Okies, here's the second chapter! I'm not too sure if it's nice though. so I need feedback asap! If you guys say it's not so good, I'll take it down and rewrite!

Ignorance is Bliss

Ignorance is indeed bliss. To know more is to hurt more. That is what I so believe. After all, is it not true, especially in this case? For you, unknowing of my still deep love for you, had thought my love for you had faded, just as yours for me had. But no, it remains as strong as it always has. Only, now, it is unrequited.

Did you know, Hiei, that youkos live for a long long time? Much longer than normal demons, in fact. They were literally immortals. Time, in essence is just something insignificant. But, forever is a long time, Hiei. A long time to remember, to regret, to mourn for, to die for.

As Youko Kurama, I had lived for almost a millennium. Human war, demon war, hunger, pain, I had witnessed the horror of it all. I have heartbreak, perhaps more than you did. But, nothing could prepare me this. This utter hopelessness, sorrow, and heartache more than words could convey. I still wake up in the morning, expecting to feel you beside me.

You left. With that look of relief, untainted by guilt. I know, you feared that you would hurt me. I saw the worry in your eyes, earlier. And I could not bear to bind you by my side. I could not bear to see you unhappy. I would and still will do whatever it takes to preserve your happiness, even at the cost of my own.

I feel really tired now. It's been exhausting these few months, more so without you. Maybe it is just me. I don't know. Maybe my will to live is weakening. I know, I'm killing myself inside out. But without you, I just can't find the will to live.

Hmmm…I can hear that soft soothing voice again. I think it is Yusuke. He's been visiting, claiming that I'm sad and that I need company. I'm not sad. I don't need company. I just need you. You. Nothing more, nothing less.

So tired…I just wish Yusuke would leave me alone. Stop shaking me.

Great, now that he stopped, I feel wide awake.

Botan? What are you doing here?

I'm…dead…?

It can't be!

No. Don't tell Hiei. Ask Yusuke not to.

I won't go with you. I'm sorry, Botan. I don't want to go. Not now.

I know I can return to Makai as Youko.

Someday I will. Not now.

I can't face him just yet.

Yes, send my regards to Koenma.

I'll go when I'm ready.

I'll watch over him.

My one and only love, I still love you.

I only wish I had one last chance to tell you that.

Please, I need feedback, 'cos I don't think it's good. Now what do you think? If it's ok, then I'll continue with the 3rd chapter!