Chapter 12:
'Naze? Naze...why all the questions? Why, is it always me, why don't I know the answers?' InuYasha growled and looked out over the city. He couldn't stop thinking, his mind was racing. 'Why did I leave Kagome in the alley? Why was I so stupid? Why did I even agree to take that "shortcut" in the first place?! Dammit all!' InuYasha clutched his head in frustration and continued to growl, scowling at the ground he was sitting on. Why he didn't go after Kagome was beyond him...or so he thought until his demon side spoke up.
'Why haven't I gone to see if Kagome is ok?'
Because I saved her'Nani? You did no such thing! You could have killed her!'
You really think I would kill my future mate? his demon side answered smoothly
'What do you mean you wouldn't kill her, of course you-...what did you just call her?' he asked totally caught off guard.
Nani? Our future mate? he responded calmly
'What do you mean future mate?!'
How can you possible ask that question?'What so you mean, "how can I ask that"??? I have a perfectly legitimate reason for asking it!!!' he responded in near hysterics
Come on, don't play stupid- he was cut off
'What is that supposed to mean???'
Sigh what are you, blind, stupid and cruel?
'No, that would be you' he answered though gritted teeth
I man be cruel sometimes, but that is life, I am not stupid nor am I blind...but you on the other hand are...
'Where do you come up with that' he asked angrily.
My, my what I temper...they think I'm bad... he said taunting his counterpart (literarily )
'Bastard, spit it out!'
Fine, you just don't want to admit that you have found someone that both out haves like...I should give you some credit...
'What the hell dose that mean?'
Well, Kami knows why you love her, but you are human...maybe your human side like her innocence...or what is left of it...I like her confidence, she isn't afraid of anyone even out brother, but then again, she needs to take care of herself a little more, we always need to save her...not that we mind though...
"Would you stop throwing those words around!!!'
Nani? Mate, love, se-'DAMNIT! SHUT-UP!!!'
Nani?'leave me alone!'
Only enough time to think a little'Dammit, do I hate talking to him...'
InuYasha paused to rest, then started to go ever the conversation he just had...it was worse then some of his conversations with Myoga. If they were alone he never forgot to remind his master about the mark he had placed on Kagome.
'Damn! That is probably the reason why my demon side is attracted to her...' he growled in frustration 'why did I even mark her in the first place...I didn't do it on purpose...I just remember it there...' his eyes widened 'it was my demon side, he marked her...DAMN! All that belittling and worry and concern and it wasn't even my fault!!!'
What do you mean not even your fault?InuYasha growled, 'weren't you gonna leave me alone?'
I was but I am being blamed without being able to defend myself...so I came to clear some things up...
'Like what?'
Like the fact that I don't do anything without you...I am directly linked to you, I am part of you and I may act on my own accord, it is always connected to you. I marked Kagome because she belongs to you
'Nani? Kagome doesn't belong to anyone...'
Yea yea...whatever, well get over it...she is yours...she is your responsibility...and as long as you keep in contact with her, physically, emotionally, whatever...it becomes stronger of a bond...that is why you can travel though the well. The bond the two of you have is extremely strong...even when you first met. And ever since then it has intensified as you have grown closer
'What the hell? How do you know that?'
You are a demon...an whether you are aware of it or not, you have instincts...you never asked to know then...
'I don't want to know...'
You'll be using some of them soon...'What the hell do you mean by that?!'
You'll know soon enough...'LEAVE ME ALONE'
Fine, fine...'Naze? Nani? What is going to happen? How will she take it? Will she hate me?' he shook his head, 'no she said she liked me how I was...so she cant hat me...can she? But the was before she knew...how can I tell her? What will she say? What will she DO?'
InuYasha pondered this as his gaze flew over the city, 'how did I get here? How did I know it was here? It felt like a place of security and calm...but why he had never been here. Why do I know this?'
You are bonded to Kagome, you know that...these are her memories, her feeling. This was her place to hide...you must have tapped into that bond without even realizing it
InuYasha face faulted, 'Nani? how did that happen? by the way when did we become bonded?'
You have been bonded...we marked her the first day you met'Nani? What are you talking about? "we" didn't mark her!'
Hai, WE did...it may not be a visible one but you did mark her, she is unaware of it, but every demon knows it's there...and so does Kikyo...that is why she wants to get rid of her...she knows how close you both are and dose not want any resistance while trying to take you to hell...
'No...no...if a demon can tell it's there...why cant I?'
Because it has always been there...it doesn't stand out...it is made of your scent...and the closer you two get the stronger it becomes
'Wow wait...Kouga didn't seem to think Kagome was marked...he told Kagome that he loved her on that mountain...'
Kouga is a baka...he only said he loved her after you showed up...he knew that she was bonded to you and he really didn't have a chance...so he tried every thing, anything...Yourki are very protective of there mates...and after seeing how protective you are he kind of knew it would never happen...now it is a matter of pride, he cant be beaten by a hanyou...
'Well at least we agree on one thing...Kouga is a baka' his thoughts were scattered when a rustling in the bushes started behind him and the sun hit the horizon spreading powerful colors jumping off the clouds.
Eri and Yuka ran down the streets following Kagome into the park. "Why is Kagome going into the park?"
"Who knows? Isn't that why we are following her?"
"Isn't this where she would run off to why she was upset?"
"Hai...wonder why she is all upset then...they leave in like a day or 2...she was so excited about this trip"
"Look there she goes, up in the bushes"
"We'll have to sneak up slowly in the bushes so she dose not notice us..."
"Ok-ke"
'Great now what are those 2 busybodies up to?' she quickly caught Kagome go up though the bushes and then watches as her stalkers followed her up at a slower, quieter pace...
'Peachy...how am I gonna get rid of them? And if I cant...will I be able to convince them of something besides what they hear? Shit! Now what?'
Kagome came out of the bushes and InuYasha turned around, his golden eyes seemed like fire as they caught the light reflected off sun setting clouds, so many emotions stirred within then they seemed to have a will of their own. His face was solemn and washed with grief, his posture was slouched, submitting.
Kagome's eyes glazed over as she say him there, he seem like a broken man, so weak, so vulnerable...nothing like InuYasha. "Inu...Inu..."was all she managed to choke out before she shattered and threw herself at InuYasha.
InuYasha was caught off-guard, and fell back having to support himself by his hands behind him. Kagome clung to his shirt like she has done some many times to his haori, and cried into his chest, all that she had been holding in came pouring down her cheeks.
InuYasha slowly sat back up, he was torn, he wanted to comfort Kagome...but he just didn't trust himself...he could hurt her...'damnit!'
What are you doing, comfort your mate!!'I cant!'
What the hell do you mean? Just put your arms around her'I cant...what if...'
Baka! How many times do I have to tell you!!! I wont hurt our mate!'She's not-'
Shut-up and comfort her!InuYasha stopped arguing 'well if he thinks of her that way at least I know he wont hurt her...I still don't trust him...' but with that he wrapped his arms gently around Kagome's slender form, holding her close, he started to slowly make circles on her back, like his mother had done to him when he was little to calm him down.
At first Kagome cried harder because of a lack of response from InuYasha, but once he enveloped her in an embrace she immediately clamed down, her crying slowed. Then he started to run circles on her back, she relaxed, her breathing was still slightly erratic but her tears had almost subsided. They sat in silence for the next few moments, just enjoying each other's warmth and comfort.
Yuka and Eri stumbled to the edge of the vegetation hiding in a clump of bushes, positioning themselves so that they could see the couple.
"Who's that?"
"They guy with Kagome?"
"Hai..."
"He's probably, the two-timing boyfriend..."
"Ya think?"
"Who else would I be?"
"I don't know...he doesn't look familiar...he doesn't go to our school..."
"Hai, we would have heard about a guy with silver hair..."
They continued to watch the pair as InuYasha bowed his head and rested it on Kagome's.
"You know he doesn't seen like the guy Kagome is always complaining about...."
"Hai...you're right..."
InuYasha inhaled Kagome's scent, calming his demon side so much it was almost non-existent, 'ha let him know his mate is near and he all but disappears...wait did I just say mate? Ahhh, no, no, no!!!'
Kagome stirred in his arms, "hmm InuYasha, you ok-ke?"
"Huh?"
"You left in a hurry and ran away...you seemed pretty out of it when I got here too...what's up?
InuYasha growled softly, "My demon side, he's become slightly more talkative than normal...ok-ke a lot more talkative then normal...and I don't trust him...it... god I don't even know how to refer to it..."(partially me speaking here...-.-')
"You know your demon side only wants what is best for you...I think you should trust it...him..." Kagome laughed relieving the tension that was starting to rise in the air.
InuYasha smiled for a moment but then bowed his head so hi bangs covered his eyes "but I lost control, he overpowered me..."
"No he didn't, you overpowered him...you didn't kill that thief...you let him go...you beat your blood..."
"But I almost KILLED him..."
"But you didn't...and it is not like he was an innocent bystander...InuYasha you overcame you blood...you did it..."
"But only because of your tears! I made you cry again, I hate it when you cry, especially when it is because of me..."
"They weren't because of you InuYasha...they were for you..."
InuYasha was frozen, 'she cried for me...why dose she always cry for me...I don't deserve it...'
Kagome continued, "I felt your pain InuYasha..."
InuYasha's eyes widened 'the bond! Oh god...she can gain from it too...'
No shit...why did you think it was a one sided deal...I didn't think the bond was that strong yet but whatever...
'Nani? What do you mean I didn't think the bond was that strong yet?!'
...Well, in order for both partners to be able to get things from one another...they have to trust each other completely...because you are borrowing thoughts...feelings...ou cant do that with someone you don't trust...
"I don't know how...or why but I felt it...gomen..." Kagome finished and started to turn away.
InuYasha caught her face with his hand and had her look at him...he had risen his head and his eyes were molten. "You have nothing to be sorry for...absolutely nothing...you understand me..."
"I...I..." Kagome smiled genuinely "hai!" she then suddenly stood up knocking InuYasha over.
"Ahh..."
Kagome extended a hand to help him up, InuYasha took it. After he was up Kagome gave him a slight push and ran to the other side of the hill "your IT"
InuYasha stumbled and blinked, 'you're it?' realization hit, "hey" he yelled running over and tagging her. Kagome tried to get him back but he slipped away form her every time...after awhile she smiled...she had an idea...
"Chot-to InuYasha...si-"
"NO!!! Wait..."
He reacted just like she wanted him to...she ran up behind him and tackled him to the ground...
"Uff, hey what was that for?"
Kagome laughed, "pinned ya..."
"Oh ya?" with that InuYasha gently knocked her to the side and rolled over pinning her underneath him..."Can't sit me now..."he teased
Kagome stuck out her tongue. InuYasha smirked and backed off of her helping her to her feet.
"Feel better? She asked
He looked confused for a moment...then smiled "hai"
"Lets go home oka-san is probably worried" with that they started slowly home...the sun was set and the stars were just starting to make themselves know...but the moon was leading then home with its white light.
"Did you hear anything they said?"
"No, not really...something about blood or I don't know"
"Blood!!!! Maybe he's a vampire!!!"
"Nani?"
"Well..."
"You read to much on...lets go home...oka-an is gonna be cross..."
"Hai" with that the 2 girls left...
As the pair of school girls walked away Ayumi let out a sigh..."thank god.." 'I really didn't feel like explaining anything...'wait?! Where was InuYasha's ears?!'
ok-ke –OK
oka-san –mother (mom)
Hai –yea
Nani –what
Naze –why
Kami –god
Baka –idiot, moron, stupid...(minor insults like that)
Chot-to -hey
Ok-ke, I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry...high school is insane...well would be easy if I wasn't in honors and I had a billion other things to do...I have gotten on the comp 4 hours total this week...including checking my email and doing my reports...lol and I have been working on a bunch of other stuff (for school clubs and such)...again I am sooo sorry...k ttyl!!!!! (btw if it is the last thing I do I WILL finish this story)