she could see that there was more to him than that. And she loved him. Ishizu didn't want to have to let him go, but she couldn't keep living that way.

When the doorbell rang, Ishizu answered hoping to see her brothers, but it seemed she was having very bad luck.

But eventually

Reality hit me.

Mentally, Physically, Emotionally.

Kaiba wasn't wearing his normal confident expression. He looked worn and tired but his eyes became brighter when he looked at Ishizu. With only that much, Ishizu completely forgot what she had been going through.

"I'm sorry I didn't call but I had a lot on my mind and I realized something." Kaiba bent down slightly to reach her level. "I missed you." Ishizu shook her head in disbelief. "Can I come in?" Kaiba asked politely, the grin slowly reappearing. Ishizu simply turned around and allowed him to enter. Mechanically, Kaiba closed and locked the door behind him and walked up to Ishizu. Kaiba wrapped his arms around her and immediately began kissing her neck and the side of her face all the way up to her room at the top of the stairs.

Inside the room, Kaiba eased the door closed with his foot. "Dim the lights like last time." He whispered. Ishizu did as she was told, dimming the lights a little. "More than that." He held on to her tighter.

"What's with the sudden modesty, Seto." She asked just to try getting him to talk to her a little.

"I'd rather not talk about it." He said brushing the question away immediately. Ishizu seemed un-surprised by his answer but she didn't care anymore. At least not at the moment. She needed this time with him tonight and allowed herself to be pulled over to the bed.

Kaiba twirled her around so that she was facing him. He began to pull up her dress while she removed his trench coat. She raised her arms above her head so that he could take the dress off. Hastily, he tossed her dress away and caressed her half-naked form. He ran his hands all the way down her back, stopping at the elastic of her panties. Slowly, he used his thumbs to pull the elastic down until it fell and hit the floor. Kaiba worked his way back up from behind her thighs to her rear. He used three of his fingers to caress the soft skin between her vagina and her rectum.

He pressed her body against his, mimicking the movements of sex. Ishizu unfastened her bra and quickly disposed of it, concentrating her attention on Kaiba. She could feel the hardness of his dick inside his pants as he gently pumped his pelvis against hers. As she was beginning to unzip his pants, she suddenly tossed her head back and gasped. Kaiba slid in and out of her using two of his fingers. She pulled his zipper down all the way, slid a hand inside his underwear and pulled out the star of the show. She began to stroke the length of his dick, admiring the way she could feel it throbbing in her hand. Kaiba's eyes rolled back as he let a loud moan escape his throat.

Ishizu loved the sound of him moaning. He did it so rarely though. Kaiba allowed her to stroke his manhood for a little while longer before he pushed her hand away, for fear that he would get over excited. Ishizu could feel her body tingle as he bent down and whispered in her ear.

"Lay down." He ordered. Ishizu lay on the bed, and waited for him. She watched, hiding her excitement, as Kaiba removed the rest of his clothes and crawled over to her. The fact that the lights had been turned down low added something to the atmosphere. It was fun because she could see but not everything and yet showed a modest side Kaiba never showed before. As he crawled on top of her, he allowed his dick to slide along her legs until it reached the point of penetration. He readjusted himself so that he could enter her without trouble and then dipped in.

Ishizu moved her body in time with his, and allowed her eyes to freely roll around in her head. She couldn't help but love the feeling of him inside her, moving their bodies as one, and if she got lucky, the sound of him crying out. She could feel when he was becoming more eager and she liked it because, if only for the moment, he really wanted her. Suddenly, Kaiba gave out another moan.

"You're really getting into this tonight." Ishizu said. Kaiba grinned at her in return.

"I live for this." He whispered in her ear. "Tell me you do too."

And I opened my eyes

And realized

That I was still being taken for a constant ride

On your...

Emotional Roller Coaster (Ewe baby)

Loving you ain't nothin' healthy (No it was never healthy for me)

Loving you was never good for me. (for me)

(Ewe, but I can't get off)

But I can't get off

Ishizu began to slow down as she thought but Kaiba seemed not to notice or not to care. She suddenly seemed aware of the fact that she was caught in a vicious cycle. He must have known how much she loved him and was using it. She did live for this, and she was killing herself because of it.

As he continued his steady rock on her, Ishizu stifled a cry of joy and pain. He was addictive. He was like some kind of horrible yet wonderful drug. A drug she couldn't quit, even though she knew that she would wind up having to. She needed to in order to survive. She would have to get rid of him and go on with her life. But was her dull old life worth giving him up?

These thoughts swirled through her brain, making her head hurt. She had to make a decision, and she did. Ishizu moved her body back in time with his and held onto him tightly, cherishing all the feelings of his body. She tried to look into his eyes, but they met for only a second before he diverted them.

Why wouldn't he look at her? Was it some kind of conscience that felt shame in putting her through this? Whatever it was, it only made her more sure of her decision. She loved him in a way not many people could, and now she was paying for it.

Ishizu gave him all she had, making sure that he would remember that night. She let him have all of her and in return her body demanded all his could give her. Kaiba quickened his pace even more, lifting Ishizu slightly off the bed. Ishizu was the first to let her passion flow. Ishizu cried out again and wrapped her legs around him.

Kaiba bit his lip and closed his eyes, determined not to let his orgasm burst. He pumped their bodies together, going as deep as he could. The sound of Ishizu's surprised voice calling him was followed immediately by a second climax that caught Kaiba off guard.

Sweat dripped from the heated forms, exhaustion consuming them. Kaiba couldn't hold on much longer. Ishizu ran her fingers down his spine. He felt rigid and tense and she waited until he could release himself. Kaiba relentlessly humped until he could take no more.

"Yes!" he yelled towards the ceiling as he released the cum that was building inside him. Ishizu watched him pull out of her, and lay her down with a look of complete satisfaction on his face. "Oh yes!" he continued to moan as he laid down beside her. "Ishizu, that was amazing." He growled in her ear once he had caught his breath. "Tell me you loved it, Ishizu." Kaiba finally took a good look at Ishizu and realized that she had been crying. "Ishizu, you're crying! "

Ishizu almost wanted to slap him for being so intelligent and yet so ignorant of normal human emotions. Then again, she had never let him see her cry before. And why did he suddenly seem to care now? Was it her fault that Kaiba was hurting her? Because she wouldn't say she was hurt? No. She had given him plenty of messages that he chose to ignore. So why now?

HOW WAS HE DOING THIS TO HER?

Emotional Roller Coaster

Loving you ain't nothin' healthy (you got me goin' up and down)

Loving you was never good for me (for me)

'cause...

"Why are you doing this to me Seto?" She whimpered into her hands. Kaiba looked at her, confused at first but then guiltily. Ishizu stopped crying and tried to put on a serious face like she used to. "You know how I feel about you but if you don't feel the same way, just say you don't. Don't use me like this. I can't take it; you're killing me Seto.

"I tried my hardest but I've failed this time. I must leave this place, tomorrow. I'm sorry but I refuse to see you again after tonight." Ishizu looked heartbroken but tried to keep herself calm. Seto, on the other hand, just nodded his head a little and let the new information sink in. For a long time there was silence. "Seto please say something."

"What?" He asked, still avoiding her eyes.

"I don't know. Wish me luck on my trip back home. Tell me I'm making the right choice. Let me go on with my miserable excuse for a life without regretting not being able to add something to yours. Tell me... that you don't love me."

"I don't love you." Kaiba said as coldly as it was flat. Ishizu cringed slightly. She was thrown off guard by how quickly and bluntly he had said it. "Furthermore, I think you're psychotic and need a hell of a vacation. What's with all this emotional garbage? It's for idiots and losers, and the quicker you figure that out the better. I don't know what your problem is. I had fun."

"That's because you're an unfeeling, insensitive, stubborn jackass." She calmly defended. It was almost as though knowing the truth was re-sharpening her senses. But still, she felt incredibly hurt. Ishizu pulled up the covers and laid down in her bed. "I have a long day tomorrow. I'm going to sleep. Please lock the door behind you whenever you decide to leave." Ishizu pulled the covers up to her chin and shut her eyes tightly, forcing herself to fall asleep.

But Kaiba didn't leave. He watched her sleep for nearly half an hour, until he was sure she had fallen asleep. He lightly tapped her face to see if she would stir, which she did not. Assured he leaned in and kissed her softly on the lips. She almost seemed to return his kiss, but when he lifted his head, she was still asleep. Tears streamed from her sleeping lids, but Kaiba brushed them away. The way he always did, but it would seem that this would be the last time.

So tired of you makin' love to me

Then disappearing so suddenly

Up and Down it goes

"You shouldn't cry Ishizu, it doesn't suit you. Damn, I feel like a coward only being able to do this when you're sleeping." Kaiba stood up and began to gather his clothes. "So you've finally had enough of me. I could see that coming. But you held on for a long time and I'll always respect you for that." Kaiba shook his head. "Sorry Ishizu, it shouldn't have ended this way.

"I could tell you were frustrated and upset with me but I didn't know what to do. I've never felt this way about anyone and I couldn't express it without feeling vulnerable. I hate that feeling. And I hate what I've put you through.

"Whatever happened to all the crap about destiny and fairy tales? Whatever happened to that 'I know something you don't' attitude? Whatever happened to that annoying as hell Egyptian woman that I couldn't stand and yet, was the only woman I really talked to. The constant debates and not listening to half the crap and insults I spit out. What happened to that? God Ishizu, you're so much weaker then you used to be. Did I do that to you?

"Well that's going to end right here." Kaiba got dressed as he spoke. "Only the strong survive in this world and you should be one of them. My hate for my adopted father, Gozaburo, fueled me to try my hardest and show him up. It made me stronger." Kaiba finished dressing and leaned over the bed again. "And if hating me makes you stronger, then I think you should go ahead and hate me."

Kaiba walked over to her dresser and opened the drawer that held his belt. After taking back his belt, he noticed the photo. Kaiba had never seen it before and smiled to himself. "Is this what's been motivating you to stay?" He asked the subconscious Ishizu. "Well I think I'll just keep this. Just in case you try to make it work out again. I know your kind. In fact..."

Kaiba checked some more of her drawers. He knew she kept stationary somewhere. When he found it, he wrote out a little letter for her, reading it aloud as he wrote:

Dear Ishizu, Maybe I over reacted a little bit. I promise to make it up to you. I'll meet you before you ship out and say goodbye the right way! If you wear the right thing, I might just tell you what you always wanted to hear. Kaiba (Seto).

"That sounds bullshit enough. Just so that you get confused, maybe give your hopes up, and leave really pissed when I don't show. As always." As he made his way back over to her bed, he gazed at her, remembering every detail. "Trust me Ishizu, you won't be soon forgotten... I lo-...lo-..." but he couldn't bring himself to say it. Instead he bent down and kissed her once again. That said it all, he put all his love into that one kiss and yet, it was the lightest and most gentle he ever had. This time he was sure that she was kissing him back, but even if she was, he didn't care. It wouldn't change anything. When he broke the kiss, Ishizu looked to be only slightly awake. She was in a dreamy state and probably wouldn't remember anyway.

"Goodbye Seto." She called sleepily as he exited the room. Before closing the door, Kaiba looked back at her. Ishizu's eyes were already closing.

"Goodbye Ishizu." He answered quietly. And with that he left.

And I'm so tired of you pacifying me

With promises you know that you'll never keep.

Round and round it goes

When Ishizu woke in the morning she was confused. The first thing she did was call to see when the first possible boat for Egypt would arrive. Sadly, there wouldn't be another one for three days. She ordered for her things to be picked up on that boat and began to pack.

But something kept pressing at her mind. She was sure she remembered Kaiba talking to her the night before. She spent the whole morning trying to convince herself that it was just a dream. What she needed was a long bath.

So that's what she did. She ran herself a long luxurious bath with all the extra little frills. As she soaked, she tried to remember everything that happened. She had finally told Kaiba off, he admitted that he didn't love her, and she went to sleep.

But then there was the dream. Kaiba had apologized for treating her unfairly; he had kissed her, practically admitted to being in love with her. None of this sounded like the Seto Kaiba she had fallen in love with. But then she also remembered something about him calling her weak, and that sounded a lot like him. There was also something about the picture and his belt and... A LETTER! He left it in the dresser. If it was a dream the belt and picture would still be there, and there wouldn't be a letter because she dreamt it!

Soaking wet, she emerged from the tub and loosely wrapped a towel around her as she walked to her room. Sure that it was just a dream she confidently opened her 'Kaiba drawer' and reached for the picture.

But to her shock, it wasn't there! The picture and the belt were gone! However there was a piece of parchment there. Her heart seemed to stop. She couldn't believe it. Desperate, she opened the letter and read it, praying that it didn't sound familiar. But it did, and suddenly everything that happened came back to her.

She couldn't believe it. It was true! It was all true! Kaiba did love her and now he was letting her go. She fell to the floor, thunderstruck and confused. Every single word he had said in her 'dream' was what he really felt. Ishizu had cried over Kaiba many times during their relationship, but she had never really broken down before, so when she did she didn't know the exact reason for it.

She was unsure of whether it was because she was happy that he loved her or was upset that she had to find out like that. And what about everything that happened last night? She could tell him that she knew he was in love with her and that she still loved him, but what would that do?

The more she thought about it, the clearer the answer became. Absolutely nothing. Kaiba was expecting that she would change her mind. That's why he wrote the letter. In case she decided to, she would try to tell him before she got on the boat. But he wouldn't even be there!

If she tried to go to his house and explain, he'd just throw insults until she left. The truth was that, even though Kaiba loved her, he didn't want her to come back to him. He wanted her to go back to Egypt and hate him.

"He thinks... I'm weak?" Ishizu whispered to herself. The tears were beginning to sting now. She understood why she was breaking down. It wasn't because she was happy that he loved her. It wasn't because she was upset about finding out this way. The real answer was simpler. "He's gone." She choked out. "And he won't come back."

(I am on a...

Ewe... Ain't nothin' healthy 'bout it babe

Nothin' healthy 'bout it baby...)