MUTE
Commitment
MereImage
Commitment.
It was one of the words I hated, one of the words I had vowed never to bring into my life. In fact, it was one of the few likenesses I drew from Terra in her stay. Neither of us ever got attached. It was just our way of life. The backbone of our lives lay securely against our evasive techniques.
And now she's dead.
I'm still fully functional; a living, breathing soul. Pure luck, that's all.
My palm closed over the five rings in my palm.
The silver from each one shone around the room, casting everything in a hazy glow. The sun was slowly setting just outside my balcony, widow shutters opened for the first time in ages. The dust of my memory settled, waiting to be unsoiled.
My friends had been called out on another mission. Just like every other time, I felt completely useless. Completely useless and alone with nothing better to do. It made me wonder why I was even a Titan anymore…
So I had decided to work on my project. A project I started ten seconds ago.
I held the first ring in my hand, eyes in a side-glance as my refined paintbrush curved in in the first color…
And gradually I carved out something more…something more than any soul penetrating diamond could portray.
I'm not quite sure how long it took me to complete it, but they say eternity has its ways of going undetected.
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Beastboy sluggishly sauntered his way to the room.
One step in front of the other, he gave a discontented sigh.
"Three missions in a row. I swear if-"he paused, head bent towards the floor as his hair damped over. The strands acted as a curtain, shielding out the emotions he wielded. He could have been mistaken for sleepwalking, his body was so still.
Bending down on his knees, he scooped up the two objects lying on the floor. Secondly, his eyes focused in on the note positioned close by.
Beast Boy,
Right now I can image everyone's reactions when they find this. Star's acting like a pixy, Robin's all business and Cyborg's probably already making a science experiment out of the thing.
The only reaction I couldn't place was yours.
There's something I have never truly grasped about your personality. You use to be the most insecure person I had ever known, trying to draw attention to yourself at every waking moment. And now…I'm still trying to place you in this mixed up world we live in.
There's a reason why I gave you two rings B. One is for yourself, the other is for Terra. If anyone deserves to be the caretaker it would be you. I know you will always have a relationship with Terra that I can never dream of having with anyone. And for that, I envy you. Terra was a soul too good for this world…she just couldn't see it. I think you are the only person besides myself to see that.
But this is one of the reasons why I made these rings. To be symbols that connect us to each other in a spiritual bond, that remind us that no matter how much we hate ourselves, someone will always be there to love and nurture us. Ever since I was a small child and my destiny was planned for me, I was enchanted by rings of power. How the sleek roundness represents the eternity, a union that lasts forever, a forging that will never break. My people once believed that a vein ran directly from a finger to the heart. A friendship bound in love and trust. A passion our hearts will never forget and will remember for all time. It is true that rings break from time to time, but the emotions carried from them are too strong to destroy. Not even if we try with our entire mind to forget. I of all people know that ignorance is bliss, but understanding is much more rewarding in its own ways.
In these times of hardship and sadness, I feel this is a time to lean on each other and stop tricking our minds into believing we can make itall on our own.
And yes, I know you are probably wondering why I chose silver as the base of this garnet.
I simply wished not to weigh down our teams hearts' with gold. Silver is pure…
I am making a commitment to my friends because I know in these dark time we are changing. I know in the process of distancing ourselves we are growing closer. I know that someday, I will be able to find my voice even though I stay silent. I know someday we will see the light through our blindfolds.
I know we will someday see the world through a different pair of eyes.
Your teammate,
And friend,
Raven
P.S.-
"If you chose to be undecided, you have made a choice."
It's a quote I wish Ihad knowna long time ago…
Maybe it will come to use for you as well.
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Beastboy flipped the paper over.
Nothing.
He let forth a sigh, running a hand through his locks. His body had shifted positions on its own accord, leaning casually against the wall.
Pulling the chain from around his neck he slipped the two rings through it before clasping it back behind his head. A necklace had been made.
Even from a distance, the professional calligraphy handwriting etched alone the surface. A green 'Beast boy, Garfield Logan' and gold 'Terra, Tara Markov' couldn't have shone brighter.
And just in case you forget who you are,
Your name will always be there for a reminder.
His right hand clasped his opposite shoulder.
His mouth was open at the hinges…
"Maybe…maybe some things change after all."
There was no one there to answer him.
A smirk on his face appeared which quickly spread into a grin.
"I've made my choice Raven, why don't you make yours?"
He never knew how good it felt to laugh again. To wholeheartedly laugh.
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And at the corner of the hallway, where I couldn't be seen, I silently laughed too.
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AN- Do you seriously want to know how hard it was to write the next chapter of this thing? VERY! I went through five ideas, fully typing out three only to ditch them all because of the lack of meaning in the chapters. I swear I wasted 4-5 hours overall. In the end, I wound up with this lovely chapter. (Note the sarcasm)
And, by the way, the quote "if you chose to be undecided, you have made a choice" is not mine. I got it from another source.
Since I typed this at 1:37 AM in the morning too, the least you could do is leave me a review. Please?