GOMEN!!!!! I am sooo sorry I am been super busy with school and all, homework thought the roof and I went backpacking last weekend which is when I planned on updating...again I am very, very sorry for tacking so long...but I will promise you this I WILL FINISH THIS STORY!!!! If it's the last thing I do...no matter what, it may take a bit to update sometimes cause of homework and stuff but I will finish it...around late January I probably wont update much cause I will be having finals...so yea please be patient and don't give up on this story...I will finish it!!!!!...domo arigato! .
'...' Conscious thought
-...- Subconscious/demon side
CHAPTER 11
"InuYasha!!!!! Come back!!!" Kagome gritted her teeth together and balled her fists, a stream of tears still running down her face, her breathing was erratic and labored, she was still in shock from what had happened, but the only thing that was on her mind was the inu hanyou that was somewhere in Tokyo. Somewhere away from her....
A few minuets later she pulled herself off the ground, she was shaking from head to toe. She walked back out to the crowded street, it was so noisy and they were so far down in the alley that the gunshots went unnoticed. Kagome was a in a daze as she walked home, her mind stayed on the events that just took place, on he men on, on the gun, on InuYasha. The scene of him getting shot played over and over in her mind, each time it became more painful and she became more worried and anxious.
As she approached the shrine she called out him again, "InuYasha!" she did this a few more times before her voice gave out, the distress in her was rising very high, all she could think about was InuYasha, where he could be, if he was alright.
In her emotional state she ran up the shrine steps, 'wait, maybe he is in my room or in the sacred tree!' she flew up to her room unconsciously dropping the articles they picked up on there shopping trip. She burst thought the door "InuYasha!" the room was empty, only a warm breeze occupied the space, then she noticed something, 'Tetsaiga is gone!' her eyes opened widely and she ran over to her bed checking to make sure it didn't fall on the floor, it hadn't it was gone. Only then did she realize the window was open, "InuYasha..." she whispered softly, calling out to him.
Just to make sure she ran out to the God Tree, not sign of him, defeated she fell to her knees in front of it, "why...why...why did this have to happen, why?!?!" she was barely able to whisper it, her throat was so sore from yelling for InuYasha she could barely talk. A fresh flow of tears fell down her face, "InuYasha...."
'Why did you leave?' Kagome thought desperately.
-Why? Why do you think, he was ashamed...its one of those pride things- answered her subconscious.
'But he left, just took off, it was me wasn't it?'
-Well...indirectly...he was afraid he would hurt you...you know that-
'Hai, but he didn't hurt me, he didn't even kill the guy...he stopped'
-That doesn't make a difference...he lost control...he was ashamed, and......afraid-
'Afraid, why would he be afraid, he is never afraid, that's crazy...isn't it?...'
-Is it, if it's so crazy then why did he tell you he was afraid before he pushed you down the well after being injured by his brother...-
Kagome's eyes widened 'oh my god...he did...he, he couldn't have been afraid though....'
-Why? Why can't he be afraid?-
'He had nothing to be afraid of'
-He wasn't afraid for himself...he was afraid for you...me...he didn't want you to get hurt...he could have hurt you...-
'But he wouldn't, he, he just wouldn't...'
-...I know...but he doesn't...he still has yet to figure that out...he must learn that himself...-
'But...why...why isn't he here...why...why am I alone...I'm alone...'
This time her subconscious was quiet, no answer resounded inside her head, silence overtook her. "Why...why am I alone?...why InuYasha?" her tears started again.
He turned and leapt away, leaving Kagome in the alley with the two unconscious men. He had to get away he couldn't hurt Kagome, she would be safer without him, he needed Tetsaiga, his demon blood was still battling to come out again and overpower him. He had to get away from Kagome so he didn't hurt her if he lost himself again, the men wouldn't wake up for 3 days...and no one was even close to the alleyway.
He jumped from building to building his teeth clamped together, hands balled in fists, 'I have to keep my blood under control, I have to reach Tetsaiga.'
-Why hold back, you're worried about Kagome...but you are leaving her...-
'Shut up! I can't let you out, you'll hurt her!'
-Why would I do that, there is no benefit from it...I have acknowledged her as your mate...I didn't hurt her in the fight...did I? No, I got her to safety first then I took care of the bastard...-
'Mate? What, what are you talking about?'
-...You chose her as a mate and I acknowledged tha- he was cut off
'What are you talking about? I didn't chose her as a mate!'
-...Yes, you did...-
'When did I do that?'
-Actually not long after you met her...but I ignored it for the most pa- he was cut off again.
'I did not! What about Kikyo?'
-Why do you insist on deceiving yourself...you know for a fact that Kikyo is dead and that you don't love her...why do you keep beating yourself up...-
'I-I-I don't know, I, I just don't know, I feel like I owe her since she died because of me...'
-SHE DIDN'T DIE BECAUSE OF YOU!!!! It was that bastard Naraku! You know that dammit!-
As InuYasha lost certainty he started to lose control and his demon blood started to raise, 'no! You can't get out! You'll...no, no, you cant come out again!'
He moved quicker towards the shrine where his sword lay on Kagome's bed. It was becoming increasingly hard to hold him off. His limbs here shaking by the time he reached Kagome's window, he couldn't hold his demon blood off much longer. He gritted his teeth and stepped into the room, taking very labored and deliberate steps finally he reached out and grabbed his sword, the moment his fingers wrapped themselves around the sheath he felt his control returning.
All he wanted to do was collapse on Kagome's bed and sleep, but he couldn't after what had happened, he thought about returning to the feudal era but decided against it since they would ask questions he did not want to answer...'Dammit, now what??? Where do I go? I cant to the Sacred Tree...she will find me there...Where? Wher- aha perfect!' and with that InuYasha leapt off towards the horizon.
Awhile later Kagome decides to go look for InuYasha, she doesn't know how but she knows exactly where to look for him, it was somewhere she had not gone in a long time. She grabbed a jacket and ran down the street. Little did she know that a pair of schoolgirls spot her and start to follow her down the street.
As Kagome is running she gets the feeling that someone is watching her, but she ignores it. Her friends follow her as she maneuvers though pedestrians when Ayumi spots Yuka and Eri following Kagome.
'What are they doing...this cant be good no matter what its about...I better keep an eye on them for Kagome's sake' Ayumi joined the chase.
Kagome strode quickly though the city to the outskirts and into the park that overlooked the area. She didn't know why she was going here or what she was doing but she felt like this was where she would find the hanyou. She couldn't explain why, he had never been there, but she had, before she started to go bat into the warring states era this was her favorite place. She would come up here to think and get away, she had come here a lot after her father died and she felt that for some reason she could find InuYasha here. She ran into the bushes, which was now slightly overgrown since she had ceased to force a trail here for some time. The sun was beginning to set now and an orange glow was starting to lower over the area. As she crested the hill she had to push a branch to the side to get to the clearing at the top. And there silhouetted against the orange sun was InuYasha
GOMEN, I know it is a short chapter but I have been sick and I have been really busy with homework so yea, I am still looking for names for Kagome's mother and grandfather so I would appreciate it if you had any idea to include them in your review...so ya thx again, again I am sorry I have been busy but I will have chapter 12 up soon (in about a week and a half at most) this weekend I am free so I should have it up by then...but if not I will have it but by the next weekend. Domo Arigato for waiting...I WILL finish this story though...ttyl,
Lunar