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Koi Otome

(Love of a young lady)

Chapter 5 – Simply the Truth

They were again standing under the sakura tree and Sesshoumaru was waiting for an answer. His heart was beating so fast, he did not want to be rejected. So, he was again staring at her hazelnut eyes with love in his eyes. He really wants to express his emotions for once in his life and now was the perfect moment. He could feel the hesitation in Rin's eyes. So, she maybe doesn't like him the way he did. His eyes turned to sadness and Sesshoumaru looked at the green field in front of him.

"Sesshoumaru, I love you so much." She finally responded after a long silence.

She had felt so many emotions at the same time that she was not able too adequacy responded to her lord. She had felt an immense happiness and joy, but with a mixed of sadness and fear. She knew well, that she couldn't replace Hatsuyuki in his heart that's why she was sad. But terribly happy to know that she was the chosen one of his heart. And she feared to be the Lady of the Western lands, she was scared of business work. After all, she did it for three seasons already and she did not want to do it again.

After she had said this simple sentence Sesshoumaru looked rapidly to his future lady and he smiled at her with a bright smile that really shows his happiness. He took both of her hands in his own and kissed them softly. A shiver passed on Rin's skin. Than he looked at her juicy lips and he passionately kissed her delectable lips with happiness. He felt like the time had stopped and they were only the two of them on the Earth.

Rin had not thought that it will be a memorable day today. She had liked the kissed on her hands but the real kissing. Oh Kami, she really was in Heaven. After all these years that she had passed with him, she finally attained what she wanted. Sesshoumaru's love. She always had thought that he will only be her master and her lord. But now she knew that she will have more, she will have him finally. She responded to his kissed with passion. She opened her mouth and let Sesshoumaru's tongue entered and teased hers.

Sesshoumaru put one hand at the back of Rin's head and gently and nicely passed his hand in her beautiful waterfall of black hair. Rin did the same. They never broke the delicious lips locked together, they looked attached one to the other. Then, Sesshoumaru's hand began to go under her elegant and high rank kimono slowly and he wanted to remove her clothes. Rin's cheek became red in an instant and she opened her eyes. She was looking to Sesshoumaru. He had again his eyes closed. She was rigid and shy.

Sesshoumaru felt her fear but he did not want to stop, he want her and now. How could he stop now? He resented an important regard on him. He had to stop, he had to let his Rin. She deserved better than to be taken in the field like a concubine. He quickly became cold and broke the kiss and looked once more to the green field without a single look at Rin.

"I'm sorry Rin." He said icily.

With that, he stood up and walked back to his castle. Letting Rin disappointed. Sesshoumaru felt that she had rejected him in a way. For Rin's part, she maybe loves him but she cannot give herself so easily and without some haughtiness, after all she will become a highest lady. The supreme lady of the Western lands. The biggest lands of all Japan. She smiled.

She interrupted her thoughts. Did she begin to prefer the power and not her lord? Did she love him again? A year ago, she will only take Sesshoumaru's love but now that she had tasted to the supreme power, can she let it go so easily? She really did not know what to do. She stayed there under the sakura tree and think about what she really want. She looked to the black rose in her hand and smiled.

Sesshoumaru was angry. Angry at himself, angry about Rin and angry about Hatsuyuki. How dare he could not be able to handle all this now? Years ago, he would have felt nothing, but now he cannot. He smashed a huge tree in his way with his claws. He cannot control himself anymore. He decided to try to relax. He went to his library.

He sat at his desk and looked to all his scroll on his desk. He had almost forgotten about his work to do. How free he had felt without doing paper work these last three seasons. He took one scroll and looked at it. That was from the Southern lord. He began to read it and stopped instantly. This high rank demon was saying his thanks to the lady Rin to have helped him to find a suitable male demon to marry his daughter. What's strange asking he had wanted of Rin. Sesshoumaru thought. Why this lord asked his Rin for this matter? And why did she respond? Sesshoumaru found this useless.

Sesshoumaru put aside this scroll and took another. That was a report to Lady Rin for the border patrol. That could be interesting. They had licensed all villages on his lands with the names of the people that were living there, every demons and humans. Sesshoumaru had never thought that he had so much people under his control and safety. There were six others long scrolls similar to this one.

After seeing these long scroll he looked at his desk, every scrolls were perfectly place at the good place. Rin had really done a great job during his absence. He past the rest of the day in his library. When the night came, he had not heard the feminine footsteps of his young lady.

Rin entered silently with a tray in her hand. There were a cup of tea and some cherries. She placed it on his desk and sat in front of him. She waited there nervously. She was wandering if he had liked the way she had taken his business work. She waited there until he sensed her presence.

He was reading a scroll of the Eastern lord and he smelled flowers and cinnamon with hot tea. So, Rin was there. He risked a little and fast look at her. She was looking at him. What did she want? She had rejected me. Did she want to excuse her attitude? He let the scroll on the desk and looked at Rin coldly and advanced the tray near him.

"I thought that maybe you were hungry my lord." Rin said softly.

So that was the only reason of Rin in his sanctuary, Sesshoumaru thought. She was only there to torture him once more. To disturb him in his work. She will not win so easily with this trick. He took one little sip of the green tea. It was as usual, sweet and bitter, the way he had taught Rin to make the perfect tea for him. He almost smiled to a memory of the past but he stayed cold. He wanted Rin's pardon.

Rin was waiting that her lord began a conversation like the old time but there was nothing. Did she have done something wrong? Did he have not accepted that she had refused to give her to him completely in the field? She found that he was acting like a spoil child. He will not hear some excuse from her since he did not explain his behaviour about his strange departure. There was a heavy silence in the room that was hard to support.

"You can leave now Rin, there is no more business for you here" He icily said.

Rin felt that he was hard on her but she stood up and left quietly the room and slid the door. Then, tears appeared in her eyes and they fell on each of her cheek. After being so nice and passionate, Sesshoumaru had returned to his hidden side. He had left her once more. She went to her room slowly with wet eyes. She did not care if the servants saw her crying, she only felt guilty to have thought about power than her love. Maybe, she will have please her lord and they will be both happy.

Sesshoumaru had smelled her salt tear and felt really guilty to be so selfish. He had almost got out of the room and hurried to her to comfort her in his arms and said 'I'm so sorry my lovely lady Rin, I only love you too much, and that I cannot wait anymore'. He moved his head to make these thought disappear but it seems that they will not. He stood up and went to the garden.

Outside he looked at all the flowers and looked at the sky. No moon, no cloud. Emptiness, if his mind could be like that he will really appreciated it. How, can it be so difficult to love someone? He thought. He scent another presence in the garden and it was coming close to him.

"What do you want Seimei?" He asked emptiness.

"That you repair Rin's broken heart. Or are you too selfish?" She coldly said.

"You have no right to talk to me like that, I'm your lord." He responded coldly.

"I've never said a word on the rape to her and I've never ask for a request before. But I ask you now that you go to Rin's room and console her. She deserves it!" Seimei angrily said but in whisper.

Than she left him at the same place. How dare this women give him orders? But that was true that Rin needed some comfort, she really deserved to be reassured. He slowly went to Rin's chamber. He arrived in front of it and heard his Rin softly crying on her bed. He nicely knocked on the wood to ask to enter in her room.

"Leave me alone, I don't want to talk to anyone!" She shouted sadly.

"Rin?" He cautiously said.

He heard not a single sound in the piece. He felt nervous but did not enter. He waited outside. Than he heard some footsteps coming to the door. He could felt her warm presence near him even if they were separate by the rice paper and wooden door. She was closed but she did not want to open the door. He could feel her fear. Why did she fear him after all these years passed at his side?

"What do you want my lord?" She finally asked at the other side of the door.

"To talk with you Rin." He said.

"Could it be reported tomorrow my lord? I don't want to talk tonight my lord." She responded.

"If is your wish, I will respect it." He hardly said.

"Yes it's my…wishing my lord."

He could smell her. He felt so sad that he stayed there a little more. He sensed her again at the same place, she had not moved again as well. He then left Rin's door and disappeared in the darkness of the night.

Rin could not see her lord in that wet kimono. She had refused him once more and she felt sad and she really regretted it. She slowly opened the door and watched outside for her lord. There was no trace of him, he already had left her. She fell on her knees and cried again. How stupid she was! He was there to comfort her and she let him go. How stupid she was! She knocked her head to express her stupidity.

The morning came and it was raining. Rin took a bath and dressed with a blue kimono. She had to talk with her lord and the soonest will be the best. She went to dinning room and found Sesshoumaru already there with his cup of black tea. She shyly went at the table and sat in front of him. She looked at him. She saw nothing in his amber eyes excepted emptiness.

"Good morning Rin." He nicely said.

"Good morning Sesshoumaru-sama." She equally responded.

The silence came again between them. The servants went into the room and brought Rin's breakfast and they disappeared shortly. Sesshoumaru put his cup of tea on the little plate. Then, he looked at Rin.

"I think we need to talk Rin. There was some changes since my departure, isn't it?" He calmly said.

"Yes, we really need to talk and clarify some points my lord." She agreed.

"I want simply the truth lady Rin, but after your breakfast." Sesshoumaru said.

Rin nodded, she will finally know the truth about everything. It was about time. The piece became silent once more and Rin began to eat quickly. The day will be long enough.

Karite.