Title: All I Need Is You

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: Do I even look like I own Firefly or this song? No! Thanks you to IAmAngelOfMusic who gave me the idea to do the fic, and thank you to Crissy who came up with the song to go with it.

YOU SHOULD KNOW: This IS part of my other stories but is written as if "Only One" had happened a bit differently. Enjoy!

I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,

Dead.The word stung his eyes even as Simon and Kaylee broke down into tears. No. No, she couldn't be. Not her. She was to strong... He wasn't strong without her. "No!" He picked up a box, the cargo they had picked up on this gorram rock, and threw it crashing to the other side of the cargo bay. He fell onto his knees and began to shack with fright. "No."

"Jayne," Mal said softly. "I'm sorry. We were to late." There was a long pause and Jayne's shacking was even worse. "The people who attacked her were dead too, when we found her."

Jayne gave a small harsh laugh. "That's my girl... That's my girl."

The Furnal was held by Book. They went to Jayne's home planet and baried her there. Simon approved saying it was where she had always wanted to visit with Jayne someday.

Jayne held himself up through the whole thing. Even when Kaylee broke down, he still swallowed hard and forced himself not to cry. "Not good for a man like Jayne to keep his feelin's bottled up," Zoe said that night in the kitchen with Wash and Mal.

"Jaynes a strong guy," Mal said. "He'll get over it. He'll be back to normal in no time."

What Mal didn't know was that Jayne was in his bunk face down on the floor. He was sobbing like a small child. "River!" He cried. "River, please! I don't have anything left inside me! I can't hold myself together without you. I need you. You are all I have!"

He felt like she was there for a breif moment, then she driffented away and Jayne cried harder, missing her liked the moon misses the sun.

And he tried so hard to forget about her, but he couldn't. She was everything. She was home. She was what made him whole. And she was dead, never to dance again.

Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

Simon was disgusted about the amount of Whores Jayne picked up over the next several mounths. He felt like River must be turning over in her grave. Kaylee said the same thing. Mal shrugged and said, "Told ya he'd get back to normal." Wash didn't say anything. Zoe, Inara, and Book gave each other meaningfull glances. They knew why he was doing it, and thought the others stupid for not seeing it. But they didn't say a word.

Jayne paid for hooker after hooker. but never got around to sleeping with a one of them. He'd take them to his bunk and end up just talking to them. They were all so sorry for him they almost always gave him his money back. They comforted him trying to sooth his shattered heart.

"But she was everything." He whispered to one tiny blonde girl six mounths after River's death. "My blood, my life, my strenght...everything in me."

"I know," The girl said. "but sometimes you just have to let go of the things you love."

"But... I don't want to give her up..."

I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,

He built a shrin to her in his bunk. It was compacted of all her favorite cloaths, his favorite cloaths on her, perfume that reminded him of her, and other little things that brought back her memory. To top it all off, he had a wanted poster of her in the middle.

Every night he'd stay up looking at it. And he'd tell her he was sorry. Sorry for not being there to save her. Sorry she had died and not him. Sorry he hadn't told her as much as he should of that he loved her. So sorry for not being with her, and not being able to forget her either. Simply sorry.

When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.

Being alive became so much harder for Jayne. A year went by and Jayne's work began to slip. He wasn't sleeping well and eating less. Spending more time in his bunk with the shrin that Kaylee had found one day. EVeryone was worried about him.

Simon made him take some sleeping pills and it back fired on him. Jayne became adicted to the stuff. In his dreams she was always there. Alive and dancing and he could be with her when he slept. He almost ODed one night and Simon had to make sure he went cold turcky.

That didn't stop Jayne from sleeping more, however. He slept more then he had in his life and he knew it wasn't healthy. But living hurt and dying fixed nothing. So he slept and dreamed of her.

Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.

Soon he had to make himself stop sleeping. To many jobs coming in, not enough time to escap into a dream world. Besides, she had stopped visting him, and that was what hurt the most.

so he found new ways to dissolve the pain. Pain killers worked untill Simon cut off his suplie of that, too. He talked more at meals, tried to work harder on the jobs. Two years to the day, and he was doing better in everyone else eyes. No one knew the things he did in secret to stop her memory from slipping in.

A jagged knife on the was his sanity. Each knew slice across his arm was for her, her memory that consumed him like darkness. He couldn't escape and so he cut, deeper and deeper untill his arm was a painting, a mural of his sadness.

But even as he did that, he felt her disaproval. He dreamed about her one night. She yelled at him for hurting himself and he had promised never to do it again. That morning he smashed the knife into pieces. "Never again, boa bei."

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,

She was his only. For the rest of his life he never looked at another woman. Four years later, he was better. The shrin had been thrown out and he really was back to normal. But he never looked at other woman.

Ten years later, he died of a bullet wound through the heart. He was burried next to River, per Kaylee's request. And he was with his only one again. And he never would leave her again. Eternity of love, even in their death.

The End.