A/N: Thanks, i love you guys, your reviews are so nice, it makes me want to keep writing. I have done the silly thing of mixing all my reviews, so from now on just a HUGE HUGE HUGE THANK YOU! for reviewing, you all rox! you really do. now for chapter 5

Chapter 5 Love Hurts

Just as Lily was stammering through an excuse Sirius burst into the hospital wing, just like James had ten minutes before, except Sirius had a black eye, and was pretty bruised.

"Pads, what happened?" Remus said trying to get up.

"Been fighting my way up here, Malfoy got his friends to make it much harder then I expected." Sirius said Glancing at Snape's body and setting his jaw.

"Sorry mate, Snivellus was trying to get up here to kill moony." James said.

Sirius's eyes got wide, "Oh God, Moon I'm so sorry."

Remus smiled, "It's alright Love."

James cleared his throat, "Lil, maybe we should go?"

"Alright," she said hugging Remus lightly and following James out.

After they were alone there was only silence, Sirius helped Remus sit up and fluffed a few pillows.

"Thanks Love."

"We can't do this," Sirius said not looking at Remus.

"Can't do what?" Remus said.

"This" Sirius said looking at Snape's body, "it's too dangerous."

"DO WHAT! Hours ago you wanted to mate with me, now you don't want anything to do with me anymore!"

"No, you alive is more important Moony."

"Pads, I can't live without you, you aren't saving me, you're killing me, I love you."

"Remus," Sirius said with a sigh.

Remus was taken back, "Sirius Black, if you didn't love me you should have just made fun of me for being gay like everyone else and the distanced yourself from me." Remus had tears running down his face.

It killed Sirius to hurt him like this, "You're right, I shouldn't have lied." Sirius lied, trying not to cry.

That shocked Remus; he hadn't really expected Sirius to say that. "Pads, I just said that so you could see you're being silly, I would die for you, I almost did, I love you that much Pads and I'll die without you."

Sirius couldn't take much more of this.

Remus looked at him 'I know I'm getting through,' Remus started to sob a little, "What was all that crap out at the lake about how you had always loved me and you wouldn't take no for an answer."

Sirius wanted to hold him so bad he moaned, "Moony!"

"NO! Sirius Back! Don't you do this to me, don't you toy with my emotions, Sirius I do want to mate with you, and I do love you."

Sirius was about to die, and after he muttered the next few words he would be, "I have done my job, I woke you up, I don't love you, I don't want to mate with you, we should just be friends."

Remus felt sick, "so you're breaking up with me!"

"Seems like it," Sirius said harshly though Remus detected a hint of sadness in his voice.

"Then we have no more to say to each other." Remus said and laid down in his bed.

He heard the hospital wings door slam. Remus let his tears fall like they never had before, he wanted to die, Sirius him so bad. He would die, he would refuse treatment, refuse to eat and die. He didn't belong in this world, especially since the only person he loved didn't love him back.

A/N: i know i know, its sad i realize this but i promis, things will get better...or will they...just keep reading.