Author's note: So sorry for the errors in the first chapter. Any ways thank to my one reviewer! You made me very happy! See

Disclaimer: I don't own the Ronin and this is sort of a spin off to Sai-chan in Wonderland okay? Good. p

WARNING: Yaoi… oh and masturbation again in this chapter.

Chapter2) Dirty Little Secret

Sai sat on the beach just staring blankly at the rolling waves. The past week it seemed everyone was asking what was bugging him, about what was on his mind, and why he had been so quiet. Though it was different when he decided that as much as he couldn't deal with really talking to Sage he had to, to keep his secret so he started that a few days ago. Once he started acting 'normal' again the others stopped asking questioned. God he disgusted himself with the fact he couldn't talk to his friend without his dreams or the nagging what ifs that would play through his mind. He was trying to forget about Sage even if for a little but it seemed impossible since every time he closed his eyes he'd see the blond warrior of the Halo.

"Why can't I forget about you?" Sai sighed heavily leaning back on his hands. God it would be nice if… "Damn it!" Sai fell back into the sand all about ready to give up and let his mind play with his untold desire. Arching his head back Sai looked to see if anyone else was around. It probably wasn't really safe for his secret to do this but if he didn't give in now how the hell would he be able to talk to Sage and others when he got back? Please no one show up! He prayed quickly before closing his eyes and letting the images pertaining to Sage rise in his mind. Sai's on hands pushed his shirt up just a little. Lightly tracing over his stomach as he imagined Sage might have done to him. One hand then undid the button and pulled down the zipper to his jeans. Arching up so he could pull them down with his boxers a little Sai began to run his fingers very close to his pubic hair send shivers up his spine.

"Nnnn… god." He whispered to himself as his fingers wrapped themselves around his sex and began to pleasure himself. As much as he wanted to draw this out so he could see in his mind the forbidden images of Sage over him, Sai knew he had to make this quick. Moans began to spill from his lips and he pushed himself to completion. "Nnn… God Sage." Sai moaned his head rolling from side to side. "Ahhh!" He cried out in pleasure as he arched off the sand and found his completion…. For now. Sai laid there in the sand for a few seconds before pulling his clothes all the way off and heading to the sea to clean off before he headed back to Mia's. He had to find a better way of dealing with this but what else was there. "Confessing to Sage is out of the picture." Sai mumbled before entering the house. In silence Sai started dinner, until Kento came in and made him laugh and yell.

Sage sat in his room trying to sort through what he had just seen. It was erotic, and arousing but it was wrong. He ran a hand through his hair and some of the stuff that had been going on was starting to make scene. Sage couldn't close his eyes with out hearing and see Sai sprawled out on the sand touching himself crying out his name. Sage rubbed his closed eyes trying to take his mind off of what he saw, he decided he needed to get out of the house. That was before Rowen came in lost in thought and bumped into Sage who was going to leave.

"Hey Sage… Did any thing happen to day that might make Sai act strange? He seems to have fallen back to how he was acting awhile ago like he's ashamed of something." Rowen asked. Oh great! Why the hell did you have to ask me Rowen! Sage thought with a sigh. Rowen stopped looking out the window to look at Sage. He was quiet but always answered when he asked him a question unless he was pissed or something was bothering him. "Okay what's going on with you?" Rowen asked jumping on to his own bed.

"What?" Sage asked a bit startled though it didn't show.

"Oh come on you know I know you well enough to tell when something's bothering you." Rowen smiled. Sage just shook his head how the hell could he tell Rowen he saw Sai masturbate moaning his name and he was thinking it was hot, but it couldn't be. "Come on Sage I don't want to play a guessing game. You can tell me."

"I don't know… Fine but you tell anyone else and I'll kill you." Sage shot a deadly glare Rowen's way just so he knew he meant it. "I think I know why Sai's acting weird… I mean I saw him masturbating on the beach…" Sage stopped and looked at Rowen who was sitting there wide eyed. Sage sighed shaking his head; he never should have said anything.

"Wait, what? You saw Sai… Oh my god." Rowen said sorting through what Sage said. "Wait but what does that have to do with..."

"He was saying my name the whole time." Sage shot quietly. Rowen stopped gaping at Sage.

"He… He was… wow." Rowen said letting a short silence set in. "So that's why Sai's been so strange he's gay and has a thing for you." Rowen finally said. "Well what are you going to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean are you going to approach Sai about this?" Rowen asked.

"NO!" Sage yelled freezing both of them.

"Okay, then." Rowen sighed and left the room. Sage watched him leave everything that had just happened to him still burned in his mind, along with the questions.

Author's Note: Sorry I haven't been updating a lot recently schools really piling up.