Sometimes I Feel Like Hurting
By: KimMi
Chapter 4
KimMi: Konnichiwa all!
Clowmon: Just post the chapter.
KimMi: Well you're unusually grumpy today.
Clowmon: This is it. Unless your life is in imminent danger, I refuse to muse anymore Henryo's.
KimMi::gasp: But, how will I write Henryo's without you!
Clowmon: I don't care. As soon as this fic is done, I'm gone. Just post the chapter you've kept people waiting for and let me retire.
KimMi::sobs: Well then, here's the next chapter of Sometimes. :sob sniffle:
"How I feel about him?"
Now, that was a good question. He couldn't even answer it for himself let alone for the young man sitting across from him. For quite a while the Chinese tamer had stirred feelings from deep within him. Yet… He couldn't quite name those emotions. All he knew was that they felt warm, and comforting… And a little, just a little, painful.
"I, I'm not sure." Ryo spoke slowly, trying to coax the words to his lips. "I care about him a lot, maybe more then anyone else. Whenever he's happy, I couldn't be happier. And when he's hurting, it hurts me too. I really, really care about him." Ryo finished, face bright red. He couldn't believe he had just said those things about Henry, to Riechi of all people. Maybe a portal to the digital world would just randomly form beneath him and swallow him up.
Riechi held his head in his hand. Oi. He was stuck in the middle of a teenage love drama. But this drama might result in a broken person and even possibly more. And all because Henry wouldn't confess his love and Ryo was unaware of his feelings.
"Riechi?"
"Go." The elder Wong waved his hand. "Go talk to him and make sure you don't come out until the two of you have everything figured out."
Riechi watched Ryo quickly go to where Henry lay in wait. His next words fell to deaf ears.
"And don't you dare break him."
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The door opened softly, the resounding creak echoing throughout the otherwise silent room.
"Henry?"
Oh, god no. Dear god not him. Anyone, anything else but the figure that taunted him in his dreams.
Henry curled into a ball, the sheet wrapped tightly around him. "Go away."
Ryo sighed, sitting on the bed next to the smaller boy. The room was dark, but he could easily see Henry's huddled form beneath the sheets. "Henry, listen…" A hand placed itself on Henry's shoulder.
He tensed, but made no other movement.
Ryo sighed. What was he supposed to say?
"Henry, why are you doing this?"
The other boy was silent.
"Why is your love so forbidden?"
No response.
"Who is it that you love so much?"
He wouldn't.
"Henry?"
He couldn't.
"Please Henry…"
Please don't let his resolve break.
The hand pulled away the sheets Henry held so desperately. It ran through sapphire locks gently. Fingers skimmed his scalp in a comforting movement. "Tell me."
"No." It was barely a whisper.
"Please Henry. I can't stand seeing you like this, knowing that you're hurting yourself. I don't know how to make it better for you if you don't tell me."
"Just go away." The words were filled with unsuppressed whimpers and barely suppressed sobs.
"I'm not going to go away Henry." Ryo spoke softly, hands moving from his hair to his shoulders. "I'm staying right here until you let me help you."
"Leave me alone." Gods the pain that filled his heart; the heart that was bleeding, screaming, being shredded into painful little pieces with every word that escaped the other boy's mouth.
Ryo sighed, this wasn't getting him anywhere. "No Henry." The words became a little more forceful, his grip a little tighter. "I'm not going anywhere. I don't care how many times I have to say it. I am not leaving you alone and I am not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong and let me help you."
"You can't help me."
Just go away.
"You don't know that!"
Leave me alone.
"I do."
I don't want to love you.
"Henry…"
Stop saying my name.
"Why can't you just leave me alone?"
I don't want you.
"Henry…" Ryo leaned down and hugged the younger boy's curled body as best he could. "Because I care."
Stop lying.
"No you don't."
Stop lying…
"Yes I do."
Just stop.
"Stop!"
Ryo jumped back in surprise. He hadn't expected for Henry to jump up, tears streaming down his face, glaring at Ryo in something that too closely resembled hatred.
"Stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it! Just go away and leave me alone! You don't care- you can't care! Leave me alone!"
"Henry!" Ryo tried to grasp the younger boy, only to be shoved away.
"Don't touch me! Go away! Get out!" In an act of pure frustration, his hand swiped at Ryo's cheek.
The resounding 'slap' rung in the sudden silence that invaded the room.
Henry sat, gasping for air. In utter shock of what he had just done, he could not tear his eyes from Ryo's stunned face.
Suddenly Ryo lunged; and despite his best efforts the younger boy could not escape Ryo's tight gasp. It was a struggle, but eventually, Henry succumbed to the tight embrace. Ryo's face was buried in Henry's hair, as Henry's body was cradled in his lap. Crushed to the older tamer's chest, he could feel Ryo's trembles. But most shockingly, he could feel the faint moisture of tears in his hair.
"Damn it Henry." Ryo arms squeezed Henry tighter. "I care about you. I care about you more than anyone else in the world."
Gray eyes widened. What was Ryo saying? Could it possibly be…? Did he…
"I love you Henry."
Clowmon: Good. They're in love with each other. Fic done.
KimMi: No more?
Clowmon: No more.
KimMi::looks warily at the mob of angry Henryo fans: Not even one more chapter?
Clowmon: Not unless there's a knife or some other lethal object to your throat. :lays down to sleep:
KimMi: Well, you heard her folks. Please read and review. And for those reviewers who want another chapter, be gentle. You only have to hold the knife to my throat; not hurt me with it. And if you want more Henryo's; send me a muse. Mine (in case you couldn't tell) just quit.
buh-byes
wuv
KimMi