One thing people should know before I write this songfic, is that I'm not used to writing .hack/SIGN fics. Please forgive me if I miss anything up! I have seen all the episodes, and I'm a HUGE fan, but I thought I might put that in case I mess up, tehe. On another note, I love Evanescence, though I'm not as big of a fan as my sister. Well, I hope you enjoy it anyway! Oh, and I LOVE TSUKASA!
Disclaimer- I don't own .hack/SIGN or Evanescence or a brain or a life or anything like that. But I do own my very hot Krad poster! ((To people who have read my other fics, yes I say it alot))
For Alex, my little sister and my life. Love you kid!
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story
This world was so much better than my last. No one to tell me what to do, and I almost didn't mind being stuck here. Perhaps people fled here to escape... like me. But I refused to be like them... those horrible, angry people. Here, I could be happy... alone.
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
The little girl, Aura, was just like me. Alone... so I made it my job to look after her, so that she might not end up like me. I would love her, and be a family. Though the woman was trying to control me... I knew this. Though I didn't much care. No one would miss me.
Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos - Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape
Slowly I grew to hate the world. The people, the words... I hated them all! I wanted them all to be gone! The woman told me that if I gave myself up, that Aura could grant my wish, and destroy The World these people all loved, and that they would suffer. They would all suffer like I had.
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Yes, that is what I wanted... and what happened. I gave birth to an evil Aura, and watched as she destroyed The World.
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light
After all the people were gone, the woman had not been good to her promise. We did not live as a family. Aura was the first one she destroyed, then myself. What she did afterward I didn't know... because there would be no coming back for me this time. I died watching the rain... in silence.
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
There would be no one there when I flat-lined, or someone to cry when the doctors were unable to revive me. This is how I truly escaped the evil of the world... both of them. Why were they all so greedy? Yet, wanting escape proved I was exactly like them... all I wanted was to be loved... my greed.